My wife is an avid consumer of the London papers. If, prior to my departure, Briarwood House had been found to conceal a cabal of sorceresses bent on reforming miscreant males through French chemistry and Roman combat, Lydia would surely have read about it and told me. Until I hear otherwise, I shall a.s.sume that the Hampstead Ladies" Croquet Club is still a going concern, making apes, curing demons, knocking b.a.l.l.s through hoops.
And so I face a dilemma. Upon my return to England do I inform the authorities of debatable recreations at Briarwood House? Or do I allow the uncanny status quo to persist? But that is another day"s conversation with myself.
23 April 1899.
Lat. 1506" N, Long. 5532" E.
Last night I once again read all the diary transcriptions. My dilemma has dissolved. With ubermensch clarity I see what I must do, and not do.
In some nebulous future when England"s men have trans.m.u.ted into angels, perhaps, or England"s women have the vote, or Satan has become an epicure of snowflakes on that date I may suggest to a Hampstead constable that he investigate rumors of witchery at Lady Witherspoon"s estate. But for now the secret of the Benevolent Society is safe with me. Landing again on Albion"s sh.o.r.e, I shall arrange for this journal to become my family"s most private heirloom, and shall undertake a second mission as well, approaching the baroness, a.s.suring her of my good intentions, and enquiring as to whether Ezekiel Snavely finally went down in the mud.
For our next voyage my sponsors intend that I should sail to Gavdhos, southwest of Crete, rumored to harbor a remarkable variety of firefly the only such species to have evolved in the Greek Isles. Naturalists call it the changeling bug, as it exhibits the same proclivities as a chameleon. These beetles mimic the stars. Stare into the singing woods of Gavdhos on a still summer night, and you will witness a colony of changeling bugs blinking on and off in configurations that precisely copy horned Aries, clawed Cancer, poisonous Scorpio, mighty Taurus, sleek Pisces and the rest.
The greatest of these tableaux is Sagittarius. Once the fireflies have formed their centaur, the missile reportedly shoots away, rising into the sky until the darkness claims it. Some say the const.i.tuents of this insectile arrow continue beating their wings until, disoriented and bereft of energy, they fall into the Aegean Sea and drown. I do not believe it. Nature has better uses for her lights. Rather, I am confident that, owing to some Darwinian adaptation or other, the beetles cease their theatrics and pause in mid-flight, thence reversing course and returning to the island, weary and hungry but glad to be amongst familiar trees again, called home by the keeper of their kind.
Reluctance.
Cherie Priest.
Walter McMullin puttered through the afternoon sky east of Oneida in his tiny dirigible. According to his calculations, he was somewhere toward the north end of Texas, nearing the Mexican territory west of the Republic; and any minute now he"d be soaring over the Goodnight-Loving trail.
He looked forward to seeing that trail.
Longest cattle drive on the continent, or that"s what he"d heard and it"d make for a fine change of scenery. West, west and farther west across the Native turf on the far side of the big river he"d come, and his eyes were bored from it. Oklahoma, Texas, North Mexico next door ... it all looked pretty much the same from the air. Like a pie crust, rolled out flat and overbaked. Same color, same texture. Same unending scorch marks, the seasonal scars of dried-out gullies and the splits and cracks of a ground fractured by the heat.
So cows rows upon rows of lowing, shuffling cows, hustling their way to slaughter in Utah would be real entertainment.
He adjusted his goggles, moving them from one creased position on his face to another, half an inch aside and only marginally more comfortable. He looked down at his gauges, using the back of one gloved hand to wipe away the ever-acc.u.mulating grime.
"Hydrogen"s low," he mumbled to himself.
There was n.o.body else to mumble to. His one-man flyer wouldn"t have held another warm body bigger than a small dog, and dogs made Walter sneeze. So he flew it alone, like most of the other fellows who ran the Express line, moving the mail from east to west in these hopping, skipping, jumping increments.
This leg of the trip he was piloting a single-seater called the Majestic, one could only presume as a matter of irony. The small airship was hardly more complex or majestic than a penny farthing strapped to a balloon, but Walter didn"t mind. Next stop was Reluctance, where he"d pick up something different something full of gas and ready to fly another leg.
Reluctance was technically a set of mobile gas docks, same as Walter would find on the rest of his route. But truth be told, it was almost a town. Sometimes the stations put down roots, for whatever reason.
