CHAPTER III.
TWO TRIPS IN THE TRAIN.
The seven o"clock morning train was starting from Dorbury Upper Village.
Early business men, mechanics, clerks, shop-girls, sewing-girls, office-boys,--these made up the list of pa.s.sengers. Except, perhaps, some travellers now and then, bound for a first express from Boston, or an excursion party to take a harbor steamer for a day"s trip to Nantasket or Nahant.
Did you ever contrast one of these trains--when perhaps you were such traveller or excursionist--with the after, leisurely, comfortable one at ten or eleven; when gentlemen who only need to be in the city through banking hours, and ladies bent on calls or elegant shopping, come chatting and rustling to their seats, and hold a little drawing-room exchange in the twenty-five minutes"
trip?
If you have,--and if you have a little sympathetic imagination that fills out hints,--you have had a glimpse of some of these "other girls" and the thing that daily living is to them, with which my story means to concern itself.
Have you noticed the hats, with the rose or the feather behind or at top, scrupulously according to the same dictate of style that rules alike for seven and ten o"clock, but which has often to be worn through wet and dry till the rose has been washed by too many a shower, and the feather blown by too many a dusty wind, to stand for anything but a sign that she knows what should be where, if she only had it to put there? Have you seen the cheap alpacas, in two shades, sure to fade in different ways and out of kindred with each other, painfully looped in creasing folds, very much sat upon, but which would not by any means resign themselves to simple smoothed straightness, while silks were hitched and crisp Hernanis puffed?
Yet the alpacas, and all their innumerable cousinhood, have also their first mornings of fresh gloss, when the newness of the counter is still upon them; there is a youth for all things; a first time, a charm that seems as if it might last, though we know it neither will nor was meant to; if it would, or were, the counters might be taken down. And people who wear gowns that are creased and faded, have each, one at a time, their days of glory, when they begin again. The farther apart they come, perhaps the more of the spring-time there is in them.
Marion Kent bloomed out this clear, sweet, clean summer morning in a span new tea-colored zephyrine polonaise with three little frills edged with tiny brown braid, which set it off trimly with the due contrasting depth of color, and cost nearly nothing except the st.i.tches and the kerosene she burned late in the hot July nights in her only time for finishing it. She had covered her little old curled leaf of a hat with a tea-colored corner that had been left, and puffed it up high and light to the point of the new style, with brown veil tissue that also floated off in an abundant cloudy grace behind; and she had such an air of breezy and ecstatic elegance as she came beaming and hastening into the early car, that n.o.body really looked down to see that the underskirt was the identical black brilliantine that had done service all the spring in the dismal mornings of waterproofs and india-rubbers and general damp woolen smells and blue nips and shivers.
Marion Kent always made you think of things that never at all belonged to her. She gave you an impression of something that she seemed to stand for, which she could not wholly be. Her zephyrine, with its silky shine, hinted at the real l.u.s.tres of far more costly fabrics; her hat, perked up with puffs of grenadine (how all these things do rhyme and repeat their little Frenchy tags of endings!) put you in mind of lace and feathers, and a general float and flutter of gay millinery; her step and expression, as she came airily into this second-rate old car, put on for the "journeymen"
train, brought up a notion, almost, of some ball-room advent, flushed and conscious and glad with the turning of all admiring eyes upon it; her face, even, without being absolutely beautiful, sparkled out at you a certain will and force and intent of beauty that shot an idea or suggestion of brilliant prettiness instantly through your unresisting imagination, compelling you to fill out whatever was wanting; and what more, can you explain, do feature and bearing that come nearest to perfect fulfillment effect?
The middle-aged cabinet-maker looked over his newspaper at her as she came in; he had little daughters of his own growing up to girlhood, and there might have been some thought in his head not purely admiring; but still he looked up. The knot of office-boys, crowding and skylarking across a couple of seats, stopped their shuffle and noise for a second, and one said, "My! ain"t she stunning?" A young fellow, rather spruce in his own way also, with precise necktie, deep paper cuffs and dollar-store studs and initial sleeve-b.u.t.tons, touched his hat with an air of taking credit to himself, as she glanced at him; and another, in a sober old gray suit, with only a black ribbon knotted under his linen collar, turned slightly the other way as she approached, and with something like a frown between his brows, looked out of the window at a wood-pile.
Marion"s cheeks were a tint brighter, and her white teeth seemed to flash out a yet more determined smile, as, pa.s.sing him by, she seated herself with friendly bustle among some girls a little behind him.
"In again, Marion?" said one. "I thought you"d left."
"Only in for a transient," said Marion, with a certain clear tone that reminded one of the stage-trainer"s direction to "speak to the galleries." "Nellie Burton is sick, and Lufton sent for me. I"ll do for a month or so, and like it pretty well; then I shall have a tiff, I suppose, and fling it up again; I can"t stand being ordered round longer than that."
