There was a lot of that about too.
"No," the madman said, "listen ..."
It was quieter than usual. The dying were calming down.
A rabbi scuttled around the corner, bent over by the low roof. He was hardly more than a boy, his beard still thin and wispy. His robes were full of tears, each rip a ritual sign of grief for a dying man he had attended. All the rabbis in the city were looking like beggars these days.
"Hear me," the madman said, "hear my confession ..."
"What, what," said the rabbi, "confession, what"s this, what"s this?"
"Is it true about the sky?" Absalom asked.
"Yes," said the rabbi, "a rain of blood has fallen, and a lamb with a glowing heart has been seen in the clouds. Most significant."
"Of course, of course," said the madman. "He has returned. It was prophesied."
"I don"t know what you"re talking about," said the rabbi, "I know all the prophecies by heart, and this is without precedent."
"Hear me out."
There was something about the man that persuaded the rabbi. Absalom was interested too, and Isaac. A few of the others, dim shapes in the dark, pulled themselves nearer. The madman seemed to glow. His pain was forgotten, and he let the rag fall away from his festering wound. It was a bad one. Absalom could see into the man"s entrails, and could tell they were not healthy. It must have been a sword stroke at one of the gate skirmishes that had done for him. But the madman did not feel the hurt any more. He sat up, and, as he spoke, his eyes glowed brighter . . .
My name is Joseph. I was born in Judaea a thousand years ago. No, I"m not mad. Well, maybe I am. A thousand years, a thousand deaths, would send anyone mad. Whatever, I"m a thousand years old.
When I was born, Judaea was ruled by the old Roman Empire. Romans were accustomed to being welcomed, or at least tolerated, as wise and beneficent rulers throughout their imperial domain. But they could never persuade the Judaeans to accept their rule and there was always a revolt going against them. The biggest of these, led by Judas of Galilee, was against a poll tax the Romans imposed. It was suppressed with efficient brutality. But the Romans never broke the spirit of the Jewish people, the Chosen People . . .
In a s.h.i.thole called Nazareth, there grew up a humble carpenter. We were born in the same year, so we"re the same age. He was Yeshua bar-Joseph; called, in the Romanized form, Jesus, son of Joseph. About the age of thirty, He decided to quit His trade and become a travelling preacher. He pulled in the crowds wherever He went. He also gathered a small band of dedicated followers, hangers-on who believed all He said and talked Him up with the rabble, and bully boys who kept Him out of trouble with the priests and the occupation goons. As Yeshua"s reputation spread, so did the stories about Him, stories of miracles that He performed - walking on water, raising the dead, curing the sick, the crippled, the blind, the leprous . . . Back then, the cure for anything was a miracle. He could also turn water into wine, which made him very, very popular.
His disciples decided that Yeshua was the promised one, the Redeemer, the Messiah of the Jews. Others said He was the son of G.o.d. Yeshua the Nazarene, son of Joseph became known as Yeshua the Anointed One. In later years He would be called by the Greek word meaning the anointed one, Christos.
As I said, this was a bad time for Judaea politically; the Messiah, if Yeshua was He - something He never denied - was expected to rescue the country from the Romans.
He also annoyed the priests by saying the Law was only a starting point for moral improvement. His love of ordinary people no matter how much they had sinned and no matter how vile their status, annoyed the clergy even more. The ordinary people, understandably, loved Him. He mixed with harlots and tax-collectors and Samaritans. The sc.u.m of the earth. If you want to get a sect together, that"s a good way to start. People who"ve been p.i.s.sed on all their lives love being told they"re something special. Rich people already know they"re special.
