He had not been ignorant that his clothes were queer in cut and out of date, and during his stay at Miss Vane"s he had taken much council with himself as to whether he ought not to get a new suit with his first money instead of sending it home. Now he had solved the question, after sending the money home, by the discovery of a place on a degenerate street, in a neighbourhood of Chinese laundries, with the polite name of Misfit Parlours, where they professed to sell the failures of the leading tailors of Boston, New York, and Chicago. After long study of the window of the Parlours, Lemuel ventured within one day, and was told, when he said he could not afford the suit he fancied, that he might pay for it on the instalment plan, which the proprietor explained to him. In the mirror he was almost startled at the stylishness of his own image. The proprietor of the Parlours complimented him. "You see, you"ve got a good figure for a suit of clothes--what I call a ready made figure. _You_ can go into a clothing store anywheres and fit you."
He took the first instalment of the price, with Lemuel"s name and address, and said he would send the clothes round; but in the evening he brought them himself, and no doubt verified Lemuel"s statement by this device. It was a Sat.u.r.day night, and the next morning Lemuel rose early to put them on. He meant to go to church in them, and in the afternoon he did not know just what he should do. He had hoped that some chance might bring them together again, and then he could see from the way Miss Dudley and "Manda Grier behaved, just what they thought. He had many minds about the matter himself, and had gone from an extreme of self-abhorrence to one of self-vindication, and between these he had halted at every gradation of blame and exculpation. But perhaps what chiefly kept him away was the uncertainty of his future; till he could give some shape to that he had no courage to face the past. Sometimes he wished never to see either of those girls again; but at other times he had a longing to go and explain, to justify himself, or to give himself up to justice.
The new clothes gave him more heart than he had yet had, but the most he could bring himself to do was to walk towards Pleasant Avenue the next Sunday afternoon, which Mrs. Harmon especially gave him,--and to think about walking up and down before the house. It ended in his walking up and down the block, first on one side of the street and then on the other. He knew the girls" window; Miss Dudley had shown him it was the middle window of the top story when they were looking out of it, and he glanced up at it. Then he hurried away, but he could not leave the street without stopping at the corner, to cast a last look back at the house. There was an apothecary"s at that corner, and while he stood wistfully staring and going round the corner a little way, and coming back to look at the things in the apothecary"s window, he saw "Manda Grier come swiftly towards him. He wanted to run away now, but he could not; he felt nailed to the spot, and he felt the colour go out of his face. She pretended not to see him at first; but with a second glance she abandoned the pretence, and at his saying faintly, "Good afternoon,"
she said, with freezing surprise, "Oh! Good afternoon, Mr. Barker!" and pa.s.sed into the apothecary"s.
He could not go now, since he had spoken, and leave all so inconclusive again; and yet "Manda Grier had been so repellent, so cutting, in her tone and manner, that he did not know how to face her another time.
When she came out he faltered, "I hope there isn"t anybody sick at your house, Miss Grier."
"Oh, n.o.body that you"ll care about, Mr. Barker," she answered airily, and began to tilt rapidly away, with her chin thrust out before her.
He made a few paces after her, and then stopped; she seemed to stop too, and he caught up with her.
"I hope," he gasped, "there ain"t anything the matter with Miss Dudley?"
"Oh, nothing "t _you"ll_ care about," said "Manda Grier, and she added with terrible irony, "You"ve b"en round to inquire so much that you hain"t allowed time for any _great_ change."
"Has she been sick long?" faltered Lemuel. "I didn"t dare to come!" he cried out. "I"ve been wanting to come, but I didn"t suppose you would speak to me--any of you." Now his tongue was unlocked, he ran on: "I don"t know as it"s any excuse--there _ain"t_ any excuse for such a thing! I know she must perfectly despise me, and that I"m not fit for her to look at; but I"d give anything if I could take it all back and be just where I was before. You tell her, won"t you, how I feel?"
"Manda Grier, who had listened with a killingly averted face, turned sharply upon him: "You mean about stayin" away so long? I don"t know as she cared a great deal, but it"s a pretty queer way of showin" you cared for her."
