""Mother," I sobbed, "I do love you sometimes--always, when you speak kindly, to me, as you do now; and I love dear little Alice--ah, so much! my heart is full of love--I cannot tell you how much."
"Rachel redoubled her weeping--a step sounded behind us--she sprang to her feet, as Dinah North, with the little Margaret Moncton in her arms, joined us.
""What are you doing there, Rachel?" growled forth the hard-hearted woman. "Are you saying your prayers, or admiring the beauty of your son. Hang the boy! though he is your child, I never can feel the least interest in him."
""Is that his fault or yours?" said my mother, coldly.
""Ah, mine, of course," said Dinah, bitterly. "We are not accountable for our likes or dislikes. I hate the boy!"
"I looked at her with defiance in my eyes, and she answered my look with a sharp blow on the cheek. "Don"t look at me, young dog, in that insolent way. I have tamed prouder spirits than yours, and I"ll tame yours yet."
"My mother gave her an angry glance, but said nothing, and we walked slowly on. At last Dinah turned to her and said:
""Rachel, this should be a proud and joyful day to you."
""In what respect, mother?"
""Your rival"s dead; you have gained your liberty, and Sir Alexander is free to choose another wife. Do you understand me now?"
""Perfectly; but that dream is past," said my mother, mournfully. "Sir Alexander loved that dead angel too well, to place a woman of low degree in her place. If he did not unite his destiny to mine when I was young and beautiful, and he in the romance of life, don"t flatter yourself into the belief that he will do it now. I know human nature better."
""You don"t know your own power," said Dinah; "beauty is stronger than rank and fortune, and you are still handsome enough to do a deal of mischief among the men, if you only set about it in the right way."
""Peace! mother. I need none of your teaching. I learned to love Mornington, and ceased to love Sir Alexander. Nay, I am really sorry for the death of poor Lady Moncton, and should despise her husband if he could forget her for one like me."
""Fool! idiot!" exclaimed Dinah, in a tone of exasperation. "You have ever stood in the way of your own fortune. Had you not been so over squeamish you might have changed the children, and made your own son the heir of the Moncton. Had I been at home, this surely would have been done. This was all the good I got by leaving you to the guidance of a handsome, good-natured fool like Mornington."
""Mother, speak more respectfully of the dead," said Rachel. "He was _good_, at any rate, which we _are not_. It was my intention to have changed the children, but G.o.d ordered it otherwise," she continued, with a convulsive laugh. "However, I have had my revenge, but it has cost me many a blighting thought."
""I don"t understand you," said Dinah, drawing close up before us, and fixing a keen look of inquiry on her daughter.
""Nor do I mean that you should," coldly retorted Rachel. "My secret is worth keeping. You will know it one day too soon."
"We had now reached home, and the presence of the strange woman put an end to this mysterious conversation. Though only a boy of eight years old, it struck me as so remarkable, that I could never forget it; and now, when years have gone over me, I can distinctly recall every word and look which pa.s.sed between those sinful women. Alas, that one should be so near to me.
"But you are sleepy, Geoffrey. The rest of my mournful history will help to wile away the tedium of the long to-morrow."
CHAPTER XVI.
GEORGE HARRISON CONTINUES HIS HISTORY.
"The sorrows of my childhood were great," continued George, "but still they were counterbalanced by many joys. In spite of the disadvantages under which I laboured, my gay, elastic spirit surmounted them all.
"Naturally fearless and fond of adventure, I never shrunk from difficulties, but felt a chivalrous pride in endeavouring to overcome them. If I could not readily do this at the moment, I lived on in the hope that the day would arrive when by perseverance and energy, I should ultimately conquer.
"I have lived to prove that of which I early felt a proud conviction; that it is no easy matter for a wicked person, let him be ever so clever and cunning, to subdue a strong mind, which dares to be true to itself.
"Dinah North felt my superiority even as a child, and the mortifying consciousness increased her hatred. She feared the lofty spirit of the boy whom her tyrannical temper could not tame; who laughed at her threats, and defied her malice, and who, when freed from her control, enjoyed the sweets of liberty in a tenfold degree.
"Sir Alexander put me to a school in the neighbourhood, where I learned the first rudiments of my mother tongue, writing, reading, and simple arithmetic. The school closed at half-past four o"clock in the afternoon; when I returned to the Lodge, for so the cottage was called in which we resided, and which stood just within the park at the head of the n.o.ble avenue of old oaks and elms that led to the Hall. Two of the loveliest, sweetest children nature ever formed were always at the Park gates watching for my coming, when they ran to meet me with exclamations of delight, and we wandered forth hand in hand to look for wild fruit and flowers among the bosky dells and romantic uplands of that enchanting spot.
