"Mr. Stanton sees no one without an appointment," said Mr. Joles, slowly recovering from the shock Von Barwig had given him. "Besides which, he is at present at Bar Harbour."
"Are you sure there is no message for me?" pleaded Von Barwig.
"Quite sure," responded Mr. Joles.
"But there must be," pleaded the old man. He was desperate now. "Did she get my note?"
"My advice is for you to go home and wait till Miss Stanton signifies that your presence is required. That"s the best thing to do--really."
Mr. Joles volunteered this advice, which contained little comfort, but Von Barwig"s lip quivered and he nodded his head thankfully. Even the advice to go away and stay away contained more hope than the cold stolid stone-wall indifference he had encountered day after day from Mr. Joles.
"Thank you, Mr. Joles! I will, I will," and Von Barwig plodded his way wearily back to Houston Street. For one whole week he did not go near the Stanton house. He contented himself with hoping. He would sit in his little room and rush out every time he heard the letter-carrier"s whistle, but no letter came. One day, when he could no longer restrain himself, he carefully brushed his clothes and prepared to walk uptown again.
"She must be in, she must be in; and she will see me. This time I know she will see me; I am sure of it; sure of it," he kept repeating to himself. "She can"t be so cruel!"
He found himself looking into a florist"s window and started with a cry of joy.
"That"s a good omen, a very good omen! You"re all right, Barwig; she will see you."
He had recognised the florist in Union Square that he had bought the violets he presented her with on the day he first called upon her. He went in and bought a bunch of violets.
"We begin all over again," he said to himself. "We forget all this weary waiting, all this stupid fear. Now, Miss Helene, we are prepared for our lesson," he said, as he took the box of flowers and walked uptown with renewed hope. His heart beat very rapidly as he walked up the steps.
"Courage, Barwig," he said to himself; "the tide turns I You will see!"
He rang the bell. There was no answer. Several times he repeated this action; each time he waited several minutes. Finally he rang the bell, and added to it a loud knock. His persistence was rewarded, for Mr.
Joles came to the door. He did not wait for Von Barwig to speak, as he usually did, but proceeded to inform the old man that his actions were "simply disgraceful."
"Miss Stanton is not in and what"s more she is not liable to be in," he said severely. "Some people cannot take a hint! If Miss Stanton wanted to see you, Miss Stanton would have sent for you," added Mr.
Joles, and his manner was quite ruffled. He took it as a personal offence that Mr. Von Barwig should so persist in calling at a house where it was evident he was not wanted.
Von Barwig was speechless; he could make no reply. Insulted, turned away, humiliated by her servants! She must know, he felt sure she knew now and his degradation was complete. The old man turned to go now desiring only to get away, somewhere, anywhere, where he could hide his head, where he could hide his grief from the world. Joles shut the door with a bang. He evidently intended that the music master"s dismissal should be final. That door bang put a new idea into Von Barwig"s bewildered brain.
"That does not come from her," he cried, "she does not insult, she does not lacerate the heart, she would not purposely humiliate me. No, this last degradation could emanate only from one who has the soul of a servant. This is revenge! He hates me, but why? Good G.o.d! Why?
I"ve done nothing to him," and the old man groaned aloud in his misery.
"I"ll wait and see, perhaps she is at Bar Harbour with her father. How do I know? How do I know?"
After this, Von Barwig did something that he had never done before in his whole life; he hid himself in the shadow of the opposite corner, and watched. "It is a mean action," he said to himself, "but she will forgive, she will forgive!"
For hours he stood there watching and waiting, and the time slipped by almost without his being conscious of it, until the shadows of night began to fall. Once a policeman, seeing him crouched in the corner, stopped and looked at him.
"What are you doing there?" he asked.
Von Barwig turned his pale, tear-stained countenance and looked at the officer; then a gentle smile crept over his face.
"I am waiting," he said simply.
There was such utter pathos in the old man"s voice, such gentle dignity in his manner, such a pleading look in his eyes that it seemed to satisfy the guardian of the law, for he walked on without uttering another word.
