Two days later Scholes ordered them to take one of Le May"s men over Rota for a test run. This new lieutenant colonel ordered Fitch not to play with the engines on takeoff. They flew a perfect run, January put the dummy gimmick right on the aiming point just as he had so often in the Salton Sea; and Fitch powered the plane down into the violent bank that started their 150-degree turn and flight for safety. Back on Tinian the lieutenant colonel congratulated them and shook each of their hands. January smiled with the rest, palms cool, heart steady. It was as if his body were a sh.e.l.l, something he could manipulate from without, like a bombsight. He ate well, he chatted as much as he ever had, and when the psychiatrist ran him to earth for some questions he was friendly and seemed open.
"h.e.l.lo, doc."
"How do you feel about all this, Frank?"
"Just like I always have, sir. Fine."
"Eating well?"
"Better than ever."
"Sleeping well?"
"As well as I can in this humidity. I got used to Utah, I"m afraid." Dr. Nelson laughed. Actually January had hardly slept since his dream. He was afraid of sleep. Couldn"t the man see that?
" "And how do you feel about being part of the crew chosen to make the first strike?"
"Well, it was the right choice, I reckon. We"re the b-the best crew left."
"Do you feel sorry about Tibbets" crew"s accident?"
"Yes sir, I do." You better believe it.
After the jokes and firm handshakes that ended the interview January walked out into the blaze of the tropical noon and lit a cigarette. He allowed himself to feel how much he despised the psychiatrist and his blind profession at the same time he was waving good-bye to the man. Ounce brain. Why couldn"t he have seen? Whatever happened it would be his fault... With a rush of smoke out of him January realized how painfully easy it was to fool someone if you wanted to. All action was no more than a mask that could be perfectly manipulated from somewhere else. And all the while in that somewhere else January lived in a click-click-click of film, in the silent roaring of a dream, struggling against images he couldn"t dispel. The heat of the tropical sun-ninety-three million miles away, wasn"t it?-pulsed painfully on the back of his neck.
As he watched the psychiatrist collar their tail-gunner Kochenski, he thought of walking up to the man and saying / quit. I don"t want to do this. In imagination he saw the look that would form in the man"s eye, in Fitch"s eye, in Tibbets"s eye, and his mind recoiled from the idea. He felt too much contempt for them. He wouldn"t for anything give them a means to despise him, a reason to call him coward. Stubbornly he banished the whole complex of thought. Easier to go along with it.
And so a couple of disjointed days later, just after midnight of August 9th, he found himself preparing for the strike. Around him Fitch and Matthews and Haddock were doing the same. How odd were the everyday motions of getting dressed when you were off to demolish a city, to end a hundred thousand lives! January found himself examining his hands, his boots, the cracks in the linoleum. He put on his survival vest, checked the pockets abstractedly for fish-hooks, water kit, first aid package, emergency rations. Then the parachute harness, and his coveralls over it all. Tying his bootlaces took minutes; he couldn"t do it when watching his fingers so closely.
"Come on, Professor!" Fitch"s voice was tight. "The big day is here."
He followed the others into the night. A cool wind was blowing. The chaplain said a prayer for them. They took jeeps down Broadway to runway Able. Lucky Strike stood in a circle of spotlights and men, half of them with cameras, the rest with reporters" pads. They surrounded the crew; it reminded January of a Hollywood premiere. Eventually he escaped up the hatch and into the plane. Others followed. Half an hour pa.s.sed before Fitch joined them, grinning like a movie star. They started the engines, and January was thankful for their vibrating, thought-smothering roar. They taxied away from the Hollywood scene and January felt relief for a moment, until he remembered where they were going. On runway Able the engines pitched up to their twenty-three hundred rpm whine, and looking out the clear windscreen he saw the runway paintmarks move by even faster. Fitch kept them on the runway till Tinian had run out from under them, then quickly pulled up. They were on their way.
