"No."
"Well, I am. Could we go down, please?"
She didn"t argue, she just said, "All right. What am I to do?"
"Lean right and get out of the circle." I intended to have her move out five or six hundred feet, get into the return down draft, and circle the cave down instead of up. I glanced up, looking for Jeff. I finally spotted him some distance away and much higher but coming toward us. I called out, "Jeff! See you on the ground." He might not have heard me but he would see if he didn"t hear; I glanced back at Ariel.
I couldn"t find her.
Then I saw her, a hundred feet below -- flailing her wings and falling, out of control.
I didn"t know how it happened. Maybe she leaned too far, went into a sideslip and started to struggle. But I didn"t try to figure it out; I was simply filled with horror. I seemed to hang there frozen for an hour while I watched her.
But the fact appears to be that I screamed "Jeff!" and broke into a stoop.
But I didn"t seem to fall, couldn"t overtake her. I spilled my wings completely -- but couldn"t manage to fall; she was as far away as ever.
You do start slowly, of course; our low gravity is the only thing that makes human flying possible. Even a stone falls a scant three feet in the first second. But the first second seemed endless.
Then I knew I was falling. I could feel rushing air -- but I still didn"t seem to close on her. Her struggles must have slowed her somewhat, while I was in an intentional stoop, wings spilled and raised over my head, falling as fast as possible. I had a wild notion that if I could pull even with her, I could shout sense into her head, get her to dive, then straighten out in a glide. But I couldn"t reach reach her. her.
This nightmare dragged on for hours.
Actually we didn"t have room to fall for more than twenty seconds; that"s all it takes to stoop a thousand feet. But twenty seconds can be horribly long . . . long enough to regret every foolish thing I had ever done or said, long enough to say a prayer for us both.. . and to say good-bye to Jeff in my heart. Long enough to see the floor rushing toward us and know that we were both going to crash if I didn"t overtake her mighty quick.
I glanced up and Jeff was stooping right over us but a long way up. I looked down at once.. . and I was overtaking her... I was pa.s.sing her -- I was under her I was under her!
Then I was braking with everything I had, almost pulling my wings off. I grabbed air, held it, and started to beat without ever going to level flight. I beat once, twice, three times. . . and hit her from below, jarring us both.
Then the floor hit us.
I felt feeble and dreamily contented. I was on my back in a dim room. I think Mother was with me and I know Daddy was. My nose itched and I tried to scratch it, but my arms wouldn"t work. I fell asleep again.
I woke up hungry and wide awake. I was in a hospital bed and my arms still wouldn"t work, which wasn"t surprising as they were both in casts. A nurse came in with a tray. "Hungry?" she asked.
"Starved," I admitted.
"We"ll fix that." She started feeding me like a baby.
I dodged the third spoonful and demanded, "What happened to my arms?"
"Hush," she said and gagged me with a spoon.
But a nice doctor came in later and answered my question. "Nothing much. Three simple fractures. At your age you"ll heal in no time. But we like your company so I"m holding you for observation of possible internal injury."
"I"m not hurt inside," I told him. "At least, I don"t hurt."
"I told you it was just an excuse."
"Uh, Doctor?"
"Well?"
"Will I be able to fly again?" I waited, scared.
"Certainly. I"ve seen men hurt worse get up and go three rounds."
"Oh. Well, thanks. Doctor? What happened to the other girl? Is she. . . did she...?"
"Brentwood? She"s here."
"She"s right here," Ariel agreed from the door. "May I come in?"
My jaw dropped, then I said, "Yeah. Sure. Come in."
The doctor said, "Don"t stay long," and left. I said, "Well, sit down."
"Thanks." She hopped instead of walked and I saw that one foot was bandaged. She got on the end of the bed.
"You hurt your foot."
She shrugged. "Nothing. A sprain and a torn ligament. Two cracked ribs. But I would have been dead. You know why I"m not?"
I didn"t answer. She touched one of my casts. "That"s why. You broke my fall and I landed on top of you. You saved my life and I broke both your arms."
"You don"t have to thank me. I would have done it for anybody."
"I believe you and I wasn"t thanking you. You can"t thank a person for saving your life. I just wanted to make sure you knew that I knew it."
I didn"t have an answer so I said, "Where"s Jeff? Is he all right?"
"He"ll be along soon. Jeff"s not hurt . . . though I"m surprised he didn"t break both ankles. He stalled in beside us so hard that he should have. But Holly . . . Holly my very dear . . . I slipped in so that you and I could talk about him before he got here."
I changed the subject quickly. Whatever they had given me made me feel dreamy and good, but not beyond being embarra.s.sed. "Ariel, what happened? You were getting along fine -- then suddenly you were in trouble."
She looked sheepish. "My own fault. You said we were going down, so I looked down. Really looked, I mean. Before that, all my thoughts had been about climbing to the roof; I hadn"t thought about how far down the floor was. Then I looked down and got dizzy and panicky and went all to pieces." She shrugged. "You were right. I wasn"t ready."
I thought about it and nodded. "I see. But don"t worry -- when my arms are well, I"ll take you up again."
