"What is it, Mrs. Berry!" lisps Lucy, opening the most innocent blue eyes.
"As if _I_ couldn"t see, you pet! It was my flurry blinded me, or I"d "a marked ye the fust shock. Thinkin" to deceive me!"
Mrs. Berry"s eyes spoke generations. Lucy"s wavered; she coloured all over, and hid her face on the bounteous breast that mounted to her.
"You"re a sweet one," murmured the soft woman, patting her back, and rocking her. "You"re a rose, you are! and a bud on your stalk.
Haven"t told a word to your husband, my dear?" she asked quickly.
Lucy shook her head, looking sly and shy.
"That"s right. We"ll give him a surprise; let it come all at once on him, and thinks he--losin" breath--"I"m a father!" Nor a hint even you haven"t give him?"
Lucy kissed her, to indicate it was quite a secret.
"Oh! you _are_ a sweet one," said Bessy Berry, and rocked her more closely and lovingly.
Then these two had a whispered conversation, from which let all of male persuasion retire a s.p.a.ce nothing under one mile.
Returning, after a due interval, we see Mrs. Berry counting on her fingers" ends. Concluding the sum, she cries prophetically: "Now this right everything--a baby in the balance! Now I say this angel-infant come from on high. It"s G.o.d"s messenger, my love! and it"s not wrong to say so. He thinks you worthy, or you wouldn"t "a had one--not for all the tryin" in the world, you wouldn"t, and some tries hard enough, poor creatures! How let us rejice and make merry!
I"m for cryin" and laughin", one and the same. This is the blessed seal of matrimony, which Berry never stamp on me. It"s be hoped it"s a boy. Make that man a grandfather, and his grandchild a son, and you got him safe. Oh! this is what I call happiness, and I"ll have my tea a little stronger in consequence. I declare I could get tipsy to know this joyful news."
So Mrs. Berry carolled. She had her tea a little stronger. She ate and she drank; she rejoiced and made merry. The bliss of the chaste was hers.
Says Lucy demurely: "Now you know why I read History, and that sort of books."
"Do I?" replies Berry. "Belike I do. Since what you done"s so good, my darlin", I"m agreeable to anything. A fig for all the lords! They can"t come anigh a baby. You may read Voyages and Travels, my dear, and Romances, and Tales of Love and War. You cut the riddle in your own dear way, and that"s all I cares for."
"No, but you don"t understand," persists Lucy. "I only read sensible books, and talk of serious things, because I"m sure ... because I have heard say ... dear Mrs. Berry! don"t you understand now?"
Mrs. Berry smacked her knees. "Only to think of her bein" that thoughtful! and she a Catholic, too! Never tell me that people of one religion ain"t as good as another, after that. Why, you want to make him a historian, to be sure! And that rake of a lord who"ve been comin" here playin" at wolf, you been and made him--unbeknown to himself--sort o" tutor to the unborn blessed! Ha! ha! say that little women ain"t got art ekal to the cunningest of "em. Oh! I understand. Why, to be sure, didn"t I know a lady, a widow of a clergyman: he was a postermost child, and afore his birth that woman read nothin" but Blair"s "Grave" over and over again, from the end to the beginnin";--that"s a serious book!--very hard readin"!--and at four years of age that child that come of it reelly was the piusest infant!--he was like a little curate. His eyes was up; he talked so solemn." Mrs. Berry imitated the little curate"s appearance and manner of speaking. "So she got her wish, for one!"
But at this lady Lucy laughed.
They chattered on happily till bedtime. Lucy arranged for Mrs. Berry to sleep with her. "If it"s not dreadful to ye, my sweet, sleepin"
beside a woman," said Mrs. Berry. "I know it were to me shortly after my Berry, and I felt it. It don"t somehow seem nat"ral after matrimony--a woman in your bed! I was obliged to have somebody, for the cold sheets do give ye the creeps when you"ve been used to that that"s different."