"Or longer than the _new_ lasts," said the other slyly, touching the drapery sleeve of the zephyrine. "It _is_ awful pretty, Marry!"
"Yes, and while the new lasts Lufton"ll be awful polite," returned Marion. "He likes to see his girls look stylish, I can tell you.
When things begin to shab out, then the snubbing begins. And how they"re going to help shabbing out I should like to know, dragging round amongst the goods and polishing against the counters? and who"s going to afford ready-made, or pay for sewing, out of six dollars a week and cars and dinners, let alone regular board, that some of "em have to take off? Why there isn"t enough left for shoes!
No wonder Lufton"s always changing. Well--there"s one good of it!
You can always get a temporary there. Save up a month and then put into port and refit. That"s the way I do."
"But what does it come to, after all"s said and done? and what if you hadn"t the port?" asked Hannah Upshaw, the girl with the shawl on, who never wore suits.
Marion Kent shrugged her shoulders.
"I don"t know, yet. I take things as they come to me. I don"t pretend to calculate for anybody else. I know one thing, though, there is other things to be done,--and it isn"t sewing-machines either, if you can once get started. And when I can see my way clear, I mean to start. See if I don"t!"
The train stopped at the Pomantic station. The young man in the gray clothes rose up, took something from under the car-seat and went out. What he had with him was a carpenter"s box. It was the same youth who had greeted Ray Ingraham from beneath the elm branches. As the train got slowly under way again, Marion looked straight out at her window into Frank Sunderline"s face, and bowed,--very modestly and sweetly bowed. He was waiting for that instant on the platform, until the track should be clear and he could cross.
What he caught in Marion"s look, as she turned it full upon him, n.o.body could see; but there was a quieter earnest in it, certainly, when she turned back; and the young man had responded to her salutation with a relaxing glance of friendly pleasantness that seemed more native to his face than the frown of a few minutes before.
Marion Kent had several selves; several relations, at any rate, into which she could put herself with others. I think she showed young Sunderline, for that instant, out of gentler, questioning, almost beseeching eyes, a something she could not show to the whole car-full with whom at the moment of her entrance she had been in rapport, through frills and puffs and flutters, into which she had allowed her consciousness to pa.s.s. Behind the little window he could only see a face; a face quieted down from its gay flippancy; a face that showed itself purposely and simply to him; eyes that said, "What was that you thought of me just now? _Don"t_ think it!"
They were old neighbors and child-friends. They had grown up together; had they been growing away from each other in some things since they had been older? Often it appeared so; but it was Marion chiefly who seemed to change; then, all at once, in some unspoken and intangible way, for a moment like this, she seemed to come suddenly back again, or he seemed to catch a glimpse of that in her, hidden, not altered, which _might_ come back one of these days. Was it a glimpse, perhaps, like the sight the Lord has of each one of us, always?
Meanwhile, what of Ray Ingraham?
Ray Ingraham was sweet, and proper, and still; just what Frank Sunderline thought was prettiest and nicest for a woman to be. He was always reminded by her ways of what it would be so pretty and nice for Marion Kent to be. But Marion _would_ sparkle; and it is so hard to be still and sparkle too. He liked the brightness and the airiness; a little of it, near to; he did not like a whole car-full, or room-full, or street full,--he did not like to see a woman sparkle all round.
Mr. Ingraham had come into Dorbury Upper Village some half dozen years since; had leased the bakery, house, and shop; and two years afterward, Rachel had come home to stay. She had been left in Boston with her grandmother when the family had moved out of the city, that she might keep on a while with the school that she was used to and stood so well in; with her Chapel cla.s.ses, also, where she heard literature and history lectures, each once a week. Ray could not bear to leave them, nor to give up her Sunday lessons in the dear old Mission Rooms. Dot was three years younger; she could begin again anywhere, and their mother could not spare both. Besides, "what Ray got she could always be giving to Dot afterwards." That is not so easy, and by no means always follows. Dot turned out the mother"s girl,--the girl of the village, as was said; practical, comfortable, pleasant, capable, sensible. Ray was something of all these, with a touch of more; alive in a higher nature, awakened to receive through upper channels, sensitive to some things that neither pleased nor troubled Mrs. Ingraham and Dot.
It took a good while to come to know a girl like Ray Ingraham; most of her young acquaintance felt the _step up_ that they must take to stand fairly beside her, or come intimately near. Frank Sunderline felt it too, in certain ways, and did not suppose that she could see in him more than he saw in himself: a plain fellow, good at his trade, or going to be; bright enough to know brightness in other people when he came across it, and with enough of what, independent of circ.u.mstances, goes to the essential making of a gentleman, to perceive and be attracted by the delicate gentleness that makes a lady.
That was just what Ray Ingraham did see; only he hardly set it down in his self-estimate at its full value.
Do you perceive, story-reader, story-raveller, that Frank Sunderline was not quite in love with either of these girls? Do you see that it is not a matter of course that he should be?
