"The likeness is rather overwhelming," he said; "but not heavy enough to sink under. Come nearer the fire. What brought you here? Curiosity?"
There was a wooden arm-chair by the fireplace. He indicated it with a wave of the hand; then turned and took up his smouldering pipe.
Chilcote, watching him furtively, obeyed the gesture and sat down.
"It is extraordinary!" he said, as if unable to dismiss the subject.
"It--it is quite extraordinary!"
The other glanced round. "Let"s drop it," he said. "It"s so confoundedly obvious." Then his tone changed. "Won"t you smoke?" he asked.
"Thanks." Chilcote began to fumble for his cigarettes.
But his host forestalled him. Taking a box from the mantel-piece, he held it out.
"My one extravagance!" he said, ironically. "My resources bind me to one; and I think I have made a wise selection. It is about the only vice we haven"t to pay for six times over." He glanced sharply at the face so absurdly like his own, then, lighting a fresh spill, offered his guest a light.
Chilcote moistened his cigarette and leaned forward. In the flare of the paper his face looked set and anxious, but Loder saw that the lips did not twitch as they had done on the previous occasion that he had given him a light, and a look of comprehension crossed his eyes.
"What will you drink? Or, rather, will you have a whiskey? I keep nothing else. Hospitality is one of the debarred luxuries."
Chilcote shook his head. "I seldom drink. But don"t let that deter you."
Loder smiled. "I have one drink in the twenty-four hours--generally at two o"clock, when my night"s work is done. A solitary man has to look where he is going."
"You work till two?"
"Two--or three."
Chilcote"s eyes wandered to the desk. "You write?" he asked.
The other nodded curtly.
"Books?" Chilcote"s tone was anxious.
Loder laughed, and the bitter note showed in his voice.
"No--not books," he said.
Chilcote leaned back in his chair and pa.s.sed his hand across his face.
The strong wave of satisfaction that the words woke in him was difficult to conceal.
"What is your work?"
Loder turned aside. "You must not ask that," he said, shortly. "When a man has only one capacity, and the capacity has no outlet, he is apt to run to seed in a wrong direction. I cultivate weeds--at abominable labor and a very small reward." He stood with his back to the fire, facing his visitor; his att.i.tude was a curious blending of pride, defiance, and despondency.
Chilcote leaned forward again. "Why speak of yourself like that? You are a man of intelligence and education." He spoke questioningly, anxiously.
"Intelligence and education!" Loder laughed shortly. "London is cemented with intelligence. And education! What is education? The court dress necessary to presentation, the wig and gown necessary to the barrister.
But do the wig and gown necessarily mean briefs? Or the court dress royal favor? Education is the accessory; it is influence that is essential. You should know that."
Chilcote moved restlessly in his seat. "You talk bitterly," he said.
The other looked up. "I think bitterly, which is worse. I am one of the unlucky beggars who, in the expectation of money, has been denied a profession--even a trade, to which to cling in time of shipwreck; and who, when disaster comes, drift out to sea. I warned you the other night to steer clear of me. I come under the head of flotsam!"
Chilcote"s face lighted. "You came a cropper?" he asked.
"No. It was some one else who came the cropper--I only dealt in results."
"Big results?"
"A drop from a probable eighty thousand pounds to a certain eight hundred."
Chilcote glanced up. "How did you take it?" he asked.
"I? Oh, I was twenty-five then. I had a good many hopes and a lot of pride; but there is no place for either in a working world."
"But your people?"
"My last relation died with the fortune."
"Your friends?"
Loder laid down his pipe. "I told you I was twenty-five," he said, with the tinge of humor that sometimes crossed his manner. "Doesn"t that explain things? I had never taken favors in prosperity; a change of fortune was not likely to alter my ways. As I have said, I was twenty-five." He smiled. "When I realized my position I sold all my belongings with the exception of a table and a few books--which I stored. I put on a walking-suit and let my beard grow; then, with my entire capital in my pocket, I left England without saying good-bye to any one."
"For how long?"
"Oh, for six years. I wandered half over Europe and through a good part of Asia in the time."
"And then?"
"Then? Oh, I shaved off the beard and came back to London!" He looked at Chilcote, partly contemptuous, partly amused at his curiosity.
But Chilcote sat staring in silence. The domination of the other"s personality and the futility of his achievements baffled him.
Loder saw his bewilderment. "You wonder what the devil I came into the world for," he said. "I sometimes wonder the same myself."
At his words a change pa.s.sed over Chilcote. He half rose, then dropped back into his seat.
"You have no friends?" he said. "Your life is worth nothing to you?"
Loder raised his head. "I thought I had conveyed that impression."
"You are an absolutely free man."
"No man is free who works for his bread. If things had been different I might have been in such shoes as yours, sauntering in legislative byways; my hopes turned that way once. But hopes, like more substantial things, belong to the past--" He stopped abruptly and looked at his companion.
The change in Chilcote had become more acute; he sat fingering his cigarette, his brows drawn down, his lips set nervously in a conflict of emotions. For a s.p.a.ce he stayed very still, avoiding Loder"s eyes; then, as if decision had suddenly come to him, he turned and met his gaze.
"How if there was a future," he said, "as well as a past?"