1498 Roll The Dice? 5
A natural smile flashed across his handsome face. However, no matter how one looked at it, a hint of coldness could be seen in that smile. He suddenly stood up, using his knees as support, and walked towards Qi Qiming’s bedside. Then, with one hand on the bedhead, he leaned slightly forward and whispered into Qi Qiming’s ear, “Let me tell you the truth. Although I haven’t gotten much chance to talk to you in my life, a few words now won’t hurt.
“Actually I’ve always known that you still have feelings for w.a.n.g Qin and Qi Lei. In fact, I don’t blame w.a.n.g Qin for treating me like trash. After all, she’s your first wife, and that makes Qi Lei the official son of the Qi family, so who’s Qi Feng? Who am I? I’m a n.o.body! Do you know that you’re really a sh*tbag? My mother was stupid, and so was w.a.n.g Qin. Both of them were out of their minds when they chose to marry or be with you. You’re not a good father, and neither were you a great husband. You see, even I’m more loyal than you. At least, I love my wife and my daughter.
“You said, ‘How could someone as outstanding as me become your son?’ You shouldn’t have given birth to me before you were ready to bear the consequences. I didn’t do so for my mother either. She was a stupid b*tch. Both of you are not worthy of being my parents.
“I’m afraid that you’ve been taking precautions against me since a long time ago, haven’t you? Who said you really care about me, your son? Didn’t you just sacrifice me in order to help your other son? As a matter of fact, I can even understand you. Ever since w.a.n.g Qin pa.s.sed away, the scales in your heart have completely tilted towards Qi Lei, which of course, is normal, since he’s also your son. Without me, you still have your other son.
“Everybody else says that I am lucky because you love me. However, since I was a kid, was there anything that I’ve done that wasn’t your arrangement? Even when I came back to Qi Kai, I was only a.s.signed as a tiny departmental director, but I don’t blame you. Newcomers always start from scratch, don’t they? I don’t have the life of Qi Lei that I can do whatever I want.”
Qi Feng flicked the cigarette ash in between his fingers and slowly stood up straight. “I remember the last time when you asked me if I did those things, the answer that you have in your heart is the truth. Father, this might be my last time calling you Father. Let’s not deceive ourselves anymore. I’m not that significant. Even I feel that I’m not important at all, so just treat me as a psychopath. If someday, you have to choose to give up either Qi Lei or me, who would you give up?” he asked with a low voice, but he did not seem to want to know the answer either.
As soon as he finished the sentence, a disdainful sneer was seen at the corners of his lip. “Actually, I can’t reconcile myself to this failure. After planning it for so long, I’ve gotten nothing in the end. Maybe this is life. It’s life, and maybe mine doesn’t look good at all no matter how hard I try to change it. I only wanted to roll the dice and make a bet, but still, I lost in the end.”
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“Survive and live well. Although I hate you, I don’t want you to die just like this. If you die now, how could you witness the downfall of the Qi Kai Group? That’s something that you’ve been proud of all your life…” Qi Feng left such a statement. He then slowly turned around and left the ward without bringing a trace of nostalgia with him.
However, what he could not see was that when the heavy door was closed, tears were rolling down from the corners of Qi Qiming’s tightly closed eyes…
When he came out of the hospital, Qi Feng went directly to the Qi residence. Gu Lingsha and Qi Weier had already packed their luggage. The chauffeur and bodyguards had competently loaded all the luggage into the car while Mary, the servant, had put on a white princess dress for Qi Weier who held a Barbie doll in her arm. The little girl was staring at the huge black umbrella that Mary was carrying, and she looked lifeless.
Outside the door, Gu Lingsha ran into Qi Feng, who was rus.h.i.+ng back home. She was very reluctant to leave Qi Feng. As soon as she saw his silhouette, her tears started to well up in her eyes. She could not help but take a few large strides towards him and reach out her arms to hug him. Her voice was hoa.r.s.e from all the crying. “Ah Feng, come with us/ I really don’t want to leave your side, and Weiwei can’t do it without you either. Ah Feng, why won’t you come with us? Even Morrison has left too. You’re all alone here! I’m really worried. I have nothing left. I never want to lose you again. I really don’t want to lose you…”
With a lump in her throat, Gu Lingsha’s tone was filled with hards.h.i.+p and suffering. Her hoa.r.s.e voice sounded rather heart-piercing. Qi Feng’s eyes dimmed, and he felt a sudden pain in his heart. After a long time, he stretched out his arms and hugged her tightly.
Qi Feng had never been a sentimental person. Even though he loved Gu Lingsha very much, he usually did not show her much fondness. He had always been an indifferent person in Gu Lingsha’s eyes.
Mu Yuchen may have always been a cold person too, but he would express all his affection when Xi Xiaye was around. On the contrary, Qi Feng would not do so. He had been a very rational person, and there had always been a kind of indifference within him as if he had seen all the coldness in the world. He was so emotionless that even Gu Lingsha could not understand him.
There was a gentleness in his hoa.r.s.e voice which she rarely felt as he said, “Don’t be sad. Travel there with Weiwei first. I’ll meet you there once the rumors aren’t as pressing here. I’ll be fine. I’ll return to you and Weiwei safely.” His embrace tightened as he spoke.
“Leave all the unhappiness behind. Treat Weiwei well when you’re over there. You must keep those cards that I’ve given you. They’re enough to support you and Weiwei for a few lifetimes. Also, don’t tell her anything about me. Just let her know that her father will always be kind to her, and will always love her. Just let her be an ordinary and mediocre person in the future,” Qi Feng said calmly, sounding like he was delivering his last words.
Gu Lingsha could not help but shake her head vigorously and cry, “No! I don’t want to! Ah Feng, Weiwei and I will be waiting for you over there. If you don’t come, we’ll follow you too …”
“Alright, Shasha, don’t be capricious. Weiwei is still young. We can’t be unqualified parents, and we can’t lay the tragedy that happened to me on her. We also can’t let her resent us in the future. Do you understand?” As Qi Feng said these words, he finally failed to calm himself down, and his gloomy eyes had become bloodshot. While saying so, he turned his head and looked at Qi Weier, who was playing with the Barbie doll in her arms.
Gu Lingsha felt like her heart was being torn apart. While she cried her heart out. Qi Feng patted her shoulders before letting her go. He walked towards Qi Weier and bowed down. Then, he opened his arms and picked Qi Weier up.