Bo"s horse slowed up and showed fear, but he kept on as far as Dale"s horse. But Helen"s refused to go any nearer. She had difficulty in halting him. Presently she dismounted and, throwing her bridle over a stump, she ran on, panting and fearful, yet tingling all over, up to her sister and Dale.
"Nell, you did pretty good for a tenderfoot," was Bo"s greeting.
"It was a fine chase," said Dale. "You both rode well. I wish you could have seen the lion on the ground. He bounded--great long bounds with his tail up in the air--very funny. An" Pedro almost caught up with him.
That scared me, because he would have killed the hound. Pedro was close to him when he treed. An" there he is--the yellow deer-killer. He"s a male an" full grown."
With that Dale pulled his rifle from its saddle-sheath and looked expectantly at Bo. But she was gazing with great interest and admiration up at the lion.
"Isn"t he just beautiful?" she burst out. "Oh, look at him spit! Just like a cat! Dale, he looks afraid he might fall off."
"He sure does. Lions are never sure of their balance in a tree. But I never saw one make a misstep. He knows he doesn"t belong there."
To Helen the lion looked splendid perched up there. He was long and round and graceful and tawny. His tongue hung out and his plump sides heaved, showing what a quick, hard run he had been driven to. What struck Helen most forcibly about him was something in his face as he looked down at the hound. He was scared. He realized his peril. It was not possible for Helen to watch him killed, yet she could not bring herself to beg Bo not to shoot. Helen confessed she was a tenderfoot.
"Get down, Bo, an" let"s see how good a shot you are, said Dale. Bo slowly withdrew her fascinated gaze from the lion and looked with a rueful smile at Dale.
"I"ve changed my mind. I said I would kill him, but now I can"t. He looks so--so different from what I"d imagined."
Dale"s answer was a rare smile of understanding and approval that warmed Helen"s heart toward him. All the same, he was amused. Sheathing the gun, he mounted his horse.
"Come on, Pedro," he called. "Come, I tell you," he added, sharply, "Well, girls, we treed him, anyhow, an" it was fun. Now we"ll ride back to the deer he killed an" pack a haunch to camp for our own use."
"Will the lion go back to his--his kill, I think you called it?" asked Bo.
"I"ve chased one away from his kill half a dozen times. Lions are not plentiful here an" they don"t get overfed. I reckon the balance is pretty even."
This last remark made Helen inquisitive. And as they slowly rode on the back-trail Dale talked.
"You girls, bein" tender-hearted an" not knowin" the life of the forest, what"s good an" what"s bad, think it was a pity the poor deer was killed by a murderous lion. But you"re wrong. As I told you, the lion is absolutely necessary to the health an" joy of wild life--or deer"s wild life, so to speak. When deer were created or came into existence, then the lion must have come, too. They can"t live without each other.
Wolves, now, are not particularly deer-killers. They live off elk an"
anythin" they can catch. So will lions, for that matter. But I mean lions follow the deer to an" fro from winter to summer feedin"-grounds.
Where there"s no deer you will find no lions. Well, now, if left alone deer would multiply very fast. In a few years there would be hundreds where now there"s only one. An" in time, as the generations pa.s.sed, they"d lose the fear, the alertness, the speed an" strength, the eternal vigilance that is love of life--they"d lose that an" begin to deteriorate, an" disease would carry them off. I saw one season of black-tongue among deer. It killed them off, an" I believe that is one of the diseases of over-production. The lions, now, are forever on the trail of the deer. They have learned. Wariness is an instinct born in the fawn. It makes him keen, quick, active, fearful, an" so he grows up strong an" healthy to become the smooth, sleek, beautiful, soft-eyed, an" wild-lookin" deer you girls love to watch. But if it wasn"t for the lions, the deer would not thrive. Only the strongest an" swiftest survive. That is the meanin" of nature. There is always a perfect balance kept by nature. It may vary in different years, but on the whole, in the long years, it averages an even balance."
"How wonderfully you put it!" exclaimed Bo, with all her impulsiveness.
"Oh, I"m glad I didn"t kill the lion."
"What you say somehow hurts me," said Helen, wistfully, to the hunter.
"I see--I feel how true--how inevitable it is. But it changes my--my feelings. Almost I"d rather not acquire such knowledge as yours. This balance of nature--how tragic--how sad!"
"But why?" asked Dale. "You love birds, an" birds are the greatest killers in the forest."
"Don"t tell me that--don"t prove it," implored Helen. "It is not so much the love of life in a deer or any creature, and the terrible clinging to life, that gives me distress. It is suffering. I can"t bear to see pain.
I can STAND pain myself, but I can"t BEAR to see or think of it."
"Well," replied. Dale, thoughtfully, "There you stump me again. I"ve lived long in the forest an" when a man"s alone he does a heap of thinkin". An" always I couldn"t understand a reason or a meanin"
for pain. Of all the bafflin" things of life, that is the hardest to understand an" to forgive--pain!"