And Reluctance had roots.
Walter was glad for it. He"d been riding since dawn and he liked the idea of a nap, down in the bas.e.m.e.nt of the Express offices where the flyers sometimes stole a few hours of rest. He"d like a bed, but he"d settle for a cot and he wouldn"t complain about a hammock, because Walter wasn"t the complaining kind. Not anymore.
Keeping one eye on the unending sprawl of blond dirt below in case of cows, Walter reached under the control panel and dug out a pouch of tobacco and tissue-thin papers. He rolled himself a cigarette, fiddled with the controls, and sat back to light it and smoke even though he d.a.m.n well knew he wasn"t supposed to.
His knee gave an old man"s pop when he stretched it, but it wasn"t so loud as the clatter his foot made when he lifted it up to rest on the Majestic"s console. The foot was a piece of machinery, strapped to the stump starting at his knee.
More sophisticated than a peg leg and slightly more naturallooking than a vacant s.p.a.ce where a foot ought to be, the mechanical limb had been paid for by the Union army upon his discharge. It was heavy and slow and none too pretty, but it was better than nothing. Even when it pulled on its straps until he thought his knee would pop off like a jar lid, and even when the heft of it left bruises around the buckles that held it in place.
Besides, that was one of the perks of flying for the Dirigible Express Post Service: not a lot of walking required.
Everybody knew how dangerous it was, flying over Native turf and through unincorporated stretches with no people, no water, no help coming if a ship went cripple or, G.o.d forbid, caught a spark. A graze of lightning would send a hydrogen ship home to Jesus in the s.p.a.ce of a gasp; or a stray bullet might do the same, should a pirate get the urge to see what the post was moving.
That"s why they only hired fellows like Walter. Orphans. Boys with no family to mourn them, no wives to leave widows and no children to leave fatherless. Walter was a prize so far as the Union Post and absolutely n.o.body else was concerned. Still a teenager, just barely; no family to speak of; and a veteran to boot. The post wanted boys like him, who knew precisely how bad their lot could get and who came with a bit of perspective. It wanted boys who could think under pressure, or at the very least, have the good grace to face death without hysterics.
Boys like Walter McMullin had faced death with serious, pants-s.h.i.tting hysterics, and more than once. But after five years drumming, and marching, and shooting, and slogging through mud with a face full of blood and a handful of Stanley"s hair or maybe a piece of his uniform still clutched like he could save his big brother or save himself or save anybody ... he"d gotten the worst of the screaming out of his system.
With this in mind, the Express route was practically a lazy retirement. It beat the h.e.l.l out of the army, that was for d.a.m.n sure; or so Walter mused as he reclined inside the narrow dirigible cab, sucking on the end of his sizzling cigarette.
n.o.body shot at him very often, n.o.body hardly ever yelled at him, and his clothes were usually dry. All he had to do was stay awake all day and stay on time. Keep the ground a fair measure below. Keep his temporary ship from being struck by lightning or wrestled to the ground by a tornado.
Not a bad job at all.
Something large down below caught his eye. He sat up, holding the cigarette lightly between his lips. He sagged, disappointed, then perked again and took hold of the levers that moved his steering flaps.
He wanted to see that one more time. Even though it wasn"t much to see.
One lone cow, and it"d been off its feet for a bit. He could tell, even from his elevated vantage point, that the beast was dead and beginning to droop. Its skin hung across its bones like laundry on a line.
Of course that happened out on the trail. Every now and again.
But a quick sweep of the vista showed him three more meaty corpses blistering and popping on the pie-crust plain.
He said, "Huh." Because he could see a few more, dotting the land to the north, and to the south a little bit too. If he could get a higher view, he imagined there might be enough scattered bodies to sketch the Goodnight-Loving, pointing a ghastly arrow all the way to Salt Lake City. It looked strange and sad. It looked like the aftermath of something.
He did not think of any battlefields in east Virginia.
He did not think of Stanley, lying in a ditch behind a broken, folded fence.
He ran through a mental checklist of the usual suspects. Disease? Indians? Mexicans? But he was too far away to detect or conclude anything, and that was just as well. He didn"t want to smell it anyway. He was plenty familiar with the reek, that rotting sweetness tempered with the methane stink of bowels and bloat.
Another check of the gauges told him more of what he already knew. One way or another, sooner rather than later, the Majestic was going down for a refill.