When they got to alt.i.tude January climbed past Fitch and McDonald to the bombardier"s seat and placed his parachute on it. He leaned back. The roar of the four engines packed around him like cotton batting. He was on the flight, nothing to be done about it now. The heavy vibration was a comfort, he liked the feel of it there in the nose of the plane. A drowsy, sad acceptance hummed through him.
Against his closed eyelids flashed a black eyeless face and he jerked awake, heart racing. He was on the flight, no way out. Now he realized how easy it would have been to get out of it. He could have just said he didn"t want to. The simplicity of it appalled him. Who gave a d.a.m.n what the psychiatrist or Tibbets or anyone else thought, compared to this? Now there was no way out. It was a comfort, in a way. Now he could stop worrying, stop thinking he had any choice.
Sitting there with his knees bracketing the bombsight January dozed, and as he dozed he daydreamed his way out. He could climb the step to Fitch and McDonald and declare he had been secretly promoted to major and ordered to redirect the mission. They were to go to Tokyo and drop the bomb in the bay. The j.a.p war cabinet had been told to watch this demonstration of the new weapon, and when they saw that fireball boil the bay and bounce into heaven they"d run and sign surrender papers as fast as they could write, kamikazes or not. They weren"t crazy, after all. No need to murder a whole city. It was such a good plan that the generals back home were no doubt changing the mission at this very minute, desperately radioing their instructions to Tinian, only to find out it was too late... so that when they returned to Tinian January would become a hero for guessing what the generals realiy wanted, and for risking all to do it. It would be like one of the Hornblower stories in the Sat.u.r.day Evening Post.
Once again January jerked awake. The drowsy pleasure of the fantasy was replaced with desperate scorn. There wasn"t a chance in h.e.l.l that he could convince Fitch and the rest that he had secret orders superceding theirs. And he couldn"t go up there and wave his pistol around and order them to drop the bomb in Tokyo Bay, because he was the one who had to actually drop it, and he couldn"t be down in front dropping the bomb and up ordering the others around at the same time. Pipe dreams.
Time swept on, slow as a second hand. January"s thoughts, however, matched the spin of the props; desperately they cast about, now this way now that, like an animal caught by the leg in a trap. The crew was silent. The clouds below were a white scree on the black ocean. January"s knee vibrated against the squat stand of the bombsight. He was the one who had to drop the bomb. No matter where his thoughts lunged they were brought up short by that. He was the one, not Fitch or the crew, not Le May, not the generals and scientists back home, not Truman and his advisors. Truman-suddenly January hated him. Roosevelt would have done it differently. If only Roosevelt had lived! The grief that had filled January when he learned of Roosevelt"s death reverberated through him again more strongly than ever. It was unfair to have worked so hard and then not see the war"s end. And FDR would have ended it differently. Back at the start of it all he had declared that civilian centers were never to be bombed, and if he had lived, if, if, if. But he hadn"t. And now it was smiling b.a.s.t.a.r.d Harry Truman, ordering him, Frank January, to drop the sun on two hundred thousand women and children. Once his father had taken him to see the Browns play before twenty thousand, a giant crowd-"I never voted for you," January whispered viciously, and jerked to realize he had spoken aloud. Luckily his microphone was off. And Roosevelt would have done it differently-he would have.
The bombsight rose before him, spearing the black sky and blocking some of the hundreds of little cruciform stars. Lucky Strike ground on toward Iwo Jima, minute by minute flying four miles closer to their target. January leaned forward and put his face in the cool headrest of the bombsight, hoping that its grasp might hold his thoughts as well as his forehead. It worked surprisingly well.
His earphones crackled and he sat up. "Captain January." It was Shepard. "We"re going to arm the bomb now, want to watch?"
"Sure thing." He shook his head, surprised at his own duplicity. Stepping up between the pilots, he moved stiffly to the roomy cabin behind the c.o.c.kpit. Matthews was at his desk taking a navigational fix on the radio signals from Iwo Jima and Okinawa, and Haddock stood beside him. At the back of the compartment was a small circular hatch, below the larger tunnel leading to the rear of the plane. January opened it, sat down and swung himself feet first through the hole.
