"And shall continue to love him whilst I have life, Geoffrey Moncton,"
slowly and suffocatingly broke from the pale lips of the trembling girl.
"And you would have been persuaded by your aunt to marry Theophilus Moncton."
"Never! Who told you that?" and her eye flashed proudly, almost scornfully upon me.
"Your good aunt."
"She knows nothing about it. I ceased to oppose her wishes in words, because I found that it might produce a rupture between us. Women of my aunt"s age have outlived their sympathies in affairs of the heart.
What they once felt they have forgotten, or look upon as a weakness which ought not to be tolerated in their conversations with the young.
But look at that fine, candid face, Geoffrey; that open benevolent brow, and tell me, if having once loved the original, it is such an easy matter to forget or to find a subst.i.tute in such a being as Theophilus Moncton."
As she said this she took a portrait that was suspended by a gold chain from the inner folds which covered her beautiful bosom, and placed it in my hand.
"Good heavens!" cried I, sinking back upon the pillow, "my friend, _George Harrison_!"
"Who? I know no one of that name."
"True--true. George Harrison--Philip Mornington--they are the same.
And his adored and lost Charlotte Laurie, and my beautiful Catherine Lee are identified. I see through it now. He hid the truth from me, fearing that it might destroy our friendship. Honesty in this, as in all other cases, would have been the best policy."
"Philip is still alive! Not hearing of him for so many months made me conclude that he was either dead or had left England in disgust."
"He still lives, and loves you, Kate, with all the fervour of a first attachment."
"I do not deserve it, Geoffrey. I dared to mistrust his honour, to base listen to calumnies propagated by Theophilus and his father, purposely, I now believe, to injure him in my estimation. But what young girl, ignorant of the world and the ways of designing men, could suspect such a grave, plausible man as Robert Moncton, who outwardly always manifested the most affectionate interest in my happiness? I much fear that my coldness had a very bad effect upon Philip"s character, and was the means of leading him into excesses, which ultimately led to his ruin."
I was perplexed, and knew not what answer to make, for she had hit upon the plain truth. To tell her so, was to plunge an amiable creature into the deepest affliction, and to withhold it was not doing justice to the friend, whom, above all men I valued.
With the quick eye of love, and the tact of woman, Kate perceived my confusion, and guessed the cause; she broke into a fit of pa.s.sionate weeping.
"Dear Kate," I began, with difficulty raising myself on the pillow, "control this violent emotion, and I will tell you all I know of my friend."
She looked eagerly up through her tears; but the task I had imposed upon myself was beyond my strength to fulfil. My nerves were so completely shattered by the agitating effects of the past scene, that I sank back exhausted and gasping on the pillow.
"Not now, not now, Geoffrey, you are unequal to the task. This conversation has tried you too much." And raising my head upon her arm, she bathed my temples with eau de Cologne, and hastened to administer a restorative from the phial that stood on the table.
"I shall be better now I know the worst," said I; and closing my eyes for a few moments, my head rested pa.s.sively on her snow-white shoulder.
A few hours back, and the touch of those fair hands would have thrilled my whole frame with delight; but now it awoke in me little or no emotion. The beautiful dream had vanished. My adored Catherine Lee was the betrothed of my friend; and I could gaze upon her pale agitated face with calmness--with brotherly, platonic love. I was only now anxious to effect a reconciliation between George and his Kate, I rejoiced that the means were in all probability in my power.
The entrance of Mrs. Hepburn with letters, put an end to this painful scene; while their contents gave rise to other thoughts and feelings, hopes and fears.
"I cannot read them yet," said I, after having examined the handwriting in which the letters were directed. "My eyes are dim. I am too weak. The rest of an hour will restore me. The sight of these letters makes me nervous, and agitates me too much. They are from Sir Alexander and his daughter, and may contain important tidings."
"Let us go, dear aunt," whispered Kate, slipping her arm through Mrs.