It wasn"t long before everyone in power wanted Yeshua dead. The Romans thought He might be a dangerous revolutionary. The Pharisees disagreed with His preaching. The Sadducees, who were rich and who wanted to placate the Romans and not disturb the status quo, regarded Him as a distasteful upstart with some funny ideas about people being resurrected after death. The Zealots, real diehards who wanted to remove the Romans by force, wanted to use Him as a figurehead for a revolt, even though He had renounced the use of violence. His ideas were peace, love, justice and prayer and He preached that the kingdom of G.o.d was coming, though He never said when it would arrive. If you want to know what happens to people who preach peace, love and justice, go ask Rabbi Judah.
After three years preaching on the road, Yeshua visited Jerusalem for the first time. Although He was just a hick from up-country Galilee coming to the political and religious centre of Judaea for the first time, He got a spectacular welcome. The mob turned out to see Him arrive. He came riding in on a donkey as if to say "look, I"m no better than any of the rest of you". And everyone was expecting Him to do great things. They threw palms to the ground in front of Him and lined the streets, asking him to do magic tricks. A cousin of mine, Jacob the wine merchant, turned up with a cartload of waterbags, and tried to get Him to turn them into wine, and he got beaten up by Peter bar-Jonah, who was Yeshua"s strongarm man. That was one of the first things that put me off this so-called Anointed One.
His entry into Jerusalem raised everyone"s expectations. And what"s more, He had walked into the arms of the Romans and the priests. They would have no trouble getting their hands on Him now.
Everyone waited a few days to see what would happen. In the end, the priests decided to remove Him. One of Yeshua"s close friends, Judas, was a Zealot. He wanted Yeshua to raise the people against the Romans, but when it became clear Yeshua would do no such thing, Judas tried to force His hand. He thought that if he led the priests to Yeshua, his friend would be forced to run from them and led the revolt, or that the people would be so outraged by the sight of Yeshua being put on trial for sedition or blasphemy that they would spontaneously rise up. Judas went to the priests and told them he could set Yeshua up for a nice quiet arrest. The priests agreed, and Judas led an armed posse of temple guards to Yeshua. But Yeshua, instead of making a hasty escape, went along meekly. Judas started to realize he"d made a big mistake, and emptied a few wineskins in misery.
The next day, Yeshua was taken before the Council of the Sanhedrin, who drew up a series of charges against Him. They wanted Yeshua safely dead, but they couldn"t condemn Him to death themselves. They had to make a case that would convince the Romans to execute Him.
The priests, you understand, were not all evil men. Many of them were worried that the Nazarene would lead the whole of Judaea into confrontation with the Romans. This provincial troublemaker might have plunged the whole country into war, and that would have been bad for business for everybody. The high-priest, Caiaphas, told the other council members it was their duty to condemn this one man in order that the rest of the nation should not suffer.
Many members of the council wanted to hang a blasphemy charge on Yeshua, but Caiaphas persuaded them to ignore that, and use the charge that would frighten the Roman authorities most. So they alleged unfairly that He had been inciting revolt against Roman rule. A few days before, Yeshua had thrown a fit in the Temple, and kicked some money-changers out of the Court of the Gentiles, so the small business lobby was against Him. A couple of money-changers were prepared to allege that He was shouting "death to Caesar" as he roughed them up.
So the Sanhedrin handed Yeshua over to the Romans.
The procurator of Judaea at this time was Pontius Pilate. He was an arrogant, insensitive blockhead. He enjoyed antagonizing the Jews, not that that was difficult. I don"t even think he always did it deliberately. He was just too stupid to understand all our little sensitivities.
So here he was, confronted with this guy the priests and a lot of the mob wanted put to death. n.o.body in the crowd seemed to be a friend of the Nazarene any more. Perhaps everyone was disappointed He hadn"t challenged the Romans after all.
Pilate was a Roman; he respected due process of law. And the Nazarene had committed no crime he could see. But he was in a difficult position; much as he enjoyed lording it over his subjects, he didn"t want to start a riot, and the mob wanted Yeshua dead. So you"d think he would have no problem just killing the Nazarene quickly, and getting back to the baths or eating grapes or whatever it is that Roman governors did all day. Maybe he was just suspicious and didn"t want to do anything until he fully understood what was going on. That would have been a problem, because no one understood what was going on.
