"You wouldn"t let me go away when it would have been some use," she said; "leave me in peace now."
A horrible fear clutched at the resolute heart of the mother as she took fresh and sudden note of the wasted frame, the languid, long, transparent hands, the far-away vision of the eyes.
"No, I _wouldn"t_ let you go alone and unprotected. But now that John and his wife are settled in New York it"s a different story altogether.
You can stay with them, and--and study sculpture for a while," she added, with a visible effort.
Valeria shook her head. But there was a new light in the hollow eyes.
Little by little she was seen to be in reality feverishly bent on availing herself of her mother"s late concession. Mrs. Gano was as good as her word. She put no further obstacle in the way, and, though it was the depth of winter, took the long journey with her daughter, arriving at her son"s house much exhausted, to find Mrs. John ill in bed, a mutiny among the servants, and a scene of inexpressible confusion and disorder, in the midst of which stood Val, turbulent and triumphant. Nor did she budge upon the usually subduing apparition of Mrs. Gano. Dirty and neglected, an impudent little face with bold gray eyes looking out from a wild swirl of tawny hair, there she stood in the middle of the untidy dining-room, aided and abetted in some unspeakable enormity by the mere presence of her faithful ally, a huge St. Bernard dog.
"My patience!" exclaimed Mrs. Gano, surveying the scene.
"Why, it"s my dear little namesake," said Aunt Valeria, with a kind of gentle incredulity, as she moved forward.
Her dear little namesake retreated, dragging the great dog back with her by the collar.
"_That_ my granddaughter!"
Mrs. Gano spoke with mixed emotion, and hurriedly put on her spectacles.
"My darling," said Aunt Valeria, watching the dog with the tail of her eye, "come and kiss me."
The child stared solemnly without moving a muscle.
"Come, my dear, and speak to your grandmother."
Mrs. Gano advanced with majesty till she was arrested by a low growl from the St. Bernard.
"Don"t be afraid of us," urged Aunt Valeria, somewhat superfluously.
"I"ve brought you a pretty toy in my trunk. Come, darling."
The child kept a suspicious eye on the ingratiating stranger.
"She has very pretty hair," pursued Aunt Valeria, amiably.
"She hasn"t pretty manners," retorted Mrs. Gano.
"Oh, she"s shy. Don"t be afraid of us"--she ventured a step nearer.
"Come here, my sweet little one."
Never taking her eyes off her gentle aunt, the sweet little one said, with a charming childish lisp:
"Ef yer don"t be thtil, I"ll thick my dawg on yer."
The two ladies fell back appalled.
"Turn that great animal out of doors," said Mrs. Gano, in awful tones, to the cook. But Katie O"Flynn shrank visibly from availing herself of this kind permission.
"Sure, mum, he"d have the heart out of me; and that"s just what Miss Val would like, be the Howly Mother!"
"This is beyond everything," said Mrs. Gano, more nonplussed than she had often found herself. "The child must be out of her senses. We will go up to your mistress," she said to Katie O"Flynn. "If you were _my_ daughter," she added, solemnly, looking back at the immovable one, "I should know how to deal with you. As it is, I"ll leave you to your father."
But leaving Val to her father proved a less drastic measure than Mrs.
Gano antic.i.p.ated. Whether because of his sentiment about the first-born--offspring of that only year of happiness and hope--or merely because her wildness was a distraction in his brief moments of respite from crushing cares, at all events, he looked upon the child with a lenient eye. He had her much about him when he was at home, smiled at recitals of her escapades, and called her his amiable firebrand, never in the least realizing that the overflow of animal spirits, which in rare hours of ease were his diversion and delight, might be to others a chronic bewilderment, and a not infrequent torment.
"Her mother," said the elder Mrs. Gano, not thoroughly understanding the situation--"her mother has utterly spoiled the child."
"No, no," said John Gano, smiling. "Val was born like that. I"ve never known anybody with such high spirits."
""Spirits?" Nonsense! _Fever._ And you, every one of you help to aggravate her unnatural activity of mind and body. Meanwhile, my advice to you is: Don"t make an idol of your eldest daughter. It"s bad enough in the case of a boy, but no girl survives it."
Mrs. Gano returned home with little loss of time. Her daughter-in-law"s higgledy-piggledy house-keeping, the "slackness" that was not all ill-health, coupled with the ubiquitous and unquiet presence of Val, made the elder lady long for her peaceful home in the West. Her going left behind a memory of awe and a vivid sense of relief.
Valeria the elder, with improved health, or else strung up to a semblance of it by the potent ghost of a dear ambition, began her studies in art. She took out a course of lessons in modelling at the Cooper Inst.i.tute.
The story of those months may not be written here. We will not dog her through her days of disillusionment, her shrinking from the curiosity of the students, her amazement at their facility, her heart-sinking at their youth. As the weeks went on the teacher, an Italian of fine and gentle countenance, looked at her far more often than he looked at her work; and yet it was observed by the merciless young crew in the studio that her blundering attempts were inspected with an interest and frequency not bestowed on their more creditable efforts.
Signor Conti leaned over her one day, speaking kindly phrases in broken English about the new attempt she was making.
"Don"t! don"t, please!" she said, on a sudden impulse. "Understand that at least I _know_ it"s bad."
"Oh, it will be better," he answered, gently.
"No," she said, very low, "it will never be much better. I"ve waited too long."
"You must not feel discouraged." He leaned lower and spoke under his breath. "You may yet find great happiness by means of your art."
She shook her head, and when she could steady her voice said:
"I"m going home."
The man"s face changed.
"You will not do that!"
"Yes."
"It would be another mistake, I think."
"Another?"
"Yes. The first was for one of your temperament to come to a great noisy cla.s.s like this. You cannot do your best work here. This is not the place for you."
"What could I have done?"
"You can work under some artist alone, some one who can give you more time. I tell you, you have talent, a _bello ingegno, signorina_."
She looked up with a gleam of hope shining through tears.