"Oh, no, not at all; but then there are sometimes people with whom we have no sort of acquaintance, who yet know us by sight from seeing us in public places, or meeting us on public occasions."
"That is very true, my child; but you need have no fear of being recognized by the officiating priest to-morrow, whoever he may be, for you will sit with us behind the screen."
"Thanks, dear mother; I will go with you this very evening."
"You are a good and obedient child. Receive my benediction," said the mother-superior, rising.
Salome bent her head, and the abbess solemnly blessed her, and then withdrew from the room.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
THE SOUL"S STRUGGLE.
That same evening, while the vesper bells were ringing, Salome dressed herself, and, leaning on the arm of the mother-superior headed the procession of the sisterhood as they marched to the chapel and took their seats in the recess behind the screen, which was so cunningly devised, that, while it afforded the nuns a full view of the altar, the priests, the interior of the pews and the whole congregation, it effectually concealed the forms and faces of the sisterhood seated within it.
Father Francois, the confessor of the convent, officiated at the altar.
A rustic congregation of the faithful filled the pews in the body of the church. They came from farm-houses and villages in the immediate neighborhood of the convent.
The vesper hymn was raised by the nuns.
Salome joined in singing it. She had a rich, sweet, clear soprano voice.
Many were the heads in the rustic a.s.semblage that turned to listen to the new singer in the nuns" choir.
Salome saw them, and shrank back as if she herself could have been seen, though she was quite invisible to them, for the screen, which was transparent to her eyes, was impenetrable to theirs. She remembered this, at length, and recovered her composure.
The sweet vesper service soothed her soul, and when it was over, and the benediction was given, the "peace that pa.s.seth all understanding"
descended upon her troubled spirit.
She left the chapel, leaning on the mother-superior"s arm.
When she reached her room door she kissed the lady"s hand in bidding her good-night.
"This has done you good, my daughter," said the abbess, gently.
"It has done me good. Thanks for your wise counsel, holy mother. I will follow it still. I will go again tomorrow. Bless me, my mother," said Salome, bowing her head before the abbess, who blessed her again, and then softly withdrew.
Salome entered her room and retired to rest, and slept more calmly than she had done for many days and nights.
She arose on Sunday morning refreshed; but it seemed as if her stony apathy had pa.s.sed off, only to leave her more keenly sensitive to her cause of grief; for as she dressed herself, a flood of tender memories overflowed her soul, and she threw herself, weeping freely, on her cot.
In this condition she was found by the abbess, who was pleased to see her weep, knowing that the keenness of sorrow is much softened by tears.
She sat down in silence by the cot, and waited until the paroxysm was past.
"Good mother, I could not help it," said Salome, with a last convulsive sob, as she wiped her eyes, and arose.
"Nor did I wish you to do so. Thank the Lord for the gift of tears. Have you had breakfast, my daughter?"
"Yes, dear mother. Sister Francoise brought it to me before I was up.
This is the last time I will allow myself such an indulgence. To-morrow morning, if you will permit me, I will join you in the refectory."
"I am rejoiced to hear you say so my child. Your recovery depends much upon yourself. Every exertion that you make helps it forward. And now I came to tell you that in ten minutes we shall go on to the chapel. Will you be ready to accompany us?"
"Yes, dear mother, I will come on and join you almost immediately," said Salome standing up and shaking down her black robe into shape.
The abbess softly slipped out of the room and left the guest to complete her toilet.
In a few minutes Salome pa.s.sed out and joined the procession of nuns to the chapel.
As soon as they were seated in the screened choir, Salome looked through the screen, to see if the English priest was at the altar. He was not there yet; but the body of the little chapel was filled with an expectant crowd of small country gentry, farmers and laborers with their families, all drawn together by the fame of the great Oratorian.
Presently the procession entered--six boys, in white surplices, preceding a pale, thin, intellectual-looking young man in priestly robes.
The priest took his place before the altar, the boys kneeling on his right and left, and the solemn celebration of the high ma.s.s was begun.
The nuns sang well within their screened choir; but the new soprano voice that sang the solos, and rose elastic, sweet and clear, soaring to the heavens in the _Gloria in Excelsis_, seemed to carry all the worshipers with it.
"Who is she?" inquired one of another, in hushed whispers, when the divine anthem had sunk into silence.
"Who is she?"
No one in the congregation could tell; but many surmised that she must be some young postulant of St. Rosalie, just beginning, or about to begin, her novitiate.
At length the pale priest pa.s.sed into the pulpit, and, amid a breathless silence of expectancy, gave out his text:
"G.o.d IS LOVE."
A truth revealed to us by the Divine Saviour, and confirmed to our hearts by the teachings of His Holy Spirit.
The preacher spoke of the divine love, "never enough believed, or known, or asked," yet the source of all our life, light and joy; he spoke of human love, a derivative from the divine, in all its manifestations of family affection, social friendship, charity to the needy, forgiveness of enemies.
And while he spoke of love, "the greatest good in the world," his tones were full, sweet, deep and tender, his pale face radiant, his manner affectionate, persuasive, winning.
He was listened to with rapt attention, and even when he had brought his sermon to a close, and his eloquent voice had ceased, his hearers still, for a few moments, sat motionless under the spell he had wrought upon them.
As soon as the benediction had been p.r.o.nounced, the abbess arose from her seat in the choir, drew the arm of her still feeble guest within her own, and, followed by her nuns, walking slowly in pairs, left the choir.
She took Salome to the door of her room in perfect silence, and would have left her there but that the girl stopped her by saying:
"Holy mother, I wish to speak to you, if you can give me a few minutes, before we go to the refectory."
"Surely, my daughter," answered the abbess, kindly, as she followed her guest into the chamber.