But Pete had stolen softly from the room.
"Pete! where are you?"
Where was he? He was on the road outside, crying like a boy--no, like a man--at thought of the happiness he had left upstairs.
XIX.
The town of Peel was in a great commotion that night. It was the night of St. Patrick"s Day, and the mackerel fleet were leaving for Kinsale.
A hundred and fifty boats lay in the harbour, each with a light in its binnacle, a fire in its cabin, smoke coming from its stove-pipe, and its sails half-set. The sea was fresh; there was a smart breeze from the northwest, and the air was full of the brine. At the turn of the tide the boats began to drop down the harbour. Then there was a rush of women and children and old men to the end of the pier. Mothers were seeing their sons off, women their husbands, children their fathers, girls their boys--all full of fun and laughter and joyful cries.
One of the girls remembered that the men were leaving the island before the installation of the new Governor. Straightway they started a game of make-believe--the make-believe of electing the Governor for themselves.
"Who are you voting for, Mr. Quayle?"--"Aw, Dempster Christian, of coorse."--"Throw us your rope, then, and we"ll give you a pull."--"Heave oh, girls." And the rope would be whipped round a mooring-post on the quay, twenty girls would seize it, and the boat would go slipping past the pier, round the castle rocks, and then away before the north-wester like a gull.
"Good luck, Harry!"--"Whips of money coming home, Jem!"--"Write us a letter--mind you write, now i "--"Goodnight, father!"
No crying yet, no sign of tears--nothing but fresh young faces, bright eyes, and peals of laughter, as one by one the boats slid out into the fresh, green water of the bay, and the wind took them, and they shot into the night. Even the dogs on the quay frisked about, and barked as if they were going crazy with delight.
In the midst of this happy scene, a man, wearing a monkey-jacket and a wide-brimmed soft hat, came up to the harbour with a little misshapen dog at his heels. He stood for a moment as if bewildered by the strange midnight spectacle before him. Then he walked through the throng of young people, and listened awhile to their talk and laughter. No one spoke to him, and he spoke to no one. His dog followed with its nose at his ankles. If some other dog, in youthful frolic, frisked and barked about it, it snarled and snapped, and then croodled down at his master"s feet and looked ashamed.
"Dempster, Dempster, getting a bit ould, eh?" said the man.
After a little while he went quietly away. n.o.body missed him; n.o.body had observed him. He had gone back to the town. At a baker"s shop, which was still open for the convenience of the departing fleet, he bought a seaman"s biscuit. With this he returned to the harbour by way of the sh.o.r.e. At the slip by the Rocket House he went down to the beach and searched among the shingle until he found a stone like a dumb-bell, large at the ends and narrow in the middle. Then he went back to the quay. The dog followed him and watched him.
The last of the boats was out in the bay by this time. She could be seen quite plainly in the moonlight, with the green blade of a wave breaking on her quarter. Somebody was carrying a light on her deck, and the giant shadow of a man"s figure was cast up on the new lugsail. There were shouts and answers across the splashing water. Then a fresh young voice on the boat began to sing "Lovely Mona, fare thee well." The women took it up, and the two companies sang it in turns, verse by verse, the women on the quay and the men on the boat, with the sea growing wider between them.
An old fisherman on the skirts of the crowd had a little girl on his shoulder.
"You"ll not be going to Kinsale this time, mate?" said a voice behind him.
"Aw, no, sir. I"ve seen the day, though. Thirty years I was going, and better. But I"m done now."
"Well, that"s the way, you see. It"s the turn of the young ones now.
Let them sing, G.o.d bless them! We"re not going to fret, though, are we?
There"s one thing we can always do--we can always remember, and that"s some constilation, isn"t it."
"I"m doing it reg"lar." said the old fisherman.
"After all, it"s been a good thing to live, and when a man"s time comes it"ll not be such a darned bad thing to die neither. Don"t you hould with me there, mate?"
"I do, sir, I do."
The last boat had rounded the castle rock, and its topsail had diminished and disappeared. On the quay the song had ended, and the women and children were turning their faces with a shade of sadness towards the town.
"Well," with a deep universal inspiration, "wasn"t it beautiful?"-- "Wasn"t it?"--"Then what are you crying about?"
The girls laughed at each other with wet eyes, and went off with springless steps. The mothers picked up their children and carried them home whimpering; and the old men went a way with drooping heads and shambling feet.
When all was gone, and the harbour-master had taken his last look round, the man with the dog went to the end of the empty quay, and sat on the mooring post that had served for the running of the ropes. All was quiet enough now. The voices, the singing, the laughter were lost. There was no sound but the gurgle of the ebbing tide, which was racing out with the river"s flow between the pier and the castle rock.
