women as han"t got much money. If it hadn"t been for the moths, now, every hankicher on "em "ud ha" gone to the rich, handsome ladies, like you, mum, at five shillin" apiece,--not a farthin" less; but what does the moth do? Why, it nibbles off three shillin" o" the price i" no time; an" then a packman like me can carry "t to the poor la.s.ses as live under the dark thack, to make a bit of a blaze for "em. Lors, it"s as good as a fire, to look at such a hankicher!"
Bob held it at a distance for admiration, but Mrs. Glegg said sharply:
"Yes, but n.o.body wants a fire this time o" year. Put these colored things by; let me look at your nets, if you"ve got "em."
"Eh, mum, I told you how it "ud be," said Bob, flinging aside the colored things with an air of desperation. "I knowed it ud" turn again" you to look at such paltry articles as I carry. Here"s a piece o" figured muslin now, what"s the use o" you lookin" at it? You might as well look at poor folks"s victual, mum; it "ud on"y take away your appet.i.te. There"s a yard i" the middle on"t as the pattern"s all missed,--lors, why, it"s a muslin as the Princess Victoree might ha"
wore; but," added Bob, flinging it behind him on to the turf, as if to save Mrs. Glegg"s eyes, "it"ll be bought up by the huckster"s wife at Fibb"s End,--that"s where _it"ll_ go--ten shillin" for the whole lot--ten yards, countin" the damaged un--five-an"-twenty shillin" "ud ha" been the price, not a penny less. But I"ll say no more, mum; it"s nothing to you, a piece o" muslin like that; you can afford to pay three times the money for a thing as isn"t half so good. It"s nets _you_ talked on; well, I"ve got a piece as "ull serve you to make fun on----"
"Bring me that muslin," said Mrs. Glegg. "It"s a buff; I"m partial to buff."
"Eh, but a _damaged_ thing," said Bob, in a tone of deprecating disgust. "You"d do nothing with it, mum, you"d give it to the cook, I know you would, an" it "ud be a pity,--she"d look too much like a lady in it; it"s unbecoming for servants."
"Fetch it, and let me see you measure it," said Mrs. Glegg, authoritatively.
Bob obeyed with ostentatious reluctance.
"See what there is over measure!" he said, holding forth the extra half-yard, while Mrs. Glegg was busy examining the damaged yard, and throwing her head back to see how far the fault would be lost on a distant view.
"I"ll give you six shilling for it," she said, throwing it down with the air of a person who mentions an ultimatum.
"Didn"t I tell you now, mum, as it "ud hurt your feelings to look at my pack? That damaged bit"s turned your stomach now; I see it has,"
said Bob, wrapping the muslin up with the utmost quickness, and apparently about to fasten up his pack. "You"re used to seein" a different sort o" article carried by packmen, when you lived at the stone house. Packs is come down i" the world; I told you that; _my_ goods are for common folks. Mrs. Pepper "ull give me ten shillin" for that muslin, an" be sorry as I didn"t ask her more. Such articles answer i" the wearin",--they keep their color till the threads melt away i" the wash-tub, an" that won"t be while _I"m_ a young un."
"Well, seven shilling," said Mrs. Glegg.
"Put it out o" your mind, mum, now do," said Bob. "Here"s a bit o"
net, then, for you to look at before I tie up my pack, just for you to see what my trade"s come to,--spotted and sprigged, you see, beautiful but yallow,--"s been lyin" by an" got the wrong color. I could niver ha" bought such net, if it hadn"t been yallow. Lors, it"s took me a deal o" study to know the vally o" such articles; when I begun to carry a pack, I was as ignirant as a pig; net or calico was all the same to me. I thought them things the most vally as was the thickest.
I was took in dreadful, for I"m a straightforrard chap,--up to no tricks, mum. I can only say my nose is my own, for if I went beyond, I should lose myself pretty quick. An" I gev five-an"-eightpence for that piece o" net,--if I was to tell y" anything else I should be tellin" you fibs,--an" five-an"-eightpence I shall ask of it, not a penny more, for it"s a woman"s article, an" I like to "commodate the women. Five-an"-eightpence for six yards,--as cheap as if it was only the dirt on it as was paid for.""
"I don"t mind having three yards of it,"" said Mrs. Glegg.
"Why, there"s but six altogether," said Bob. "No, mum, it isn"t worth your while; you can go to the shop to-morrow an" get the same pattern ready whitened. It"s on"y three times the money; what"s that to a lady like you?" He gave an emphatic tie to his bundle.
