I have my doubts whether I could get anywhere as a lawyer or an engineer. And on the whole I feel a good deal better than ever before.
Often it seems to me as if I hadn"t been born at the right time. I think I should have come into the world while there was still so much of order left in it, that one could venture all sorts of things one couldn"t possibly venture nowadays.
JOHANNA
Oh, but you are free--you"ve got place to move.
FELIX
Only within certain limits.
JOHANNA
They are a great deal wider than these at any rate.
FELIX (_looking around with a smile_)
Well, this is not a prison.... Really, the garden has turned out quite pretty. How bare it looked when we were children.--What"s that? A row of peach trees? That doesn"t look bad at all.
JOHANNA
One of Dr. Reumann"s ideas.
FELIX
Yes, I should have guessed it.
JOHANNA
Why?
FELIX
Because I can"t believe any member of our family capable of such a useful inspiration. What are his chances anyhow?--I mean in regard to that professorship at Gratz?
JOHANNA
I don"t know anything about it. (_She turns away_)
FELIX
I suppose mamma is outdoors a good deal these fine days?
JOHANNA
Yes.
FELIX
Are you still reading to her? Do you try to divert her a little? To cheer her up?
JOHANNA
Just as if it were such an easy thing!
FELIX
But you have to put some s.p.u.n.k into it, Johanna.
JOHANNA
Yes, Felix, it"s easy for you to talk.
FELIX
What do you mean?
JOHANNA (_speaking as if to herself_)
I don"t know if you"ll be able to understand me.
FELIX (_smiling_)
Why should it all at once be so hard for me to understand you?
JOHANNA (_looking calmly at him_)
Now when she is sick, I don"t love her as much as before.
FELIX (_startled_)
What?
JOHANNA
No, it"s impossible that you could quite understand. All the time she is getting farther away from us.... It is as if every day a new set of veils dropped down about her.
FELIX
And what is the meaning of it?
JOHANNA (_continues to look at him in the same calm way_)
FELIX
You think...?
JOHANNA