The bomb bay was unheated, and the cold air felt good. He stood facing the bomb. Stone was sitting on the floor of the bay; Shepard was laid out under the bomb, reaching into it. On a rubber pad next to Stone were tools, plates, several cylindrical blocks. Shepard pulled back, sat up, sucked a sc.r.a.ped knuckle. He shook his head ruefully: "I don"t dare wear gloves with this one."
"I"d be just as happy myself if you didn"t let something slip," January joked nervously. The two men laughed, "Nothing can blow till I change those green wires to the red ones," Stone said.
"Give me the wrench," Shepard said. Stone handed it to him, and he stretched under the bomb again. After some awkward wrenching inside it he lifted out a cylindrical plug. "Breech plug," he said, and set it on the mat.
January found his skin goose-pimpling in the cold air. Stone handed Shepard one of the blocks. Shepard extended under the bomb again. "Red ends toward the breech."
"I know." Watching them January was reminded of auto mechanics on the oily floor of a garage, working under a car. He had spent a few years doing that himself, after his family moved to Vicksburg. Hiroshima was a river town. One time a flatbed truck carrying bags of cement powder down Fourth Street hill had lost its brakes and careened into the intersec-tion with River Road, where despite the driver"s efforts to turn it smashed into a pa.s.sing car. Frank had been out in the yard playing, had heard the crash and saw the cement dust rising. He had been one of the first there. The woman and child in the pa.s.senger seat of the Model T had been killed. The woman driving was okay. They were from Chicago. A group of folks subdued the driver of the truck, who kept trying to help at the Model T, though he had a bad cut on his head and was covered with white dust.
"Okay, let"s tighten the breech plug." Stone gave Shepard the wrench. "Sixteen turns exactly," Shepard said. He was sweating even in the bay"s chill, and he paused to wipe his forehead. "Let"s hope we don"t get hit by lightning." He put the wrench down and shifted onto his knees, picked up a circular plate. Hubcap. January thought. Stone connected wires, then helped Shepard install two more plates. Good old American know-how, January thought, goose-pimples rippling across his skin like cat"s-paws over water. There was Shepard, a scientist, putting together a bomb like he was an auto mechanic changing oil and plugs. January felt a tight rush of rage at the scientists who had designed the bomb. They had worked on it for over a year down there in New Mexico, had none of them in all that time ever stopped to think what they were doing?
But none of them had to drop it. January turned to hide his face from Shepard, stepped down the bay. The bomb looked like a big long trashcan, with fins at one end and little antennae at the other. Just a bomb, he thought, d.a.m.n it, it"s just another bomb.
Shepard stood and patted the bomb gently. "We"ve got a live one now." Never a thought about what it would do. January hurried by the man, afraid that hatred would crack his sh.e.l.l and give him away. The pistol strapped to his belt caught on the hatchway and he imagined shooting Shepard- shooting Fitch and McDonald and plunging the controls forward so that Lucky Strike tilted and spun down into the sea like a spent tracer bullet, like a plane broken by flak, following the arc of all human ambition. n.o.body would ever know what had happened to them, and their trashcan would be dumped to the bottom of the Pacific where it belonged. He could even shoot everyone and parachute out, and perhaps be rescued by one of the Superdumbos following them...
The thought pa.s.sed and remembering it January squinted with disgust. But another part of him agreed that it was a possibility. It could be done. It would solve his problem. His fingers explored the snap on his holster.
"Want some coffee?" Matthews asked.
"Sure," January said, and took his hand from the gun to reach for the cup. He sipped: hot. He watched Matthews and Benton tune the loran equipment. As the beeps came in Matthews took a straightedge and drew lines from Okinawa and I wo Jima on his map table. He tapped a finger on the intersection. "They"ve taken the art out of navigation," he said to January. "They might as well stop making the navigator"s dome," thumbing up at the little Plexiglas bubble over them.
"Good old American know-how," January said.