Then Pilate"s wife interfered. She was Claudia Procula, a granddaughter of the Emperor Augustus, which gives you some idea of how well-connected the procurator was back in Rome. Just as he was sitting in judgment on Yeshua, he got a message from Claudia, claiming that she had just had the worst nightmare ever, and all on account of the Nazarene. In the dream, she foresaw all kinds of terrible things if her husband executed the man. So now Pilate was having real trouble making his mind up, which for him was pretty unusual.
What concluded the argument for Pilate was politics back home. This was the time of the Emperor Tiberius. Tiberius was cracked. He had retired to the island of Capri, surrounding himself with astrologers and quacks. And, if you believe the gossips, a small army of young people to cater to his increasingly bizarre s.e.xual tastes. For a while, the Empire was effectively run by his guard commander, Seja.n.u.s, who, given a free hand, set about clearing the way for himself to succeed Tiberius. Every potential rival, including members of the imperial family, was murdered or executed on trumped-up charges. Seja.n.u.s" plan worked well enough until the Emperor"s sister-in-law managed to get to Capri and tell Tiberius what his Praetorian favourite was really getting up to. So Seja.n.u.s was toppled, and there was the usual bloodbath in which all his a.s.sociates, including his children, were slaughtered. Pontius Pilate, a self-seeking d.i.c.k-head, had been a supporter of Seja.n.u.s. Now, a year or two after the fall of Seja.n.u.s, Pilate"s loyalty to Caesar is questionable as far as Caesar is concerned.
Caiaphas knew this, and he whispered to Pilate that Yeshua was setting Himself up as King of Judaea. He added that Pilate could be no friend of Caesar"s if he did not execute the Nazarene. The last thing Pilate needed was a letter from Rome telling him to come home with his will written out in triplicate. He gave his permission for the Nazarene to be put to death. As was the usual practice, Yeshua was taken out and executed at once.
I know, my friends, that we live in a barbaric age in which the days of the great Roman Empire are sometimes looked on fondly, but the way they killed Christos was atrocious. Believe me, Absalom, an arrow in the lungs is a luxurious hot bath next to crucifixion.
That was what the Romans did to Him . It was reserved for those they despised the most. It"s the worst possible way I"ve ever come across for a man to die. No Roman n.o.ble or citizen could be crucified because it was considered a form of death unfair for free men. It was for slaves, thieves, bandits and - of course - for those who rebelled against Rome.
It all started with a thrashing. The soldiers trussed you up and flogged you. They used a long whip with pieces of bone or metal studded in the end. The thong wrapped itself right around the body, tearing off flesh as it went. After three times thirteen lashes - sometimes more - there was more skin hanging off your back and chest than was left hanging on.
Having softened you up like this, they made you lift a heavy wooden beam and stagger off to the place of execution. In Jerusalem at this time, it was a small hill outside the city walls called Golgotha, the Place of Skulls.
Here there was a vertical wooden post six or seven feet high. When you got there, you were invited to drop the beam you"d been carrying. Then the soldiers knocked you over and lay the back of your neck in the middle of the beam. Then they stretched out one of your arms along the beam. A couple of the men held the arm down while another one took one of those big, long four-sided nails and hammered it through your wrist into the wood below.
Having nails through the wrist is extremely painful. Believe me, I know.
After they"d done this with the other arm, the whole execution squad lent a hand to lift up the crossbeam with you hanging from it, yelling your lungs out in agony, or maybe just biting your tongue, determined not to give those filthy b.a.s.t.a.r.ds any pleasure by letting on you were suffering.
But then you found it very difficult not to yell out when they actually lifted you off the ground.
There was a hole in the middle of the beam roughly under your head. This they slotted into the vertical piece already wedged in the ground.
