"Yeah," I said. "The Dormouse, when they b.u.t.tered the watch."
It may be true that feeble humor is better than none. I don"t know.
"What are you two yakking about?" Pop demanded.
"A book we both read," I told him.
"Either of you writers?" Pop asked with sudden interest. "Some of the boys think we should have a book about us. I say it"s too soon, but they say we might all die off or something. Whoa, Jenny! Easy does it.
Gently, please!"
That last remark was by way of recognizing that the plane had started an authoritative turn to the left. I got a sick and cold feeling. This was it.
Pop sheathed his knife and gave his face a final rub. Alice belted on her satchel. I reached for my knapsack, but I was staring through the viewport, dead ahead.
The haze lightened faintly, three times. I remembered the St. Elmo"s fire that had flamed from the cracking plant.
"Pop," I said--almost whined, to be truthful, "why"d the b.u.g.g.e.r ever have to land here in the first place? He was rushing stuff they needed bad at Atla-Hi--why"d he have to break his trip?"
"That"s easy," Pop said. "He was being a bad boy. At least that"s my theory. He was supposed to go straight to Atla-Hi, but there was somebody he wanted to check up on first. He stopped here to see his girlfriend. Yep, his girlfriend. She tried to warn him off--that"s my explanation of the juice that flared out of the cracking plant and interfered with his landing, though I"m sure she didn"t intend the last.
By the way, whatever she turned on to give him the warning must still be turned on. But Grayl came on down in spite of it."
Before I could a.s.similate that, the seven deformed gas tanks materialized in the haze. We got the freeway in our sights and steadied and slowed and kept slowing. The plane didn"t graze the cracking plant this time, though I"d have sworn it was going to hit it head on. When I saw we _weren"t_ going to hit it, I wanted to shut my eyes, but I couldn"t.
The stain was black now and the Pilot"s body was thicker than I remembered--bloated. But that wouldn"t last long. Three or four vultures were working on it.
CHAPTER 7
_Here now in his triumph where all things falter, Stretched out on the spoils that his own hand spread, As a G.o.d self-slain on his own strange altar, Death lies dead._
--A Forsaken Garden, _by Charles Swinburne_
Pop was first down. Between us we helped Alice. Before joining them I took a last look at the control panel. The cracking plant b.u.t.ton was up again and there was a blue nimbus on another b.u.t.ton. For Los Alamos, I supposed. I was tempted to push it and get away solo, but then I thought, _nope, there"s nothing for me at the other end and the loneliness will be worse than what I got to face here_. I climbed out.
I didn"t look at the body, although we were practically on top of it. I saw a little patch of silver off to one side and remembered the gun that had melted. The vultures had waddled off but only a few yards.
"We could kill them," Alice said to Pop.
"Why?" he responded. "Didn"t some Hindus use them to take care of dead bodies? Not a bad idea, either."
"Pa.r.s.ees," Alice amplified.
"Yep, Pa.r.s.ees, that"s what I meant. Give you a nice clean skeleton in a matter of days."
Pop was leading us past the body toward the cracking plant. I heard the flies buzzing loudly. I felt terrible. I wanted to be dead myself. Just walking along after Pop was an awful effort.
"His girl was running a hidden observation tower here," Pop was saying now. "Weather and all that, I suppose. Or maybe setting up a robot station of some kind. I couldn"t tell you about her before, because you were both in a mood to try to rub out anybody remotely connected with the Pilot. In fact, I did my best to lead you astray, letting you think I"d been the one to scream and all. Even now, to be honest about it, I don"t know if I"m doing the right thing telling and showing you all this, but a man"s got to take some risks whatever he does."
"Say, Pop," I said dully, "isn"t she apt to take a shot at us or something?" Not that I"d have minded on my own account. "Or are you and her that good friends?"
"Nope, Ray," he said, "she doesn"t even know me. But I don"t think she"s in a position to do any shooting. You"ll see why. Hey, she hasn"t even shut the door. That"s bad."
He seemed to be referring to a kind of manhole cover standing on its edge just inside the open-walled first story of the cracking plant. He knelt and looked down the hole the cover was designed to close off.
"Well, at least she didn"t collapse at the bottom of the shaft," he said. "Come on, let"s see what happened." And he climbed into the shaft.
We followed him like zombies. At least that"s how I felt. The shaft was about twenty feet deep. There were foot- and hand-holds. It got stuffy right away, and warmer, in spite of the shaft being open at the top.
At the bottom there was a short horizontal pa.s.sage. We had to duck to get through it. When we could straighten up we were in a large and luxurious bomb-resistant dugout, to give it a name. And it was stuffier and hotter than ever.
There was a lot of scientific equipment around and several small control panels reminding me of the one in the back of the plane. Some of them, I supposed, connected with instruments, weather and otherwise, hidden up in the skeletal structure of the cracking plant. And there were signs of occupancy, a young woman"s occupancy--clothes scattered around in a frivolous way, and some small objects of art, and a slightly more than life-size head in clay that I guessed the occupant must have been sculpting. I didn"t give that last more than the most fleeting look, strictly unintentional to begin with, because although it wasn"t finished I could tell whose head it was supposed to be--the Pilot"s.
The whole place was finished in dull silver like the cabin of the plane, and likewise it instantly struck me as having a living personality, partly the Pilot"s and partly someone else"s--the personality of a marriage. Which wasn"t a bit nice, because the whole place smelt of death.
But to tell the truth I didn"t give the place more than the quickest look-over, because my attention was rivetted almost at once on a long wide couch with the covers kicked off it and on the body there.
The woman was about six feet tall and built like a G.o.ddess. Her hair was blonde and her skin tanned. She was lying on her stomach and she was naked.
She didn"t come anywhere near my libido, though. She looked sick to death. Her face, twisted towards us, was hollow-cheeked and flushed. Her eyes, closed, were sunken and dark-circled. She was breathing shallowly and rapidly through her open mouth, gasping now and then.
I got the crazy impression that all the heat in the place was coming from her body, radiating from her fever.
And the whole place stunk of death. Honestly it seemed to me that this dugout was Death"s underground temple, the bed Death"s altar, and the woman Death"s sacrifice. (Had I unconsciously come to worship Death as a G.o.d in the Deathlands? I don"t really know. There it gets too deep for me.)
No, she didn"t come within a million miles of my libido, but there was another part of me that she was eating at ...
If guilt"s a luxury, then I"m a plutocrat.
... eating at until I was an empty sh.e.l.l, until I had no props left, until I wanted to die then and there, until I figured I had to die ...
There was a faint sharp hiss right at my elbow. I looked and found that, unbeknownst to myself, I"d taken the steel cube out of my pocket and holding it snuggled between my first and second fingers I"d punched the b.u.t.ton with my thumb just as I"d promised myself I would if I got to really feeling bad.
It goes to show you that you should never give your mind any kind of instructions even half in fun, unless you"re prepared to have them carried out whether you approve later or not.
Pop saw what I"d done and looked at me strangely. "So you had to die after all, Ray," he said softly. "Most of us find out we have to, one way or another."
We waited. Nothing happened. I noticed a very faint milky cloud a few inches across hanging in the air by the cube.
Thinking right away of poison gas, I jerked away a little, dispersing the cloud.
"What"s that?" I demanded of no one in particular.