"My father lost a good deal by the fire," said Rodney. "More than he thought, at first. He is coming home sooner, in consequence. I"m very glad I did not go abroad. I should have been just whirled out of everything, if I had. As it is, I"m in a place; I"ve got a lever planted. It"s no time now for a fellow to look round for a foothold."
"You like Arlesbury?" asked Sylvie. "I think it must be a lovely place."
"Why?" said Rodney, taken by surprise.
"From the piece of it you sent me in the winter."
"Oh! those ferns? I"m glad you liked them. There"s something nice and plucky about those little things, isn"t there?"
It was every word he could think of to reply. He had a provoked perception that was not altogether nice and plucky, of himself, just then. But that was because the snow was still unlifted from him. He was under a burden of coldness and constraint. Somebody ought to come and take it away. It was time. The spring, that would not be kept back, was here.
He had not said a word to Sylvie about her mother. How could he speak of what had left her alone in the world, and not say that he wanted to make a new world for her? That he had longed for it through all her troubles, and that this, and nothing else, was what he was keeping his probation for?
So they came to Tillington at last, and there had been between them only little drifting talk of the moment, that told nothing.
After all, do we not, for a great part, drift through life so, giving each other crumbs off the loaf that will only seem to break in that paltry way? And by and by, when the journey is over, do we not wonder that we could not have given better and more at a time?
Yet the crumbs have the leaven and the sweetness of the loaf in them; the commonest little wayside things are charged full of whatever is really within us. G.o.d"s own love is broken small for us.
"This is my Body, broken for you."
If life were nothing but what gets phrased and substanced, the world might as well be rolled up and laid away again in darkness.
Sylvie had a handful of checks; Rodney took them from her, and went out to the end of the platform to find the boxes. Two vehicles had been driven over from Hill-hope to meet her; an open spring-wagon for the luggage, and a chaise-top buggy to convey herself.
Trunks, boxes, and the great padlocked basket were speedily piled upon the wagon; then the two men who had come jumped up together to the front seat of the same, and Sylvie saw that it was left for her and Rodney to proceed together for the seven-mile drive.
Rodney came back to her with an alert and felicitous air. How could he help the falling out of this? Of course he could not ride upon the wagon and leave a farm-boy to charioteer Sylvie.
"Shall you be afraid of me?" he asked, as he tossed in his valise for a footstool, and carefully bestowed Sylvie"s shawl against the back, to cushion her more comfortably. "Do you suppose we can manage to get over there without running down a bake-shop?"
"Or a cider-mill," said Sylvie, laughing. "You will have to adapt your exploits to circ.u.mstances."
Up and down, through that beautiful, wild hill-country, the brown country roadway wound; now going straight up a pitch that looked as perpendicular as you approached it as the side of a barn; then flinging itself down such a steep as seemed at every turn to come to a blank end, and to lead off with a plunge, into air; the water-bars, ridged across at rough intervals, girding it to the bosom of the mountain, and breaking the accelerated velocity of the descending wheels. Sylvie caught her breath, more than once; but she did it behind shut lips, with only a dilatation of her nostrils. She was so afraid that Rodney might think she doubted his driving.
The woods were growing tender with fretwork of swelling buds, and beautiful with bright, young hemlock-tips; there was a twittering and calling of birds all through the air; the first little breaths and ripples of spring music before the whole gay, summer burst of song gushed forth.
The fields lay rich in brown seams, where the plough had newly furrowed them. Farmers were throwing in seed of barley and spring wheat. The cattle were standing in the low sunshine, in barn-doors and milking-yards. Sheep were browsing the little buds on the pasture bushes.
The April day would soon be over. To-morrow might bring a cold wind, perhaps; but the winter had been long and hard; and after such, we believe in the spring pleasantness when it comes.
"What a little way brings us into a different world!" said Sylvie as they rode along. "Just back there in the city, you can hardly believe in these hills."
Her own words reminded her.
