REUMANN
Let me tell you, Mr. von Sala, that in the face of a venture like yours one might well express such doubts quite openly. But are you at all interested in whether you get back or not, Mr. von Sala? I don"t suppose you belong to the kind of people who care to put their affairs in order.
SALA
No, indeed. Especially not as, in cases of that kind, it is generally the affairs of others which give you needless trouble. If I were to be interested at all in my own chances, it would be for much more selfish reasons.
JOHANNA
What reasons?
SALA
I don"t want to be cheated out of the consciousness that certain moments are my final ones.
REUMANN
There are not many people who share your att.i.tude in that respect.
SALA
At any rate, Doctor, you would have to tell me the absolute truth if I ever asked you for it. I hold that one has the right to drain one"s own life to the last drop, with all the horrors and delights that may lie hidden at the bottom of it. Just as it is our evident duty every day to commit every good deed and every rascality lying within our capacity.... No, I won"t let you rob me of my death moments by any kind of hocus-pocus. It would imply a small-minded att.i.tude, worthy neither of yourself nor of me.--Well, Felix, the twenty-sixth of November then!
That"s still seven weeks off. In regard to any formalities that may be required, you need have no worry at all.
FELIX
How long a time have I got to make up my mind?
SALA
There"s no reason to be precipitate. When does your furlough end?
FELIX
To-morrow night.
SALA
Of course, you are going to talk it over with your father?
FELIX
With my father.... Yes, of course.--At any rate I"ll bring you the answer early to-morrow morning, Mr. von Sala.
SALA
Fine. It would please me very much. But you must bear in mind: it will be no picnic. I expect to see you soon, then. Good-by, Miss Johanna.
Farewell, Doctor.
[_He goes out. A brief pause. Those left behind show signs of emotion._
JOHANNA (_rising_)
I"m going to my room. Good-by, Doctor. (_She goes out_)
REUMANN
Have you made up your mind, Felix?
FELIX
Almost.
REUMANN
You"ll come across much that is new to you.
FELIX
And my own self among it, I hope--which would be about time....
(_Quoting_) "The mysteries of far-away ..." And will it really come true? Oh, the thrill of it!
REUMANN
And yet you ask time to consider?
FELIX
I hardly know why. And yet ... The thought of leaving people behind and perhaps never seeing them again--and certainly not as they were when you left them; the thought, too, that perhaps your going will hurt them ...
REUMANN
If nothing else makes you hesitate, then every moment of uncertainty is wasted. Nothing is more sure to estrange you from those dear to you than the knowledge that duty condemns you to stay near them. You must seize this unique opportunity. You must go to see Genoa, Asia Minor, Thibet, Bactria.... Oh, it must be splendid! And my best wishes will go with you. (_He gives his hand to Felix_)
FELIX
Thank you. But there will be plenty of time for wishes of that kind.
Whatever may be decided, we shall meet more than once before I leave.
REUMANN
I hope so. Oh, of course!
FELIX (_looking hard at him_)
Doctor ... it seems to me there was a final farewell in that pressure of your hand.
REUMANN (_with a smile_)