Walter wondered what ship he"d get next. A two-seater, maybe? Something with a little room to stretch out? He liked being able to lift his leg off the floor and let it rest where a copilot ought to go, but almost never went. That"d be nice.
Oh well. He"d find out when he got there, or in the morning.
Out the front windscreen, which screened almost no wind and kept almost no bugs out of his mouth, the sun was setting the nebulous...o...b..melting into an orange and pink line against the far, flat horizon.
In half an hour the sky was the color of blueberry jam, and only a lilac haze marked the western edge of the world.
The Majestic was riding lower in the air because Walter was conserving the thrust and letting the desert breeze move him as much as the engine. Coasting was a pleasant way to sail and the lights of Reluctance should be up ahead, any minute.
Some minute.
One of these minutes.
Where were they?
Walter checked the compa.s.s and peeked at his instruments, which told him only that he was on course and that Reluctance should be a mile or less out. But where were the lights? He could always see the lights by now; he always knew when to start smiling, when the gaslamps and lanterns meant people, and a drink, and a place to sleep.
Wait. There. Maybe? Yes.
Telltale pinp.r.i.c.ks of white, laid out patternless on the dark sprawl.
Not so many as usual, though. Only a few, here and there. Haphazard and lost-looking, as if they were simply the remainder the hardy leftovers after a storm, the ones which had not gone out quite yet. There was a feebleness to them, or so Walter thought as he gazed out and over and down. He used his elbow to wipe away the dirt on the gla.s.s screen as if it might be hiding something. But no. No more lights revealed themselves, and the existing flickers of white did not brighten.
Walter reached for his satchel and slung it over his chest, where he could feel the weight of his brother"s Colt b.u.mping up against his ribs.
He set himself a course for Reluctance. He was out of hydrogen and sinking anyway; and it was either set down in relative civilization where nothing might be wrong, after all or drop like a feather into the desert dust alone with the coyotes, cactus and cougars. If he had to wait for sunrise somewhere, better to do it down in an almost-town he knew well enough to navigate.
There were only a few lights, yes.
But no flashes of firearms, and no bonfires of pillage or some hostile victory. He could see nothing and no one, n.o.body walking or running. n.o.body dead, either, he realized when the Majestic swayed down close enough to give him a dim view of the dirt streets with their clapboard sidewalks.
n.o.body at all.
He licked at his lower lip and gave it a bite, then he pulled out the Colt and began to load it, sure and steady, counting to six and counting out six more bullets for each of the two pockets on his vest.
Could be, he was overreacting. Could be, Reluctance had gone bust real quick, or there"d been a dust storm, or a twister, or any number of other natural and unpleasant events that could drive a thrown-together town into darkness. Could be, people were digging themselves out now, even as he wondered about it. Maybe something had made them sick. Cholera, or typhoid. He"d seen it wipe out towns and troops before.
His gut didn"t buy it.
He didn"t like it, how he couldn"t a.s.sume the best and he didn"t have any idea what the worst might be.
And still, as the Majestic came in for a landing. No bodies.
That was the thing. n.o.body down there, including the dead.
He picked up his cane off the dirigible"s floor and tested the weight of it. It was a good cane, solid enough to bring down a big man or a small wildcat, push come to shove. He set it across his knees.
The Majestic drooped down swiftly, but Walter was in control. He"d landed in the dark before and it was tricky, but it didn"t scare him much. It made him cautious, sure. A man would be a fool to be incautious when piloting a half-ton craft into a facility with enough flammable gas to move a fleet. All things being ready and bright, and all it took was a wrongly placed spark just a graze of metal on metal, the screech of one thing against another, or a single cigarette fallen from a lip and the whole town would be reduced to matchsticks. Everybody knew it, and everybody lived with it. Just like everybody knew that flying post was a dangerous job, and a bunch of the boys who flew never made it home, just like going to war.
Walter sniffed, one nostril arching up high and dropping down again. He set his jaw, pulled the back drag chute, flipped the switch to give himself some light on the ship"s underbelly, and spun the Majestic like a girl at a dance. He dropped her down onto the wooden platform with a big red X painted to mark the spot, and she shuddered to silence in the middle of the circle cast by her undercarriage light.
With one hand he popped the anchor chain lever, and with the other he reached for the door handle as he listened to that chain unspool outside.