That evening, as they sat in restful places round the camp-fire, with the still twilight fading into night, Dale seriously asked the girls what the day"s chase had meant to them. His manner of asking was productive of thought. Both girls were silent for a moment.
"Glorious!" was Bo"s brief and eloquent reply.
"Why?" asked. Dale, curiously. "You are a girl. You"ve been used to home, people, love, comfort, safety, quiet."
"Maybe that is just why it was glorious," said Bo, earnestly. "I can hardly explain. I loved the motion of the horse, the feel of wind in my face, the smell of the pine, the sight of slope and forest glade and windfall and rocks, and the black shade under the spruces. My blood beat and burned. My teeth clicked. My nerves all quivered. My heart sometimes, at dangerous moments, almost choked me, and all the time it pounded hard. Now my skin was hot and then it was cold. But I think the best of that chase for me was that I was on a fast horse, guiding him, controlling him. He was alive. Oh, how I felt his running!"
"Well, what you say is as natural to me as if I felt it," said Dale. "I wondered. You"re certainly full of fire, An", Helen, what do you say?"
"Bo has answered you with her feelings," replied Helen, "I could not do that and be honest. The fact that Bo wouldn"t shoot the lion after we treed him acquits her. Nevertheless, her answer is purely physical. You know, Mr. Dale, how you talk about the physical. I should say my sister was just a young, wild, highly sensitive, hot-blooded female of the species. She exulted in that chase as an Indian. Her sensations were inherited ones--certainly not acquired by education. Bo always hated study. The ride was a revelation to me. I had a good many of Bo"s feelings--though not so strong. But over against them was the opposition of reason, of consciousness. A new-born side of my nature confronted me, strange, surprising, violent, irresistible. It was as if another side of my personality suddenly said: "Here I am. Reckon with me now!" And there was no use for the moment to oppose that strange side. I--the thinking Helen Rayner, was powerless. Oh yes, I had such thoughts even when the branches were stinging my face and I was thrilling to the bay of the hound. Once my horse fell and threw me.... You needn"t look alarmed.
It was fine. I went into a soft place and was unhurt. But when I was sailing through the air a thought flashed: this is the end of me! It was like a dream when you are falling dreadfully. Much of what I felt and thought on that chase must have been because of what I have studied and read and taught. The reality of it, the action and flash, were splendid.
But fear of danger, pity for the chased lion, consciousness of foolish risk, of a reckless disregard for the serious responsibility I have taken--all these worked in my mind and held back what might have been a sheer physical, primitive joy of the wild moment."
Dale listened intently, and after Helen had finished he studied the fire and thoughtfully poked the red embers with his stick. His face was still and serene, untroubled and unlined, but to Helen his eyes seemed sad, pensive, expressive of an unsatisfied yearning and wonder. She had carefully and earnestly spoken, because she was very curious to hear what he might say.
"I understand you," he replied, presently. "An" I"m sure surprised that I can. I"ve read my books--an" reread them, but no one ever talked like that to me. What I make of it is this. You"ve the same blood in you that"s in Bo. An" blood is stronger than brain. Remember that blood is life. It would be good for you to have it run an" beat an" burn, as Bo"s did. Your blood did that a thousand years or ten thousand before intellect was born in your ancestors. Instinct may not be greater than reason, but it"s a million years older. Don"t fight your instincts so hard. If they were not good the G.o.d of Creation would not have given them to you. To-day your mind was full of self-restraint that did not altogether restrain. You couldn"t forget yourself. You couldn"t FEEL only, as Bo did. You couldn"t be true to your real nature."
"I don"t agree with you," replied Helen, quickly. "I don"t have to be an Indian to be true to myself."
"Why, yes you do," said Dale.
"But I couldn"t be an Indian," declared Helen, spiritedly. "I couldn"t FEEL only, as you say Bo did. I couldn"t go back in the scale, as you hint. What would all my education amount to--though goodness knows it"s little enough--if I had no control over primitive feelings that happened to be born in me?"
"You"ll have little or no control over them when the right time comes,"
replied Dale. "Your sheltered life an" education have led you away from natural instincts. But they"re in you an" you"ll learn the proof of that out here."
"No. Not if I lived a hundred years in the West," a.s.serted Helen.
"But, child, do you know what you"re talkin" about?"
Here Bo let out a blissful peal of laughter.
"Mr. Dale!" exclaimed Helen, almost affronted. She was stirred. "I know MYSELF, at least."
"But you do not. You"ve no idea of yourself. You"ve education, yes, but not in nature an" life. An" after all, they are the real things. Answer me, now--honestly, will you?"
"Certainly, if I can. Some of your questions are hard to answer."
"Have you ever been starved?" he asked.
"No," replied Helen.
"Have you ever been lost away from home?"
"No."
"Have you ever faced death--real stark an" naked death, close an"
terrible?"
"No, indeed."