"I do not keep you so."
"You will let me love you?"
Marian slipped her hand in his; that was her reply.
"You will love me?"
For all answer she gently pressed his fingers. He pressed her hand to his heart, to his lips, covering it with kisses.
"Yet, oh! speak to me, dearest; let me hear from your lips that you love me--a little--but better than I deserve. Will you? Say, Marian! Speak, dearest girl!"
"I cannot tell you now," she said, in a low, thrilling tone. "I am disturbed; I wish to grow quiet; and I must go home. Let us return."
One more pa.s.sionate kiss of the hand he clasped, and then he helped her to her feet, drew her arm within his own, and led her up the moss-covered rocks that formed the natural steps of the ascent that led to the homeward path.
They were now near the verge of the forest, which, when they reached, Marian drew her arm from his, and, extending her hand, said:
"This is the place our roads part."
"But you will let me attend you home?"
"No; it would make the return walk too long."
"That can be no consideration, I beg you will let me go with you, Marian."
"No; it would not be convenient to Edith to-day," said Marian, quickly drawing her hand from his detaining grasp, waving him adieu, and walking swiftly away across the meadow.
Thurston gazed after her, strongly tempted to follow her; yet withal admitting that it was best that she had declined his escort to the cottage, and thanking Heaven that the opportunity would again be afforded to take an "incidental" stroll with her, as she should walk to church on Sunday morning; and so, forming the resolution to haunt the forest-path from seven o"clock that next Sabbath morning until he should see her, Thurston hurried home.
And how was it with Marian? She hastened to the cottage, laid off her bonnet and shawl, and set herself at work as diligently as usual; but a higher bloom glowed on her cheek, a softer, brighter light beamed in her eye, a warmer, sweeter smile hovered around her lips, a deeper, richer tone thrilled in her voice.
On Sunday morning the lovers "chanced" to meet again--for so Thurston would still have had it appear as he permitted Marian to overtake him in the forest on her way to the Sunday-school.
She was blooming and beautiful as the morning itself as she approached.
He turned with a radiant smile to greet her.
"Welcome! thrice welcome, dearest one! Your coming is more joyous than that of day. Welcome, my own, dear Marian! May I now call you mine? Have I read that angel-smile aright? Is it the blessed herald of a happy answer to my prayer?" he whispered, as he took her hand and pa.s.sed his arm around her head and brought it down upon his bosom. "Speak, my Marian! Speak, my beloved! Are you my own, as I am yours?"
Her answer was so low-toned that he had to bend his head down close to her lips to hear her murmur:
"I love you dearly. But I love you too well to ruin your prospects. You must not bind yourself to me just yet, dear Thurston," and meekly and gently she sought to slip from his embrace.
But he slid his arm around her lightly, bending his head and whispering eagerly:
"What mean you, Marian? Your words are incomprehensible."
"Dear Thurston," she answered, in a tremulous and thrilling voice, "I have known your grandfather long by report, and I am well aware of his character and disposition and habits. But only yesterday I chanced to learn from one who was well informed that old Mr. Willc.o.xen had sworn to make you his heir only upon condition of your finding a bride of equal or superior fortunes. If now you were to engage yourself to me, your grandfather would disinherit you. I love you too well," she murmured very low, "to ruin your fortunes. You must not bind yourself to me just now, Thurston."
And this loving, frank and generous creature was the woman, he thought, whose good name he would have periled in a clandestine courtship in preference to losing his inheritance by an open betrothal. A stab of compunction pierced his bosom; he felt that he loved her more than ever, but pa.s.sion was stronger than affection, stronger than conscience, stronger than anything in nature, except pride and ambition. He lightened his clasp about her waist--he bent and whispered:
"Beloved Marian, is it to bind me only that you hesitate?"
"Only that," she answered, softly.
"Now hear me, Marian. I swear before Heaven, and in thy sight--that--as I have never loved woman before you--that--as I love you only of all women--I will be faithful to you while I live upon this earth! as your husband, if you will accept me; as your exclusive lover, whether you will or not! I hold myself pledged to you as long as we both shall live!
There, Marian! I am bound to you as tight as vows can bind! I am pledged to you whether you accept my pledge or not. You cannot even release, for I am pledged to Heaven as well. There, Marian, you see I am bound, while you only are free. Come! be generous! You have said that you loved me!
Pledge yourself to me in like manner. We are both young, dear Marian, and we can wait. Only let me have your promise to be my wife--only let me have that blessed a.s.surance for the future, and I can endure the present. Speak, dear Marian."
"Your grandfather--"
"He has no grudge against you, personally, sweet girl; he knows nothing, suspects nothing of my preferences--how should he? No, dearest girl--his notion that I must have a moneyed bride is the merest whim of dotage; we must forgive the whims of ninety-five. That great age also augurs for us a short engagement and a speedy union!"
"Oh! never let us dream of that! It would be sinful, and draw down upon us the displeasure of Heaven. Long may the old man yet live to prepare for a better life."
"Amen; so be it; G.o.d forbid that I should grudge the aged patriarch his few remaining days upon earth--days, too, upon which his soul"s immortal welfare may depend," said Thurston. "But, dearest girl, it is more difficult to get a reply from you than from a prime minister. Answer, now, once for all, sweet girl! since I am forever bound to you; will you pledge yourself to become my own dear wife?"
"Yes," whispered Marian, very lowly.
"And will you," he asked, gathering her form closer to his bosom, "will you redeem that pledge when I demand it?"
"Yes," she murmured sweetly, "so that it is not to harm you, or bring you into trouble or poverty; for that I would not consent to do!"
"G.o.d bless you; you are an angel! Oh! Marian! I find it in my heart to sigh because I am so unworthy of you!"
And this was spoken most sincerely.
"You think too well of me. I fear--I fear for the consequences."
"Why, dearest Marian?"
"Oh, I fear that when you know me better you may love me less," she answered, in a trembling voice.
"Why should I?"
"Oh! because your love may have been attracted by ideal qualities, with which you yourself have invested me; and when your eyes are opened you may love me less."
"May my soul forever perish the day that I cease to love you!" said Thurston, pa.s.sionately pressing her to his heart, and sealing his fearful oath upon her pure brow and guileless lips. "And now, beloved!
this compact is sealed! Our fates are united forever! Henceforth nothing shall dissever us!"
They were now drawing near the village.
Marian suddenly stopped.
"Dear Thurston," she said, "if you are seen waiting upon me to church do you know what the people will say? They will say that Marian has a new admirer in Mr. Willc.o.xen--and that will reach your grandfather"s ears, and give you trouble."
"Stay! one moment, beautiful Marian! When shall we meet again?"
"When Heaven wills."