"I didn"t mean that!" retorted Lemuel; and he added by an immense effort, "I meant--the way I behaved when I was there; I meant--"
"Oh!" said "Manda Grier, turning her face away again; she turned it so far away that the back of her head was all that Lemuel could see. "I guess you better speak to Statira about that."
By this time they had reached the door of the boarding-house, and "Manda Grier let herself in with her latch-key. "Won"t you walk in, Mr.
Barker?" she said in formal tones of invitation.
"Is she well enough to see--company?" murmured Lemuel. "I shouldn"t want to disturb her."
"I don"t believe but what she can see you," said "Manda Grier, for the first time relentingly.
"All right," said Lemuel, gulping the lump in his throat, and he followed "Manda Grier up the flights of stairs to the door of the girls"
room, which she flung open without knocking.
"S"tira," she said, "here"s Mr. Barker," and Lemuel, from the dark landing, where he lurked a moment, could see Statira sitting in the rocking-chair in a pretty blue dressing-gown; after a first flush she looked pale, and now and then put up her hand to hide a hoa.r.s.e little cough.
XV.
"Walk right in, Mr. Barker," cried "Manda Grier, and Lemuel entered, more awkward and sheepish in his new suit from the Misfit Parlours than he had been before in his Willoughby Pastures best clothes. Statira merely said, "Why, Mr. Barker!" and stood at her chair where she rose.
"You"re quite a stranger. Won"t you sit down?"
Lemuel sat down, and "Manda Grier said politely, "Won"t you let me take your hat, Mr. Barker?" and they both treated him with so much ceremony and deference that it seemed impossible he could ever have done such a monstrous thing as kiss a young lady like Miss Dudley; and he felt that he never could approach the subject even to accept a just doom at her hands.
They all talked about the weather for a minute, and then "Manda Grier said, "Well, I guess I shall have to go down and set this boneset to steep;" and as he rose, and stood to let her pa.s.s, she caught his arm, and gave it a clutch. He did not know whether she did it on purpose, or why she did it, but somehow it said to him that she was his friend, and he did not feel so much afraid.
When she was gone, however, he returned to the weather for conversation; but when Statira said it was lucky for her that the winter held off so, he made out to inquire about her sickness, and she told him that she had caught a heavy cold; at first it seemed just to be a head-cold, but afterwards it seemed to settle on the lungs, and it seemed as if she never _could_ throw it off; they had had the doctor twice; but now she was better, and the cough was nearly _all_ gone.
"I guess I took the cold that day, from havin" the window open," she concluded; and she pa.s.sed her hand across her lap, and looked down demurely, and then up at the ceiling, and her head twitched a little and trembled.
Lemuel knew that his hour had come, if ever it were to come, and he said hoa.r.s.ely: "I guess if I made you take cold that day, it wasn"t all I did. I guess I did worse than that."
She did not look at him and pretend ignorance, as "Manda Grier would have done; but lifting her moist eyes and then dropping them, she said, "Why, Mr. Barker, what can you mean?"
"You know what I mean," he retorted, with courage astonishing to him.
"It was because I liked you so much." He could not say loved; it seemed too bold. "There"s nothing else can excuse it, and I don"t know as _that_ can."
She put up her hands to her eyes, and began to cry, and he rose and went to her, and said, "Oh, don"t cry, don"t cry!" and somehow he took hold of her hands, and then her arms went round his neck, and she was crying on his breast.
"You"ll think I"m rather of a silly person, crying so much about nothing," she said, when she lifted her head from his shoulder to wipe her eyes. "But I can"t seem to help it," and she broke down again. "I presume it"s because I"ve been sick, and I"m kind of weak yet. I know you wouldn"t have done that, that day, if you hadn"t have cared for me; and I wasn"t mad a bit; not half as mad as I ought to have been; but when you stayed away so long, and never seemed to come near any more, I didn"t know what _to_ think. But now I can understand just how you felt, and I don"t blame you one bit; I should have done just so myself if I"d been a man, I suppose. And now it"s all come right, I don"t mind being sick or anything; only when Thanksgiving came, we felt sure you"d call, and we"d got the pies nicely warmed. Oh dear!" She gave way again, and then pressed her cheek tight against his to revive herself. ""Manda said she knew it was just because you was kind of ashamed, and I was too sick to eat any of the pies, anyway; and so it all turned out for the best; and I don"t want you to believe that I"m one to cry over spilt milk, especially when it"s all gathered up again!"