"Come, lay me out that muslin," said Mrs. Glegg. "Here"s eight shilling for it."
"You _will_ be jokin"," said Bob, looking up with a laughing face; "I see"d you was a pleasant lady when I fust come to the winder."
"Well, put it me out," said Mrs. Glegg, peremptorily.
"But if I let you have it for ten shillin", mum, you"ll be so good as not tell n.o.body. I should be a laughin"-stock; the trade "ud hoot me, if they knowed it. I"m obliged to make believe as I ask more nor I do for my goods, else they"d find out I was a flat. I"m glad you don"t insist upo" buyin" the net, for then I should ha" lost my two best bargains for Mrs. Pepper o" Fibb"s End, an" she"s a rare customer."
"Let me look at the net again," said Mrs. Glegg, yearning after the cheap spots and sprigs, now they were vanishing.
"Well, I can"t deny _you_, mum," said Bob handing it out.
"Eh!, see what a pattern now! Real Laceham goods. Now, this is the sort o" article I"m recommendin" Mr. Tom to send out. Lors, it"s a fine thing for anybody as has got a bit o" money; these Laceham goods "ud make it breed like maggits. If I was a lady wi" a bit o"
money!--why, I know one as put thirty pounds into them goods,--a lady wi" a cork leg, but as sharp,--you wouldn"t catch _her_ runnin" her head into a sack; _she"d_ see her way clear out o" anything afore she"d be in a hurry to start. Well, she let out thirty pound to a young man in the drapering line, and he laid it out i" Laceham goods, an" a shupercargo o" my acquinetance (not Salt) took "em out, an" she got her eight per zent fust go off; an" now you can"t hold her but she must be sendin" out carguies wi" every ship, till she"s gettin" as rich as a Jew. Bucks her name is, she doesn"t live i" this town. Now then, mum, if you"ll please to give me the net----"
"Here"s fifteen shilling, then, for the two," said Mrs. Glegg. "But it"s a shameful price."
"Nay, mum, you"ll niver say that when you"re upo" your knees i" church i" five years" time. I"m makin" you a present o" th" articles; I am, indeed. That eightpence shaves off my profits as clean as a razor. Now then, sir," continued Bob, shouldering his pack, "if you please, I"ll be glad to go and see about makin" Mr. Tom"s fortin. Eh, I wish I"d got another twenty pound to lay out _my_sen; I shouldn"t stay to say my Catechism afore I knowed what to do wi"t."
"Stop a bit, Mr. Glegg," said the lady, as her husband took his hat, "you never _will_ give me the chance o" speaking. You"ll go away now, and finish everything about this business, and come back and tell me it"s too late for me to speak. As if I wasn"t my nephey"s own aunt, and the head o" the family on his mother"s side! and laid by guineas, all full weight, for him, as he"ll know who to respect when I"m laid in my coffin."
"Well, Mrs. G., say what you mean," said Mr. G., hastily.
"Well, then, I desire as nothing may be done without my knowing. I don"t say as I sha"n"t venture twenty pounds, if you make out as everything"s right and safe. And if I do, Tom," concluded Mrs. Glegg, turning impressively to her nephew, "I hope you"ll allays bear it in mind and be grateful for such an aunt. I mean you to pay me interest, you know; I don"t approve o" giving; we niver looked for that in _my_ family."
"Thank you, aunt," said Tom, rather proudly. "I prefer having the money only lent to me."
"Very well; that"s the Dodson sperrit," said Mrs. Glegg, rising to get her knitting with the sense that any further remark after this would be bathos.
Salt--that eminently "briny chap"--having been discovered in a cloud of tobacco-smoke at the Anchor Tavern, Mr. Glegg commenced inquiries which turned out satisfactorily enough to warrant the advance of the "nest-egg," to which aunt Glegg contributed twenty pounds; and in this modest beginning you see the ground of a fact which might otherwise surprise you; namely, Tom"s acc.u.mulation of a fund, unknown to his father, that promised in no very long time to meet the more tardy process of saving, and quite cover the deficit. When once his attention had been turned to this source of gain, Tom determined to make the most of it, and lost on opportunity of obtaining information and extending his small enterprises. In not telling his father, he was influenced by that strange mixture of opposite feelings which often gives equal truth to those who blame an action and those who admire it,--partly, it was that disinclination to confidence which is seen between near kindred, that family repulsion which spoils the most sacred relations of our lives; partly, it was the desire to surprise his father with a great joy. He did not see that it would have been better to soothe the interval with a new hope, and prevent the delirium of a too sudden elation.