Upstairs they went together, Lucy not sharing these objections. Then Lucy opened certain drawers, and exhibited pretty caps, and laced linen, all adapted for a very small body, all the work of her own hands: and Mrs. Berry praised them and her. "You been guessing a boy--woman-like," she said. Then they cooed, and kissed, and undressed by the fire, and knelt at the bedside, with their arms about each other, praying; both praying for the unborn child; and Mrs. Berry pressed Lucy"s waist the moment she was about to breathe the pet.i.tion to heaven to shield and bless that coming life; and thereat Lucy closed to her, and felt a strong love for her. Then Lucy got into bed first, leaving Berry to put out the light, and before she did so, Berry leaned over her, and eyed her roguishly, saying, "I never see ye like this, but I"m half in love with ye myself, you blushin" beauty! Sweet"s your eyes, and your hair do take one so--lyin" back. I"d never forgive my father if he kep me away from ye four-and-twenty hours just. Husband o" that!" Berry pointed at the young wife"s loveliness. "Ye look so ripe with kisses, and there they are a-languishin"!-- ... You never look so but in your bed, ye beauty!--just as it ought to be." Lucy had to pretend to rise to put out the light before Berry would give up her amorous chaste soliloquy. Then they lay in bed, and Mrs. Berry fondled her, and arranged for their departure to-morrow, and reviewed Richard"s emotions when he came to hear he was going to be made a father by her, and hinted at Lucy"s delicious shivers when Richard was again in his rightful place, which she, Bessy Berry, now usurped; and all sorts of amorous sweet things; enough to make one fancy the adage subverted, that stolen fruits are sweetest; she drew such glowing pictures of bliss within the law and the limits of the conscience, till at last, worn out, Lucy murmured "Peepy, dear Berry," and the soft woman gradually ceased her chirp.
Bessy Berry did not sleep. She lay thinking of the sweet brave heart beside her, and listening to Lucy"s breath as it came and went; squeezing the fair sleeper"s hand now and then, to ease her love as her reflections warmed. A storm of wind came howling over the Hampshire hills, and sprang white foam on the water, and shook the bare trees. It pa.s.sed, leaving a thin cloth of snow on the wintry land. The moon shone brilliantly. Berry heard the house-dog bark.
His bark was savage and persistent. She was roused by the noise. By and by she fancied she heard a movement in the house; then it seemed to her that the house-door opened. She c.o.c.ked her ears, and could almost make out voices in the midnight stillness. She slipped from the bed, locked and bolted the door of the room, a.s.sured herself of Lucy"s unconsciousness, and went on tiptoe to the window. The trees all stood white to the north; the ground glittered; the cold was keen. Berry wrapped her fat arms across her bosom, and peeped as close over the garden as the situation of the window permitted.
Berry was a soft, not a timid, woman: and it happened this night that her thoughts were above the fears of the dark. She was sure of the voices; curiosity without a shade of alarm held her on the watch; and gathering bundles of her day-apparel round her neck and shoulders, she silenced the chattering of her teeth as well as she could, and remained stationary. The low hum of the voices came to a break; something was said in a louder tone; the house-door quietly shut; a man walked out of the garden into the road. He paused opposite her window, and Berry let the blind go back to its place, and peeped from behind an edge of it. He was in the shadow of the house, so that it was impossible to discern much of his figure.
After some minutes he walked rapidly away, and Berry returned to the bed an icicle, from which Lucy"s limbs sensitively shrank.
Next morning Mrs. Berry asked Tom Bakewell if he had been disturbed in the night. Tom, the mysterious, said he had slept like a top.
Mrs. Berry went to the garden. The snow was partially melted; all save one spot just under the portal, and there she saw the print of a man"s foot. By some strange guidance it occurred to her to go and find one of Richard"s boots. She did so, and, unperceived, she measured the sole of the boot in that solitary footmark. There could be no doubt that it fitted. She tried it from heel to toe a dozen times.
