This was an unhappy circ.u.mstance, as Agatha learned when she came down, fresh-faced, to the dinner. For, left alone with the troopers, the old gentleman naturally asked them concerning the details of her coming into Stuart"s lines, and as the story of her dash through the canister fire was echoing throughout the army, the young fellows grew enthusiastic in their minute descriptions of her peril and her heroism. When Agatha reappeared, therefore, the old gentleman was all a-tremble. He met her at the foot of the stairway, and a little scene followed, which told the girl not only that he knew all that had been most harrowing in her experiences, but that the knowledge of it would make her coming absence cruelly hard for him to bear.
At dinner he found himself too tremulous to carve, and, for the first time in his life, he relinquished that most hospitable of all a host"s offices to the younger men.
"Never mind, Ladybird," he said, cheerily, as he saw how greatly troubled she was, "it will pa.s.s presently, and you shall find me quite myself again in the morning. We"re going after the birds, you know, you and I. I haven"t allowed a partridge to be killed on the plantation this fall, so that you might be sure of a good day"s sport with Chummie."
Thus it came about that as the old man and the young woman sat in the firelight that evening, after the troopers were gone, Agatha changed her purpose and told him of Baillie Pegram. Delicately, but with perfect candour, she told the whole of the truth.
"I learned to like him very much while I was in Richmond last Christmas, and I was not to blame for that, was I, Chummie? He was so kind to me, so good in a thousand little ways, so gentle in all his strength that he reminded me of you, more than anybody else ever did. I used often to think that he was very much the sort of man you must have been when you were in your twenties. There was no reason, that I knew of, why I should not like him. He was a gentleman, the representative of one of the best families in the State, a man of the highest character, well-educated, travelled, intellectual, and of charming manners. He did more than anybody else--or everybody else for that matter--to make the time pa.s.s pleasantly for me. You see how it was, don"t you, Chummie?"
The old gentleman nodded his head with a smile, and answered:
"I see how it was, Ladybird. Go on. Tell me all about it."
"Then one day there came a letter from The Oaks. It wasn"t just a scolding letter. It was something much worse than that. For if my aunts had scolded me, I shouldn"t have stood it."
"What would you have done, Ladybird?" asked the grandfather, with a look of pleased and loving pride upon his countenance.
"I should have come back to Willoughby and you."
"And right welcome you would have been. But go on. What did the old cats--psha! I didn"t mean that; I thought I heard a cat yowling as I spoke--what did the good ladies of The Oaks say to you?"
"O, they wrote very kindly and sorrowfully. They were shocked to know that I had permitted something like intimacy to grow up between myself and a young man without consulting them as to the proprieties of the situation. But how could I have done that, Chummie? You see I didn"t sit down and say, "I"m going to be intimate with this young man if my aunts approve." The friendship just grew, quite naturally, like the gra.s.s on a lawn. I didn"t think about it at all, and I don"t see why I should. I met Mr. Pegram in all the best houses; everybody was fond of him, and everybody spoke of him in the highest terms. Why should I think--"
"You shouldn"t, Ladybird. I should have been ashamed of you if you had.
Only a vain or morbidly self-conscious girl would have thought in such a case. And only--there goes that confounded cat again--only elderly gentlewomen of secluded lives and a badly perverted sense of propriety would ever have thought of such a thing. But continue, my child. I suppose they told you about that idiotic old quarrel--"
"Yes, Chummie--they told me and they didn"t tell me. They never would say what it was all about, or how much there was in it. Indeed, they told me I was guilty of a great irreverence in even asking concerning it. They said it should be quite enough for a well-ordered young woman to know that these people were my father"s enemies. As Mr. Baillie Pegram never knew my father, I couldn"t understand why he and I should be enemies, but when I said something like that, I saw that the aunties were terribly shocked. I suppose I"m not a "well-ordered" young lady, Chummie."