At the time of Maggie"s first meeting with Philip, Tom had already nearly a hundred and fifty pounds of his own capital; and while they were walking by the evening light in the Red Deeps, he, by the same evening light, was riding into Laceham, proud of being on his first journey on behalf of Guest & Co., and revolving in his mind all the chances that by the end of another year he should have doubled his gains, lifted off the obloquy of debt from his father"s name, and perhaps--for he should be twenty-one--have got a new start for himself, on a higher platform of employment. Did he not desire it? He was quite sure that he did.
Chapter III
The Wavering Balance
I said that Maggie went home that evening from the Red Deeps with a mental conflict already begun. You have seen clearly enough, in her interview with Philip, what that conflict was. Here suddenly was an opening in the rocky wall which shut in the narrow valley of humiliation, where all her prospect was the remote, unfathomed sky; and some of the memory-haunting earthly delights were no longer out of her reach. She might have books, converse, affection; she might hear tidings of the world from which her mind had not yet lost its sense of exile; and it would be a kindness to Philip too, who was pitiable,--clearly not happy. And perhaps here was an opportunity indicated for making her mind more worthy of its highest service; perhaps the n.o.blest, completest devoutness could hardly exist without some width of knowledge; _must_ she always live in this resigned imprisonment? It was so blameless, so good a thing that there should be friendship between her and Philip; the motives that forbade it were so unreasonable, so unchristian! But the severe monotonous warning came again and again,--that she was losing the simplicity and clearness of her life by admitting a ground of concealment; and that, by forsaking the simple rule of renunciation, she was throwing herself under the seductive guidance of illimitable wants. She thought she had won strength to obey the warning before she allowed herself the next week to turn her steps in the evening to the Red Deeps. But while she was resolved to say an affectionate farewell to Philip, how she looked forward to that evening walk in the still, fleckered shade of the hollows, away from all that was harsh and unlovely; to the affectionate, admiring looks that would meet her; to the sense of comradeship that childish memories would give to wiser, older talk; to the certainty that Philip would care to hear everything she said, which no one else cared for! It was a half-hour that it would be very hard to turn her back upon, with the sense that there would be no other like it. Yet she said what she meant to say; she looked firm as well as sad.
"Philip, I have made up my mind; it is right that we should give each other up, in everything but memory. I could not see you without concealment--stay, I know what you are going to say,--it is other people"s wrong feelings that make concealment necessary; but concealment is bad, however it may be caused. I feel that it would be bad for me, for us both. And then, if our secret were discovered, there would be nothing but misery,--dreadful anger; and then we must part after all, and it would be harder, when we were used to seeing each other."
Philip"s face had flushed, and there was a momentary eagerness of expression, as if he had been about to resist this decision with all his might.
But he controlled himself, and said, with a.s.sumed calmness: "Well, Maggie, if we must part, let us try and forget it for one half hour; let us talk together a little while, for the last time."
He took her hand, and Maggie felt no reason to withdraw it; his quietness made her all the more sure she had given him great pain, and she wanted to show him how unwillingly she had given it. They walked together hand in hand in silence.
"Let us sit down in the hollow," said Philip, "where we stood the last time. See how the dog-roses have strewed the ground, and spread their opal petals over it."
They sat down at the roots of the slanting ash.
"I"ve begun my picture of you among the Scotch firs, Maggie," said Philip, "so you must let me study your face a little, while you stay,--since I am not to see it again. Please turn your head this way."
This was said in an entreating voice, and it would have been very hard of Maggie to refuse. The full, l.u.s.trous face, with the bright black coronet, looked down like that of a divinity well pleased to be worshipped, on the pale-hued, small-featured face that was turned up to it.
"I shall be sitting for my second portrait then," she said, smiling.
"Will it be larger than the other?"
"Oh yes, much larger. It is an oil-painting. You will look like a tall Hamadryad, dark and strong and n.o.ble, just issued from one of the fir-trees, when the stems are casting their afternoon shadows on the gra.s.s."
"You seem to think more of painting than of anything now, Philip?"
"Perhaps I do," said Philip, rather sadly; "but I think of too many things,--sow all sorts of seeds, and get no great harvest from any one of them. I"m cursed with susceptibility in every direction, and effective faculty in none. I care for painting and music; I care for cla.s.sic literature, and mediaeval literature, and modern literature; I flutter all ways, and fly in none."