"Yes, I"m well," snapped Jack.
"But you look sick. That is, what I can see of your face looks sick.
Your mouth droops at the corners. You"re very pale--and red in spots.
And your one eye glows with unearthly woe, as if you were not long for this world!"
The amazing nature of this speech, coming from the girl who had always been so sweet and quiet and backward, was attested to by the consternation of Jack and the mirth of his father.
"Are you making fun of me?" demanded Jack.
"Why, Jack! Do you think I would make fun of you? I only wanted to say how queer you look.... Are you going to be married with one eye?"
Jack collapsed at that, and the old man, after a long stare of open-mouthed wonder, broke out: "Haw! Haw! Haw!... By Golly! la.s.s--I"d never believed thet was in you.... Jack, be game an" take your medicine.... An" both of you forgive an" forget. Thar"ll be quarrels enough, mebbe, without rakin" over the past."
When alone again Columbine reverted to a mood vastly removed from her apparent levity with the rancher and his son. A grave and inward-searching thought possessed her, and it had to do with the uplift, the spiritual advance, the rise above mere personal welfare, that had strangely come to her through Bent Wade. From their first meeting he had possessed a singular attraction for her that now, in the light of the meaning of his life, seemed to Columbine to be the man"s n.o.bility and wisdom, arising out of his travail, out of the terrible years that had left their record upon his face.
And so Columbine strove to bind forever in her soul the spirit which had arisen in her, interpreting from Wade"s rude words of philosophy that which she needed for her own light and strength.
She appreciated her duty toward the man who had been a father to her.
Whatever he asked that would she do. And as for the son she must live with the rest of her life, her duty there was to be a good wife, to bear with his faults, to strive always to help him by kindness, patience, loyalty, and such affection as was possible to her. Hate had to be reckoned with, and hate, she knew, had no place in a good woman"s heart.
It must be expelled, if that were humanly possible. All this was hard, would grow harder, but she accepted it, and knew her mind.
Her soul was her own, unchangeable through any adversity. She could be with that alone always, aloof from the petty cares and troubles common to people. Wade"s words had thrilled her with their secret, with their limitless hope of an unknown world of thought and feeling. Happiness, in the ordinary sense, might never be hers. Alas for her dreams! But there had been given her a glimpse of something higher than pleasure and contentment. Dreams were but dreams. But she could still dream of what had been, of what might have been, of the beauty and mystery of life, of something in nature that called sweetly and irresistibly to her. Who could rob her of the rolling, gray, velvety hills, and the purple peaks and the black ranges, among which she had been found a waif, a little lost creature, born like a columbine under the spruces?
Love, sudden-dawning, inexplicable love, was her secret, still tremulously new, and perilous in its sweetness. That only did she fear to realize and to face, because it was an unknown factor, a threatening flame. Her sudden knowledge of it seemed inextricably merged with the mounting, strong, and steadfast stream of her spirit.
"I"ll go to him. I"ll tell him," she murmured. "He shall have _that!_...
Then I must bid him--good-by--forever!"
To tell Wilson would be sweet; to leave him would be bitter. Vague possibilities haunted her. What might come of the telling? How dark loomed the bitterness! She could not know what hid in either of these acts until they were fulfilled. And the hours became long, and sleep far off, and the quietness of the house a torment, and the melancholy wail of coyotes a reminder of happy girlhood, never to return.
When next day the long-deferred hour came Columbine selected a horse that she could run, and she rode up the winding valley swift as the wind. But at the aspen grove, where Wade"s keen, gentle voice had given her secret life, she suffered a reaction that made her halt and ascend the slope very slowly and with many stops.
Sight of Wade"s horse haltered near the cabin relieved Columbine somewhat of a gathering might of emotion. The hunter would be inside and so she would not be compelled at once to confess her secret. This expectancy gave impetus to her lagging steps. Before she reached the open door she called out.
"Collie, you"re late," answered Wilson, with both joy and reproach, as she entered. The cowboy lay upon his bed, and he was alone in the room.
"Oh!... Where is Ben?" exclaimed Columbine.
"He was here. He cooked my dinner. We waited, but you never came. The dinner got cold. I made sure you"d backed out--weren"t coming at all--and I couldn"t eat.... Wade said he knew you"d come. He went off with the hounds, somewhere ... and oh, Collie, it"s all right now!"
Columbine walked to his bedside and looked down upon him with a feeling as if some giant hand was tugging at her heart. He looked better. The swelling and redness of his face were less marked. And at that moment no pain shadowed his eyes. They were soft, dark, eloquent. If Columbine had not come with her avowed resolution and desire to unburden her heart she would have found that look in his eyes a desperately hard one to resist.
Had it ever shone there before? Blind she had been.
"You"re better," she said, happily.
"Sure--_now_. But I had a bad night. Didn"t sleep till near daylight.
Wade found me asleep.... Collie, it"s good of you to come. You look so--so wonderful! I never saw your face glow like that. And your eyes--oh!"
"You think I"m pretty, then?" she asked, dreamily, not occupied at all with that thought.
He uttered a contemptuous laugh.
"Come closer," he said, reaching for her with a clumsy bandaged hand.
Down upon her knees Columbine fell. Both hands flew to cover her face.
And as she swayed forward she shook violently, and there escaped her lips a little, m.u.f.fled sound.
"Why--Collie!" cried Moore, astounded. "Good Heavens! Don"t cry! I--I didn"t mean anything. I only wanted to feel you--touch your hand."
"Here," she answered, blindly holding out her hand, groping for his till she found it. Her other was still pressed to her eyes. One moment longer would Columbine keep her secret--hide her eyes--revel in the unutterable joy and sadness of this crisis that could come to a woman only once.
"What in the world?" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed the cowboy, now bewildered. But he possessed himself of the trembling hand offered. "Collie, you act so strange.... You"re not crying!... Am I only locoed, or flighty, or what?
Dear, look at me."
Columbine swept her hand from her eyes with a gesture of utter surrender.
"Wilson, I"m ashamed--and sad--and gloriously happy," she said, with swift breathlessness.
"Why?" he asked.
"Because of--of something I have to tell you," she whispered.
"What is that?"
She bent over him.
"Can"t you guess?"
He turned pale, and his eyes burned with intense fire.
"I won"t guess ... I daren"t guess."
"It"s something that"s been true for years--forever, it seems--something I never dreamed of till last night," she went on, softly.
"Collie!" he cried. "Don"t torture me!"
"Do you remember long ago--when we quarreled so dreadfully--because you kissed me?" she asked.
"Do you think I could kiss _you_--and live to forget?"
"I love you!" she whispered, shyly, feeling the hot blood burn her.
That whisper transformed Wilson Moore. His arm flashed round her neck and pulled her face down to his, and, holding her in a close embrace, he kissed her lips and cheeks and wet eyes, and then again her lips, pa.s.sionately and tenderly.
Then he pressed her head down upon his breast.
"My G.o.d! I can"t believe! Say it again!" he cried, hoa.r.s.ely.