"No! Thank G.o.d you"re not. You are just a sweet, wholesome, lovable girl--and that is very different from what those old--ladies call a "well-ordered" young woman."
"Well, anyhow," the girl resumed, "I obeyed my instructions. I wrote to Mr. Pegram, telling him there could be no friendship between him and me, and do you know, Chummie, they blamed me more for that than for all the rest. They said it was "unladylike" and a lot more things, for me to write to him at all. But I never could find out what they thought I ought to have done. I couldn"t break off the acquaintance without telling him I must do so, could I?"
"_You_ couldn"t, and I"m glad you couldn"t. A "well-ordered" young lady would have done it easily. She would have told a lot of lies about not being at home when he called, or having a headache when he wanted to see her. You couldn"t do that because you are honest and truthful, and that"s the best thing about you, except your love for your old Chummie, and even that wouldn"t be of much account if I couldn"t trust its truth and sincerity. Go on, child. I didn"t mean to interrupt."
"O, but you must interrupt. That"s the only way I know what you"re thinking. Well, I went to The Oaks sometime later, and while there I went out one morning for a ride by myself. My poor horse broke his leg, as I told you in a letter, and Mr. Baillie Pegram happened along, and was very kind in helping me out of my trouble. He insisted that I should ride his mare home. I tried all I could to refuse, but he showed me that I simply could not help myself, and so I took the mare,--the same one that was killed under him at Mana.s.sas. That time the aunties did actually scold me, or pretty nearly that. So I rebelled, and made up my mind to come back to you at once. Mr. Pegram dined at The Oaks on the day before I started, and he and I had a long talk, but of course it could not change the situation. That was the last I saw of him until the day before the battle of Mana.s.sas, when he took a red feather out of my hat and wore it in the battle. He was terribly wounded in the fight, but he sent the feather back to me as he had promised to do. I had quoted to him or let him quote to me the Indian"s defiance, "There is war between me and thee." It was after that that he insisted upon taking the feather and wearing it through the battle."
The girl paused, but her grandfather said nothing for a whole minute.
Perhaps he felt that she needed the pause before speaking further. At last he said, very low and gently:
"Tell me about yesterday morning."
She did so, sparing herself at no point. She told of Baillie"s outburst, and of the declaration of his love. She told, too, of her chilling answer, and her perversity in so managing the conversation as to prevent a recurrence to the subject. Finally she broke down, saying with streaming eyes:
"Oh, Chummie! I have ruined his life--and my own!"
"I don"t know so well about that. He may recover, you know."
"Yes, I know. But what then?" At that she laid her head upon the old man"s breast and let herself become a little child again, in an abandonment of grief. And with a childlike confidence and candour she said at last:
"Oh, Chummie! Don"t you understand? He can never know. He will always think of me as hard and cold and unresponsive. After what I said to him yesterday morning, he cannot again tell me--why, Chummie, it was as bad as if I had slapped him in the face!"
The old man caressed her till her agitation subsided. Then, speaking in a tone of wisdom which irresistibly carried conviction with it, he said:
"You are wholly wrong, Agatha. Baillie Pegram is much too brave and true, and much too generous a man to let this matter rest where it is.
If he recovers, as I pray G.o.d he may, be very sure he will come to you again and tell you calmly what he blurted out without meaning to do so, under stress of a trying situation. You must go to sleep now, little girl. You are very weary and greatly overwrought. And we must be up with the sun to-morrow on account of the birds. Good night, dear. You must never leave me again while I live."
There was unsteadiness in his step, as he gallantly ushered her through the doorway, and as he returned to the room to extinguish the solitary lamp. Then a heaviness came over him, and he sat down again in his easy chair before the fire. The logs had ceased to blaze and crackle now, but the old man sat still. The logs fell into a ma.s.s of glowing coals after a time, and slowly the coals ceased to glow. One by one they went out.
Still he did not move.