"I suppose we shall find, sometime," she said gently, "that the other world is only a little way out."
"I"ve been very sorry for you, Sylvie," said Rodney. "I hope you know that."
His slight abruptness told her how the thought had been ready and pressing for speech, underneath all their casual talk.
And he had dropped the prefix from her name.
He had not meant to, but he could not go back and put it on. It was another little falling out that he could not help. The things he could not help were the most comfortable.
"Mother would have had a very hard time if she had lived," said Sylvie. "I am glad for her. It was a great deal better. And it came so tenderly! I had dreaded sickness and pain for her."
"It has been all hard for you. I hope it will be easier now. I hope it will always be easier."
"I am going to live with Mrs. Kirkbright," said Sylvie.
"Tell me about my new aunt," said Rodney.
Sylvie was glad to go on about Desire, about the wedding, about Hill-hope, and the plans for living there.
"I think it will be almost like heaven," she said. "It will be home and happiness; all that people look forward to for themselves. And yet, right alongside, there will be the work and the help. It will open right out into it, as heaven does into earth. Mr. Kirkbright is a grand man."
"Yes. He"s one of the ten-talent people. But I suppose we can all do something. It is good to have some little one-horse teams for the light jobs."
"I never could _be_ Desire," said Sylvie. "But I am glad, to work with her. I am glad to live one of the little lives."
There would always be a boy and girl simpleness between these two, and in their taking of the world together. And that is good for the world, as well. It cannot be all made of mountains. If all were high and grand, it would be as if nothing were. Heaven itself is not built like that.
"There goes some of Uncle Christopher"s stuff, I suppose," said Rodney, a while afterward, as they came to the top of a long ascent.
He pointed to a great loaded wain that stood with its three powerful horses on the crest of a forward hill. It was piled high up with tiling and drain-pipe, packed with straw. The long cylinders showed their round mouths behind, like the mouths of cannon.
"A nice cargo for these hills, I should think."
"They have brakes on the wheels, of course," said Sylvie. "And the horses are strong. That must be for the new houses. They will soon make all those things here. Mr. Kirkbright has large contracts for brick, already. He has been sending down specimens. They say the clay is of remarkably fine quality."
"We shall have to get by that thing, presently," said Rodney. "I hope the horse will take it well."
"Are you trying to frighten me?" asked Sylvie, smiling. "I"m used to these roads. I have spent half a summer here, you know."
But Rodney knew that it was the "being used" that would be the question with the horse. He doubted if the little country beast had ever seen drain-pipe before. He had once driven Red Squirrel past a steam boiler that was being transported on a truck. He remembered the writhe with which the animal had doubled himself, and the side spring he had made. It was growing dusk, now, also. They were not more than a mile from Brickfield Basin, and the sun was dropping behind the hills.
"I shall take you out, and lead him by," he said. "I"ve no wish to give you another spill. We won"t go on through life in that way."
It was quite as well that they had only another mile to go. Rodney was keeping his promise, but the thread of it was wearing very thin.
They rode slowly up the opposite slope, then waited, in their turn, on the top, to give the team time to reach the next level.
They heard it creak and grind as it wore heavily down, taking up the whole track with careful zigzag tackings; they could see, as it turned, how the pole stood sharp up between the shoulders of the straining wheel horses, as their haunches pressed out either way, and their backs hollowed, and their noses came together, and the driver touched them dexterously right and left upon their flanks to bring them in again.
"Uncle Kit has a good teamster there," said Rodney.
Just against the foot of the next rise, they overtook him. The gray nag that Rodney drove p.r.i.c.ked his ears and stretched his head up, and began to take short, cringing steps, as they drew near the formidable, moving ma.s.s.
Rodney jumped out, and keeping eye and hand upon him, helped down Sylvie also. Then he threw the long reins over his arm, and took the horse by the bridle.
The animal made a half parenthesis of himself, curving skittishly, and watching jealously, as he went by the frightsome pile.