Now they bent your knees upward until the sole of one foot was pressed flat against the vertical piece. Well f.u.c.k my old sandals if they didn"t then produce another one of those big nails.
A nail through the foot is more - much more - painful than a nail through the wrist. They hammered it through one foot, and when the point came through the sole of that foot, they hammered it through the other foot and into the wood.
Then they would leave you alone. Some would watch, maybe they would take bets with one another on how long you"d live. After a while, it got boring, and they"d post a guard and go off to get drunk or screw a hog or whatever it was that legionaries did in their time off.
About now, you"d wish that you were back in the barracks being flogged. If, by any strange mischance, you had not gone out of your mind, you might have time to wish they had flogged you harder because the flogging weakened you. And the weaker you were, the sooner you died. And death was the only thing you desired. Death was the only thing left.
You didn"t bleed much, but the pain was indescribable. The weight of your body hanging from your wrists pulled your chest upwards as though you"d taken the biggest, deepest breath ever. But you couldn"t breathe out. To breathe out, you"d have to push upwards with your legs. Pushing up with your legs was indescribably painful because of that b.l.o.o.d.y nail running through your feet.
At the same time, there was even more pain coming from cramps in your hands, along your arms and shoulders and chest.
You were in all this pain, and you could hardly breathe. If you were really lucky, you"d bleed, or more likely suffocate, to death in perhaps five hours. If you weren"t lucky, it could take days.
And those clever, cunning, oh-so-b.l.o.o.d.y civilized Romans could vary it. They could hammer a piece of wood into the vertical piece, like a little seat under your a.r.s.e. That meant it was slightly easier to breathe because you didn"t have to push on your legs so much, so you hung there for longer. Or they could tie your arms to the cross-piece as well as nailing them there. That had the same effect. Maybe the sons of b.i.t.c.hes used both methods. I"ve seen poor b.a.s.t.a.r.ds spend nearly a week dying that way. If the Romans liked you - or your relatives bribed them - they could break your legs. That way, you couldn"t push yourself up to breathe even if you wanted to, so you suffocated fairly quickly.
So don"t talk to me about the old Roman civilization. I know they had central heating and straight roads and the greatest army the world has ever known, but at the back of all that they were the biggest s.h.i.ts in creation. Look, if some barbarian king back in the Dark Ages wanted you dead, what did he do? Cut off your head, or bludgeon your brains out, or drown you, or throw you off a high rock. All pretty quick. The Romans, being three times as clever and ten times as organized as any barbarian were a hundred times more savage in their methods of murdering people.
And that"s what they did to Yeshua Christos.
Pilate, being Pilate, got his revenge on the priests for blackmailing him. Whenever someone was crucified, the law said that you had to have a plaque on the top saying what crime the victim was condemned for. Pilate ordered that the inscription read "Yeshua of Nazareth, King of the Jews", and had it written in Latin, Greek and Hebrew to make sure everyone got the message. This was hung around Yeshua"s neck when He was on his way to the execution and then it was nailed to the top of the cross.
So how do I know all these things? Well, first, I was there when He was crucified. Secondly, I"ve been crucified myself. Lots of times. They say you have no memory for pain. That"s c.r.a.p. I shiver every time I pa.s.s a carpenter"s shop or hear someone hammering. And I"m immortal. Or I was until today.
A thousand years ago, my name was Cartaphilus. I was a good, law-biding, unimaginative orthodox Jew. And I worked as doorkeeper to Pontius Pilate. He needed doorkeepers because most people who came to visit a Roman governor were either too important to touch a door themselves or too busy crawling and begging to bother with one. The first time I met Yeshua of Nazareth was as he was being led out to be executed. He had just been scourged. The soldiers had put this crown of thorns on Him. They wanted to have their part in annoying the priests as well and were playing up to Pilate"s crack about Yeshua being King of the Jews. Yeshua was being led out, struggling under the weight of the cross-piece of the crucifixion-frame.