Her happy tongue ran on, revealing, divining everything, and he sat down with her in his arms, hardly speaking a word, till her heart was quite poured out. "Manda Grier left them a long time together, and before she came back he had told Statira all about himself since their last meeting. She was very angry at the way that girl had behaved at Miss Vane"s, but she was glad he had found such a good place now, without being beholden to any one for it, and she showed that she felt a due pride in his being an hotel clerk. He described the hotel, and told what he had to do there, and about Mrs. Harmon and the fashionableness of all the guests. But he said he did not think any of the ladies went ahead of her in dress, if they came up to her; and Statira pressed her lips gratefully against his cheek, and then lifting her head held herself a little away to see him again, and said, "_You"re_ splendidly dressed _too_; I noticed it the first thing when you came in. You look just as if you had always lived in Boston."
"Is that so?" asked Lemuel; and he felt his heart suffused with tender pride and joy. He told her of the Misfit Parlours and the instalment plan, and she said, well, it was just splendid; and she asked him if he knew she wasn"t in the store any more; and "No," she added delightedly, upon his confession of ignorance, "I"m going to work in the box-factory, after this, where "Manda Grier works. It"s better pay, and you have more control of your hours, and you can set down while you work, if you"ve a mind to. I think it"s going to be splendid. What should you say if "Manda Grier and me took some rooms and went to housekeepin"?"
"I don"t know," said Lemuel; but in his soul he felt jealous of her keeping house with "Manda Grier.
"Well, I don"t know as we shall do it," said Statira, as if feeling his tacit reluctance.
"Manda Grier came in just then, and cast a glance of friendly satire at them. "Well, I declare!" she said, for all recognition of the situation.
Lemuel made an offer to rise, but Statira would not let him. "I guess "Manda Grier won"t mind it much."
"I guess I can stand it if you can," said "Manda Grier; and this seemed such a witty speech that they all laughed, till, as Statira said, she thought she should die. They laughed the more when "Manda Grier added dryly, "I presume you won"t want your boneset now." She set the vessel she had brought it up in on the stove, and covered it with a saucer. "I do" know as _I_ should if I was in your place. It"s kind o" curious I should bring _both_ remedies home with me at once." At this they all laughed a third time, till "Manda Grier said, ""Sh! "sh! Do you want to raise the roof?"
She began to bustle about, and to set out a little table, and cover it with a napkin, and as she worked she talked on. "I guess if you don"t want any boneset tea, a little of the other kind won"t hurt any of us, and I kinder want a cup myself." She set it to steep on the stove, and it went through Lemuel"s mind that she might have steeped the boneset there too, if she had thought of it; but he did not say anything, though it seemed a pretty good joke on "Manda Grier. She ran on in that way of hers so that you never could tell whether she really meant a thing or not. "I guess if I have to manage many more cases like yours, S"tira Dudley, I shall want to lay in a whole chest of it. What do you think, Mr. Barker?"
"_Mr. Barker!_" repeated Statira.
"Well, I"m afraid to say Lemuel any more, for fear he"ll fly off the handle, and never come again. What do you think, Mr. Barker, of havin"
to set at that window every Sunday for the last three weeks, and keep watch of both sidewalks till you get such a crick in your neck, and your eyes so set in your head, you couldn"t move either of "em?"
"Now, "Manda Grier!" said Statira from Lemuel"s shoulder.
"Well, I don"t say I had to do it, and I don"t say who the young man was that I was put to look out for----"
_""Manda!"_
"But I _do_ say it"s pretty hard to wait on a sick person one side the room, and keep watch for a young man the other side, both at once."
""Manda Grier, you"re _too_ bad!" pouted Statira. "Don"t you believe a word she says, Mr. Barker."
_"Mr. Barker!"_ repeated "Manda Grier.
"Well, I don"t care!" said Statira, "I know who I mean."