Beverley gathered herself together.
"So all this time," she said, "you have been suspicious of me! And I was so happy. I thought you were happy, too, but it"s just as I was afraid it would be, if I married you. You can"t endure the strain!"
"I have endured the strain," Roger defended himself; "because I loved you as few men have ever loved, but the question is, have you deserved it all?"
"This is the moment I felt must come!" she said. "If I had only myself to think of, don"t you know I"d have told you everything? I warned you how it would be ... how I should have to keep the secret not for a little while, but for always! If you don"t believe, if you think I lied when I said no man had ever been anything to me ... if you think I lie now, when I say I never saw or heard of this girl till I found her in the street.... I can go out of your life.... I can go to-day!"
As she spoke slowly, sentence by sentence, with a sobbing breath between, Beverley looked straight into her husband"s eyes. Hers did not falter though they swam in tears. With her last words, she rose and stood facing him as he sat at his desk.
Roger gave her back gaze for gaze, as if he would read her secret written in cypher on her soul. He saw that she meant what she said. A word from him, and their experiment was at an end. She would go. It seemed to him that never had her beauty been so gentle, so womanly.
"You shan"t go!" he cried, springing to his feet. "I can"t give you up!"
But she held him off.
"No!" she panted. "I won"t stay if you want me only in that way--because you have a kind of love for me, whether you believe in me or not. I love you too much to be shamed by you! Either you trust me, or you don"t. Say which it is, and I"ll stay, or go."
"I"ve got to trust you! I do!" The words seemed to burst from him. "You know I love you more than all the world. It would kill me to lose you."
"I"d rather die from the shock of losing you, Roger, than from such a hateful pain, going on and on----"
"It shan"t go on," he said. "I"ve been happy, too. I"m a changed man since the hour I saw you and loved you. It"s only to-day I"ve been wretched. Forgive me, Bev--and G.o.d forgive you if----"
"There"s an "if" for you?"
"No--no, there"s no "if" any more. You"re to forgive me----that"s all!"
"Oh, I do! The hard thing would be not to forgive. But--can we go on being happy again, just as if nothing had happened?"
"Of course we can, silly child. Nothing has happened." Roger had her in his arms now. He kissed her over and over again, till she gasped for breath. "This has only cleared the air. As for that beastly child, I don"t care if she"s a murderess. Keep her forever, if you choose. Train her as your maid----"
"But she"s not "beastly!" And she"s not the kind to have for a maid. I think she"s a lady. She seems----"
"Well, do whatever you like with her. Can I go further, to show you I want to atone?"
"No, you can"t, Roger----" Beverley nestled her face into his neck. "I adore you!"
She closed her eyes, but opening them she happened, looking over Roger"s shoulder, to see John Heron"s letter on her husband"s desk. A faint shiver ran through her body, and Roger felt it.
"What"s the matter, my darling?" he asked.
"Nothing!" she answered. "A mouse ran over my grave."
V
ON THE WAY TO THE CAR
Beverley found that she could "be happy again, as if nothing had happened" between her and Roger. For one thing, it was wonderful to feel that she had the power to "save" a fellow-being, and wonderful to be worshipped as Clo worshipped her. Of course, Roger "worshipped" her, too, but it was Beverley who looked up to him. Clo looked up to her.
When Beverley went into the room presided over by Sister Lake, the child"s great black eyes dwelt upon her as the eyes of a devotee upon the form of a G.o.ddess "come alive." Roger Sands" wife felt simply that she was repaying G.o.d for saving her, by what she was able to do for this Irish girl.
As soon as Clo was allowed to talk she insisted upon telling Beverley about herself. There was, apparently, no romance or mystery in the story of her eighteen years of life. Her mother had died when she was less than three, but Clo could "remember her perfectly." It wasn"t only the photograph she had (a badly taken one of a young woman with a baby in her arms), but she could see her mother"s colouring. Oh, such lovely colouring! Not dark red hair, like her own, but gold, and eyes more brown than gray. And mother had been only twenty-four when she died. Clo had to admit that most of what she knew of mother was from the Sisters who looked after the orphans. Yes, it was in an orphan asylum that the child had been brought up. About father she knew nothing, except that mother had "lost" him before her baby was born, and that he "came from America." Evidently his name had been Riley, because mother was Mrs.
Riley, and Clo was Clodagh because "that was a name in mother"s family."
The Sisters had been particularly kind. Mother had given Clo into their care, because she lodged, and had fallen ill, in the street of the orphan asylum. There had been a little money, which was placed in a bank for the child. The Sisters had known that mother was a lady; but the orphan girls, when they grew up, were supposed to be put into service.
Neither Clo nor the Sisters had wanted her to be a servant, and when she was sixteen a situation was found for her as "companion" to an old lady.
Clo "stuck it out" for nearly two years. Then she ran away and sailed for the United States, her unknown father"s land, with the sixty pounds which was her fortune. This money was all spent, and she was nearly starving when she s.n.a.t.c.hed at what she could get with Moreton and Payntor.
