Things started to become awkward between us since three months . It was not like we stopped talking , we were talking but we were not like before . There was a change in our friendship which I didn"t like, the change which I never wanted to happen but at the end it did . I didn"t know what to do , I wanted to talk to her yet I couldn"t , I wanted to tell her how important she is in my life , I wanted to ask her if Veronica was the reason for her behavior towards me . She was the only person to whom I always shared my thoughts but now things weren"t like before . I don"t know if I should talk to her about this matter or should I ignore it and let the time decide . But don"t want to loose her.
Two and a half months ago , I decided to write my feelings in a diary after coming from school , whenever I was depressed , I wanted to divert myself by writing few unforgettable moments in my life . I started to write from the day I met Austin because since the time I met him my life has changed .
Today , as I was going to my cla.s.s I was called by Justin , I turned back and saw him holding a basket ball . He came towards me and asked if something happened between me and Rachel .
I was to tears when he asked me about Rachel .He told me to follow him and I did, without asking him any question . He took me to basket ball court and made me sit on a bench and gave me his water bottle to drink .
I drank water and wiped my tears with my handkerchief . He didn"t ask me anything he just stood in front of me and waited for me to calm down .
Go talk to her , he said .
I raised my head and looked at him and said , I am not understanding how to talk to her , I don"t know how and when did things turned in this way , I"m not able to handle this situation , I said wiping my tears .
He sat beside me and said ," you have to tell her how you are feeling Jess , every person have their own point of view she might be right in her point of view and you in yours , if you don"t want to loose her in your life because of few misunderstandings , you need to explain her so that she might understand your feelings . "
Do you think it"ll work ?, I asked him .
Slap me if it won"t work , he replied .
I"ll go and talk to her today ,I said in a low tone .
As you wish ,I guess she is sitting at the bench , where you both always sit , he said playing with his ball .
I tilted my head and saw that she was sitting on the same bench and reading her novel .
I had a slight smile on my face , I looked at him . Before I could tell something he cut my words and told me to go and talk to her as soon as possible , he tried to divert me as if he knew what I was about to say .
He stood and started playing with his ball ignoring me , while I sat looking at him with a smile .
I stood and walked to a certain distance and turned back to look at him to ask him as I was always curious to know .
" What about you then ?" I asked him while he was still playing with the ball .
He didn"t respond to my question. immediately , he shot the ball into the basket with one hand from a certain distance .
" When the time comes " he replied slightly moving corner of his lips upwards .
I can no more wait , I"ll see you later , I said and left with a bright smile on my face .
As I was walking towards her , I thought of asking her directly but when I went to her I was not able to talk . I felt a lump in my throat .
She raised her head and looked at me and said , hey .
It is awkward , really awkward , I thought .
What are you reading ? , I asked her .
She showed me the book which she was reading .
I gave a nod .
We didn"t talk for few minutes , I sat beside her holding a leaf in my hand while she continued reading her novel .
I miss you , I said holding back my tears .
She paused for few second and replied ,so do I .
We both looked at each other , both of us were trying to hold our tears back . Looking at her face I laughed due to which my tears rolled down to my cheeks .
Stop laughing , she said while slightly pinching me .
I wiped my tears and apologised her for the things I"ve done , I didn"t explain anything to her .
No , you don"t have to , even I was wrong. I shouldn"t have ignored you , I should"ve talked instead , I"m sorry for that , I know I"m so stupid , she said wiping her tears .
Yes , you are stupid for not telling me anything and so am I , I should"ve asked you before dong anything instead of forcing you , I said holding her hands .
You never forced me , it"s just that .....I don"t know , all of a sudden I felt that things changed and I didn"t like it and I started to behave like that ..... Aarrghhh !!!....I"m sorry, she said .
That"s alright , it happens , now come give me a hug ,I said .
We both hugged and giggled and had a good time after many months .
We went to the cla.s.s together I was really happy that things were fine between us .
During lunch hour I told Veronica that I would sit with Rachel .
Just like before we went to take a stroll .On our way we met Justin .
Wow , so soon ? , he said .
I nodded with a wide smile .
What?, Rachel asked .
You should thank me Rach , I was the one who helped you both to solve your misunderstandings , Justin said proudly .
Think whatever you want , Rachel snorted .
Thankyou Justin , I said and kissed him on his cheeks .
My pleasure sister , he said brushing my hair .
He took a step towards Rachel and faced his other side of his cheek towards her and placing his index finger on his cheek he said , it"s your turn now .
You are so despicable , Rachel muttered.
What ? , am I so desirable ? , Justin said in a teasing tone .
Even though he heard what Rachel said in a low voice ,he pretended as if he heard it wrong.
I said you are so despicable , you idiot , get out if my way now , Rachel yelled at him and walked away.
Justin started to laugh looking at her reaction , even though she yelled at him , her face which turned red said something else . She was clearly blushing and left that place as she didn"t want him to see her in that embarra.s.sed state .
When will you stop teasing her , I said and kicked him .
Never , he replied with a wicked smile while placing his hand in his pockets and looking at Rachel who was walking hurriedly .
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When I was a kid I always thought that only Rachel liked Justin . But as I grew up I slowly realised that I was wrong when I started to notice Justin"s glances at Rachel. She would"ve understood how much he liked her by the way he used to look at her ,but she never did .