Matthews nodded. With two fingers he measured the distance between their position and Iwo Jima. Benton measured with a ruler.
"Rendezvous at five thirty-five, eh?" Matthews said. They were to rendezvous with the two trailing planes over Iwo.
Benton disagreed. "I"d say five fifty."
"What? Check again, guy, we"re not in no tugboat here."
"The wind-"
"Yah, the wind. Frank, you want to add a bet to the pool?"
"Five thirty-six," January said promptly.
They laughed. "See, he"s got more confidence in me," Matthews said with a dopey grin.
January recalled his plan to shoot the crew and tip the plane into the sea, and he pursed his lips, repelled. Not for anything would he be able to shoot these men, who, if not friends, were at least companions. They pa.s.sed for friends. They meant no harm.
Shepard and Stone climbed into the cabin. Matthews offered them coffee. "The gimmick"s ready to kick their a.s.s, eh?" Shepard nodded and drank.
January moved forward, past Haddock"s console. Another plan that wouldn"t work. What to do? All the flight engineer"s dials and gauges showed conditions were normal. Maybe he could sabotage something? Cut a line somewhere?
Fitch looked back at him and said, "When are we due over Iwo?"
"Five forty, Matthews says."
"He better be right."
A thug. In peacetime Fitch would be hanging around a pool table giving the cops trouble. He was perfect for war. Tibbets had chosen his men well-most of them, anyway. Moving back past Haddock January stopped to stare at the group of men in the navigation cabin. They joked, drank coffee. They were all a bit like Fitch: young toughs, capable and thoughtless. They were having a good time, an adventure. That was January"s dominant impression of his companions in the 5O9th; despite all the b.i.t.c.hing and the occasional moments of overmastering fear, they were having a good time. His mind spun forward and he saw what these young men would grow up to be like as clearly as if they stood before him in businessmen"s suits, prosperous and balding. They would be tough and capable and thoughtless, and as the years pa.s.sed and the great war receded in time they would look back on it with ever-increasing nostalgia, for they would be the survivors and not the dead. Every year of this war would feel like ten in their memories, so that the war would always remain the central experience of their lives-a time when history lay palpable in their hands, when each of their daily acts affected it, when moral issues were simple, and others told them what to do-so that as more years pa.s.sed and the survivors aged, bodies falling apart, lives in one rut or another, they would unconsciously push harder and harder to thrust the world into war again, thinking somewhere inside themselves that if they could only return to world war then they would magically be again as they were in the last one-young, and free, and happy. And by that time they would hold the positions of power, they would be capable of doing it.
So there would be more wars, January saw. He heard it in Matthews"s laughter, saw it in their excited eyes. "There"s Iwo, and it"s five thirty-one. Pay up! I win!" And in future wars they"d have more bombs like the gimmick, hundreds of them no doubt. He saw more planes, more young crews like this one, flying to Moscow no doubt or to wherever, fireb.a.l.l.s in every capital, why not? And to what end? To what end? So that the old men could hope to become magically young again. Nothing more sane than that.
They were over Iwo Jima. Three more hours to j.a.pan. Voices from The Great Artiste and Number 91 crackled on the radio. Rendezvous accomplished, the three planes flew northwest, toward Shikoku, the first j.a.panese island in their path. January went aft to use the toilet. "You okay, Frank?" Matthews asked. "Sure. Terrible coffee, though."
"Ain"t it always." January tugged at his baseball cap and hurried away. Kochenski and the other gunners were playing poker. When he was done he returned forward. Matthews sat on the stool before his maps, reading his equipment for the constant monitoring of drift that would now be required. Haddock and Benton were also busy at their stations. January maneuvered between the pilots down into the nose. "Good shooting," Matthews called after him.
Forward it seemed quieter. January got settled, put his headphones on and leaned forward to look out the ribbed Plexiglas.
