Eluraa was slowly losing herself to the endless nothingness. Her thoughts and her conscious were filled with nothing but sorrow and misery. She couldn"t recall how much time had pa.s.sed since she was imprisoned. Time just stopped for her and she couldn"t even remember the last time she felt any joy. All her precious childhood memories slowly faded away and soon she will be left with nothing of her previous self. Every memory crossed her mind one last time and evaporated into the nothingness. When she was at the brink of true mental collapse, she recalled a particular feeling, that slight feeling of euphoria she had felt recently. What was it? She was trying really hard to remember. She somehow realized this was her last hope. She needed to desperately grab on to this last bit of memory in order to save herself. But all she could remember was that small feeling of immense success and happiness. When did she feel that? And then she remembered. This was at her last moments before she was vortexed into this black hole. She had successfully connected with her elemental and managed to bring out the freezing currents.This was nothing and it changed nothing. Her fate was still sealed and trapped but this minuscule success reminded her of the joy she felt when she had spiritually reached out to her elemental. She was so happy that she wanted to yell out to her dad and mom and share with them this marvelous feeling. But she never got a chance to do that. She never got a chance to bid farewell to her beloved parents. All she wanted was an ordinary life but she was pushed into this prison mercilessly. She had lost everything and it was all over. She would soon disappear, even from this nothingness. Her conscious would cease to exist forever. Why did this all happen? She felt such helplessness and loss. Was she going to let it end just like that? Was she going to lose that last piece of memory as well? Was she not going to put up a fight? What was the point of it all? She had already lost everything. But then she remembered, maybe she hadn"t lost everything. She had a conscious left after all. Can she still meditate and reach out to her elemental? Can she still feel that connection? She was so agitated and didn"t think of this before, but now she was on the brink of true death and all her thoughts had disappeared. This helped her feel that last bit of calm before completely disappearing and at this moment, she tried one last time to feel the slightest connection to her elemental.
All hope was not lost. She could feel it. It was very feint and almost didn"t exist but she could feel it. She could almost feel the warmth and embrace of her elemental. She could almost feel that energy they shared. It was just outside of her reach. If she could just extend a bit, try a bit more, she would be able to get there. She was not gone yet. She was in a bottomless pit but she was not dead yet. All she wanted was an ordinary life but because of a disgusting excuse of human being, she was imprisoned. No, she was not going to let it end like this. She still had her spiritual connection. She still had her saving grace. She was going to fight and she was going to survive. She decided to never again let another sc.u.m decide her fate. She was not going to let anyone decide her path. She will survive this and take back everything which was to be hers. All she wanted to be was ordinary but now that she was forced down this path, d.a.m.n it all, she silently resolved to conquer the heavens and live a life without any restraints. She wanted the strength and power to change her fate and she wanted vengeance. She was going to end the lives of millions of sc.u.ms and maybe then she would be satisfied. But someone had to pay the price for her million years of misery. At that moment, if someone could see the black box from outside, they could see many tiny dots but one of them shone a million times brighter than the rest. It was almost too difficult to confine the soul within the black prison anymore.