Now at that time most of what I knew about Him was rumour - that and what my cousin Jacob the wine-merchant said when he dropped in to have his head bandaged. Some people were claiming Yeshua was the Messiah, the king of the Jews. But the high priest Caiaphas had wanted Him condemned to death. Being a good Jew, I figured that anything Caiaphas said must be kosher. If the high priest wanted the Nazarene killed, then he had his good, religious, reasons. So, what can I say? I was an idiot.
The Nazarene was trying to get through the door. I spat on Him. He fell down under the weight of the wooden beam. I put my foot on His back, where He had been whipped and the flesh was hanging off him. I pushed with my foot and told Him to get up and get a move on.
Someone had told me He sacrificed and ate small children. And, back then, I was callous.
He cried out. Then He got up, picked up the beam with some effort and he looked at me. He said, "I am going quickly to my death. But you will wait a long time for death. You will be waiting until I return."
I didn"t know what to make of this. I didn"t think much about it. A couple of soldiers. .h.i.t Him with the flats of their swords and off He went to Golgotha.
His words didn"t sink in at first, then a strange panic overtook me. I realized He"d put some kind of curse on me. Even if He was a blasphemer, He was still some kind of holy man. I was very troubled. An hour and a half after He had spoken to me, I quit my doorkeeper"s job forever.
I ran to Golgotha. He was nailed to his cross in between two Zealots. He was still alive, but quiet, not struggling and groaning as much as the other two. There weren"t many other people around, just some ghouls. His disciples had all deserted him. Whether Yeshua was the son of G.o.d or not, no man would want to be a.s.sociated with Him and run the risk winding up nailed to the next-cross-but-one.
There were a few women around. Friends and relatives. And the execution squad was there, playing dice for his possessions. But there was a strange thing, a Roman officer - I don"t know if he was in charge of the execution squad - was pacing up and down, looking at the dying man and muttering to himself.
The Centurion looked at me and beckoned me over. In those days, you did everything in your power to avoid those people. They brutalized their own soldiers enough, and they could be lethal to ordinary civilians, especially in a country they could barely control. I was terrified as I walked over to him. But all he did was grab me by the shoulders, look straight into my eyes and say, "Truly, this man was the son of G.o.d." All he wanted was someone to listen.
The son of G.o.d! Only afterwards did I realize what a queer thing this was for a Roman to be saying. Romans believed in lots of G.o.ds. The only people around who believed in one G.o.d were we Jews. Maybe the Centurion was Jewish. I don"t know.
The son of G.o.d!
If the Centurion was right, then I was condemned forever. I lost my reason. I walked to the foot of the cross and begged the Nazarene to forgive me. But it was too late. He was in too much pain to take any notice.
Then I went over to the women, who were all crying and pulling at their hair and I joined them. One of the wh.o.r.es had seen me kicking Him. They didn"t want to know me. I can"t blame them for that.
I was too troubled and too ashamed to seek out the Nazarene"s friends. Not that he had many at this stage. His male followers were in hiding. Even good old Peter, who was no slouch when it came to beating the c.r.a.p out of money-changers and wine-merchants, was at this moment loudly claiming he had never heard of Yeshua and didn"t like him anyway. As for Judas the Zealot, he hanged himself because his plan had gone wrong. I regretted that. In the next few years, he would have been company.
I began to wander. I left my wife and my family and walked first north, towards Galilee. I don"t know why. An evil spirit within me told me that I must wander the face of the world until He should return.
The nights were always the worst. As evening drew in and the shadows lengthened, my own shadow would become that of Yeshua struggling under the weight of that wooden beam.
Years later, I heard what happened. The Romans liked to leave corpses hanging to rot as an example to any other would-be offenders. But the Jewish law would not permit bodies to be exposed in this way on the Sabbath, and the day after Yeshua"s execution was the Sabbath. Joseph, a man from a place called Arimathea, a rich and influential Jew who was friendly both with Yeshua"s family and with Pilate, approached the governor. After the Romans had checked that Yeshua was dead, Joseph got permission to take the body down and he buried It in the tomb he had bought for himself.