Von Barwig"s weary vigil soon came to an end. A pair of horses and a carriage drove up to the Stanton mansion and stopped at its doors. Von Barwig instantly recognised the Stanton livery, but the carriage was empty.
"It is waiting for some one," he muttered to himself. "Courage, courage! We shall soon see!"
It was now nearly dark, and he could approach nearer to the house without fear of being seen. The carriage stood there quite a time, during which the horses pawed the ground impatiently.
"Patience, patience," said Von Barwig to himself. "You soon see."
His patience was rewarded, for the door opened, and Helene Stanton issued forth, clad in a handsome evening costume. To Von Barwig"s fevered mind, she looked more radiantly beautiful, more tranquilly happy than he had ever before seen her. She walked rapidly down the brown stone steps, stepped quickly into the carriage and was whirled away before Von Barwig could realise what had happened. The old man could have shrieked aloud in his agony.
"She knows, she knows, she knows!" he kept saying to himself, as he groped his way toward home. He was dazed, benumbed. The many figures coming and going, this way and that way, seemed like a spectral vision to him. How he got as far as Union Square he never knew, but the first place he recognised was the open square. A large piano organ was playing and quite a number of people were grouped around it. This music recalled him to himself.
"I know the worst now; the sword of hope no longer hangs over my head.
At least my suspense is over," he said, "thank G.o.d it is over!"
He now realised what had happened.
"No more waiting and watching for the word that never comes!" he thought. "My dream is over! I am awake again, I will think no more of it."
He was walking across the square now. The evening was warm and sultry and all the benches were crowded with people except one on which a woman was seated holding a babe that was crying.
"Either people do not want to disturb her, or they do not want to be disturbed by the crying infant," thought Von Barwig, mechanically taking in the situation. He was now acutely conscious of things going on around him.
"What is the matter with that baby?" he wondered. He stooped and looked at the infant. It was crying piteously, so he looked at the woman and was struck by the fact that she was taking no notice of her child. She seemed to be absolutely unconscious of the fact that it was crying.
"How strange!" thought Von Barwig.
She was a young, girlish woman with rather attractive features, but pale and wan. Von Barwig could not help noticing the look of abject despair on her face. The child cried on, but she seemed oblivious of the fact.
"Can she hear it?" he asked himself. "Is she the mother and yet allows the babe to suffer without trying to help it?" Von Barwig"s interest was aroused and he determined to speak to her.
"I beg your pardon," he said gently to the girl. "Can I not do something for you?"
She turned to him and shook her head.
"Can I do something for the child? It--it suffers."
"Yes," responded the girl in a hoa.r.s.e voice. "I suppose it does--it"s hungry!"
Instinctively Von Barwig put his hand in his pocket, but the girl shook her head.
"Not that, not that!" she said quickly. "I have enough to eat, but--"
She looked at him more closely, looked into his eyes, and felt rather than saw that it was not mere idle curiosity that was prompting his question.
"It"s very kind of you to take an interest in a stranger. I"m feeding the child myself," she said after a pause; "but I can"t now, I can"t!"
The girl tried hard to keep back her tears. "It would poison her if I did! I dare not until I feel different. I"m full of hate and misery and h.e.l.l, and I dare not feed it to the child. Mother"s milk is poison when the mother feels as I do!" she cried, striking her breast in her misery.
The old man took her hand. "Don"t, please don"t," he said gently; "unless you want the child to die. Compose yourself, my dear girl, and tell me what has happened. I"m a stranger to you, yes, but misery brings us together and makes us old friends." He seated himself beside her. "Tell me; I am old enough to be your father! You have none, eh?"
"Yes," said the girl, "I have, but--" she broke off suddenly. Then she said, "My husband has left me, and the child not eight weeks old.
Isn"t that hard luck? Left me--for another! Oh, I know it"s an old story, but it"s new enough to me. G.o.d knows it"s new enough to me!"