CHAPTER XL
CLARE"S DIARY
Sir Austin Feverel had come to town with the serenity of a philosopher who says, "Tis now time; and the satisfaction of a man who has not arrived thereat without a struggle. He had almost forgiven his son. His deep love for him had well-nigh shaken loose from wounded pride and more tenacious vanity. Stirrings of a remote sympathy for the creature who had robbed him of his son and hewed at his System, were in his heart of hearts. This he knew; and in his own mind he took credit for his softness. But the world must not suppose him soft; the world must think he was still acting on his System. Otherwise what would his long absence signify?--Something highly unphilosophical. So, though love was strong, and was moving him to a straightforward course, the last tug of vanity drew him still aslant.
The Aphorist read himself so well, that to juggle with himself was a necessity. As he wished the world to see him, he beheld himself: one who entirely put aside mere personal feelings: one in whom parental duty, based on the science of life, was paramount: a Scientific Humanist, in short.
He was, therefore, rather surprised at a coldness in Lady Blandish"s manner when he did appear. "At last!" said the lady, in a sad way that sounded reproachfully. Now the Scientific Humanist had, of course, nothing to reproach himself with.
But where was Richard?
Adrian positively averred he was not with his wife.
"If he had gone," said the baronet, "he would have antic.i.p.ated me by a few hours."
This, when repeated to Lady Blandish, should have propitiated her, and shown his great forgiveness. She, however, sighed, and looked at him wistfully.
Their converse was not happy and deeply intimate. Philosophy did not seem to catch her mind; and fine phrases encountered a rueful a.s.sent, more flattering to their grandeur than to their influence.
Days went by. Richard did not present himself. Sir Austin"s pitch of self-command was to await the youth without signs of impatience.
Seeing this, the lady told him her fears for Richard, and mentioned the rumour of him that was about.
"If," said the baronet, "this person, his wife, is what you paint her, I do not share your fears for him. I think too well of him. If she is one to inspire the sacredness of that union, I think too well of him. It is impossible."
The lady saw one thing to be done.
"Call her to you," she said. "Have her with you at Raynham.
Recognize her. It is the disunion and doubt that so confuses him and drives him wild. I confess to you I hoped he had gone to her. It seems not. If she is with you his way will be clear. Will you do that?"
Science is notoriously of slow movement. Lady Blandish"s proposition was far too hasty for Sir Austin. Women, rapid by nature, have no idea of science.
"We shall see her there in time, Emmeline. At present let it be between me and my son."
He spoke loftily. In truth it offended him to be asked to do anything, when he had just brought himself to do so much.
A month elapsed, and Richard appeared on the scene.
The meeting between him and his father was not what his father had expected and had crooned over in the Welsh mountains. Richard shook his hand respectfully, and inquired after his health with the common social solicitude. He then said: "During your absence, sir, I have taken the liberty, without consulting you, to do something in which you are more deeply concerned than myself. I have taken upon myself to find out my mother and place her under my care. I trust you will not think I have done wrong. I acted as I thought best."
Sir Austin replied: "You are of an age, Richard, to judge for yourself in such a case. I would have you simply beware of deceiving yourself in imagining that you considered any one but yourself in acting as you did."
"I have not deceived myself, sir," said Richard, and the interview was over. Both hated an exposure of the feelings, and in that both were satisfied: but the baronet, as one who loves, hoped and looked for tones indicative of trouble and delight in the deep heart; and Richard gave him none of those. The young man did not even face him as he spoke: if their eyes met by chance, Richard"s were defiantly cold. His whole bearing was changed.
"This rash marriage has altered him," said the very just man of science in life: and that meant: "it has debased him."
He pursued his reflections. "I see in him the desperate maturity of a suddenly-ripened nature: and but for my faith that good work is never lost, what should I think of the toil of my years? Lost, perhaps to me! lost to him! It may show itself in his children."