FELIX
In hatred of you.
JULIAN
At first. Later in forgiveness, and finally--don"t forget it--in friendship toward me.... And what was in her mind that last night?--Of what did she talk to you?--Of those days when she experienced the greatest happiness that can fall to the share of any woman.
FELIX
As well as the greatest misery.
JULIAN
Do you think it was mere chance which brought those very days back to her mind that last evening?... Don"t you think she knew that you would go to me and ask for that picture?... And do you think your wish to see it could have any other meaning than of a final greeting to me from your mother?... Can"t you understand that, Felix?... And in this moment--don"t try to resist--you have it before your eyes--that picture you held in your hand yesterday: and your mother is looking at you.--And the glance resting on you, Felix, is the same one that rested on me that pa.s.sionate and sacred day when she fell into my arms and you were conceived.--And whatever you may feel of doubt or confusion, the truth has now been revealed to you once for all. Thus your mother willed it, and it is no longer possible for you to forget that you are my son.
FELIX
Your son.... That"s nothing but a word. And it"s cried in a desert.--Although I am looking at you now, and although I know that I am your son, I can"t grasp it.
JULIAN
Felix...!
FELIX
Since I learned of this, you have become a stranger to me. (_He turns away_)
CURTAIN
THE FOURTH ACT
_The garden belonging to Mr. von Sala"s house. At the left is seen the white, one-storied building, fronted by a broad terrace, from which six stone steps lead down into the garden. A wide door with panes of gla.s.s leads from the terrace into the drawing-room. A small pool appears in the foreground, surrounded by a semi-circle of young trees. From that spot an avenue of trees runs diagonally across the stage toward the right. At the opening of the avenue, near the pool, stand two columns on which are placed the marble busts of two Roman emperors. A semi-circular stone seat with back support stands under the trees to the right of the pool. Farther back glimpses of the glittering fence are caught through the scanty leaf.a.ge. Back of the fence, the woods on a gently rising hillside are turning red. The autumnal sky is pale blue. Everything is quiet. The stage remains empty for a few moments._
_Sala and Johanna enter by way of the terrace. She is in black. He has on a gray suit and carries a dark overcoat across his shoulders. They descend the steps slowly._
SALA
I think you"ll find it rather cool. (_He goes back into the room, picks up a cape lying there, and puts it around Johanna"s shoulders; little by little they reach the garden_)
JOHANNA
Do you know what I imagine?... That this day is our own--that it belongs to us alone. We have summoned it, and if we wanted, we could make it stay.... All other people live only as guests in the world to-day. Isn"t that so?... The reason is, I suppose, that once I heard you speak of this day.
SALA
Of this...?
JOHANNA
Yes--while mother was still living.... And now it has really come. The leaves are red. The golden mist is lying over the woods. The sky is pale and remote--and the day is even more beautiful, and sadder, than I could ever have imagined. And I am spending it in your garden, and your pool is my mirror. (_She stands looking down into the pool_) And yet we can no more make it stay, this golden day, than the water here can hold my image after I have gone away.
SALA
It seems strange that this clear, mild air should be tinged with a suggestion of winter and snow.
JOHANNA
Why should it trouble you? When that suggestion has become reality here, you are already in the midst of another Spring.
SALA
What do you mean by that?
JOHANNA
Oh, I suppose that where you go they have no winter like ours.
SALA (_pensively_)
No, not like ours. (_Pause_) And you?
JOHANNA
I...?
SALA
What are you going to do, I mean, when I am gone?
JOHANNA
When you are gone...? (_She looks at him, and he stands staring into the distance_) Haven"t you gone long ago? And at bottom, are you not far away from me even now?
SALA
What are you saying? I am here with you.... What are you going to do, Johanna?
JOHANNA
I have already told you. Go away--just like you.
SALA (_shakes his head_)