When it came it brought the same sensation, but nothing more definite. It left me groping for the clue.
"Here is one of the men, Mr Abney."
There was a profound sensation. Boys who had ceased to squeal, squealed with fresh vigour. Glossop made his suggestion about the telephone with a new ring of hope in his voice. Mrs Attwell shrieked. They made for us in a body, boys and all, White leading with the lantern. I was almost sorry for being compelled to provide an anticlimax.
Augustus Beckford was the first to recognize me, and I expect he was about to ask me if I liked sitting on the gravel on a frosty night, or what gravel was made of, when Mr Abney spoke.
"Mr Burns! What--dear me!--_what_ are you doing there?"
"Perhaps Mr Burns can give us some information as to where the man went, sir," suggested White.
"On everything except that," I said, "I"m a mine of information. I haven"t the least idea where he went. All I know about him is that he has a shoulder like the ram of a battleship, and that he charged me with it."
As I was speaking, I thought I heard a little gasp behind me. I turned. I wanted to see this woman who stirred my memory with her voice. But the rays of the lantern did not fall on her, and she was a shapeless blur in the darkness. Somehow I felt that she was looking intently at me.
I resumed my narrative.
"I was lighting my pipe when I heard a scream--" A chuckle came from the group behind the lantern.
"I screamed," said the Little Nugget. "You bet I screamed! What would _you_ do if you woke up in the dark and found a strong-armed roughneck prising you out of bed as if you were a clam? He tried to get his hand over my mouth, but he only connected with my forehead, and I"d got going before he could switch. I guess I threw a scare into that gink!"
He chuckled again, reminiscently, and drew at his cigarette.
"How dare you smoke! Throw away that cigarette!" cried Mr Abney, roused afresh by the red glow.
"Forget it!" advised the Little Nugget tersely.
"And then," I said, "somebody whizzed out from nowhere and hit me.
And after that I didn"t seem to care much about him or anything else." I spoke in the direction of my captor. She was still standing outside the circle of light. "I expect you can tell us what happened, Mrs Sheridan?"
I did not think that her information was likely to be of any practical use, but I wanted to make her speak again.
Her first words were enough. I wondered how I could ever have been in doubt. I knew the voice now. It was one which I had not heard for five years, but one which I could never forget if I lived for ever.
"Somebody ran past me." I hardly heard her. My heart was pounding, and a curious dizziness had come over me. I was grappling with the incredible. "I think he went into the bushes."
I heard Glossop speak, and gathered from Mr Abney"s reply; that he had made his suggestion about the telephone once more.
"I think that will be--ah--unnecessary, Mr Glossop. The man has undoubtedly--ah--made good his escape. I think we had all better return to the house." He turned to the dim figure beside me. "Ah, Mrs Sheridan, you must be tired after your journey and the--ah unusual excitement. Mrs Attwell will show you where you--in fact, your room."
In the general movement White must have raised the lamp or stepped forward, for the rays shifted. The figure beside me was no longer dim, but stood out sharp and clear in the yellow light.
I was aware of two large eyes looking into mine as, in the grey London morning two weeks before, they had looked from a faded photograph.
Chapter 5
Of all the emotions which kept me awake that night, a vague discomfort and a feeling of resentment against Fate more than against any individual, were the two that remained with me next morning. Astonishment does not last. The fact of Audrey and myself being under the same roof after all these years had ceased to amaze me. It was a minor point, and my mind shelved it in order to deal with the one thing that really mattered, the fact that she had come back into my life just when I had definitely, as I thought, put her out of it.
My resentment deepened. Fate had played me a wanton trick. Cynthia trusted me. If I were weak, I should not be the only one to suffer. And something told me that I should be weak. How could I hope to be strong, tortured by the thousand memories which the sight of her would bring back to me?
But I would fight, I told myself. I would not yield easily. I promised that to my self-respect, and was rewarded with a certain glow of excitement. I felt defiant. I wanted to test myself at once.
My opportunity came after breakfast. She was standing on the gravel in front of the house, almost, in fact, on the spot where we had met the night before. She looked up as she heard my step, and I saw that her chin had that determined tilt which, in the days of our engagement, I had noticed often without attaching any particular significance to it. Heavens, what a ghastly lump of complacency I must have been in those days! A child, I thought, if he were not wrapped up in the contemplation of his own magnificence, could read its meaning.
It meant war, and I was glad of it. I wanted war.
"Good morning," I said.
"Good morning."
There was a pause. I took the opportunity to collect my thoughts.
I looked at her curiously. Five years had left their mark on her, but entirely for the good. She had an air of quiet strength which I had never noticed in her before. It may have been there in the old days, but I did not think so. It was, I felt certain, a later development. She gave the impression of having been through much and of being sure of herself.
In appearance she had changed amazingly little. She looked as small and slight and trim as ever she had done. She was a little paler, I thought, and the Irish eyes were older and a shade harder; but that was all.
I awoke with a start to the fact that I was staring at her. A slight flush had crept into her pale cheeks.
"Don"t!" she said suddenly, with a little gesture of irritation.
The word and the gesture killed, as if they had been a blow, a kind of sentimental tenderness which had been stealing over me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
She was silent.
"Please don"t think I want to pry into your affairs," I said viciously. "I was only interested in the coincidence that we should meet here like this."
She turned to me impulsively. Her face had lost its hard look.
"Oh, Peter," she said, "I"m sorry. I _am_ sorry."
It was my chance, and I s.n.a.t.c.hed at it with a lack of chivalry which I regretted almost immediately. But I was feeling bitter, and bitterness makes a man do cheap things.
"Sorry?" I said, politely puzzled. "Why?"
She looked taken aback, as I hoped she would.
"For--for what happened."
"My dear Audrey! Anybody would have made the same mistake. I don"t wonder you took me for a burglar."
"I didn"t mean that. I meant--five years ago."