"From England--yes; but we made some stay in Australia by the way,"
said Eleanor turning from the window to take a more sociable position nearer her hostess.
"A long voyage?"
"Not remarkably long. I had good companions."
"From what part of England?"
"The borders of Wales, last."
"Brother Rhys is from Wales--isn"t he?"
"I do not know," said Eleanor, vexed to feel the flush of blood to her cheeks.
"Ah? You have known brother Rhys before?" with a searching look.
"Yes."
"And how do you think you shall like it in Fiji?"
"You can hardly expect me to tell under such short trial," said Eleanor smiling.
"There are trials enough. I suppose you expect those, do you not?"
"I do not mean to expect them till they come," said Eleanor, still smiling.
"Do you think that is wise?" said the other gravely. "They will come, I a.s.sure you, fast enough; do you not think it is well to prepare the mind for what it has to go through, by looking at it beforehand?"
"You never know beforehand what is to be gone through," said Eleanor.
"But you know some things; and it is well, I think, to harden oneself against what is coming. I have found that sort of discipline very useful. Sister, may I ask you a searching questions?"
"Certainly! If you please," said Eleanor.
"You know, we should be ready to give every one a reason of the hope that is in us. I want to ask you, sister, what moved you to go on a mission?"
Astonishment almost kept Eleanor silent; then noticing the quick eyes of Mrs. Balliol repeating the enquiry at her face, the difficulty of answering met and joined with a small tide of indignation at its being demanded of her. She did not want to be angry, and she was very near being ready to cry. Her mind was in that state of overwrought fulness when a little stir is more than the feelings can bear. Among conflicting tides, the sense of the ludicrous at last got the uppermost; and she laughed, as one laughs whose nerves are not just under control; heartily and merrily. Mrs. Balliol was confounded.
"I should not have thought it was a laughing matter,"--she remarked at length. But the gravity of that threw Eleanor off again; and the little hands and ruffled sleeves were reviewed under new circ.u.mstances. And when Eleanor got command of herself, she still kept her hand over her eyes, for she found that she was just trembling into tears. She held it close pressed upon them.
"Perhaps you are fatigued, sister?" said Mrs. Balliol, in utter incapacity to account for this demonstration.
"Not much. I beg your pardon!" said Eleanor. "I believe I am a little unsettled at first getting here. If you please, I will try being quite quiet for awhile--if you will let me be so discourteous?"
"Do so!" said Mrs. Balliol. "Anything to rest you." And Eleanor went back to her window, and turning her face to the garden again rested her head on her hand; and there was a hush. Mrs. Balliol worked and mused, probably. Eleanor did as she had said; kept quiet. The quiet lasted a long time, and the tropical day grew up into its meridian heats; yet it was not oppressive; a fine breeze relieved it and made it no other than pleasant. Home at last! This great stillness and quiet, after the ocean tossings, and months of voyaging, and change, and heart-uncertainty.
The peace of heart now was as profound; but so profound, and so thankfully recognized, that Eleanor"s mood was a little unsteady. She needed to be still and recollect herself, as she could looking out into the leaves of a great banana tree there in the garden, and forgetting the house and Mrs. Balliol.
The quiet lasted a long time, and was broken then by the entrance of Mr. Balliol. His wife introduced him; and after learning that he could now render no aid to Mr. Rhys, he immediately entered into a brisk conversation with the new comer Mr. Rhys had brought. That went well, and was also strengthening. Eleanor was greatly pleased with him. He was evidently a man of learning and sense and spirit; a man of excellent parts, in good cultivation, and filled with a most benign and gentle temper of goodness. It was a pleasure to talk to him; and while they were talking the party from the schooner arrived.
Eleanor felt her "shamefacedness" return upon her, while all the rest were making acquaintance, welcoming and receiving welcome. She stood aside. Did they know her position? While she was thinking, Mr. Rhys came to her and put her again in her chair by the window. Mrs. Amos had been carried off by Mrs. Balliol. The two other gentlemen were in earnest converse. Mr. Rhys took a seat in front of Eleanor and asked in a low voice if she wished for any delay?
"In what?" said Eleanor, though she knew the answer.
"Coming home."
He was almost sorry for her, to see the quick blood flash into her face. But she caught her breath and said "No."
"You know," he said; how exactly like the Mr. Rhys of Pla.s.sy!--"I would not hurry you beyond your pleasure. If you would like to remain here a day or two, domiciled with Mrs. Balliol, and rest, and see the land--you have only to say what you wish."
"I do not wish it," said Eleanor, finding it very difficult to answer at all--"I wish it to be just as you please."
"You must know what my pleasure is. Does your heart not fail you, now you are here?" he asked still lower and in a very gentle way.
"No."
"Eleanor, have you had any doubts or failings of heart at any time, since you left England?"
"No. Yes!--I did, once--at Sydney."
"At Sydney?"--repeated Mr. Rhys in a perceptibly graver tone.
"Yes--at Sydney--when I did not get any letters from you."
"You got no letters from me?"
"No."
"At Sydney?"
"No," said Eleanor venturing to look up.
"Did you not see Mr. Armitage?"
"Mr. Armitage! O he was in the back country--I remember now Mr. Amos said that; and he never returned to Sydney while we were there."
An inarticulate sound came from Mr. Rhys"s lips, between indignation and impatience; the strongest expression of either that Eleanor had ever heard from him.
"Then Mr. Armitage had the letters?"
"Certainly! and I am in the utmost surprise at his carelessness. He ought to have left them in somebody else"s charge, if he was quitting the place himself. When did you hear from me?"
The flush rose again, not so vividly, to Eleanor"s face.
"I heard in England--those letters--you know."
"Those letters I trusted to Mrs. Caxton?"
"Yes."