"Alice Mornington and Margaretta Moncton were nearly the same age, born at least within three months of each other, and were six years younger than I. Strikingly different in their complexion, appearance and disposition, the two little girls formed a beautiful contrast to each other. Alice was exquisitely fair, with large, brilliant, blue eyes, like my poor mother"s, and long silken ringlets of sunny hair which curled naturally upon her snow-white shoulders. She was tall and stately for her age, and might have been a princess, for the n.o.ble dignity of her carriage would not have disgraced a court.
"She was all life and spirit. The first in every sport, the last to yield to fatigue or satiety. Her pa.s.sions were warm and headstrong; her temper irritable; her affections intense and constant, and her manners so frank and winning that while conscious that she had a thousand faults, you could but admire and love her.
"A stranger might have thought her capricious, but her love of variety arose more from the exuberance of her fancy than from any love of change. She was a fair and happy child, the idol of her fond brother"s heart, till one baneful pa.s.sion marred what G.o.d and nature made so beautiful.
"Margaret Moncton, outwardly, was less gifted than Alice Mornington, but she far surpa.s.sed her foster-sister in mental endowments. Her stature was small, almost diminutive. Her features neither regular nor handsome except the dark eyes, the beauty of which I think I never saw surpa.s.sed.
"Her complexion was pure but very pale, and her lofty, thoughtful brow wore a serious expression from infancy. In our wildest revels on the green sward, you seldom heard Margaret laugh; but when pleased, she had a most bewitching smile, which lighted up her calm countenance till every feature beamed with an inexpressible grace. Her face was the mirror of purity and truth, and you felt, whilst looking upon it, that it was impossible for Margaret to deceive.
"How could I be unhappy, while I had these two beautiful children for my daily companions, and the most charming rural scenery at my immediate command?
"Sir Alexander came every day to the Lodge to see his child, and always lavished upon me the most flattering marks of his favour. His manner to my mother was, at first, shy and reserved. This wore off by degrees, and before two years had expired, from the death of his wife, his visits became so constant, and his attentions so marked, that Dinah once more began to entertain hopes that her ambitious schemes for her daughter might yet be realized. These hopes were only frustrated by the sudden death of the object for whom they were cherished. My mother, for some weeks, had complained of an acute pain in her left side, just under her breast, and the medicines she procured from the doctor afforded her no relief. She grew nervous and apprehensive of the consequences, but as her personal appearance was not at all injured by her complaint, Dinah ridiculed her fears.
""You may laugh as you please, mother," said she, the very day before she died, "but I feel this pain will be the death of me--and I so unfit to die," she added, with a deep sigh.
""Nonsense!" returned Dinah, "you will wear your wedding clothes a second time, before we put on your shroud."
"My mother only answered with another deep-drawn sigh. She pa.s.sed a sleepless night--the doctor was sent for in the morning, gave her a composing draught, and told her to make her mind easy, for she had nothing to fear.
"I always slept in the same bed with my mother. That night I had a bad cold and could not sleep; but knowing that she was not well, I lay quite still, fearing to disturb her. She slept well during the early part of the night. The clock had just struck twelve when she rose up in the bed, and called Dinah to come to her quickly. Her voice sounded hollow and tremulous.
""What ails you, Rachel?" grumbled the hard woman; "disturbing a body at this hour of the night."
""Be it night or morning," said my mother, "I am dying, and this hour will be my last."
""Then in the name of G.o.d! send for the doctor."
""It is too late now. He can do me no good: I am going fast; but there is something on my mind, mother, which I must tell you before I go. Sit down beside me on the bed, whilst I have strength left to do it, and swear to me mother, that you will not abuse the confidence I am about to repose in you."
"Dinah nodded a.s.sent.
""That will not do. I must have your solemn word--your oath!"
""What good will that do, Rachel? no oath can bind me--I believe in no G.o.d, and fear no devil!"
"This confession was accompanied by a hideous, cackling laugh. Rachel groaned aloud.
""Oh, mother! there is a G.o.d--an avenging G.o.d! Could you feel what I now feel, and see what I now see, like the devils, you would believe and tremble. You will know it one day, and like me, find out that repentance comes too late. I will, however, tell the plain truth, and your diabolical policy, will, doubtless, suggest the use which may be made of such an important secret."
"There was a long pause, after which some sentences pa.s.sed between them, in such a low voice, that I could not distinctly hear them; at last I heard my mother say,
""You never saw these children, or you would not wonder that my heart so clave to that fair babe. You thought that I accepted Robert Moncton"s bribe, and put the other child out of the way."