Well, if it"s nothing but those three years of difference in....
CECILIA
No, it isn"t that. No, indeed! Even if I were younger than he, I should never think of it.
AMADEUS
But if his devotion should prove more deeply rooted than you have supposed so far?
CECILIA
Not even then.
AMADEUS
Why?
CECILIA
Why...? I know that it couldn"t last forever anyhow.
AMADEUS
Have you the end in mind already?
CECILIA
I am not saying that I have it in mind.... But I don"t doubt it must come, as it always comes.
AMADEUS
And then...?
CECILIA (_shrugs her shoulders_)
AMADEUS
And then?
CECILIA
How could I know, Amadeus? There are prospects of so many kinds.
AMADEUS (_cowering a moment before those words_)
Yes, that"s true. Life is full of prospects. Everywhere, wherever you turn, there are temptations and promises--when you have determined to be free, and to take life lightly, as we have done.... That"s what you meant, was it not?
CECILIA
Yes, precisely.
AMADEUS
Tell me, Cecilia.... (_He draws closer to her_) There is one thing I should like to know--whether Sigismund has any idea that your mind is harboring such thoughts--which, after all, would appear rather weird to the other party concerned.
CECILIA
Sigismund...? How can you imagine?! Such things you admit only to your friends. (_She gives her hand to him_)
AMADEUS (_in the same friendly manner_)
But if he should notice anything ... although I think it very improbable that he is the kind of man who would.... But let us suppose that he concluded from various signs that some such thoughts were pa.s.sing through your head--would you deny them, if he asked you?
CECILIA
I believe myself capable of it.
AMADEUS (_with a shrinking_)
Oh.... Let me tell you, Cecilia.... You are having something definite in mind.... Yes, I am sure of it.... It"s a question of some definite prospect.
CECILIA (_smiling_)
That might be possible.
AMADEUS
What has happened, Cecilia?
CECILIA
Nothing.
AMADEUS
Then there is danger in the air.
CECILIA
Danger...? What could that mean to us? To him who has no obligations there can be no cause for fear.
AMADEUS (_taking her lightly by the arm_)
Stop playing with words! I can see through the whole thing just the same.--I know! It has been brought home to me by a number of pa.s.sages in your letters--although they ceased long ago to have the frankness due to our friendship. That new prospect is Wedius!
CECILIA
In what respect did my letters fail to be frank? Didn"t I write you immediately after the "Onyegin" performance, that there was something fascinating about his personality?