"You will go with me now and speak to him."
"I give you my word not to meet him or write to him again without your knowledge. That is the only thing I will say. I will put my hand on the Bible if you like."
"Say it, then."
Maggie laid her hand on the page of ma.n.u.script and repeated the promise. Tom closed the book, and said, "Now let us go."
Not a word was spoken as they walked along. Maggie was suffering in antic.i.p.ation of what Philip was about to suffer, and dreading the galling words that would fall on him from Tom"s lips; but she felt it was in vain to attempt anything but submission. Tom had his terrible clutch on her conscience and her deepest dread; she writhed under the demonstrable truth of the character he had given to her conduct, and yet her whole soul rebelled against it as unfair from its incompleteness. He, meanwhile, felt the impetus of his indignation diverted toward Philip. He did not know how much of an old boyish repulsion and of mere personal pride and animosity was concerned in the bitter severity of the words by which he meant to do the duty of a son and a brother. Tom was not given to inquire subtly into his own motives any more than into other matters of an intangible kind; he was quite sure that his own motives as well as actions were good, else he would have had nothing to do with them.
Maggie"s only hope was that something might, for the first time, have prevented Philip from coming. Then there would be delay,--then she might get Tom"s permission to write to him. Her heart beat with double violence when they got under the Scotch firs. It was the last moment of suspense, she thought; Philip always met her soon after she got beyond them. But they pa.s.sed across the more open green s.p.a.ce, and entered the narrow bushy path by the mound. Another turning, and they came so close upon him that both Tom and Philip stopped suddenly within a yard of each other. There was a moment"s silence, in which Philip darted a look of inquiry at Maggie"s face. He saw an answer there, in the pale, parted lips, and the terrified tension of the large eyes. Her imagination, always rushing extravagantly beyond an immediate impression, saw her tall, strong brother grasping the feeble Philip bodily, crushing him and trampling on him.
"Do you call this acting the part of a man and a gentleman, sir?" Tom said, in a voice of harsh scorn, as soon as Philip"s eyes were turned on him again.
"What do you mean?" answered Philip, haughtily.
"Mean? Stand farther from me, lest I should lay hands on you, and I"ll tell you what I mean. I mean, taking advantage of a young girl"s foolishness and ignorance to get her to have secret meetings with you.
I mean, daring to trifle with the respectability of a family that has a good and honest name to support."
"I deny that," interrupted Philip, impetuously. "I could never trifle with anything that affected your sister"s happiness. She is dearer to me than she is to you; I honor her more than you can ever honor her; I would give up my life to her."
"Don"t talk high-flown nonsense to me, sir! Do you mean to pretend that you didn"t know it would be injurious to her to meet you here week after week? Do you pretend you had any right to make professions of love to her, even if you had been a fit husband for her, when neither her father nor your father would ever consent to a marriage between you? And _you_,--_you_ to try and worm yourself into the affections of a handsome girl who is not eighteen, and has been shut out from the world by her father"s misfortunes! That"s your crooked notion of honor, is it? I call it base treachery; I call it taking advantage of circ.u.mstances to win what"s too good for you,--what you"d never get by fair means."
"It is manly of you to talk in this way to _me_," said Philip, bitterly, his whole frame shaken by violent emotions. "Giants have an immemorial right to stupidity and insolent abuse. You are incapable even of understanding what I feel for your sister. I feel so much for her that I could even desire to be at friendship with _you_."
"I should be very sorry to understand your feelings," said Tom, with scorching contempt. "What I wish is that you should understand _me_,--that I shall take care of _my_ sister, and that if you dare to make the least attempt to come near her, or to write to her, or to keep the slightest hold on her mind, your puny, miserable body, that ought to have put some modesty into your mind, shall not protect you.
I"ll thrash you; I"ll hold you up to public scorn. Who wouldn"t laugh at the idea of _your_ turning lover to a fine girl?"
Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for some yards. He burst out, in a convulsed voice.
"Stay, Maggie!" said Philip, making a strong effort to speak. Then looking at Tom, "You have dragged your sister here, I suppose, that she may stand by while you threaten and insult me. These naturally seemed to you the right means to influence me. But you are mistaken.
Let your sister speak. If she says she is bound to give me up, I shall abide by her wishes to the slightest word."
"It was for my father"s sake, Philip," said Maggie, imploringly. "Tom threatens to tell my father, and he couldn"t bear it; I have promised, I have vowed solemnly, that we will not have any intercourse without my brother"s knowledge."
"It is enough, Maggie. _I_ shall not change; but I wish you to hold yourself entirely free. But trust me; remember that I can never seek for anything but good to what belongs to you."
"Yes," said Tom, exasperated by this att.i.tude of Philip"s, "you can talk of seeking good for her and what belongs to her now; did you seek her good before?"
"I did,--at some risk, perhaps. But I wished her to have a friend for life,--who would cherish her, who would do her more justice than a coa.r.s.e and narrow-minded brother, that she has always lavished her affections on."
"Yes, my way of befriending her is different from yours; and I"ll tell you what is my way. I"ll save her from disobeying and disgracing her father; I"ll save her from throwing herself away on you,--from making herself a laughing-stock,--from being flouted by a man like _your_ father, because she"s not good enough for his son. You know well enough what sort of justice and cherishing you were preparing for her.
I"m not to be imposed upon by fine words; I can see what actions mean.
Come away, Maggie."
He seized Maggie"s right wrist as he spoke, and she put out her left hand. Philip clasped it an instant, with one eager look, and then hurried away.
Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for some yards. He was still holding her wrist tightly, as if he were compelling a culprit from the scene of action. At last Maggie, with a violent s.n.a.t.c.h, drew her hand away, and her pent-up, long-gathered irritation burst into utterance.