A few days later, Yeshua of Nazareth rose from the dead. He visited his frightened followers who took strength from seeing Him again. Some time after that He ascended to Heaven to take his place at the right hand of the Lord.
Don"t be so shocked, rabbi. Just because it isn"t in your One True Testament doesn"t mean it didn"t happen.
Yeshua"s followers now dispersed throughout the Empire and beyond, spreading the story of how He had come to save man from his sins. Some of them began their work right there in Jerusalem, but they were driven out by the authorities. One of them, a man named Stephen, was stoned to death for blasphemy.
At first, followers of Christos and those they baptized into their faith seemed to be forming a new sect of Judaism, but soon it became clear that there were important differences. One of the others, Philip, met an Ethiopian on the road from Jerusalem to Gaza. The Ethiopian was an important court official in the service of the queen of his country. He was a eunuch. As you know, a man who is not whole may not become a Jew. The eunuch asked Philip, "Is there anything to prevent me being baptized?" And Philip answered, "Nothing."
From now on, said the Christians, there would be no distinction between Jews and Gentiles, slaves and freedmen, men and women. The Ethiopian returned to Nubia and told his fellow citizens the good news.
The number of Christians multiplied rapidly. The faith was taken by the missionaries into Africa and Syria, to Mesopotamia and even as far as India. Syria, with its great cities of Antioch, Damascus and Edessa, became a great centre of the Christian religion.
Don"t be ashamed that you"ve not heard of Christianity. It was a long time ago.
What of me?
My travels took me to Rome where I found a thriving community of believers in the Christian sect. I joined them, and learned more of Yeshua"s teachings. I was baptized into their faith, meaning they dunked me in water in a ceremony similar to that of immersion in the mikveh. I changed my name to Joseph in honour of Joseph of Arimathea.
By now, I was almost a hundred years old, though I looked no older than the day on which I had abused our Saviour. My new faith brought me peace of a sort, for Yeshua Christos taught that the most loathsome of sins would be forgiven by the Lord His Father. I had spat on Him and kicked Him, and while I dared not admit this to my comrades I could hope that when He returned I would be forgiven. In those days we all believed His return was imminent. This is what we told one another, and it is what we preached to any who were willing to listen, and many who did not wish to hear. We were a nuisance to some, offensive to others. Some of our number, including Peter the thug, were executed by the authorities. My cousin Jacob the wine-merchant, whose fault all this was, prospered and lived to be one hundred and fifteen, at which age he was still fathering children.
We were unsure of our relationship with the orthodox Jews. Most of us considered ourselves a Jewish sect. Others, generally the hotheads, thought we should be completely separate. There were many Jews in Rome and we debated with them whether or not Yeshua had been the Messiah. We believed so, but they did not. On many occasions we fought openly in the streets. We gradually came to realize there was no reconciliation between us.
There was a great fire that wrecked the city centre. The Emperor Nero"s new palace was badly damaged. Nero was spendthrift and unpredictable and unpopular, and the rumour went about the market that he had started the fire deliberately. Another story had it that he had done nothing to quench the fires, and had played a lyre and recited his poems as the city burned, for he considered himself a great artist. Having been burned alive and having heard Nero recite in public, I can honestly say I preferred the former experience.
Nero, probably at the suggestion of one of his toadies, wanted to blame the fire on the Jews. The Jews were unpopular in Rome for while their religion was tolerated, they did not worship the Roman G.o.ds. Nero"s wife Poppaea discouraged him from persecuting the Jews. She was not Jewish herself, but was sympathetic to them. She said that Nero should instead blame the Christians. Nero readily agreed. We were to be used in the manner of a scapegoat.
