Then he turned his troubled eyes and looked her in the face, and as he looked the trouble cleared.
"Why--Maggie!" he said.
_Epilogue_
"The worst of it all is," said Maggie, four months later, to a very patient female friend who adored her, and was her _confidante_ just then--"the worst of it is that I"m not in the least sure of what it is that I believe even now."
"Tell me, dear," said the girl.
The two were sitting out in a delightfully contrived retreat cut out at the lower end of the double hedge. Above them and on two sides rose ma.s.ses of August greenery, hazel and beech, as close as the roof and walls of a summer-house: the long path ran in green gloom up to the old brick steps beneath the yews: and before the two girls rested the pleasant apparatus of tea--silver, china and damask, all the more delightful from its barbaric contrast with its surroundings.
Maggie looked marvelously well, considering the nervous strain that had come upon her about Easter-time. She had collapsed altogether, it seemed, in Easter week itself, and had been for a long rest--one at her own dear French convent until a week ago, being entirely forbidden by the nuns to speak of her experiences at all, so soon as they had heard the rough outline. Mrs. Baxter had spent the time in rather melancholy travel on the Continent, and was coming back this evening.
"It seems to me now exactly like a very bad dream," said Maggie pensively, beginning to measure in the tea with a small silver scoop.
"Oh! Mabel; may I tell you exactly what is in my mind: and then we won"t talk of it any more at all?"
"Oh! do," said the girl, with a little comfortable movement.
When the tea had been poured out and the plates set ready to hand, Maggie began.
"It seems perfectly dreadful of me to have any doubts at all, after all this; but ... but you don"t know how queer it seems. There"s a kind of thick hedge--" she waved a hand ill.u.s.tratively to the hazels beside her--"a kind of thick hedge between me and Easter--I suppose it"s the illness: the nuns tell me so. Well, it"s like that. I can see myself, and Laurie, and Mr. Cathcart, and all the rest of them, like figures moving beyond; and they all seem to me to be behaving rather madly, as if they saw something that I can"t see.... Oh! it"s hopeless....
"Well, the first theory I have is that these little figures, myself included, really see something that I can"t now: that there really was something or somebody, which makes them dance about like that. (Yes: that"s not grammar; but you understand, don"t you?) Well, I"ll come back to that presently.
"And my next theory is this ... is this"--Maggie sipped her tea meditatively--"my next theory is that the whole thing was simple imagination, or, rather, imagination acting upon a few little facts and coincidences, and perhaps a little fraud too. Do you know the way, if you"re jealous or irritable, the way in which everything seems to fit in? Every single word the person you"re suspicious of utters all fits in and corroborates your idea. It isn"t mere imagination: you have real facts, of a kind; but what"s the matter is that you choose to take the facts in one way and not another. You select and arrange until the thing is perfectly convincing. And yet, you know, in nine cases out of ten it"s simply a lie...! Oh! I can"t explain all the things, certainly. I can"t explain, for instance, the pencil affair--when it stood up on end before Laurie"s eyes; that is, if it did really stand up at all. He says himself that the whole thing seems rather dim now, as if he had seen it in a very vivid dream. (Have one of these sugar things?)
"Then there are the appearances Laurie saw; and the extraordinary effect they finally had upon him. Oh! yes; at the time, on the night of Easter Eve, I mean, I was absolutely certain that the thing was real, that he was actually obsessed, that the thing--the Personality, I mean--came at me instead, and that somehow I won. Mr. Cathcart tells me I"m right--Well; I"ll come to that presently. But if it didn"t happen, I certainly can"t explain what did; but there are a good many things one can"t explain; and yet one doesn"t instantly rush to the conclusion that they"re done by the devil. People say that we know very little indeed about the inner working of our own selves. There"s instinct, for instance. We know nothing about that except that it is so. "Inherited experience" is only rather a clumsy phrase--a piece of paper gummed up to cover a crack in the wall.
"And that brings me to my third theory."
Maggie poured out for herself a second cup of tea.
"My third theory I"m rather vague about, altogether. And yet I see quite well that it may be the true one. (Please don"t interrupt till I"ve quite done.)
"We"ve got in us certain powers that we don"t understand at all. For instance, there"s thought-projection. There"s not a shadow of doubt that that is so. I can sit here and send you a message of what I"m thinking about--oh! vaguely, of course. It"s another form of what we mean by Sympathy and Intuition. Well, you know, some people think that haunted houses can be explained by this. When the murder is going on, the murderer and the murdered person are probably fearfully excited--anger, fear, and so on. That means that their whole being is stirred up right to the bottom, and that their hidden powers are frightfully active. Well, the idea is that these hidden powers are almost like acids, or gas--Hudson tells us all about that--and that they can actually stamp themselves upon the room to such a degree that when a sympathetic person comes in, years afterwards, perhaps, he sees the whole thing just as it happened. It acts upon his mind first, of course, and then outwards through the senses--just the reverse order to that in which we generally see things.
"Well--that"s only an ill.u.s.tration. Now my idea is this: How do we know whether all the things that happened, from the pencil and the rappings and the automatic writing, right up to the appearances Laurie saw, were not just the result of these inner powers.... Look here.
When one person projects his thought to another it arrives generally like a very faint phantom of the thing he"s thinking about. If I"m thinking of the ace of hearts, you see a white rectangle with a red spot in the middle. See? Well, multiply all that a hundred times, and one can just see how it might be possible that the thought of ... of Mr. Vincent and Laurie together might produce a kind of unreal phantom that could even be touched, perhaps.... Oh! I don"t know."
Maggie paused. The girl at her side gave an encouraging murmur.
"Well--that"s about all," said Maggie slowly.
