"Are you cold, mamma? I am sure I can see you shiver. Shall I run and get you a shawl?" "It is a little chilly: but perhaps it will be as well to go in now," the mother said. And then indoors: "Do you think you will like this lace made up as a jabot, Elinor?" "You are giving me all your pretty things, though you know you understand lace much better than I do." "Oh, that doesn"t matter," Mrs. Dennistoun said hurriedly; "that is a taste which comes with time. You will like it as well as I do when you are as old as I am." "You are not so dreadfully old, mamma." "No, that"s the worst of it," Mrs. Dennistoun would say, and then break out into a laugh. "Look at the shadow that handkerchief makes--how fantastic it is!" she cried. She neither cared for the moon, nor for the quaintness of the shadows, nor for the lace which she was pulling into dainty folds to show its delicate pattern--for none of all these things, but for her only child, who was going from her, and to whom she had a hundred, and yet a hundred, things to say: but none of them ever came from her lips.
"Mary Dale has not seen your things, Elinor: she asked if she might come to-morrow."
"I think we might have had to-morrow to ourselves, mamma--the last day all by ourselves before those people begin to arrive."
"Yes, I think so too; but it is difficult to say no, and as she was not here when the others came---- She is the greatest critic in the parish.
She will have so much to say."
"I daresay it may be fun," said Elinor, brightening up a little, "and of course anyhow Alice must have come to talk about her dress. I am tired of those bride"s-maids" dresses; they are really of so little consequence." Elinor was not vain, to speak of, but she thought it improbable that when she was there any one would look much at the bride"s-maids" dresses. For one thing, to be sure, the bride is always the central figure, and there were but two bride"s-maids, which diminished the interest; and then--well, it had to be allowed at the end of all, that, though her closest friends, neither Alice Hudson nor Mary Tatham were, to look at, very interesting girls.
"They are of great consequence to them," said Mrs. Dennistoun, with the faintest smile.
"I didn"t mean that, of course," said Elinor, with a blush; "only I never should have worried about my own dress, which after all is the most important, as Alice does about hers."
"Which n.o.body will look at," Mrs. Dennistoun said.
"I did not say that: but to tell the truth, it is a pity for the girls that the men will not quite be, just of their world, you know. Oh, mamma, you know it is not that I think anything of that, but I am sorry for Alice and Mary. Mr. Bolsover and the other gentlemen will not take that trouble which country neighbours, or--or John"s friends from the Temple might have done."
"Why do you speak of John"s friends from the Temple, Elinor?"
"Mamma! for no reason at all. Why should I? They were the only other men I could think of."
"Elinor, did John ever give you any reason to think----"
"Mamma," cried Elinor again, with double vehemence, her countenance all ablaze, "of course he never did! how could you think such foolish things?"
"Well, my dear," said her mother, "I am very glad he did not; it will prevent any embarra.s.sment between him and you--for I must always believe----"
"Don"t, please, oh, don"t! it would make me miserable; it would take all my happiness away."
Mrs. Dennistoun said nothing, but she sighed--a very small, infinitesimal sigh--and there was a moment"s silence, during which perhaps that sigh pervaded the atmosphere with a sort of breath of what might have been.
After a moment she spoke again:
"I hope you have not packed up your ornaments yet, Elinor. You must leave them to the very last, for Mary would like to see that beautiful necklace. What do you think you shall wear on the day?"
"Nothing," said Elinor, promptly. She was about to add, "I have nothing good enough," but paused in time.
"Not my little star? It would look very well, my darling, to fix your veil on. The diamonds are very good, though perhaps a little old-fashioned; you might get them reset. But--your father gave it me like that."
"I would not change it a bit, mamma, for anything in the world."
"Thanks, my dearest. I thought that was how you would feel about it. It is not very big, of course, but it really is very good."
"Then I will wear it, mamma, if it will please you, but nothing else."
"It would please me: it would be like having something from your father.
I think we had less idea of ornaments in my day. I cannot tell you how proud I was of my diamond star. I should like to put it in for you myself, Elinor."
"Oh, mamma!" This was the nearest point they had come to that outburst of two full hearts which both of them would have called breaking down.
