"The sound of his voice-practice probably could not have been heard many feet from his door, or at all through the wall, floor, or ceiling. If it had been, it would perhaps have seemed a low, monotonous, continuous sort of growl, difficult to place or identify.
"You know most speaking voices are of greater potential range than their possessors show in the use of them. This is particularly true of American voices. There are exceptions enough, but as a nation, men and women, we speak higher than we need to; that is, we use only the upper and middle notes, and neglect the lower ones. No matter how good a man"s voice is naturally in the low register, the temptation of example in most cases is to glide into the national tw.a.n.g. To a certain extent, Davenport had done this. But, through his practice of singing, as well as of reading verse aloud for his own pleasure, he knew that his lower voice was, in the slang phrase, "all there." He knew, also, of a somewhat curious way of bringing the lower voice into predominance; of making it become the habitual voice, to the exclusion of the higher tones. Of course one can do this in time by studied practice, but the constant watchfulness is irksome and may lapse at any moment. The thing was, to do it once and for all, so that the quick unconscious response to the mind"s order to speak would be from the lower voice and no other. Davenport took Mr. Bud"s dictionary, opened it at U, and recited one after another all the words beginning with that letter as p.r.o.nounced in "under." This he did through the whole list, again and again, hour after hour, monotonously, in the lower register of his voice. He went through this practice every day, with the result that his deeper notes were brought into such activity as to make them supplant the higher voice entirely. p.r.o.nunciation has something to do with voice effect, and, besides, his complete transformation required some change in that on its own account. This was easy, as Davenport had always possessed the gift of imitating dialects, foreign accents, and diverse ways of speech. Earlier in life he had naturally used the p.r.o.nunciation of refined New Englanders, which is somewhat like that of the educated English. In New York, in his a.s.sociation with people from all parts of the country, he had lapsed into the slovenly p.r.o.nunciation which is our national disgrace. He had only to return to the earlier habit, and be as strict in adhering to it as in other details of the well-ordered life his new self was to lead.
"As I said, he was provided with shaving materials. But he couldn"t cut his own hair in the new way he had decided on. He had had it cut in the old fashion a few days before going into retirement, but toward the end of that retirement it had grown beyond its usual length. All he could do about it was to place himself between two mirrors, and trim the longest locks. Fortunately, he had plenty of time for this operation. After the first two or three weeks, his wounds required very little attention each day. His vocal and handwriting exercises weren"t to be carried to excess, and so he had a good deal of time on his hands. Some of this, after his face was sufficiently toward healing, he spent in physical exercise, using chairs and other objects in place of the ordinary calisthenic implements. He was very leisurely in taking his meals, and gave the utmost care to their composition from the preserved foods at his disposal. He slept from nightfall till dawn, and consequently needed no artificial light. For pure air, he kept a window open all night, being well wrapped up, but in the daytime he didn"t risk leaving open more than the cracks above and below the sashes, for fear some observant person might suspect a lodger in the room. Sometimes he read, renewing an acquaintance which the new man he was beginning to be must naturally have made, in earlier days, with Scott"s novels. He had necessarily designed that the new man should possess the same literature and general knowledge as the bygone Davenport had possessed. For already, as soon as the general effect of the operations began to emerge from bandages and temporary discoloration, he had begun to consider Davenport as bygone,--as a man who had come to that place one evening, remained a brief, indefinite time, and vanished, leaving behind him his clothes and sundry useful property which he, the new man who found himself there, might use without fear of objection from the former owner.
"The sense of new ident.i.ty came with perfect ease at the first bidding.
It was not marred by such evidences of the old fact as still remained.
These were obliterated one by one. At last the healing was complete; there was nothing to do but remove all traces of anybody"s presence in the room during Mr. Bud"s absence, and submit the hair to the skill of a barber. The successor of Davenport made a fire in the coal stove, starting it with the paper the parcels had been wrapped in; and feeding it first with Davenport"s clothes, and then with linen, towels, and other inflammable things brought in for use during the metamorphosis. He made one large bundle of the shoes, cans, jars, surgical instruments, everything that couldn"t be easily burnt, and wrapped them in a sheet, along with the dead ashes of the conflagration in the stove. He then made up Mr. Bud"s bed, restored the room to its original appearance in every respect, and waited for night. As soon as access to the bath-room was safe, he made his final toilet, as far as that house was concerned, and put on his new clothes for the first time. About three o"clock in the morning, when the street was entirely deserted, he lugged his bundle--containing the unburnable things--down the stairs and across the street, and dropped it into the river. Even if the things were ever found, they were such as might come from a vessel, and wouldn"t point either to Murray Davenport or to Mr. Bud"s room.
