"And drop back from the mountains into the gutter?" Loder smiled and slowly shook his head.
"Better to live for one day than to exist for a hundred!" Chilcote"s voice trembled with anxiety. For the third time he extended his hand and touched the other.
This time Loder did not shake off the detaining; hand; he scarcely seemed to feel its pressure.
"Look here." Chilcote"s fingers tightened. "A little while ago you talked of influence. Here you can step into a position built by influence. You might do all you once hoped to do--"
Loder suddenly lifted his head. "Absurd!" he said. "Absurd! Such a scheme was never carried through."
"Precisely why it will succeed. People never suspect until they have a precedent. Will you consider it? At least consider it. Remember, if there is a risk, it is I who am running it. On your own showing, you have no position to jeopardize."
The other laughed curtly.
"Before I go to-night will you promise me to consider it?"
"No."
"Then you will send me your decision by wire to-morrow. I won"t take your answer now."
Loder freed his arm abruptly. "Why not?" he asked.
Chilcote smiled nervously. "Because I know men--and men"s temptations.
We are all very strong till the quick is touched; then we all wince.
It"s morphia with one man, ambitions with another. In each case it"s only a matter of sooner or later." He laughed in his satirical, unstrung way, and held out his hand. ""You have my address," he said. "Au revoir."
Loder pressed the hand and dropped it. "Goodbye," he said, meaningly.
Then he crossed the room quietly and held the door open. "Good-bye," he said again as the other pa.s.sed him.
As he crossed the threshold, Chilcote paused. "Au revoir," he corrected, with emphasis.
Until the last echo of his visitor"s steps had died away Loder stood with his hand on the door; then, closing it quietly, he turned and looked round the room. For a considerable s.p.a.ce he stood there as if weighing the merits of each object; then very slowly he moved to one of the book-shelves, drew out May"s Parliamentary Practice, and, carrying it to the desk, readjusted the lamp.
VI
All the next day Chilcote moved in a fever of excitement. Hot with hope one moment, cold with fever the next, he rushed with restless energy into every task that presented itself--only to drop it as speedily.
Twice during the morning he drove to the entrance of Clifford"s Inn, but each time his courage failed him and he returned to Grosvenor Square--to learn that the expected message from Loder had not come.
It was a wearing condition of mind; but at worst it was scarcely more than an exaggeration of what his state had been for months, and made but little obvious difference in his bearing or manner.
In the afternoon he took his place in the House, but, though it was his first appearance since his failure of two days ago, he drew but small personal notice. When he chose, his manner could repel advances with extreme effect, and of late men had been p.r.o.ne to draw away from him.
In one of the lobbies he encountered Fraide surrounded by a group of friends. With his usual furtive haste he would have pa.s.sed on; but, moving away from his party, the old man accosted him. He was always courteously particular in his treatment of Chilcote, as the husband of his ward and G.o.dchild.
"Better, Chilcote?" he said, holding out his hand.
At the sound of the low, rather formal tones, so characteristic of the old statesman, a hundred memories rose to Chilcote"s mind, a hundred hours, distasteful in the living and unbearable in the recollection; and with them the new flash of hope, the new possibility of freedom. In a sudden rush of confidence he turned to his leader.
"I believe I"ve found a remedy for my nerves," he said. "I--I believe I"m going to be anew man." He laughed with a touch of excitement,
Fraide pressed his fingers kindly, "That is right," he said. "That is right. I called at Grosvenor Square this morning, but Eve told me your illness of the other day was not serious. She was very busy this morning--she could only spare me a quarter of an hour. She is indefatigable over the social side of your prospects. Chilcote. You owe her a large debt. A popular wife means a great deal to a politician."
The steady eyes of his companion disturbed Chilcote.
He drew away his hand.
"Eve is unique," he said, vaguely.
Fraide smiled. "That is right," he said again. "Admiration is too largely excluded from modern marriages." And with a courteous excuse he rejoined his friends.
It was dinner-time before Chilcote could desert the House, but the moment departure was possible he hurried to Grosvenor Square.
As he entered the house, the hall was empty. He swore irritably under his breath and pressed the nearest bell. Since his momentary exaltation in Fraide"s presence, his spirits had steadily fallen, until now they hung at the lowest ebb.
As he waited in unconcealed impatience for an answer to his summons, he caught sight of his man Allsopp at the head of the stairs.
"Come here!" he called, pleased to find some one upon whom to vent his irritation. "Has that wire come for me?"
"No, sir. I inquired five minutes back."
"Inquire again."
"Yes, sir." Allsopp disappeared.
A second after his disappearance the bell of the hall door whizzed loudly.
Chileote started. All sudden sounds, like all strong lights, affected him. He half moved to the door, then stopped himself with a short exclamation. At the same instant Allsopp reappeared.
Chilcote turned on him excitedly.
"What the devil"s the meaning of this?" he said. "A battery of servants in the house and n.o.body to open the hall door!"
Allsopp looked embarra.s.sed. "c.r.a.pham is coming directly, sir. He only left the hall to ask Jeffries--"
Chilcote turned. "Confound c.r.a.pham!" he exclaimed. "Go and open the door yourself."
Allsopp hesitated, his dignity struggling with his obedience. As he waited, the bell sounded again.
"Did you hear me?" Chilcote said.
"Yes, sir." Allsopp crossed the hall.
As the door was opened Chilcote pa.s.sed his handkerchief from one hand to the other in the tension of hope and fear; then, as the sound of his own name in the shrill tones of a telegraph-boy reached his ears, he let the handkerchief drop to the ground.
Allsopp took the yellow envelope and carried it to his master.