Mme. Lebuc had grown much older, and her filmy eyes peered anxiously through large spectacles before she recognized Troy. Then, after tears and raptures, he set forth his errand, and she began to peer again anxiously, shuffling about the bits of paper on the desk, and confusing her records hopelessly.
"Why, is that _you_?" cried a gay young voice; and there, on the other side of the room, sat one of the young war-G.o.ddesses of the Belknap tennis-court, trim, uniformed, important, with a row of bent backs in shabby black before her desk.
"Ah, Miss Batchford will tell you--she"s so quick and clever," Mme.
Lebuc sighed, resigning herself to chronic bewilderment.
Troy crossed to the other desk. An old woman sat before it in threadbare mourning, a c.r.a.pe veil on her twitching head. She spoke in a low voice, slowly, taking a long time to explain; each one of Miss Batchford"s quick questions put her back, and she had to begin all over again.
"Oh, these refugees!" cried Miss Batchford, stretching a bangled arm above the c.r.a.pe veil to clasp Troy"s hand. "Do sit down, Mr.
Belknap.--Depechez-vous, s"il vous plait," she said, not too unkindly, to the old woman; and added, to Troy: "There"s no satisfying them."
At the sound of Troy"s name the old woman had turned her twitching head, putting back her veil. Her eyes met Troy"s, and they looked at each other doubtfully. Then--"Madame Gantier!" he exclaimed.
"Yes, yes," she said, the tears running down her face.
Troy was not sure if she recognized him, though his name had evidently called up some vague a.s.sociation. He saw that most things had grown far off to her, and that for the moment her whole mind was centred on the painful and humiliating effort of putting her case to this strange young woman who snapped out questions like a machine.
"Do you know her?" asked Miss Batchford, surprised.
"I used to, I believe," Troy answered.
"You can"t think what she wants--just everything! They"re all alike. She wants to borrow five hundred francs to furnish a flat for herself and her sister."
"Well, why not?"
"Why, we don"t lend money, of course. It"s against all our principles.
We give work, or relief in kind--that"s what I"m telling her."
"I see. Could I give it to her?"
"What--all that money? Certainly _not_. You don"t know them!"
Troy shook hands and went out into the street to wait for Mme. Gantier; and when she came he told her who he was. She cried and shook a great deal, and he called a cab and drove her home to the poor lodging where she and her sister lived. The sister had become weak-minded, and the room was dirty and untidy, because, as Mme. Gantier explained, her lameness prevented her from keeping it clean, and they could not afford a charwoman. The pictures of the four dead sons hung on the wall, a wisp of c.r.a.pe above each, with all their ribbons and citations. But when Troy spoke of old M. Gantier and the daughter Mme. Gantier"s face grew like a stone, and her sister began to whimper like an animal.
Troy remembered the territorial"s phrase: "You may say: _there"s a family wiped out_." He went away, too shy to give the five hundred francs in his pocket.
One of his first cares on getting back to France had been to order a head-stone for Paul Gantier"s grave at Mondement. A week or two after his meeting with Mme. Gantier, his ambulance was ordered to Epernay, and he managed to get out to Mondement and have the stone set up and the grave photographed. He had brought some flowers to lay on it, and he borrowed two tin wreaths from the neighbouring crosses, so that Paul Gantier"s mound should seem the most fondly tended of all. He sent the photograph to Mme. Gantier, with a five hundred franc bill; but after a long time his letter came back from the post-office. The two old women had gone....
VIII
In February Mr. Belknap arrived in Paris on a mission. Tightly b.u.t.toned into his Red Cross uniform, he looked to his son older and fatter, but more important and impressive, than usual.
He was on his way to Italy, where he was to remain for three months, and Troy learned with dismay that he needed a secretary, and had brought none with him because he counted on his son to fill the post.
"You"ve had nearly a year of this, old man, and the front"s as quiet as a church. As for Paris, isn"t it too frivolous for you? It"s much farther from the war nowadays than New York. I haven"t had a dinner like this since your mother joined the Voluntary Rationing League," Mr.
Belknap smiled at him across their little table at the Nouveau Luxe.
"I"m glad to hear it--about New York, I mean," Troy answered composedly.
"It"s _our_ turn now. But Paris isn"t a bit too frivolous for me. Which shall it be, father--the Palais Royal--or the Capucines? They say the new _revue_ there is great fun."
Mr. Belknap was genuinely shocked. He had caught the war fever late in life, and late in the war, and his son"s flippancy surprised and pained him.
"The theatre? We don"t go to the theatre...." He paused to light his cigar, and added, embarra.s.sed: "Really, Troy, now there"s so little doing here, don"t you think you might be more useful in Italy?"
Troy was anxious, for he was not sure that Mr. Belknap"s influence might not be sufficient to detach him from his job on a temporary mission; but long experience in dealing with parents made him a.s.sume a greater air of coolness as his fears increased.
"Well, you see, father, so many other chaps have taken advantage of the lull to go off on leave that if I asked to be detached now--well, it wouldn"t do me much good with my chief," he said cunningly, guessing that if he appeared to yield his father might postpone action.
"Yes, I see," Mr. Belknap rejoined, impressed by the military character of the argument. He was still trying to get used to the fact that he was himself under orders, and nervous visions of a sort of mitigated court-martial came to him in the middle of pleasant dinners, or jumped him out of his morning sleep like an alarm-clock.