Outside it was as dark as his overhead survey had implied. And although the light of the undercarriage was nearly the only light, Walter reached up underneath the craft and pulled the snuffing cover down over its flaring white wick. He took hold of the nearest anchor chain and dragged it over to the pipework docks. Ordinarily he"d check to make sure he was on the right pad, clipping his craft to the correct slot before checking in with the station agent.
But no one greeted him. No one rushed up with a ream of paperwork for signing and sealing.
A block away a light burned; and beyond that, another gleamed somewhere farther away. Between those barely seen orbs and the lifting height of a half-full moon, Walter could see well enough to spy another ship nearby. It was affixed to a port on the hydrogen generators, but sagging hard enough that it surely wasn"t filled or ready to fly.
Except for the warm buzz of the gas machines standing by, Walter heard absolutely nothing. No bustling of suppertime seekers roaming through the narrow streets, flowing toward Bad Albert"s place, or wandering to Mama Rico"s. The pipe-dock workers were gone, and so were the managers and agents.
No horses, either. No shuffling of saddles or stirrups, of bits or clomping iron shoes.
Inside the Majestic an oil lantern was affixed to the wall behind the pilot"s seat. Walter grunted, leaning on his cane. He pulled out the lamp, but hesitated to light it.
He held a match up, ready to strike it on the side of the deflated ship, but he didn"t. The silence held its breath and told him to wait. It spoke like a battlefield before an order is given.
That"s what stopped him. Not the thought of all that hydrogen, but the singular sensation that somewhere, on some other side, enemies were crouching waiting for a shot. It froze him, one hand and one match held aloft, his cane leaning against the dirigible and his satchel hanging from his shoulder, pressing at the spot where his neck curved to meet his collarbone.
Under the lazily rolling moon and alone in the mobile gas works that had become the less mobile semi-settlement of Reluctance, Walter put the match away, and set the lantern on the ground beside his ship.
He could see. A little. And given the circ.u.mstances, he liked that better than being seen.
His leg ached, but then again, it always ached. Too heavy by half and not nearly as mobile as the army had promised it"d be, the steel and leather contraption tugged against his knee as if it were a drowning man; and for a tiny flickering moment the old ghost pains tickled down to his toes, even though the toes were long gone, blown away on a battlefield in Virginia.
He held still until the sensation pa.s.sed, wondering bleakly if it would ever go away for good, and suspecting that it wouldn"t.
"All right," he whispered, and it was cold enough to see the words. When had it gotten so cold? How did the desert always do that, cook and then freeze? "We"ll move the mail."
d.a.m.n straight we will.
Walter reached into the Majestic"s tiny hold and pulled out the three bags he"d been carrying as cargo. Each bag was the size of his good leg, and as heavy as his bad one. When they were all three removed from the ship he peered dubiously at the other craft across the landing pad the one attached to the gas pipes, but empty.
He considered his options.
No other ships lurked anywhere close, so he could either seize that unknown hunk of metal and canvas or stay there by himself in the dead outpost.
Hoisting one bag over his shoulder and counter-balancing with his cane, he did his best to cross the landing quietly; but his metal foot dropped each step with a hard, loud clank even though the leather sole at the bottom of the thing was brand new.
He leaned the bag of mail up against the ship and caught his breath, lost more to fear than exertion. Then he moved the mail bag aside to reveal the first two stenciled letters of the ship"s name, and reading the whole he whispered, "Sweet Marie".
Two more mail bags, each moved with all the stealth he could muster. Each one more c.u.mbersome than the last, and each one straining his b.u.m leg harder. But he moved them. He opened the back bin of the Sweet Marie and stuffed them into her cargo hold. Every grunt was loud in the desert emptiness and every heaving shove would"ve sent ol" Stanley into conniptions, had he been there.
Too much noise. Got to keep your head down.
Walter breathed as he leaned on the bin to make it shut. It closed with a click. "This ain"t the war. Not out here."
Just like me, you carry it with you.
Something.
What?
A gusting. A hoa.r.s.e, lonely sound that barked and disappeared.
He leaned against the bin and listened hard, waiting for that noise to come again.
The Sweet Marie had been primed and she was ready to fill, but no one had switched on the generators. She sank so low she almost tipped over, now that the mail sacks had loaded down her back end.
Walter McMullin did not know how hydrogen worked exactly, but he"d seen the filling process performed enough times to copy it.