Nero, by the way, also ordered the death of the aged Pontius Pilate. I don"t know why. Pilate was in Gaul at that time, and the story goes that he was staked out, cut open in a few places and eaten alive by worms. Perhaps this was just wishful thinking on our part.
Nero ordered his brutish Praetorian prefect Tigellinus to do his dirty work. The soldiers came for us and, after trials of sorts in which they seemed more interested in our "hatred of humanity" than our alleged arson, we were despatched in all manner of ways. Not by crucifixion, but by the sword, or by being sewn into the skins of wild animals and being attacked and eaten by dogs in the circus. That was a good one - it hurt like a b.a.s.t.a.r.d. At first, our persecution was popular. People disliked us for our disdain for their G.o.ds, and for preaching our own faith so aggressively. Then Nero"s excesses turned many to pity, while others were inspired by the way in which we died for our faith. This happened particularly after Nero ordered that Christians be tied to crosses that were set in tubs of oil. This was at night and we were then set ablaze and used like oversized torches to light an avenue through the Emperor"s gardens, along which His Talentless Majesty proceeded in his chariot.
I was one of those Christians.
I"ve said much about suffering already, so I shall spare you a detailed description of what it is to be set in oil and pitch and burned alive. In spite of all the pain and the terror which I and my brothers and sisters experienced, I am proud to say that we all went to our deaths without show of fear and with great joy, for would we not soon be reunited with our Saviour?
But imagine my surprise when, after experiencing considerable physical agony and apparently dying, I woke up the next day as though nothing had happened. In Judaea.
That"s a b.l.o.o.d.y long way from Rome.
Now I began to fully understand the meaning of Yeshua"s curse upon me. To atone for my great sin I would have to wander the world of men until His return. This was the first occasion on which I had died and now I found I had not been granted the release of death but had remained among men. My soul was chained to the earth in the same body and my martyrdom in the Emperor"s gardens had not taken.
Whenever I died subsequently, I would not know what happened to my corpse, but I always awoke in the same body -or a similar one - in some new and frequently distant land.
Waking from the dead this first time in Judaea, I soon discovered what my purpose was to be.
I entered Jerusalem and, without bothering to seek out others among the Christian community, I begged food and drink and preached the good news of Christos in public. Within three days the Sanhedrin had me stoned to death as a blasphemer. Again, I did not truly die. I woke up in a different place, Corinth. Again I preached the message of Christos and again, though it took me a few years this time, I was martyred.
At around the same time as the last great Jewish rebellion against Rome, which as you know resulted in the destruction of the Temple and the sack of Jerusalem, I became a professional martyr. At the same time as the Romans were causing the Jews to disperse throughout the world, I, too, travelled, seeking out death. The Voice of the Lord told me that in this way I was doing penance for my sin, that the example shown to others by martyrs would win people over to our Church.
For almost three hundred years after the death of Yeshua, a great many of his followers died martyrs" deaths. Martyrdom was an idea we borrowed from the Jews and turned into a fine art, my friends. Martyrdom, we told ourselves, was a second baptism and a highway to heaven, which indeed it was - for everyone except me. Every time a crowd lynched me, or a magistrate ordered me be burned, beheaded or savaged by animals, I awoke in a new place and sought out the Christian community and joined it, or simply preached the gospels in the nearest town square.
The persecutions were more intense at some times than at others. When they did occur, they were for a number of reasons.
In the early days, for instance, we would always hold our meetings before dawn. This went against the spirit of the Twelve Tables, which were at the centre of Roman law and which forbade nightly meetings. So the Romans got suspicious of us, thinking we were conspiring, or committing shameful acts. We would sing or chant, exchange oaths not to commit crimes and we would have a meal in common. This led us to be suspected of magic.
They despised us, too, for the simplicity of our faith. Sophisticated patricians looked down on us because we avoided demonstrative argument, preferring to talk about Yeshua"s miracles and re-tell parables they thought were childish. They called us "Galileans" and mocked our faith as a religion for slaves.