"But you haven"t--"
"Why, how stupid! Yes: the first theory.... Now that just shows how unreal it is to me now. I"d forgotten it.
"Well, the first theory, my dear brethren, divides itself into two heads--first the theory of the spiritualists, secondly the theory of Mr. Cathcart. (He"s a dear, Mabel, even though I don"t believe one word he says.)
"Well, the spiritualist theory seems to me simple R.-O.-T.--rot. Mr.
Vincent, Mrs. Stapleton, and the rest, really think that the souls of people actually come back and do these things; that it was, really and truly, poor dear Amy Nugent who led Laurie such a dance. I"m quite, quite certain that that"s not true whatever else is.... Yes, I"ll come to the coincidences presently. But how can it possibly be that Amy should come back and do these things, and hurt Laurie so horribly?
Why, she couldn"t if she tried. My dear, to be quite frank, she was a very common little thing: and, besides, she wouldn"t have hurt a hair of his head.
"Now for Mr. Cathcart."
There was a long pause. A small cat stepped out suddenly from the hazel tangle behind and eyed the two girls. Then, quite noiselessly, as it caught Maggie"s eye, it opened its mouth in a pathetic curve intended to represent, an appeal.
"You darling!" cried Maggie suddenly; seized a saucer, filled it with milk, and set it on the ground. The small cat stepped daintily down, and set to work.
"Yes?" said the other girl tentatively.
"Oh! Mr. Cathcart.... Well, I must say that his theory fits in with what Father Mahon says. But, you know, theology doesn"t say that this or that particular thing is the devil, or has actually happened in any given instance--only that, if it really does happen, it is the devil.
Well, this is Mr. Cathcart"s idea. It"s a long story: you mustn"t mind.
"First, he believes in the devil in quite an extraordinary way.... Oh!
yes, I know we do too; but it"s so very real indeed with him. He believes that the air is simply thick with them, all doing their very utmost to get hold of human beings. Yes, I suppose we do believe that too; but I expect that since there are such a quant.i.ty of things--like bad dreams--that we used to think were the devil, and now only turn out to be indigestion, that we"re rather too skeptical. Well, Mr.
Cathcart believes both in indigestion, so to speak, _and_ the devil.
He believes that those evil spirits are at us all the time, trying to get in at any crack they can find--that in one person they produce lunacy--I must say it seems to me rather odd the way in which lunatics so very often become horribly blasphemous and things like that--and in another just shattered nerves, and so on. They take advantage, he says, of any weak spot anywhere.
"Now one of the easiest ways of all is through spiritualism.
Spiritualism is wrong--we know that well enough; it is wrong because it"s trying to live a life and find out things that are beyond us at present. It"s "wrong" on the very lowest estimate, because it"s outraging our human nature. Yes, Mabel, that"s his phrase. Good intentions, therefore, don"t protect us in the least. To go to _seances_ with good intentions is like ... like ... holding a smoking-concert in a powder-magazine on behalf of an orphan asylum.
It"s not the least protection--I"m not being profane, my dear--it"s not the least protection to open the concert with prayer. We"ve got no business there at all. So we"re blown up just the same.
"The danger...? Oh! the danger"s this, Mr. Cathcart says. At _seances_, if they"re genuine, and with automatic handwriting and all the rest, you deliberately approach those powers in a friendly way, and by the sort of pa.s.sivity which you"ve got to get yourself into, you open yourself as widely as possible to their entrance. Very often they can"t get in; and then you"re only bothered. But sometimes they can, and then you"re done. It"s particularly hard to get them out again.
"Now, of course, no one in his senses--especially decent people--would dream of doing all this if he knew what it all meant. So these creatures, whatever they may be, always pretend to be somebody else.
They"re very sharp: they can pick up all kinds of odds and ends, little tricks, and little facts; and so, with these, they impersonate someone whom the inquirer"s very fond of; and they say all sorts of pious, happy little things at first in order to lead them on. So they go on for a long time saying that religion"s quite true. (By the way, it"s rather too odd the way in which the Catholic Church seems the one thing they don"t like! You can be almost anything else, if you"re a spiritualist; but you can"t be a Catholic.) Generally, though, they tell you to say your prayers and sing hymns. (Father Mahon the other day, when I was arguing with him about having some hymns in church, said that heretics always went in for hymns!) And so you go on. Then they begin to hint that religion"s not worth much; and then they attack morals. Mr. Cathcart wouldn"t tell me about that; but he said it got just as bad as it could be, if you didn"t take care."
Maggie paused again, looking rather serious. Her voice had risen a little, and a new color had come to her face as she talked. She stooped to pick up the saucer.
"Dearest, had you better--"
"Oh! yes: I"ve just about done," said Maggie briskly. "There"s hardly any more. Well, there"s the idea. They want to get possession of human beings and move them, so they start like that.
"Well; that"s what Mr. Cathcart says happened to Laurie. One of those Beasts came and impersonated poor Amy. He picked up certain things about her--her appearance, her trick of stammering, and of playing with her fingers, and about her grave and so on: and then, finally, made his appearance in her shape."
"I don"t understand about that," murmured the girl.
"Oh! my dear, I can"t bother about that now. There"s a lot about astral substance, and so on. Besides, this is only what Mr. Cathcart says. As I told you, I"m not at all sure that I believe one word of it. But that"s his idea."
Maggie stopped again suddenly, and leaned back, staring out at the luminous green roof of hazels above her. The small cat could be discerned half-way up the leafy tunnel swaying its body in preparation for a pounce, while overhead sounded an agitated twittering. Mabel seized a pebble, and threw it with such success that the swaying stopped, and a reproachful cat-face looked round at her.