"But I just couldn"t eat and dress on my wages," Clo explained, in her soft, rich voice, rather deep for so young and small a girl, and made creamy by a touch of Irish brogue. "One has to do both in New York. I was so hungry all the time, if the girls left a crust on their plates I used to hide it. I expect the way I"d look to see if there"d be anything left gave them the idea I was a sly piece. They thought I put on airs, too. Me! P"raps it was my not knowing their kind of slang. And it"s true I did steal once, or almost the same thing as steal. There was a dollar bill on the floor under a table one afternoon. "Stead of trying to find who was the owner, I slipped it inside my dress. I must have been nearly off my head, or I"d never have done it, darling Mrs. Sands! When the time came to go home to my room that night, I didn"t go. I went to a restaurant, and I ate. I ate a whole dollar"s worth of dinner, just so I couldn"t give any money back if I changed my mind next day. Well, next day was the day you know of. And what with knowing I was a thief, and the girls knowing it, too--though there was no proof--I thought the best thing for a lost child was to die!"
Beverley had by this time "made everything right" for Clo at Moreton and Payntor"s. Indeed, Mrs. Roger Sands having taken her up, she had become quite a cla.s.sic figure of romance among her late enemies. When Beverley told the girl that when she got well she wouldn"t have to go, but could stop and be "a sort of secretary," Clo Riley almost had a relapse from the shock of joy.
By the end of May Clo"s broken ribs had mended. The first day when she was up and dressed, able to go downstairs, and out for a spin in the renovated blue car, she was a very different looking girl from the battered wisp of humanity whose blood had stained the "robin"s-egg"
cloth and silk.
It was Sunday, and Clo was burning with excitement. She was to meet her Angel"s husband for the first time. She had pictured him a dragon. The Angel loved him, but the Angel was such a saint, and would love any old husband. Clo imagined that Beverley had been poor (she must have known poverty to be so sympathetic!) and that she"d married an elderly man because--well, not entirely because he was rich (that wouldn"t be like an Angel) but because she needed protection. Clo expected to see a grumpy graybeard.
Roger expected to see a washed-out invalid of indefinite type, a young woman of the shabbiest shop-girl order.
What Clodagh saw, when she followed Mrs. Sands into the study, was a strong, dark man, not old at all, apparently, and almost interesting enough in looks to be worthy of the Angel. Still, she was not sure she was going to like him.
What Roger saw was a small, slender girl, too childish, too impish, to think of as a "young woman." She had a little oval face with a pointed chin. It was pale, but not washed-out, and her lips were red. An obstinate, impudent mouth, Roger thought. As for her eyes--he had never seen such great eyes in a human face. They were like holes in a blanket, so big, so black, as they stared up at him. She had curly auburn hair, that looked even redder than it was, in contrast with her eyes. But though the face was impish, not pretty precisely, with its high cheek bones and impertinent chin, he had to admit that it was noticeable, and, in some odd way, attractive. The girl was charmingly dressed. He might have known that Bev would see to that. Clo was a surprise to him, as he was to her. Each saw that the other was a distinct and interesting personality; and Roger realized that Beverley was right; the girl had the air of being a lady. There was something else about her, too, which piqued him. He could not make out what it was. Did she look like someone he knew?
He was polite, as he had promised to be, and called Clo "Miss Riley."
When Beverley said that they were going out for the invalid"s first drive, Roger replied that he was glad; but Clo, catching his eye, fancied she saw a sarcastic gleam.
"He"s thinking of the time I came here in that same car," she told herself. "I know I must have spoilt it--got it all messed up with blood.
Probably he had to give a lot for doing it over. And my goodness, the dollars of his that Angel has been pouring out for me every day since!
No wonder he looks sick! But some day I shall pay. I don"t know how, only I shall--I shall!"
Beverley and Clo went down in the gorgeously decorated elevator.
"If Angel lived in a garret, it would be a palace to me," she reflected.
A hall porter opened the door of carved bronze over gla.s.s. Without seeming to look, he took in every detail of the slim figure in white cloth; the small white hat tilted over the dark red hair, the tiny white shoes, the dainty ankles in silk stockings. Clo could have laughed aloud. Of course, the giant in livery knew the whole story. He was contrasting the way she came out with the way she had come in.
Drawn up at the pavement was the glittering blue automobile, with the statuesque Robbins at the wheel. Clo remembered both, with a queer, sick pang. She had not been wholly unconscious when the stretcher was pushed into the car. "What I owe this darling woman!" was the thought she breathed like a prayer.
As the two crossed the pavement--tall, beautiful Beverley and quaint little Clo--a man who must have been loitering close by started toward them with a limping step, and took off his hat.
"Is this Mrs. Roger Sands?" he asked.
Beverley stopped short, within a yard of her car. For such a graceful, softly moving person, her movement seemed jerky. Clo glanced from the man to Mrs. Sands in surprise. One would say the Angel looked frightened, only that would be absurd! Besides, the man wasn"t a creature worth being afraid of. He was short, and very thin, as if he had been ill. He hadn"t a nice face. Sallow and sickly it was, like a prison bird, with hollows under the red-rimmed eyes. He was badly lame, too, if he wasn"t pretending; and altogether, in spite of her newly mended ribs, Clo felt that she herself would be equal to knocking him down.
"Yes, I am Mrs. Sands," Beverley answered, as if against her will. "I don"t--but perhaps someone has sent you with a message?"