Troy saw that his point was gained; but he regretted having proposed the Capucines to his father. He himself was not shocked by the seeming indifference of Paris: he thought the gay theatres, the crowded shops, the restaurants groaning with abundance, were all healthy signs of the nation"s irrepressible vitality. But he understood that America"s young zeal might well be chilled by the first contact with this careless exuberance, so close to the lines where young men like himself were dying day by day in order that the curtain might ring up punctually on low-necked _revues_, and fat neutrals feast undisturbed on lobster and champagne. Only now and then he asked himself what had become of the Paris of the Marne, and what would happen if ever again----But that of course was nonsense....
Mr. Belknap left for Italy--and two days afterward Troy"s ambulance was roused from semi-inaction and hurried to Beauvais. The retreat from St.
Quentin had begun, and Paris was once again the Paris of the Marne.
The same--but how different!--were the tense days that followed. Troy Belknap, instead of hanging miserably about marble hotels and waiting with restless crowds for the communiques to appear in the windows of the newspaper offices, was in the thick of the retreat, swept back on its tragic tide, his heart wrung, but his imagination hushed by the fact of partic.i.p.ating in the struggle, playing a small dumb indefatigable part, relieving a little fraction of the immense anguish and the dreadful disarray.
The mere fact of lifting a wounded man "so that it wouldn"t hurt"; of stiffening one"s lips to a smile as the ambulance pulled up in the market-place of a terror-stricken village; of calling out "Nous les tenons!" to whimpering women and bewildered old people; of giving a lift to a family of foot-sore refugees; of prying open a tin of condensed milk for the baby, or taking down the address of a sister in Paris, with the promise to bring her news of the fugitives; the heat and the burden and the individual effort of each minute carried one along through the endless and yet breathless hours--backward and forward, backward and forward, between Paris and the fluctuating front, till in Troy"s weary brain the ambulance took on the semblance of a tireless grey shuttle humming in the hand of Fate....
It was on one of these trips that, for the first time, he saw a train-load of American soldiers on the way to the battle front. He had, of course, seen plenty of them in Paris during the months since his arrival; seen them vaguely roaming the streets, or sitting in front of cafes, or wooed by polyglot sirens in the obscure promiscuity of cinema-palaces.
At first he had seized every chance of talking to them; but either his own shyness or theirs seemed to paralyze him. He found them, as a rule, bewildered, depressed and unresponsive. They wanted to kill Germans all right, they said; but this hanging around Paris wasn"t what they"d bargained for, and there was a good deal more doing back home at Podunk or Tombstone or Skohegan.
It was not only the soldiers who took this depreciatory view of France.
Some of the officers whom Troy met at his friends" houses discouraged him more than the enlisted men with whom he tried to make friends in the cafes. They had more definite and more unfavourable opinions as to the country they had come to defend. They wanted to know, in G.o.d"s name, where in the blasted place you could get fried hominy and a real porter-house steak for breakfast, and when the ball-game season began, and whether it rained every day all the year round; and Troy"s timid efforts to point out some of the compensating advantages of Paris failed to excite any lasting interest.
But now he seemed to see a different race of men. The faces leaning from the windows of the train glowed with youthful resolution. The soldiers were out on their real business at last, and as Troy looked at them, so alike and so innumerable, he had the sense of a force, inexorable and exhaustless, poured forth from the reservoirs of the new world to replenish the wasted veins of the old.
"Hooray!" he shouted frantically, waving his cap at the pa.s.sing train; but as it disappeared he hung his head and swore under his breath.
There they went, his friends and fellows, as he had so often dreamed of seeing them, racing in their hundreds of thousands to the rescue of France; and he was still too young to be among them, and could only yearn after them with all his aching heart!
After a hard fortnight of day-and-night work he was ordered a few days off, and sulkily resigned himself to inaction. For the first twenty-four hours he slept the leaden sleep of weary youth, and for the next he moped on his bed in the Infirmary; but the third day he crawled out to take a look at Paris.
The long-distance bombardment was going on, and now and then, at irregular intervals, there was a more or less remote crash, followed by a long reverberation. But the life of the streets was not affected.
People went about their business as usual, and it was obvious that the strained look on every face was not caused by the random fall of a few sh.e.l.ls, but by the perpetual vision of that swaying and receding line on which all men"s thoughts were fixed. It was sorrow, not fear, that Troy read in all those anxious eyes--sorrow over so much wasted effort, such high hopes thwarted, so many dear-bought miles of France once more under the German heel.
That night when he came home he found a letter from his mother. At the very end, in a crossed postscript, he read: "Who do you suppose sailed last week? Sophy Wicks. Soon there"ll be n.o.body left! Old Mrs. Wicks died in January--did I tell you?--and Sophy has sent the children to Long Island with their governess, and rushed over to do Red Cross nursing. It seems she had taken a course at the Presbyterian without any one"s knowing it. I"ve promised to keep an eye on the children. Let me know if you see her."
Sophy Wicks in France! There was hardly room in his troubled mind for the news. What Sophy Wicks did or did not do had shrunk to utter insignificance in the crash of falling worlds. He was rather sorry to have to cla.s.s her with the other hysterical girls fighting for a pretext to get to France; but what did it all matter, anyhow? On the way home he had overheard an officer in the street telling a friend that the Germans were at Creil....
Then came the day when the advance was checked. The glorious counter-attack of General Mangin gave France new faith in her armies, and Paris irrepressibly burst at once into abounding life. It was as if she were ashamed of having doubted, as if she wanted, by a livelier renewal of activities, to proclaim her unshakable faith in her defenders. In the perpetual sunshine of the most golden of springs she basked and decked herself, and mirrored her recovered beauty in the Seine.