"Don"t suppose that I think you are right, Tom, or that I bow to your will. I despise the feelings you have shown in speaking to Philip; I detest your insulting, unmanly allusions to his deformity. You have been reproaching other people all your life; you have been always sure you yourself are right. It is because you have not a mind large enough to see that there is anything better than your own conduct and your own petty aims."
"Certainly," said Tom, coolly. "I don"t see that your conduct is better, or your aims either. If your conduct, and Philip Wakem"s conduct, has been right, why are you ashamed of its being known?
Answer me that. I know what I have aimed at in my conduct, and I"ve succeeded; pray, what good has your conduct brought to you or any one else?"
"I don"t want to defend myself," said Maggie, still with vehemence: "I know I"ve been wrong,--often, continually. But yet, sometimes when I have done wrong, it has been because I have feelings that you would be the better for, if you had them. If _you_ were in fault ever, if you had done anything very wrong, I should be sorry for the pain it brought you; I should not want punishment to be heaped on you. But you have always enjoyed punishing me; you have always been hard and cruel to me; even when I was a little girl, and always loved you better than any one else in the world, you would let me go crying to bed without forgiving me. You have no pity; you have no sense of your own imperfection and your own sins. It is a sin to be hard; it is not fitting for a mortal, for a Christian. You are nothing but a Pharisee.
You thank G.o.d for nothing but your own virtues; you think they are great enough to win you everything else. You have not even a vision of feelings by the side of which your shining virtues are mere darkness!"
"Well," said Tom, with cold scorn, "if your feelings are so much better than mine, let me see you show them in some other way than by conduct that"s likely to disgrace us all,--than by ridiculous flights first into one extreme and then into another. Pray, how have you shown your love, that you talk of, either to me or my father? By disobeying and deceiving us. I have a different way of showing my affection."
"Because you are a man, Tom, and have power, and can do something in the world."
"Then, if you can do nothing, submit to those that can."
"So I _will_ submit to what I acknowledge and feel to be right. I will submit even to what is unreasonable from my father, but I will not submit to it from you. You boast of your virtues as if they purchased you a right to be cruel and unmanly, as you"ve been to-day. Don"t suppose I would give up Philip Wakem in obedience to you. The deformity you insult would make me cling to him and care for him the more."
"Very well; that is your view of things." said Tom, more coldly than ever; "you need say no more to show me what a wide distance there is between us. Let us remember that in future, and be silent."
Tom went back to St. Ogg"s, to fulfill an appointment with his uncle Deane, and receive directions about a journey on which he was to set out the next morning.
Maggie went up to her own room to pour out all that indignant remonstrance, against which Tom"s mind was close barred, in bitter tears. Then, when the first burst of unsatisfied anger was gone by, came the recollection of that quiet time before the pleasure which had ended in to-day"s misery had perturbed the clearness and simplicity of her life. She used to think in that time that she had made great conquests, and won a lasting stand on serene heights above worldly temptations and conflict. And here she was down again in the thick of a hot strife with her own and others" pa.s.sions. Life was not so short, then, and perfect rest was not so near as she had dreamed when she was two years younger. There was more struggle for her, and perhaps more falling. If she had felt that she was entirely wrong, and that Tom had been entirely right, she could sooner have recovered more inward harmony; but now her penitence and submission were constantly obstructed by resentment that would present itself to her no otherwise than as a just indignation. Her heart bled for Philip; she went on recalling the insults that had been flung at him with so vivid a conception of what he had felt under them, that it was almost like a sharp bodily pain to her, making her beat the floor with her foot and tighten her fingers on her palm.
And yet, how was it that she was now and then conscious of a certain dim background of relief in the forced separation from Philip? Surely it was only because the sense of a deliverance from concealment was welcome at any cost.
Chapter VI
The Hard-Won Triumph
Three weeks later, when Dorlcote Mill was at its prettiest moment in all the year,--the great chestnuts in blossom, and the gra.s.s all deep and daisied,--Tom Tulliver came home to it earlier than usual in the evening, and as he pa.s.sed over the bridge, he looked with the old deep-rooted affection at the respectable red brick house, which always seemed cheerful and inviting outside, let the rooms be as bare and the hearts as sad as they might inside. There is a very pleasant light in Tom"s blue-gray eyes as he glances at the house-windows; that fold in his brow never disappears, but it is not unbecoming; it seems to imply a strength of will that may possibly be without harshness, when the eyes and mouth have their gentlest expression. His firm step becomes quicker, and the corners of his mouth rebel against the compression which is meant to forbid a smile.
The eyes in the parlor were not turned toward the bridge just then, and the group there was sitting in unexpectant silence,--Mr. Tulliver in his arm-chair, tired with a long ride, and ruminating with a worn look, fixed chiefly on Maggie, who was bending over her sewing while her mother was making the tea.
They all looked up with surprise when they heard the well-known foot.
"Why, what"s up now, Tom?" said his father. "You"re a bit earlier than usual."
"Oh, there was nothing more for me to do, so I came away. Well, mother!"
Tom went up to his mother and kissed her, a sign of unusual good-humor with him. Hardly a word or look had pa.s.sed between him and Maggie in all the three weeks; but his usual incommunicativeness at home prevented this from being noticeable to their parents.
"Father," said Tom, when they had finished tea, "do you know exactly how much money there is in the tin box?"
"Only a hundred and ninety-three pound," said Mr. Tulliver. "You"ve brought less o" late; but young fellows like to have their own way with their money. Though I didn"t do as I liked before _I_ was of age." He spoke with rather timid discontent.
"Are you quite sure that"s the sum, father?" said Tom. "I wish you would take the trouble to fetch the tin box down. I think you have perhaps made a mistake."
"How should I make a mistake?" said his father, sharply. "I"ve counted it often enough; but I can fetch it, if you won"t believe me."