She touched my foot. "Dear Holly. But I won"t be flying again; I"m going back where I belong."
"Earthside?"
"Yes. I"m taking the Billy Mitch.e.l.l Billy Mitch.e.l.l on Wednesday." on Wednesday."
"Oh. I"m sorry."
She frowned slightly. "Are you? Holly, you don"t like me, do you?"
I was startled silly. What can you say? Especially when it"s true? "Well," I said slowly, "I don"t dislike you. I just don"t know you very well."
She nodded. "And I don"t know you very well . . . even though I got to know you a lot better in a very few seconds. But Holly listen please and don"t get angry. It"s about Jeff. He hasn"t treated you very well the last few days -- while I"ve been here, I mean. But don"t be angry with him. I"m leaving and everything will be the same."
That ripped it open and I couldn"t ignore it, because if I did, she would a.s.sume all sorts of things that weren"t so. So I had to explain. . . about me being a career woman.. . how, if I had seemed upset, it was simply distress at breaking up the firm of Jones & Hardesty before it even finished its first starship . how I was not in love with Jeff but simply valued him as a friend and a.s.sociate. . . but if Jones & Hardesty couldn"t carry on, then Jones & Company would. "So you see, Ariel, it isn"t necessary for you to give up Jeff. If you feel you owe me something, just forget it. It isn"t necessary."
She blinked and I saw with amazement that she was holding back tears. "Holly, Holly. . . you don"t understand at all."
"I understand all right. I"m not a child."
"No, you"re a grown woman. . . but you haven"t found it out." She held up a finger. "One -- Jeff doesn"t love me."
"I don"t believe it."
"Two. . . I don"t love him."
"I don"t believe that, either."
"Three . . . you say you don"t love him -- but we"ll take that up when we come to it. Holly, am I beautiful?"
Changing the subject is a female trait but I"ll never learn to do it that fast. "Huh?"
"I said, "Am I beautiful?""
"You know darn well you are!"
"Yes. I can sing a bit and dance, but I would get few parts if I were not, because I"m no better than a third-rate actress. So I have to be beautiful. How old am I?"
I managed not to boggle. "Huh? Older than Jeff thinks you are. Twenty-one, at least. Maybe twenty-two."
She sighed. "Holly, I"m old enough to be your mother."
"Huh? I don"t believe that, either."
"I"m glad it doesn"t show. But that"s why, though Jeff is a dear, there never was a chance that I could fall in love with him. But how I feel about him doesn"t matter; the important thing is that he loves you."
"What? That"s the silliest thing you"ve said yet! Oh, he likes me -- or did. But that"s all." I gulped. "And it"s all I want. Why, you should hear the way he talks to me."
"I have. But boys that age can"t say what they mean; they get embarra.s.sed."
"But--"
"Wait, Holly. I saw something you didn"t because you were knocked cold. When you and I b.u.mped, do you know what happened?"
"Uh, no."
"Jeff arrived like an avenging angel, a split second behind us. He was ripping his wings off as he hit, getting his arms free. He didn"t even look at me. He just stepped across me and picked you up and cradled you in his arms, all the while bawling his eyes out."
"He did?"
"He did."
I mulled it over. Maybe the big lunk did kind of like me, after all.
Ariel went on, "So you see, Holly, even if you don"t love him, you must be very gentle with him, because he loves you and you can hurt him terribly."
I tried to think. Romance was still something that a career woman should shun . . . but if Jeff really did feel that way -- well. . . would it be compromising my ideals to marry him just to keep him happy? To keep the firm together? Eventually, that is?
But if I did, it wouldn"t be Jones & Hardesty; it would be Hardesty & Hardesty.
Ariel was still talking: "--you might even fall in love with him. It does happen, hon, and if it did, you"d be sorry if you had chased him away. Some other girl would grab him; he"s awfully nice."
"But," I shut up for I heard Jeff"s step -- I can always tell it. He stopped in the door and looked at us, frowning.
"Hi, Ariel."
"Hi, Jeff."
"Hi, Fraction." He looked me over. "My, but you"re a mess."
"You aren"t pretty yourself. I hear you have flat feet."
"Permanently. How do you brush your teeth with those things on your arms?"
"I don"t."
Ariel slid off the bed, balanced on one foot. "Must run. See you later, kids."
"So long, Ariel."
"Good-bye, Ariel. Uh. . . thanks."
Jeff closed the door after she hopped away, came to the bed and said gruffly, "Hold still."
Then he put his arms around me and kissed me.
Well, I couldn"t stop him, could I? With both arms broken? Besides, it was consonant with the new policy of the firm. I was startled speechless because Jeff never kisses me, except birthday kisses, which don"t count. But I tried to kiss back and show that I appreciated it.
I don"t know what the stuff was they had been giving me but my ears began to ring and I felt dizzy again.
Then he was leaning over me. "Runt," he said mournfully, "you sure give me a lot of grief."
"You"re no bargain yourself, flathead," I answered with dignity.
"I suppose not." He looked me over sadly. "What are you crying for?"