"He walked about the streets, in a deep complacent enjoyment of his new sensations, till almost daylight. He then took breakfast in a market restaurant, after which he went to a barber"s shop--one of those that open in time for early-rising customers--and had his hair cut in the desired fashion. From there he went to a down-town store and bought a supply of linen and so forth, with a trunk and hand-bag, so that he could "arrive" properly at a hotel. He did arrive at one, in a cab, with bag and baggage, straight from the store. Having thus acquired an address, he called at a tailor"s, and gave his orders. In the tailor"s shop, he recalled that he had left the Bagley money in Mr. Bud"s room, behind the books on the shelf. He hadn"t yet decided what to do with that money, but in any case it oughtn"t to remain where it was; so he went back to Mr.
Bud"s room, entering the house unnoticed.
"He took the money from the cover it was in, and put it in an inside pocket. He hadn"t slept during the previous night or day, and the effects of this necessary abstinence were now making themselves felt, quite irresistibly. So he relighted the gas-stove, and sat down to rest awhile before going to his hotel. His drowsiness, instead of being cured, was only increased by this taste of comfort; and the bed looked very tempting. To make a long story short, he partially undressed, lay down on the bed, with his overcoat for cover, and rapidly succ.u.mbed.
"He was awakened by a knock at the door of the room. It was night, and the lights and shadows produced by the gas-stove were undulating on the floor and walls. He waited till the person who had knocked went away; he then sprang up, threw on the few clothes he had taken off, smoothed down the cover of the bed, turned the gas off from the stove, and left the room for the last time, locking the door behind him. As he got to the foot of the stairs, two men came into the hallway from the street. One of them happened to elbow him in pa.s.sing, and apologized. He had already seen their faces in the light of the street-lamp, and he thanked his stars for the knock that had awakened him in time. The men were Mr. Bud and Larcher."
Turl paused; for the growing perception visible on the faces of Florence and Larcher, since the first hint of the truth had startled both, was now complete. It was their turn for whatever intimations they might have to make, ere he should go on. Florence was pale and speechless, as indeed was Larcher also; but what her feelings were, besides the wonder shared with him, could not be guessed.
CHAPTER XVI.
AFTER THE DISCLOSURE
The person who spoke first was Edna Hill. She had seen Turl less often than the other two had, and Davenport never at all. Hence there was no great stupidity in her remark to Turl:
"But I don"t understand. I know Mr. Larcher met a man coming through that hallway one night, but it turned out to be you."
"Yes, it was I," was the quiet answer. "The name of the new man, you see, was Francis Turl."
As light flashed over Edna"s face, Larcher found his tongue to express a certain doubt: "But how could that be? Davenport had a letter from you before he--before any transformation could have begun. I saw it the night before he disappeared--it was signed Francis Turl."
Turl smiled. "Yes, and he asked if you could infer the writer"s character. He wondered if you would hit on anything like the character he had constructed out of his imagination. He had already begun practical experiments in the matter of handwriting alone. Naturally some of that practice took the shape of imaginary correspondence. What could better mark the entire separateness of the new man from the old than letters between the two? Such letters would imply a certain brief acquaintance, which might serve a turn if some knowledge of Murray Davenport"s affairs ever became necessary to the new man"s conduct. This has already happened in the matter of the money, for example. The name, too, was selected long before the disappearance. That explains the letter you saw. I didn"t dare tell this earlier in the story,--I feared to reveal too suddenly what had become of Murray Davenport. It was best to break it as I have, was it not?"
He looked at Florence wistfully, as if awaiting judgment. She made an involuntary movement of drawing away, and regarded him with something almost like repulsion.
"It"s so strange," she said, in a hushed voice. "I can"t believe it. I don"t know what to think."
Turl sighed patiently. "You can understand now why I didn"t want to tell.
Perhaps you can appreciate what it was to me to revive the past,--to interrupt the illusion, to throw it back. So much had been done to perfect it; my dearest thought was to preserve it. I shall preserve it, of course. I know you will keep the secret, all of you; and that you"ll support the illusion."
"Of course," replied Larcher. Edna, for once glad to have somebody"s lead to follow, perfunctorily followed it. But Florence said nothing. Her mind was yet in a whirl. She continued to gaze at Turl, a touch of bewildered aversion in her look.
"I had meant to leave New York," he went on, watching her with cautious anxiety, "in a very short time, and certainly not to seek any of the friends or haunts of the old cast-off self. But when I got into the street that night, after you and Mr. Bud had pa.s.sed me, Larcher, I fell into a strong curiosity as to what you and he might have to say about Davenport. This was Mr. Bud"s first visit to town since the disappearance, so I was pretty sure your talk would be mainly about that.