Dawn had turned the whole vault of the sky pink. Slowly the radiant shade shifted through lavender to blue, pulse by pulse, a different color. The ocean below was a glittering blue plane, marbled by a pattern of puffy pink cloud. The sky above was a vast dome, darker above than on the horizon. January had always thought that dawn was the time when you could see most clearly how big the earth was, and how high above it they flew. It seemed they flew at the very upper edge of the atmosphere, and January saw how thin it was, how it was just a skin of air really, so that even if you flew up to its top the earth still extended away infinitely in every direction. The coffee had warmed January, he was sweating. Sunlight blinked off the Plexiglas. His watch said six. Plane and hemisphere of blue were split down the middle by the bomb-sight. His earphones crackled and he listened in to the reports from the lead planes flying over the target cities. Kokura, Nagasaki, Hiroshima, all of them had six-tenths cloud cover. Maybe they would have to cancel the whole mission because of weather. "We"ll look at Hiroshima first." Fitch said. January peered down at the fields of miniature clouds with renewed interest. His parachute slipped under him. Readjusting it he imagined putting it on, sneaking back to the central escape hatch under the navigator"s cabin, opening the hatch... he could be out of the plane and gone before anyone noticed. Leave it up to them. They could bomb or not but it wouldn"t be January"s doing. He could float down onto the world like a puff of dandelion, feel cool air rush around him, watch the silk canopy dome hang over him like a miniature sky, a private world.
An eyeless black face. January shuddered; it was as though the nightmare could return any time. If he jumped nothing would change, the bomb would still fall-would he feel any better, floating on his Inland Sea? Sure, one part of him shouted; maybe, another conceded; the rest of him saw that face...
Earphones crackled. Shepard said, "Lieutenant Stone has now armed the bomb, and I can now tell you all what we are carrying. Aboard with us is the world"s first atomic bomb."
Not exactly, January thought. Whistles squeaked in his earphones. The first one went off in New Mexico. Splitting atoms: January had heard the term before. Tremendous energy in every atom, Einstein had said. Break one, and-he had seen the result on film. Shepard was talking about radiation, which brought back more to January. Energy released in the form of X-rays. Killed by X-rays! It would be against the Geneva Convention if they had thought of it.
Fitch cut in. "When the bomb is dropped Lieutenant Ben-ton will record our reaction to what we see. This recording is being made for history, so watch your language." Watch your language! January choked back a laugh. Don"t curse or blaspheme G.o.d at the sight of the first atomic bomb incinerating a city and all its inhabitants with X-rays!
Six twenty. January found his hands clenched together on the headrest of the bombsight. He felt as if he had a fever. In the harsh wash of morning light the skin on the backs of his hands appeared slightly translucent. The whorls in the skin looked like the delicate patterning of waves on the sea"s surface. His hands were made of atoms. Atoms were the smallest building blocks of matter, it took billions of them to make those tense, trembling hands. Split one atom and you had the fireball. That meant that the energy contained in even one hand... he turned up a palm to look at the lines and the mottled flesh under the transparent skin. A person was a bomb that could blow up the world. January felt that latent power stir in him, pulsing with every hard heart-knock. What beings they were, and in what a blue expanse of a world! -And here they spun on to drop a bomb and kill a hundred thousand of these astonishing beings.
When a fox or a racc.o.o.n is caught by the leg in a trap, it lunges until the leg is frayed, twisted, perhaps broken, and only then does the animal"s pain and exhaustion force it to quit. Now in the same way January wanted to quit. His mind hurt. His plans to escape were so much c.r.a.p-stupid, useless. Better to quit. He tried to stop thinking, but it was hopeless. How could he stop? As long as he was conscious he would be thinking. The mind struggles longer in its traps than any fox.
