Here the idea of starting for California on such a night departed from his mind, leaving him ruminating miserably upon his martyrdom. He saw nothing for it but to sleep all night in the wood-shed and start for California in the morning bright and early. Thinking of his bed, he kicked over the floor and found that the innumerable chips were all frozen tightly, bedded in ice.
Later he viewed with joy some signs of excitement in the house. The flare of a lamp moved rapidly from window to window. Then the kitchen door slammed loudly and a shawled figure sped towards the gate. At last he was making them feel his power. The shivering child"s face was lit with saturnine glee as in the darkness of the wood-shed he gloated over the evidences of consternation in his home. The shawled figure had been his Aunt Martha dashing with the alarm to the neighbors.
The cold of the wood-shed was tormenting him. He endured only because of the terror he was causing. But then it occurred to him that, if they inst.i.tuted a search for him, they would probably examine the wood-shed. He knew that it would not be manful to be caught so soon.
He was not positive now that he was going to remain away forever, but at any rate he was bound to inflict some more damage before allowing himself to be captured. If he merely succeeded in making his mother angry, she would thrash him on sight. He must prolong the time in order to be safe. If he held out properly, he was sure of a welcome of love, even though he should drip with crimes.
Evidently the storm had increased, for when he went out it swung him violently with its rough and merciless strength. Panting, stung, half blinded with the driving flakes, he was now a waif, exiled, friendless, and poor. With a bursting heart, he thought of his home and his mother. To his forlorn vision they were as far away as heaven.
IV
Horace was undergoing changes of feeling so rapidly that he was merely moved hither and then thither like a kite. He was now aghast at the merciless ferocity of his mother. It was she who had thrust him into this wild storm, and she was perfectly indifferent to his fate, perfectly indifferent. The forlorn wanderer could no longer weep. The strong sobs caught at his throat, making his breath come in short, quick snuffles. All in him was conquered save the enigmatical childish ideal of form, manner. This principle still held out, and it was the only thing between him and submission. When he surrendered, he must surrender in a way that deferred to the undefined code. He longed simply to go to the kitchen and stumble in, but his unfathomable sense of fitness forbade him.
Presently he found himself at the head of Niagara Avenue, staring through the snow into the blazing windows of Stickney"s butcher-shop.
Stickney was the family butcher, not so much because of a superiority to other Whilomville butchers as because he lived next door and had been an intimate friend of the father of Horace. Rows of glowing pigs hung head downward back of the tables, which bore huge pieces of red beef. Clumps of attenuated turkeys were suspended here and there.
Stickney, hale and smiling, was bantering with a woman in a cloak, who, with a monster basket on her arm, was d.i.c.kering for eight cents"
worth of some thing. Horace watched them through a crusted pane. When the woman came out and pa.s.sed him, he went towards the door. He touched the latch with his finger, but withdrew again suddenly to the sidewalk. Inside Stickney was whistling cheerily and a.s.sorting his knives.
[Ill.u.s.tration: "Eight Cents Worth of Something"]
Finally Horace went desperately forward, opened the door, and entered the shop. His head hung low. Stickney stopped whistling. "h.e.l.lo, young man," he cried, "what brings you here?"
[Ill.u.s.tration: "His Head Hung Low"]
Horace halted, but said nothing. He swung one foot to and fro over the saw-dust floor.
Stickney had placed his two fat hands palms downward and wide apart on the table, in the att.i.tude of a butcher facing a customer, but now he straightened.
"Here," he said, "what"s wrong? What"s wrong, kid?"
"Nothin"," answered Horace, huskily. He labored for a moment with something in his throat, and afterwards added, "O"ny----I"ve----I"ve run away, and--"
"Run away!" shouted Stickney. "Run away from what? Who?"
"From----home," answered Horace. "I don"t like it there any more.
I----" He had arranged an oration to win the sympathy of the butcher; he had prepared a table setting forth the merits of his case in the most logical fashion, but it was as if the wind had been knocked out of his mind. "I"ve run away. I----"
Stickney reached an enormous hand over the array of beef, and firmly grappled the emigrant. Then he swung himself to Horace"s side. His face was stretched with laughter, and he playfully shook his prisoner.
"Come----come----come. What dashed nonsense is this? Run away, hey?
Run away?" Whereupon the child"s long-tried spirit found vent in howls.
"Come, come," said Stickney, busily. "Never mind now, never mind. You just come along with me. It"ll be all right. I"ll fix it. Never you mind."
Five minutes later the butcher, with a great ulster over his ap.r.o.n, was leading the boy homeward.
At the very threshold, Horace raised his last flag of pride.
"No----no," he sobbed. "I don"t want to. I don"t want to go in there."
He braced his foot against the step and made a very respectable resistance.
"Now, Horace," cried the butcher. He thrust open the door with a bang.
"h.e.l.lo there!" Across the dark kitchen the door to the living-room opened and Aunt Martha appeared. "You"ve found him!" she screamed.
"We"ve come to make a call," roared the butcher. At the entrance to the living-room a silence fell upon them all. Upon a couch Horace saw his mother lying limp, pale as death, her eyes gleaming with pain.
There was an electric pause before she swung a waxen hand towards Horace. "My child," she murmured, tremulously. Whereupon the sinister person addressed, with a prolonged wail of grief and joy, ran to her with speed. "Mam-ma! Mam-ma! Oh, mam-ma!" She was not able to speak in a known tongue as she folded him in her weak arms.
[Ill.u.s.tration: ""Mam-ma! Mam-ma! Oh, mam-ma!""]
Aunt Martha turned defiantly upon the butcher because her face betrayed her. She was crying. She made a gesture half military, half feminine. "Won"t you have a gla.s.s of our root-beer, Mr. Stickney? We make it ourselves."