The man looked at his dog, stooped to it, gave it the biscuit, and petted it and stroked it while it munched its supper. "Dempster, bogh!
Dempster! Getting ould, eh? Travelled far together, haven"t we? Tired a bit, aren"t you? Couldn"t go through another rough journey, anyway. Hard to part, though, Machree! Machree!"
He took the stone out of his pocket, tied it to one end of the string, made a noose on the ether end, slipped it about the dog"s neck, and without warning, picked up the dog and stone at once, and dropped them over the pier. The old creature gave a piteous cry as it descended; there was a splash, and then--the racing of the water past the pier.
The man had turned away quickly, and was going heavily along the quay.
XX.
It had been a night of pain to Philip. All the world seemed to be conspiring to hold him back from what he had to do. "Thou shalt not"
was the legend that appeared to be written everywhere. Four persons had learnt his secret, and all four seemed to call upon him to hide it.
First, the Clerk of the Rolls, who had heard the divorce proceedings within closed doors; next Pete, who might have clamoured the scandal on all hands, and plucked him down from his place, but had chosen to be silent and to slip away unseen; then Caesar, whose awful self-deception was an a.s.surance of his secrecy; and, finally. Auntie Nan, whose provision for Kate"s material welfare had been intended to prevent the necessity for revelation. All these had seemed to say to him, whether from affection or from fear, "Hold your peace. Say nothing. The past is the past; it is dead; it does not exist. Go on with your career. It is only beginning. What right have you to break it up? The island looks to you, waits for you. Step forward and be strong."
Thank G.o.d, it was too late to be moved by that temptation. Too late to be bought by that bribe. Already he had taken the irrevocable course, he had made the irrevocable step. He could not now go back.
But the awful penalty of the island"s undeceiving! The pain of that moment when everybody would learn that he had deceived the whole world!
He was a sham--a whited sepulchre. Every step he had gone up in his quick ascent had been over the body of some one who had loved him too well. First Kate, who had been the victim of the Deemstership, and now Pete, who was paying the price that made him Governor.
He could see the darkened looks of the proud; he could hear the execration of the disappointed; he could feel the tears of the true-hearted at the downfall of a life that had looked so fair. In the frenzy of that last hour of trial, it seemed as if he was contending, not with man and the world, but with the devil, who was using both to make this bitter irony of his position--who was bribing him with worldly glory that he might d.a.m.n his soul forever.
And therein lay a temptation that sat closer at his side--the temptation to turn his face and fly away. It was midnight. The moon was shining on the boundless plain of the sea. He was in the slack water of the soul, when the ebb is spent, before the tide has begun to flow. Oh, to leave everything behind--the shame and the glory together!
It was the moment when the girls on Peel Quay were pulling the rope for the men on the boats who were ready to vote for Christian.
The pains of sleep were yet greater. He thought he was in Castletown, skulking under the walls of the castle. With a look up towards Parliament House and down to the harbour, he fumbled his private key into the lock of the side entrance to the council chamber. The old caretaker heard him creep-down the long corridor, and she came clattering out with a candle, shaded behind her hand. "Something I"ve forgotten," he said. "Pardon, your Honour," and then a deep courtesy.
He opened noiselessly the little door leading from the council chamber to the keep, but in the dark shadow of the steps the turnkey challenged him. "Who"s there? Stop!"--"Hush!"--"The Deemster! Beg your Honour"s pardon."--"Show me the female wards."--"This way your Honour."--"Her cell." "Here, your Honour."--"The key; your lantern. Now go back to the guard-room." He was with Kate. "My love, my love!"--"My darling!"-- "Come, let us fly away from the island. I cannot face it. I thought I could, but I cannot. I"ve got the child too. Come!" And then Kate--"I would go anywhere with you, Philip, anywhere, anywhere. I only want your love. But is this worthy of a man like you? Leave me. We have fallen too low to drop into a pit like that. Away with you! Go!" And he slunk out of the cell, before the wrathful love that would save him from himself.
He, the Deemster, the Governor, had slunk out like a dog.
It was only a dream. When he awoke, the birds were singing and the day was blue over the sea. The temptation was past; it was under his feet.
He could hesitate no longer; his cup was br.i.m.m.i.n.g over; he would drink it to the dregs.
Jem-y-Lord came with his mouth full of news. The town was decorated with bunting. There was to be a general holiday. A grand stand had been erected on the green in front of the Court-house. The people were not going to be deterred by the Deemster"s refusals. He who shrank from honours was the more worthy of being honoured. They intended to present their new Governor with an address.
"Let them--let them," said Philip.
Jem looked up inquiringly. His master"s face had a strange expression.
"Shall I drive you to-day, your Excellency?"
"Yes, my lad. It may be for the last time, Jemmy."