Also, I wondered whether he would detect any trace of my long occupancy of his room. I found I"d forgot to bring out the cover taken from the bankbills. Suppose that were seen, and you recognized it, what theories would you form? For the sake of my purpose I ought to have put curiosity aside, but it was too keen; I resolved to gratify it this one time only.
The hallway was perfectly dark, and all I had to do was to wait there till you and Mr. Bud should come out. I knew he would accompany you down-stairs for a good-night drink in the saloon when you left. The slightest remark would give me some insight into your general views of the affair. I waited accordingly. You soon came down together. I stood well out of your way in the darkness as you pa.s.sed. And you can imagine what a revelation it was to me when I heard your talk. Do you remember?
Davenport--it couldn"t be anybody else--had disappeared just too soon to learn that "the young lady"--so Mr. Bud called her--had been true, after all! And it broke your heart to have nothing to report when you saw her!"
"I do remember," said Larcher. Florence"s lip quivered.
"I stood there in the darkness, like a man stunned, for several minutes,"
Turl proceeded. "There was so much to make out. Perhaps there had been something going on, about the time of the disappearance, that I--that Davenport hadn"t known. Or the disappearance itself may have brought out things that had been hidden. Many possibilities occurred to me; but the end of all was that there had been a mistake; that "the young lady" was deeply concerned about Murray Davenport"s fate; and that Larcher saw her frequently.
"I went out, and walked the streets, and thought the situation over. Had I--had Davenport--(the distinction between the two was just then more difficult to preserve)--mistakenly imagined himself deprived of that which was of more value than anything else in life? had he--I--in throwing off the old past, thrown away that precious thing beyond recovery? How precious it was, I now knew, and felt to the depths of my soul, as I paced the night and wondered if this outcome was Fate"s last crudest joke at Murray Davenport"s expense. What should I do? Could I remain constant to the cherished design, so well-laid, so painfully carried out, and still keep my back to the past, surrendering the happiness I might otherwise lay claim to? How that happiness lured me! I couldn"t give it up. But the great design--should all that skill and labor come to nothing? The physical transformation of face couldn"t be undone, that was certain. Would that alone be a bar between me and the coveted happiness? My heart sank at this question. But if the transformation should prove such a bar, the problem would be solved at least. I must then stand by the accomplished design. And meanwhile, there was no reason why I should yet abandon it. To think of going back to the old unlucky name and history!--it was asking too much!
"Then came the idea on which I acted. I would try to reconcile the alternatives--to stand true to the design, and yet obtain the happiness.
Murray Davenport should not be recalled. Francis Turl should remain, and should play to win the happiness for himself. I would change my plans somewhat, and stay in New York for a time. The first thing to do was to find you, Miss Kenby. This was easy. As Larcher was in the habit of seeing you, I had only to follow him about, and afterward watch the houses where he called. Knowing where he lived, and his favorite resorts, I had never any difficulty in getting on his track. In that way, I came to keep an eye on this house, and finally to see your father let himself in with a door-key. I found it was a boarding-house, took the room I still occupy, and managed very easily to throw myself in your father"s way. You know the rest, and how through you I met Miss Hill and Larcher.
In this room, also, I have had the--experience--of meeting Mr. Bagley."
"And what of his money?" asked Florence.
"That has remained a question. It is still undecided. No doubt a third person would hold that, though Bagley morally owed that amount, the creditor wasn"t justified in paying himself by a breach of trust. But the creditor himself, looking at the matter with feeling rather than thought, was sincere enough in considering the case at least debatable.