There were only ashes in the great fireplace when the morning came and Agatha found her Chummie still sitting there where the fire of his life had so gently gone out.
XXI
_AT PARTING_
News of Colonel Archer"s death ran rapidly through a State of which he had been one of the foremost citizens, by reason alike of his public services and his private virtues. It quickly reached Stuart"s ears, and he promptly sent a courier with a letter of sympathy and friendship, at the end of which he wrote:
"Now, my dear Miss Agatha, I crave a favour at your hands. Your grandfather was a soldier greatly distinguished in two wars. He should have a soldier"s burial, and with your permission, which I take for granted, I am ordering a company of dragoons and a battery now stationed at Warrenton and under my command, to move at once to Willoughby, and there pay the last honours to the veteran."
Heart-broken as she was, Agatha met calamity with a fort.i.tude which astonished even herself. She was still scarcely more than a girl, but the blood of a soldier filled her veins,--a soldier who had never flinched from danger or murmured under suffering. "I too will neither flinch nor murmur," she said to herself. "Chummie would like it best to see me brave and resolute, if he could know--and perhaps he does know. I will bear myself as he would like me to."
And she kept that vow to the letter. The tears would mount to her eyelids now and then in spite of her and trickle down her cheeks; but they were silent tears, accompanied by no moanings that were audible; they were the tears of heart-break, not the tears of weakness and self-pity. They were hidden for the most part from human view, and resolutely restrained in the presence of others. And when any of those who thronged about her for her consolation caught momentary sight of them, the effect was like that produced when a strong man weeps.
When the soldiers came she directed an attentive ministry to their comfort, and after the last salutes to the dead had been fired over the grave, she turned to Captain Marshall Pollard, whose battery it was that had paid that tribute of honour, and asked in a steady voice:
"Can you arrange to stay at Willoughby overnight? I have need to talk with you of matters of some importance. It will be very kind and good of you, if you can manage it."
After a moment"s reflection, Marshall answered:
"I can stay till midnight, and that will give us time for our talk. I must be at Warrenton at reveille in the morning, but my horse will easily make the distance if I start by one o"clock."
Then he spoke a few words in a low tone to his lieutenant, who took command and marched the battery away, with all heads bared till they had pa.s.sed out of the grounds.
"Let us not talk of my grandfather, please," said the girl, as the two entered the drawing-room. "Not that I shrink from that," she quickly added. "It can never be painful to me to speak of him. But it might distress you. You knew him and loved him long ago, before--before you and I quarrelled."
She did not shrink from this reference to the past, or try in any way to disguise the truth of it. Her mind was full of the dear dead man"s last words spoken in praise of her courage and truthfulness, and she was more resolute than ever to live up to the character he had approved so earnestly and with so much of loving admiration.
"I think we did not quarrel," the young captain responded; "you did not, at any rate. I misjudged you cruelly, and in my anger I falsely accused you in my heart. Believe me, Agatha,"--he had called her so in the old days, and the name came easily to his lips now,--"believe me when I say that I have outlived all that bitterness. Let us be true, loyal friends hereafter, friends who know and trust each other, friends who do not misunderstand."
The girl held out her hand, in response, and made no effort to hide the tears with which she welcomed this healing of the old wounds.
The young man, too, rejoiced in a reconciliation which laid his old love for this woman for ever to rest and planted flowers of friendship upon its grave. He was astonished at his own condition of mind and heart. He learned now the truth that his mad love for Agatha had become completely a thing of the past, and that the bitterness which had at first succeeded it was utterly gone. He could think of her henceforth with a tender affection that had no trace of pa.s.sion in it. The dead past had buried its dead, and the gra.s.s grew green above it.
At that moment dinner was announced, for Agatha had decreed that life at Willoughby should at once resume its accustomed order. "Chummie would like it so," she thought. So the two friends pa.s.sed through the hall to the dining-room hand in hand, just as they had so often done in the old days before pa.s.sion had come to disturb their lives.