"I admit what I said was not true, Miss. As you say, it was not yet eleven." James was pale. So she had thrown it away, confident that this moment would arrive. This humiliation was premeditated. Patience, he said inwardly; this would be the last opportunity she should have to humiliate him.
"Have you the flower on your person?"
"Yes, Miss."
"Did you know that it was mine?"
He was silent.
"Did you know that it was mine?"--mercilessly.
"Yes; but I believed that you had deliberately thrown it away. I saw no harm in taking it."
"But there _was harm."_
"I bow to your superior judgment, Miss,"--ironically.
She deemed it wisest to pa.s.s over this experimental irony. "Give the flower back to me. It is not proper that a servant should have in his keeping a rose which was once mine, even if I had thrown it away or discarded it."
Carefully he drew forth the crumpled flower. He looked at her, then at the rose, hoping against hope that she might relent. He hesitated till he saw an impatient movement of the extended hand. He surrendered.
"Thank you. That is all. You may go."
She tossed the withered flower into the waste-basket.
"Pardon me, but before I go I have to announce that I shall resign my position next Monday. The money which has been advanced to me, deducting that which is due me, together with the amount of my fine at the police-court, I shall be pleased to return to you on the morning of my departure."
Miss Annesley"s lips fell apart, and her brows arched. She was very much surprised.
"You wish to leave my service?"--as if it were quite impossible that such a thing should occur to him.
"Yes, Miss."
"You are dissatisfied with your position?"--icily.
"It is not that, Miss. As a groom I am perfectly satisfied. The trouble lies in the fact that I have too many other things to do. It is very distasteful for me to act in the capacity of butler. My temper is not equable enough for that position." He bowed.
"Very well. I trust that you will not regret your decision." She sat down and coolly resumed her work.
"It is not possible that I shall regret it."
"You may go."
He bowed again, one corner of his mouth twisted. Then he took himself off to the stables. He was certainly in what they call a towering rage.
If I were not a seer of the first degree, a narrator of the penetrative order, I should be vastly puzzled over this singular action on her part.
XXII
THE DRAMA UNROLLS
When a dramatist submits his _scenario_, he always accompanies it with drawings, crude or otherwise, of the various set-scenes and curtains known as drops. To the uninitiated these scrawls would look impossible; but to the stage-manager"s keen, imaginative eye a whole picture is represented in these few pothooks. Each object on the stage is labeled alphabetically; thus A may represent a sofa, B a window, C a table, and so forth and so on. I am not a dramatist; I am not writing an acting drama; so I find that a diagram of the library in Senator Blank"s house is neither imperative nor advisable. It is half after eight; the curtain rises; the music of a violin is heard coming from the music-room; Colonel Annesley is discovered sitting in front of the wood fire, his chin sunk on his breast, his hands hanging listlessly on each side of the chair, his face deeply lined. From time to time he looks at the clock. I can imagine no sorrier picture than that of this loving, tender-hearted, wretched old man as he sits there, waiting for Karloff and the ignominious end. Fortune gone with the winds, poverty leering into his face, shame drawing her red finder across his brow, honor in sackcloth and ashes!
And but two short years ago there had not been in all the wide land a more contented man than himself, a man with a conscience freer. G.o.d!
Even yet he could hear the rolling, whirring ivory ball as it spun the circle that fatal night at Monte Carlo. Man does not recall the intermediate steps of his fall, only the first step and the last. In his waking hours the colonel always heard the sound of it, and it rattled through his troubled dreams. He could not understand how everything had gone as it had. It seemed impossible that in two years he had dissipated a fortune, sullied his honor, beggared his child. It was all so like a horrible dream. If only he might wake; if only G.o.d would be so merciful as to permit him to wake! He hid his face. There is no h.e.l.l save conscience makes it.
The music laughed and sighed and laughed. It was the music of love and youth; joyous, rollicking, pulsing music.
The colonel sprang to his feet suddenly, his hands at his throat. He was suffocating. The veins gnarled on his neck and brow. There was in his heart a pain as of many knives. His arms fell: of what use was it to struggle? He was caught, trapped in a net of his own contriving.
Softly he crossed the room and stood by the portiere beyond which was the music-room. She was happy, happy in her youth and ignorance; she could play all those sprightly measures, her spirit as light and conscience-free; she could sing, she could laugh, she could dance. And all the while his heart was breaking, breaking!
"How shall I face her mother?" he groaned.
The longing which always seizes the guilty to confess and relieve the mind came over him. If only he dared rush in there, throw himself at her feet, and stammer forth his wretched tale! She was of his flesh, of his blood; when she knew she would not wholly condemn him . . . No, no!
He could not. She honored and trusted him now; she had placed him on so high a pedestal that it was utterly impossible for him to disillusion her young mind, to see for ever and ever the mute reproach in her honest eyes, to feel that though his arm encircled her she was beyond his reach.... G.o.d knew that he could not tell this child of the black gulf he had digged for himself and her.
Sometimes there came to him the thought to put an end to this maddening grief, by violence to period this miserable existence. But always he cast from him the horrible thought. He was not a coward, and the cowardice of suicide was abhorrent to him. Poverty he might leave her, but not the legacy of a suicide. If only it might be G.o.d"s kindly will to let him die, once this abominable bargain was consummated! Death is the seal of silence; it locks alike the lips of the living and the dead. And she might live in ignorance, till the end of her days, without knowing that her wealth was the price of her father"s dishonor.
A mist blurred his sight; he could not see. He steadied himself, and with an effort regained his chair noiselessly. And how often he had smiled at the drama on the stage, with its absurdities, its tawdriness, its impossibilities! Alas, what did they on the stage that was half so weak as he had done: ruined himself without motive or reason!
The bell sang its buzzing note; there was the sound of crunching wheels on the driveway; the music ceased abruptly. Silence. A door opened and closed. A moment or so later Karloff, preceded by the girl, came into the study. She was grave because she remembered Mrs. Chadwick. He was grave also; he had various reasons for being so.
"Father, the count tells me that he has an engagement with you," she said. She wondered if this appointment in any way concerned her.
"It is true, my child. Leave us, and give orders that we are not to be disturbed."
She scrutinized him sharply. How strangely hollow his voice sounded!
Was he ill?
"Father, you are not well. Count, you must promise me not to keep him long, however important this interview may be. He is ill and needs rest,"--and her loving eyes caressed each line of care in her parent"s furrowed cheeks.
Annesley smiled rea.s.suringly. It took all the strength of his will, all that remained of a high order of courage, to create this smile. He wanted to cry out to her that it was a lie, a mockery. Behind that smile his teeth grated.
"I shall not keep him long, Mademoiselle," said the count. He spoke gently, but he studiously avoided her eyes.
She hesitated for a moment on the threshold; she knew not why. Her lips even formed words, but she did not speak. What was it? Something oppressed her. Her gaze wandered indecisively from her father to the count, from the count to her father.
"When you are through," she finally said, "bring your cigars into the music-room."
"With the greatest pleasure, Mademoiselle," replied the count. "And play, if you so desire; our business is such that your music will be as a pleasure added.""
Her father nodded; but he could not force another smile to his lips.
The bra.s.s rings of the portiere rattled, and she was gone. But she left behind a peculiar tableau, a tableau such as is formed by those who stand upon ice which is about to sink and engulf them.