Lucky Strike tilted up and began the long climb to bombing alt.i.tude. On the horizon the clouds lay over a green island. j.a.pan. Surely it had gotten hotter, the heater must be broken, he thought. Don"t think. Every few minutes Matthew gave Fitch small course adjustments. "Two seventy-five, now. That"s it." To escape the moment January recalled his childhood. Following a mule and plow. Moving to Vicksburg (rivers). For a while there in Vicksburg, since his stutter made it hard to gain friends, he had played a game with himself. He had pa.s.sed the time by imagining that everything he did was vitally important and determined the fate of the world. If he crossed a road in front of a certain car, for instance, then the car wouldn"t make it through the next intersection before a truck hit it, and so the man driving would be killed and wouldn"t be able to invent the flying boat that would save President Wilson from kidnappers-so he had to wait for that car because everything afterward depended on it, oh d.a.m.n it, he thought, d.a.m.n it, think of something different. The last Hornblower story he had read-how would he get out of this? The round O of his mother"s face as she ran in and saw his arm- The Mississippi, mud-brown behind its levees- Abruptly he shook his head, face twisted in frustration and despair, aware at last that no possible avenue of memory would serve as an escape for him now, for now there was no part of his life that did not apply to the situation he was in, and no matter where he cast his mind it was going to sh.o.r.e up against the hour facing him.
Less than an hour. They were at thirty thousand feet, bombing alt.i.tude. Fitch gave him altimeter readings to dial into the bombsight, Matthews gave him windspeeds. Sweat got in his eye and he blinked furiously. The sun rose behind them like an atomic bomb, glinting off every corner and edge of the Plexiglas, illuminating his bubble compartment with a fierce glare. Broken plans jumbled together in his mind, his breath was short, his throat dry. Uselessly and repeatedly he d.a.m.ned the scientists, d.a.m.ned Truman. d.a.m.ned the j.a.panese for causing the whole mess in the first place, d.a.m.ned yellow killers, they had brought this on themselves. Remember Pearl. American men had died under bombs when no war had been declared; they had started it and now it was coming back to them with a vengeance. And they deserved it. And an invasion of j.a.pan would take years, cost millions of lives-end it now, end it they deserved it, they deserved it steaming river full of charcoal people silently dying d.a.m.ned stubborn race of maniacs!
"There"s Honshu," Fitch said, and January returned to the world of the plane. They were over the Inland Sea. Soon they would pa.s.s the secondary target Kokura, a bit to the south. Seven thirty. The island was draped more heavily than the sea by clouds, and again January"s heart leaped with the idea that weather would cancel the mission. But they did deserve it. It was a mission like any other mission. He had dropped bombs on Africa, Sicily, Italy, all Germany... He leaned forward to take a look through the sight. Under the X of the crosshairs was the sea, but at the lead edge of the sight was land. Honshu. At two hundred and thirty miles an hour that gave them about a half hour to Hiroshima. Maybe less. He wondered if his heart could beat so hard for that long.
Fitch said, "Matthews, I"m giving over guidance to you. Just tell us what to do."
"Bear south two degrees," was all Matthews said. At last their voices had taken on a touch of awareness, even fear.
"January, are you ready?" Fitch asked.
"I"m just waiting," January said. He sat up, so Fitch could see the back of his head. The bombsight stood between his legs. A switch on its side would start the bombing sequence; the bomb would not leave the plane immediately upon the flick of the switch, but would drop after a fifteen-second radio tone warned the following planes. The sight was adjusted accordingly.
"Adjust to a heading of two sixty-five," Matthews said. "We"re coming in directly upwind." This was to make any side-drift adjustments for the bomb unnecessary. "January, dial it down to two hundred and tkirty-one miles per hour."
"Two thirty-one."
Fitch said, "Everyone but January and Matthews, get your goggles on."
January took the darkened goggles from the floor. One needed to protect one"s eyes or they might melt. He put them on, put his forehead on the headrest. They were in the way. He .took them off. When he looked through the sight again there was land under the crosshairs. He checked his watch. Eight o"clock. Up and reading the papers, drinking tea.
"Ten minutes to AP," Matthews said. The aiming point was Aioi Bridge, a T-shaped bridge in the middle of the delta-straddling city. Easy to recognize.
"There"s a lot of cloud down there," Fitch noted. "Are you going to be able to see?"
"I won"t be sure until we try it," January said.
