After bidding our farewell to Cindy we went to the canteen as we were starving . It was already evening by the time we went to canteen so there was nothing left to eat . We both continued to talk about Cindy , we were worried about her . After a while Justin came and sat beside us with three cool drinks in his hands . We changed the topic and recollected all the sweet moments that happened in the school since our childhood .We didn"t want to tell Cindy"s secret to anyone not even Justin . Even though I was talking to them my mind was filled with the thoughts of what happened between me and Austin . After we were done talking and clicking pictures , we left from canteen , Justin told us that Aaron told him to wait for him , so we waited at the entrance gate .I was still not ready to face Austin . I was hiding behind Rachel when I saw Austin and Aaron coming towards us .
I"m starving , Aaron said.
That"s why we are going to the restaurant to have something , Justin said to Aaron .
We went to a nearby restaurant by walk . I was avoiding Austin as much as I could but I knew that he was staring at me . After going to the restaurant Rachel and I went to wash our hands and by the time we came to sit , Rachel sat beside Justin and only one chair was empty and that was beside Austin . I sat right next to him at the table since I had no other option .
Rachel ordered the food , Those three were talking about a movie which was released recently . Austin nudged me and pa.s.sed me a paper under the table . I opened it slowly not making it obvious to the people who were sitting beside me .
// You don"t have to worry about what happened earlier . It was me who turned around to talk to you . Don"t think much about it now and spoil your mood ..... Keep smiling Jessica //
Was as written in the paper . I felt good after reading it , I looked at him and gave a bright smile .
His pen was a bow and his words were his arrow which struck my heart . Even though that paper contained only few words , those words were more than enough for me to smile .
After we were done eating , we came out of the restaurant , Aaron left after clicking group pictures and then we went back to school where Austin"s car was waiting for him .
Let"s meet up after the exams , Justin said to which Austin gave a nod .
All the best Austin , Rachel said .
Thankyou , he said and looked at me .
I felt my heart heavy and a lump formed in my throat due to which I wasn"t able to talk . I gulped and managed to say , Let"s meet soon after the exams Austin .
Sure , he said and he stretched his hand to shake my hand with him . His hand was cold and soft , I didn"t want to leave his hand but sadly I had to let go of him .
I loosened his hand after shaking and then headed towards his car . I stood there still , not moving even an inch till he went to his car . I wanted to see his face before he left . I literally thought of calling his name out loud but by then he turned back and looked at us . His thin lips were curved upwards into a smile . Justin was waving his hand at him .He got into his car and left .
We three went back to our home as usual . After reaching home I fell on bed . I regretted not tell him my feelings but at the same time I felt that he would"ve rejected me . So I thought to take risk after my exams . I prepared for my exams day and night . I went through those sleepless nights again . The paper which he gave me in the restaurant , I pasted it on my wall near my study table to motivate myself .
After my exams , most our cla.s.s friends gathered and few didn"t and Austin was one of the few people who didn"t attend the gathering . I left the party in middle after I came to know that Austin wasn"t attending the party . That night I cried the entire night . My results were out , I scored 98% in my final exams . A few days later , I applied for an entrance exam to a prestigious university for fashion designing course . I thought of taking Austin"s number from my cousin and talk to him in the phone and tell him my feelings but I thought it was bad idea . I wanted to tell him in person even though I wasn"t sure if he would accept my confession or no . The days for my entrance exam was near . I knew that I had to prepare for it at any cost , I didn"t want my present situation to affect my career . I had my entrance exam in the month of May , it was on Justin"s birthday. I couldn"t attend his birthday party . After returning back to my home , Rachel came to my house and told me that Austin came to Justin"s party . I felt like the entire universe didn"t want me to meet Austin . I never thought that our last meeting would be the last day of our school . And that"s how my school life ended and even the chance to tell him how much I love him . I know that I won"t be meeting him again because I got a seat in Fashion University in x.x.x country and I will be leaving tomorrow .
GOOD BYE DIARY !!!!
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I regretted a lot for not telling him my true feelings towards him . But at that time I was afraid , afraid that he might reject me and also I thought that it would be better to let him know after my exams . But who knew that we would never meet after that . But I never regretted liking him , it was because of him I wanted to change . The things I did for him to notice me made me a different person . Today whoever I am is only because of the things I did for him and also because of the encouragement he gave me when I lacked confidence . He have no idea how much I"m thankful to him for his presence in my life .