Translator: MysticRain
04.
Turned out it had already been this long.
The sixteen years old boys, one had become a twenty-seven years old man, and one became an underground soul.
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Li Yu couldn"t stop crying, he hugged the photo and shrunk into a ball, only his shoulders were trembling slightly.
As if in that one second, a sixteen-years-old Zhao Mu was still carried his violin and confessed to him. He nodded in a daze, Zhao Mu then laughed as he ran away from the window, the sound of footsteps kicking and treading spread all the way to the door of his house. He opened the door, Zhao Mu leaned in front of his house fervently looking at him. He smiled brightly when he saw him opened the door.
Still remembered ah……
Zhao Mu took a deep breath, he then pulled out his violin and played a song with a strange tune very nervously.
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One long, one short.
Tà——tàtà——tàtà——
It was like the rhythm of the heartbeat.
Li Yu couldn"t make sense of what he was hearing, but the gentleness in the tune almost made people burst into tears, it fully soaked with love. He was stunned, while Zhao Mu"s face was full of self-satisfaction.
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"This tune is called "I love you"."
Zhao Mu bowed deeply to the overwhelmed Li Yu like a musician, then got up and introduced it solemnly, "It"s a secret code that belongs only to the two of us."
After that, he couldn"t helped and laughed out loud again.
Li Yu foolishly looked at him.
"I"ll play for you, until forever." He tilted his head with a smile, "So, Li Yu, from now on, you are my boyfriend."
The young man was always arrogant like that, everything he said was forever.
Words were a weapon of murder……
He didn"t know that such words could also became a knife, a sharp knife inserted into the center of the heart. Red blood will pour out when it was pulled out, life force will following the wound and flow out from the wound——or perhaps he knew, but despicably and selfishly tried to bind Li Yu.
Li Yu was young at that time and thought that he could really do it.
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But, how long was forever?
——”Until the day I died." Zhao Mu said firmly.
As a result, forever turned out to be only a short eleven years.
Li Yu doesn"t understand music, he was tone-deaf, and his singing was out of tune, it was a pity that every notes that was sung was not in the same tune. Zhao Mu plugged a wrong string, he won"t be able to notice, plug a different string, he will also be happy——This kind of monotonous music without lyric was the same for him, even Zhao Mu"s meticulous creation of "I love you", was just a common note in which the length of the beat was interlaced.
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One long, one short.
One long, one short.
Dā——tàtà——tà——tàtà——
Right, just like that.
The gentle tune coincided together with the heartbeat like there was a little man stepped on the softest part in his heart, and danced lightly on tiptoes.
Tà——tàtà——
Tà——tàtà——
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Li Yu suddenly opened his eyes.
Don"t know when the sky had already turned dark, a little light from the outside penetrated through the gla.s.s window. He trembled, there was a rhythmic sound whispered softly in his ear.
"A Mu……?"
The expression on Li Yu"s face can almost be called panic, "A Mu?"
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——That was the secret codes belong to them.
Binded them firmly together.
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Li Yu suddenly got up, he frantically opened one side of the wardrobe, looked in the sundry cabinet, and even lay down to tried looking at the bottom of the narrow bed.
The kitchen, the toilet, under the table, then under the couch……
Couldn"t find.
Couldn"t find.
Couldn"t find.
The house was empty, only the corner of the man"s mouth in the portrait curled up, with an ice-cold expression on his face.
Li Yu finally cried out, like a dying person, covered his chest.
Couldn"t find.
"Where the f*ck are you?!" He yelled, "Zhao Mu!! Get out here!!! Is it fun to mess around with me?!"
Despair was almost drowned him to death.
He staggered back to the room, the hand of the clock pointed to twelve, his footstep paused, his tears had ran out.
He wasn"t afraid.
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The time seemed to suddenly flowed in reverse.
Li Yu"s lips quivered.
That young man stood in front of the window like eleven years ago, tapped one, after another on the window.
Pale complexion, with an ashened expression.
"I love you," Zhao Mu tried his best to mouthed through the window, "I love you."
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——Turned out, the sound came from here.
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"I love you." Zhao Mu said.
Li Yu couldn"t clearly heard what Zhao Mu was saying, but he knew he must have said that.
Softly, gently, or crazily said that, but no matter what, it still made Li Yu panicked with love.
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Li Yu suddenly smiled.
Like a man who wanted to marry his wife, smiled foolishly at the wedding ceremony.
He stepped forward awkwardly, he had a hallucination that he was walking on the red carpet, and Zhao Mu was standing at the end of the red carpet.
Flowers, smiles, and rings.
"I love you." Zhao Mu looked straight at him
Li Yu gently caressed the gla.s.s window, the cold touch made him curled up and shivered a little. The vibration produced by the tapping on the other side of the widow penetrated through the thin gla.s.s and transmitted to his hand, to his blood, to his heart, and almost stabbed him.
"I love you," Zhao Mu put his forehead against the window, "A Yu……"
"You"re here……" Li Yu said with his head hung low, "That"s very good."
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A Zhao Mu that wasn"t pretty.
He rarely not smiled, the b.l.o.o.d.y liquid began to gather in his lifeless eyes, then ran across his cheek. His face was dirtied with bloodstains and in his eyes were filled with unwillingness.
"Don"t look……" He also lowered his head, "So ugly……don"t look at me…..don"t hate me……"
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How could it be.
Li Yu desperately shook his head, and hurriedly opened the window.
How could it be.
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"No……you have to look at me. Can only look at me….." Zhao Mu said again, "Don"t even think about going anywhere."
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The window opened.
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"A Mu……"
Li Yu happily said.
But before he could even uttered his name.
It was only just a "want" to happily say it.
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Li Yu"s hands halted ridiculously in midair, he stared foolishly at the emptied room.
He had woke up from a dream.
He was still crying while holding the picture, only that his right hand was unnaturally raised.
Li Yu blinked in bewilderment.
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——Turned out, all that just now was only a beautiful dream after he was tired of crying.
No one knocked on the window, and no one persistently said "I love you".
There was nothing.
The room was in complete silence, even a pin drop to the ground could also be heard.
Li Yu suddenly truly realized, his man was gone.
——When he looked at Zhao Mu closed eyes in the hospital, he didn"t feel lost.
——When he watched Zhao Mu being cremated in the funeral parlor, he also didn"t feel lost.
——When he was holding the heavy urn in his hands, he still hasn"t feel lost.
His was just numbly thought——Why was he gone?
But in fact, his heart hadn"t admitted.
Zhao Mu, this clingy man, how could he possibly leave him.
They will be together, Zhao Mu had said forever.
Forever……What a nice word.
But just at that moment, Li Yu suddenly was clear, the forever that belonged to them was already over.
How could there be anything lasted forever……