"We can make another pa.s.s and use radar if we need to," Matthews said.
Fitch said, "Don"t drop it unless you"re sure, January."
"Yes sir."
Through the sight a grouping of rooftops and gray roads was just visible between broken clouds. Around it green forest. "All right," Matthews exclaimed, "here we go! Keep it right on this heading, Captain! January, we"ll stay at two thirty-one."
"And same heading," Fitch said. "January, she"s all yours. Everyone make sure your goggles are on. And be ready for the turn."
January"s world contracted to the view through the bomb-sight. A stippled field of cloud and forest. Over a small range of hills and into Hiroshima"s watershed. The broad river was mud brown, the land pale hazy green, the growing network of roads flat gray. Now the tiny rectangular shapes of buildings covered almost all the land, and swimming into the sight came the city proper, narrow islands thrusting into a dark blue bay. Under the crosshairs the city moved island by island, cloud by cloud. January had stopped breathing, his fingers were rigid as stone on the switch. And there was Aioi Bridge. It slid right under the crosshairs, a tiny T right in a gap in the clouds. January"s fingers crushed the switch. Deliberately he took a breath, held it. Clouds swam under the crosshairs, then the next island. "Almost there," he said calmly into his microphone. "Steady." Now that he was committed his heart was humming like the Wrights. He counted to ten. Now flowing under the crosshairs were clouds alternating with green forest, leaden roads. "I"ve turned the switch, but I"m not getting a tone!" he croaked into the mike. His right hand held the switch firmly in place. Fitch was shouting something- Matthews"s voice cracked across it-"Flipping it b-back and forth," January shouted, shielding the bombsight with his body from the eyes of the pilots. "But still-wait a second-"
He pushed the switch down. A low hum filled his ears. "That"s it! It started!"
"But where will it land?" Matthews cried.
"Hold steady!" January shouted.
Lucky Strike shuddered and lofted up ten or twenty feet. January twisted to look down and there was the bomb, flying just below the plane. Then with a wobble it fell away.
The plane banked right and dove so hard that the centrifugal force threw January against the Plexiglas. Several thousand feet lower Fitch leveled it out and they hurtled north; "Do you see anything?" Fitch cried.
From the tailgun Kochenski gasped, "Nothing." January struggled upright. He reached for the welder"s goggles, but they were no longer on his head. He couldn"t find them. "How long has it been?" he said.
"Thirty seconds," Matthews replied.
January clamped his eyes shut.
The blood in his eyelids lit up red, then white.
On the earphones a clutter of voices: "Oh my G.o.d. Oh my G.o.d." The plane bounced and tumbled, metallically shrieking. January pressed himself off the Plexiglas. " "Nother Shockwave!" Kochenski yelled. The plane rocked again, bounced out of control, this is it, January thought, end of the world, I guess that solves my problem.
He opened his eyes and found he could still see. The engines still roared, the props spun. "Those were the Shockwaves from the bomb," Fitch called. "We"re okay now. Look at that! Will you look at that sonofab.i.t.c.h go!"
January looked. The cloud layer below had burst apart, and a black column of smoke billowed up from a core of red fire. Already the top of the column was at their height. Exclamations of shock clattered painfully in January"s ears. He stared at the fiery base of the cloud, at the scores of fires feeding into it. Suddenly he could see past the cloud, and his fingernails cut into his palms. Through a gap in the clouds he saw it clearly, the delta, the six rivers, there off to the left of the tower of smoke: the city of Hiroshima, untouched.
"We missed!" Kochenski yelled. "We missed it!"
January turned to hide his face from the pilots; on it was a grin like a rictus. He sat back in his seat and let the relief fill him.
Then it was back to it. "G.o.d d.a.m.n it!" Fitch shouted down at him. McDonald was trying to restrain him. "January, get up here!"
"Yes sir." Now there was a new set of problems.
January stood and turned, legs weak. His right fingertips throbbed painfully. The men were crowded forward to look out the Plexiglas. January looked with them.