As for me, you will say, if I am Francis Turl, I am logically a third person. Even so, the idea of restoring the money to Bagley seems against nature. As Francis Turl, I ought not to feel so strongly Murray Davenport"s claims, perhaps; yet I am in a way his heir. Not knowing what my course would ultimately be, I adopted the fiction that my claim to certain money was in dispute--that a decision might deprive me of it. I didn"t explain, of course, that the decision would be my own. If the money goes back to Bagley, I must depend solely upon what I can earn. I made up my mind not to be versatile in my vocations, as Davenport had been; to rely entirely on the one which seemed to promise most. I have to thank you, Larcher, for having caused me to learn what that was, in my former iden--in the person of Murray Davenport. You see how the old and new selves will still overlap; but the confusion doesn"t harm my sense of being Francis Turl as much as you might imagine; and the lapses will necessarily be fewer and fewer in time. Well, I felt I could safely fall back on my ability as an artist in black and white. But my work should be of a different line from that which Murray Davenport had followed--not only to prevent recognition of the style, but to accord with my new outlook--with Francis Turl"s outlook--on the world. That is why my work has dealt with the comedy of life. That is why I elected to do comic sketches, and shall continue to do them. It was necessary, if I decided against keeping the Bagley money, that I should have funds coming in soon. What I received--what Davenport received for ill.u.s.trating your articles, Larcher, though it made him richer than he had often found himself, had been pretty well used up incidentally to the transformation and my subsequent emergence to the world. So I resorted to you to facilitate my introduction to the market. When I met you here one day, I expressed a wish that I might run across a copy of the Boydell Shakespeare Gallery. I knew--it was another piece of my inherited information from Davenport--that you had that book. In that way I drew an invitation to call on you, and the acquaintance that began resulted as I desired. Forgive me for the subterfuge. I"m grateful to you from the bottom of my heart."
"The pleasure has been mine, I a.s.sure you," replied Larcher, with a smile.
"And the profit mine," said Turl. "The check for those first three sketches I placed so easily through you came just in time. Yet I hadn"t been alarmed. I felt that good luck would attend me--Francis Turl was born to it. I"m confident my living is a.s.sured. All the same, that Bagley money would unlock a good store of the sweets of life."
He paused, and his eyes sought Florence"s face again. Still they found no answer there--nothing but the same painful difficulty in knowing how to regard him, how to place him in her heart.
"But the matter of livelihood, or the question of the money," he resumed, humbly and patiently, "wasn"t what gave me most concern. You will understand now--Florence"--his voice faltered as he uttered the name--"why I sometimes looked at you as I did, why I finally said what I did. I saw that Larcher had spoken truly in Mr. Bud"s hallway that night: there could be no doubt of your love for Murray Davenport. What had caused your silence, which had made him think you false, I dared not--as Turl--inquire. Larcher once alluded to a misunderstanding, but it wasn"t for me--Turl--to show inquisitiveness. My hope, however, now was that you would forget Davenport--that the way would be free for the newcomer. When I saw how far you were from forgetting the old love, I was both touched and baffled--touched infinitely at your loyalty to Murray Davenport, baffled in my hopes of winning you as Francis Turl. I should have thought less of you--loved you less--if you had so soon given up the unfortunate man who had pa.s.sed; and yet my dearest hopes depended on your giving him up. I even urged you to forget him; a.s.sured you he would never reappear, and begged you to set your back to the past. Though your refusal dashed my hopes, in my heart I thanked you for it--thanked you in behalf of the old self, the old memories which had again become dear to me. It was a puzzling situation,--my preferred rival was my former self; I had set the new self to win you from constancy to the old, and my happiness lay in doing so; and yet for that constancy I loved you more than ever, and if you had fallen from it, I should have been wounded while I was made happy. All the time, however, my will held out against telling you the secret. I feared the illusion must lose something if it came short of being absolute reality to any one--even you. I"m afraid I couldn"t make you feel how resolute I was, against any divulgence that might lessen the gulf between me and the old unfortunate self. It seemed better to wait till time should become my ally against my rival in your heart. But to-night, when I saw again how firmly the rival--the old Murray Davenport--was installed there; when I saw how much you suffered--how much you would still suffer--from uncertainty about his fate, I felt it was both futile and cruel to hold out."
"It _was_ cruel," said Florence. "I have suffered."
"Forgive me," he replied. "I didn"t fully realize--I was too intent on my own side of the case. To have let you suffer!--it was more than cruel.
I shall not forgive myself for that, at least."
She made no answer.
"And now that you know?" he asked, in a low voice, after a moment.
"It is so strange," she replied, coldly. "I can"t tell what I think. You are not the same. I can see now that you are he--in spite of all your skill, I can see that."
He made a slight movement, as if to take her hand. But she drew back, saying quickly:
"And yet you are not he."
"You are right," said Turl. "And it isn"t as he that I would appear. I am Francis Turl--"
"And Francis Turl is almost a stranger to me," she answered. "Oh, I see now! Murray Davenport is indeed lost--more lost than ever. Your design has been all too successful."
"It was _his_ design, remember," pleaded Turl. "And I am the result of it--the result of his project, his wish, his knowledge and skill. Surely all that was good in him remains in me. I am the good in him, severed from the unhappy, and made fortunate."
"But what was it in him that I loved?" she asked, looking at Turl as if in search of something missing.
He could only say: "If you reject me, he is stultified. His plan contemplated no such unhappiness. If you cause that unhappiness, you so far bring disaster on his plan."