Mrs. Dennistoun saw it and was frightened. She thought it would be betraying to Elinor what she wished her never to know, the unspeakable desolation to which she was looking forward when her child was taken from her. Elinor"s exclamation, too, was a protest against the imminent breaking down. They both came back with a hurry, with a panting breath, to safer ground.
"Yes, that"s what I regret," she said. "Mr. Bolsover and Harry Compton will laugh a little at the Rectory. They will not be so--nice as young men of their own kind."
"The Rectory people are just as well born as any of us, Elinor."
"Oh, precisely, mamma: I know that; but we too---- It is what they call a different _monde_. I don"t think it is half so nice a _monde_," said the girl, feeling that she had gone further than she intended to do; "but you know, mamma----"
"I know, Elinor: but I scarcely expected from you----"
"Oh," cried Elinor again, in exasperation, "if you think that I share that feeling! I think it odious, I think their _monde_ is vulgar, nasty, miserable! I think----"
"Don"t go too far the other way, Elinor. Your husband will be of it, and you must learn to like it. You think, perhaps, all that is new to me?"
"No," said Elinor, her bright eyes, all the brighter for tears, falling before her mother"s look. "I know, of course, that you have seen--all kinds----"
But she faltered a little, for she did not believe that her mother was acquainted with Phil"s circle and their wonderful ways.
"They will be civil enough," she went on, hurriedly, "and as everybody chaffs so much nowadays they will, perhaps, never be found out. But I don"t like it for my friends."
"They will chaff me also, no doubt," Mrs. Dennistoun said.
"Oh, _you_, mamma! they are not such fools as that," cried poor Elinor; but in her own mind she did not feel confident that there was any such limitation to their folly. Mrs. Dennistoun laughed a little to herself, which was, perhaps, more alarming than that other moment when she was almost ready to cry.
"You had better wear Lord St. Serf"s ring," she said, after a moment, with a tone of faint derision which Elinor knew.
"You might as well tell me," cried the bride, "to wear Lady Mariamne"s revolving dishes. No, I will wear nothing, nothing but your star."
"You have got nothing half so nice," said the mother. Oh yes, it was a little revenge upon those people who were taking her daughter from her, and who thought themselves at liberty to jeer at all her friends: but as was perhaps inevitable it touched Elinor a little too. She restrained herself from some retort with a sense of extreme and almost indignant self-control: though what retort Elinor could have made I cannot tell.
It was much "nicer" than anything else she had. None of Phil Compton"s great friends, who were not of the same _monde_ as the people at Windyhill, had offered his bride anything to compare with the diamonds which her father had given to her mother before she was born. And Elinor was quite aware of the truth of what her mother said. But she would have liked to make a retort--to say something smart and piquant and witty in return.
And thus the evening was lost, the evening in which there was so much to say, one of the three only, no more, that were left.
Miss Dale came next day to see "the things," and was very amiable: but the only thing in this visit which affected Elinor"s mind was a curious little unexpected a.s.sault this lady made upon her when she was going away. Elinor had gone out with her to the porch, according to the courteous usage of the house. But when they had reached that shady place, from which the green combe and the blue distance were visible, stretching far into the soft autumnal mists of the evening, Mary Dale turned upon her and asked her suddenly, "What night was it that Mr.
Compton came here?"
Elinor was much startled, but she did not lose her self-possession. All the trouble about that date had disappeared out of her mind in the stress and urgency of other things. She cast back her mind with an effort and asked herself what the conflict and uncertainty of which she was dimly conscious, had been? It came back to her dimly without any of the pain that had been in it. "It was on the sixth," she said quietly, without excitement. She could scarcely recall to her mind what it was that had moved her so much in respect to this date only a little time ago.
"Oh, you must be mistaken, Elinor, I saw him coming up from the station.
It was later than that. It was, if I were to give my life for it, Thursday night."
This was four or five nights before and a haze of uncertainty had fallen on all things so remote. But Elinor cast her eyes upon the calendar in the hall and calm possessed her breast. "It was the sixth,"
she said with composed tones, as certain as of anything she had ever known in the course of her life.
"Well, I suppose you must know," said Mary Dale.
CHAPTER XV.