Dear tender Lucy! Poor darling! Richard"s eyes moistened. Her letters seemed sadder latterly. Yet she never called to him to come, or he would have gone. His heart leapt up to her. He announced to Adrian that he should wait no longer for his father. Adrian placidly nodded.
The enchantress observed that her knight had a clouded brow and an absent voice.
"Richard--I can"t call you d.i.c.k now, I really don"t know why"--she said, "I want to beg a favour of you."
"Name it. I can still call you Bella, I suppose?"
"If you care to. What I want to say is this: when you meet me out--to cut it short--please not to recognize me."
"And why?"
"Do you ask to be told _that_?"
"Certainly I do."
"Then look: I won"t compromise you."
"I see no harm, Bella."
"No," she caressed his hand, "and there is none. I know that. But,"
modest eyelids were drooped, "other people do," struggling eyes were raised.
"What do we care for other people?"
"Nothing. I don"t. Not that!" snapping her finger, "I care for you, though." A prolonged look followed the declaration.
"You"re foolish, Bella."
"Not quite so giddy--that"s all."
He did not combat it with his usual impetuosity. Adrian"s abrupt inquiry had sunk in his mind, as the wise youth intended it should.
He had instinctively refrained from speaking to Lucy of this lady.
But what a n.o.ble creature the woman was!
So they met in the park; Mrs. Mount whipped past him; and secrecy added a new sense to their intimacy.
Adrian was gratified at the result produced by his eloquence.
Though this lady never expressed an idea, Richard was not mistaken in her cleverness. She could make evenings pa.s.s gaily, and one was not the fellow to the other. She could make you forget she was a woman, and then bring the fact startlingly home to you. She could read men with one quiver of her half-closed eye-lashes. She could catch the coming mood in a man, and fit herself to it. What does a woman want with ideas, who can do thus much? Keenness of perception, conformity, delicacy of handling, these be all the qualities necessary to parasites.
Love would have scared the youth: she banished it from her tongue.
It may also have been true that it sickened her. She played on his higher nature. She understood spontaneously what would be most strange and taking to him in a woman. Various as the Serpent of old Nile, she acted fallen beauty, humorous indifference, reckless daring, arrogance in ruin. And acting thus, what think you?--She did it so well because she was growing half in earnest.
"Richard! I am not what I was since I knew you. You will not give me up quite?"
"Never, Bella."
"I am not so bad as I"m painted!"
"You are only unfortunate."
"Now that I know you I think so, and yet I am happier."
She told him her history when this soft horizon of repentance seemed to throw heaven"s twilight across it. A woman"s history, you know: certain chapters expunged. It was dark enough to Richard.
"Did you love the man?" he asked. "You say you love no one now."
"Did I love him? He was a n.o.bleman and I a tradesman"s daughter. No.
I did not love him. I have lived to learn it. And now I should hate him, if I did not despise him."
"Can you be deceived in love?" said Richard, more to himself than to her.
"Yes. When we"re young we can be very easily deceived. If there is such a thing as love, we discover it after we have tossed about and roughed it. Then we find the man, or the woman, that suits us:--and then it"s too late! we can"t have him."
"Singular!" murmured Richard, "she says just what my father said."
He spoke aloud: "I could forgive you if you had loved him."
"Don"t be harsh, grave judge! How is a girl to distinguish?"
"You had some affection for him? He was the first?"
She chose to admit that. "Yes. And the first who talks of love to a girl must be a fool if he doesn"t blind her."
"That makes what is called first love nonsense."
"Isn"t it?"
He repelled the insinuation. "Because I know it is not, Bella."
Nevertheless she had opened a wider view of the world to him, and a colder. He thought poorly of girls. A woman--a sensible, brave, beautiful woman seemed, on comparison, infinitely n.o.bler than those weak creatures.
She was best in her character of lovely rebel accusing foul injustice. "What am I to do? You tell me to be different. How can I?
What am I to do? Will virtuous people let me earn my bread? I could not get a housemaid"s place! They wouldn"t have me--I see their noses smelling! Yes: I can go to the hospital and sing behind a screen! Do you expect me to bury myself alive? Why, man, I have blood: I can"t become a stone. You say I am honest, and I will be.
Then let me tell you that I have been used to luxuries, and I can"t do without them. I might have married men--lots would have had me.
But who marries one like me but a fool? and I could not marry a fool. The man I marry I must respect. He could not respect me--I should know him to be a fool, and I should be worse off than I am now. As I am now, they may look as pious as they like--I laugh at them!"
And so forth: direr things. Imputations upon wives: horrible exultation at the universal peccancy of husbands. This lovely outcast almost made him think she had the right on her side, so keenly her Parthian arrows pierced the holy centres of society, and exposed its rottenness.
Mrs. Mount"s house was discreetly conducted: nothing ever occurred to shock him there. The young man would ask himself where the difference was between her and the women of society? How base, too, was the army of banded hypocrites! He was ready to declare war against them on her behalf. His casus belli, accurately worded, would have read curiously. Because the world refused to lure the lady to virtue with the offer of a housemaid"s place, our knight threw down his challenge. But the lady had scornfully reb.u.t.ted this prospect of a return to chast.i.ty. Then the form of the challenge must be: Because the world declined to support the lady in luxury for nothing! But what did that mean? In other words: she was to receive the devil"s wages without rendering him her services. Such an arrangement appears hardly fair on the world or on the devil.
Heroes will have to conquer both before they will get them to subscribe to it.
Heroes, however, are not in the habit of wording their declarations of war at all. Lance in rest they challenge and they charge. Like women they trust to instinct, and graft on it the muscle of men.
Wide fly the leisurely-remonstrating hosts: inst.i.tutions are scattered, they know not wherefore, heads are broken that have not the balm of a reason why. "Tis instinct strikes! Surely there is something divine in instinct.
Still, war declared, where were these hosts? The hero could not charge down on the ladies and gentlemen in a ballroom, and spoil the quadrille. He had sufficient reticence to avoid sounding his challenge in the Law Courts; nor could he well go into the Houses of Parliament with a trumpet, though to come to a tussle with the nation"s direct representatives did seem the likelier method. It was likewise out of the question that he should enter every house and shop, and battle with its master in the cause of Mrs. Mount. Where, then, was his enemy? Everybody was his enemy, and everybody was nowhere. Shall he convoke mult.i.tudes on Wimbledon Common? Blue Policemen, and a distant dread of ridicule, bar all his projects.
Alas for the hero in our day!