No, I won"t undertake to do that.
SOLNESS.
I felt sure you would not; and so I have never cared to talk about it till now.--But it"s a cursed nuisance to me in the long run, you understand. Here have I got to go on day after day, pretending--. And it"s a shame to treat her so, too, poor girl. [Vehemently.] But I cannot do anything else. For if she runs away from me--then Ragnar will be off too.
DR. HERDAL.
And you have not told your wife the rights of the story?
SOLNESS.
No.
DR. HERDAL.
The why on earth don"t you?
SOLNESS.
[Looks fixedly at him, and says in a low voice:] Because I seem to find a sort of--of salutary self-torture in allowing Aline to do me an injustice.
DR. HERDAL.
[Shakes his head.] I don"t in the least understand what you mean.
SOLNESS.
Well, you see--it is like paying off a little bit of a huge, immeasurable debt--
DR. HERDAL.
To your wife?
SOLNESS.
Yes; and that always helps to relieve one"s mind a little. One can breathe more freely for a while, you understand.
DR. HERDAL.
No, goodness knows, I don"t understand at all--
SOLNESS.
[Breaking off, rises again.] Well, well, well--then we won"t talk any more about it. [He saunters across the room, returns, and stops beside the table. Looks at the doctor with a sly smile.] I suppose you think you have drawn me out nicely now, doctor?
DR. HERDAL.
[With some irritation.] Drawn you out? Again I have not the faintest notion of what you mean, Mr. Solness.
SOLNESS.
Oh come, out with it; I have seen it quite clearly, you know.
DR. HERDAL.
What have you seen?
SOLNESS.
[In a low voice, slowly.] That you have been quietly keeping an eye upon me.
DR. HERDAL.
That _I_ have! And why in all the world should I do that?
SOLNESS.
Because you think that I---- [Pa.s.sionately.] Well devil take it--you think the same of me as Aline does.
DR. HERDAL.
And what does she think about you?
SOLNESS.
[Having recovered his self-control.] She has begun to think that I am--that I am--ill.
DR. HERDAL.