Hepburn"s. "It will be better to leave Geoffrey for awhile alone."
They left the room instantly. I was relieved by their absence. My heart was oppressed with painful thoughts. I wanted to be alone--to commune with my own spirit, and be still.
A few minutes had scarcely elapsed, before I was sound asleep.
CHAPTER X.
MY LETTERS.
Day was waning into night, when I again unclosed my eyes. A sober calm had succeeded the burning agitation of the previous hours. I was no longer a lover--or at least the lover of Catherine Lee. My thoughts had returned to Moncton Park, and in dreams the fairy figure of Margaret had flitted beside me, through its green arcades. My heart was free to love her who so loved me, and by the light of the lamp I eagerly opened up the letters, which I had grasped during my slumbers tightly in my hand.
But before I could decipher a line, my worthy friend Dan came to the rescue. "I cannot permit that, Master Geoffrey," said he; "your eyes are too weak to read such fine penmanship."
"My good fellow, only a few lines. You must allow me to do that."
"Not a word. What is the use of all this nursing if you will have your own way? You will be dead at this rate in less than a week."
"What a deal of trouble that would save you!" said I, looking at him reproachfully.
"Who called it trouble? not I," said honest Dan. "The trouble is a pleasure, if you will only be tractable and obey those who mean you well. Now don"t you see what comes of acting against reason and common sense. You would talk to the mistress the whole blessed afternoon.
Several times I came to the door, and it was still talk, talk, talk; and when my young lady comes home and the old mistress was fairly tired, and walked out to give her tongue a rest, it was still the same with the young one--talk, talk, talk, and no end to the talk, till you well nigh fainted; and if it had not been for G.o.d"s Providence that set you off fast asleep, you might have died of the talk fever."
"But I am better now, Daniel: you see the talking did me no harm, but good."
"Tout! tout! man, a bad excuse, you know, is better than none they say. But I think it"s far worse, for "tis generally an invented lie, just to cheat the Devil or one"s own conscience; howsomever, I doubt much whether the Devil was ever cheated by such practices, but did not always win in the long run by that sort of _stale mate_."
"Are you a chess player?" I asked in some surprise.
"Ay, just in a small way. Old Jenkins the butler and I often have a tuzzle together in his pantry, which sometimes ends in a _stale mate_--he! he! he!--Jenkins, who is a dry stick, says that a stale mate is better than stale fish, or a gla.s.s of flat champagne--he! he!
he!"
"I perfectly agree with Jenkins. But don"t you see, my good Daniel, that you blame me for talking with the ladies, and wanting to read a love-letter; while you are making me act quite as imprudently, by laughing and talking with you."
"A love-letter did you say?" and he poked his long nose nearly into my face, and squinted down with a glance of intense curiosity at the open letter I still held in my hand. "Why that is rather a temptation to a young gentleman, I must own; cannot I read it for you, sir? I am as good a scholar as our clerk."
"I don"t at all doubt your capabilities, Simpson. But you see, this is a thing I really can only do for myself. The young lady would not like her letter to be made public."
"Why, Lord, sir, you don"t imagine that I would say a word about it. I have kept secrets before now; ay, and ladies" secrets too. I was the man who helped your father to carry off Miss Ellen. It was I held the horses at the corner of the lane, while he took her out of the chamber-window. I drove them to----church next morning, and waited at the doors till they were married; and your poor father gave me five golden guineas to drink the bride"s health. Ah! she was a bride worth the winning. A prettier woman I never saw: she beat my young lady hollow, though some folks do think Miss Catherine a beauty."
"You did not witness the ceremony?"
"No, sir; but as I sat on the box of the carriage, I saw old Parson Roche go up to the aisle in his white gown, with a book in his hand, and if it were not to marry the young folks, what business had he there?"
"What, indeed!" thought I. "This man"s evidence may be of great value to me."
I lay silent for some minutes thinking over these circ.u.mstances, and quite forgot my letter until reminded of it by Simpson.