I can tell you, you girls who make a romance out of the first word, and who can tell from the first chapter how it will all end, that you will make great mistakes if you go to interpreting life so,--your own, or anybody"s else.
I can tell you that men--those who are good for very much--come often more slowly to their life-conclusions than you think; that woman-_nature_ is a good deal to a man, and is meant to be, in gradual bearing and influence, in the shaping of his perception, the working of comparison, the coming to an understanding of his own want, and the forming of his ideal,--yes, even in the mere general pleasantness and gentle use of intercourse--before the _individual_ woman reveals herself, slowly or suddenly, as the one only central need, and motive, and reward, and satisfying, that the world holds and has kept for him. For him to gain or to lose: either way, to have mightily to do with that soul-forging and shaping that the Lord, in his handling of every man, is about.
That night they all came out together in the last train. Ray Ingraham had gone in after dinner to make some purchases for her mother, and had been to see some Chapel friends. Marion, as she came in through the gate at the station, saw her far before, walking up the long platform to the cars. She watched her enter the second in the line, and hastened on, making up her mind instantly, like a field general, to her own best manoeuvre. It was not exactly what every girl would have done; and therein showed her generalship. She would get into the same carriage, and take a seat with her. She knew very well that Frank Sunderline would jump on at Pomantic, his day"s work just done. If he came and spoke to Ray he should speak also to her. She did not risk trying _which_ he would come and speak to. It should be, that joining them, and finding it pleasant, he should not quite know which, after all, had most made it so. Different as they were, she and Ray Ingraham toned and flavored each other, and Marion knew it. They were like rose-color and gray; or like spice and salt: you did not stop to think which ruled the taste, or which your eye separately rested on. Something charming, delicious, resulted of their being together; they set each other off, and helped each other out. Then it was something that Frank Sunderline should see that Ray would let her be her friend; that she was not altogether too loud and p.r.o.nounced for her. Ray did not turn aside and look at wood-piles, and get rid of her.
Furthermore, the way home from the Dorbury depot, for Frank and Marion both, lay _past_ the bakery, on down the under-hill road.
Marion did not _think out_ a syllable of all this; she grasped the situation, and she acted in an instant. I told you she acted like a general in the field: perhaps neither she nor the general would be as skillful, always, with the maps and compa.s.ses, and time to plan beforehand. I do not think Marion _was_ ever very wise in her fore-thoughts.
Beyond Pomantic, the next one or two stations took off a good many pa.s.sengers, so that they had their part of the car almost to themselves. Frank Sunderline had come in and taken a place upon the other side; now he moved over into the seat behind them, accosting them pleasantly, but not interrupting the conversation which had been busily going on between them all the way. Ray was really interested in some things Marion had brought up to notice; her face was intent and thoughtful; perhaps she was not quite so pretty when she was set thinking; her dimples were hidden; but Marion was beaming, exhilarated partly by her own talk, somewhat by an honest, if half mischievous earnestness in her subject, and very much also by the consciousness of the young mechanic opposite, within observing and listening distance. Marion could not help talking over her shoulders, more or less, always.
"Men take the world in the rough, and do the work; women help, and come in for the finishing off," said Rachel, just as Frank Sunderline changed his place and joined them. "_We_ could not handle those, for instance," she said, with a shy, quiet sign toward the carpenter"s tools, and lowering her already gentle voice.
"Men break in the fields, and plough, and sow, and mow; and women ride home on the loads,--is that it?" said Marion, laughing, and s.n.a.t.c.hing her simile from a hay-field with toppling wagons, that the train was at that moment skimming by. "Well, may be! All is, I shall look out for my ride. After things _are_ broken in, I don"t see why we shouldn"t get the good of it."
"Value is what things stand for, or might procure, isn"t it?" said Ray, turning to Sunderline, and taking him frankly and friendlily into the conversation.
"No fair!" cried Marion. "He doesn"t understand the drift of it. Do you, see, Mr. Sunderline, why a man should be paid any more than a woman, for standing behind a counter and measuring off the same goods, or at a desk and keeping the same accounts? I don"t! That"s what I"m complaining of."
"That"s the complaint of the day, I know," said Sunderline. "And no doubt there"s a good deal of special unfairness that needs righting, and will get it. But things don"t come to be as they are quite without a reason, either. There"s a principle in it, you"ve got to look back to that."
"Well?" said Marion, gleefully interrogatory, and settling herself with an air of attention, and of demurely giving up the floor. She was satisfied to listen, if only Frank Sunderline would talk.
"I believe I see what you meant," he said to Ray. "About the values that things stand for. A man represents a certain amount of power in the world."
"O, does he?" put in Marion, with an indescribable inflection. "I"m glad to know."
"He _could_ be doing some things that a woman could not do at all--was never meant to do. He stands for so much force. You may apply things as you please, but if you don"t use them according to their relative capacity, the unused value has to be paid for--somewhere."
"That"s a nice principle!" said Marion. "I like that I should like to be paid for what I _might_ be good for!"