A moment only. But during it something melted about her. Immediately aware of the phenomenon, she felt that she ought to freeze. She tried to and failed. The atmosphere of deliciousness prevented and, though she did not know the reason, she did know that she had failed and the fact instead of annoying, amused. Then, as she followed Paliser into the house, she told herself that she was an imbecile, that she did not know her own mind and, without transition, wondered how her father was taking it.
From the hall, they pa.s.sed through a succession of rooms vacant, subdued, rich, and on into that other room where she had sung. At the farther end was a hyacinth curtain that masked a door. But near the entrance through which she had come was an ivory chair. Ca.s.sy, seating herself on it, wondered what had become of the bundle. She was sure that it held everything except what she wanted. Then suddenly behind her blue smock came a gnawing. She thought she would ask Paliser to have somebody fetch her a sandwich, two sandwiches, or else some bread and b.u.t.ter, but, now that she looked for him, he had gone.
She got up, crossed the room and sat down on another chair which was black, probably ebony. It had a curial appearance that suggested the senate, not the senate at Washington, but the S. P. Q. of Rome. It was quite near the hyacinth curtain and behind the latter she heard voices.
Like the rooms they were subdued. She could distinguish nothing. Yet there must be a bell somewhere and she decided that if Paliser did not shortly return, she would ring. The gnawing was sharper. She was very hungry.
Again she got up and looked from a window. It gave on a garden in which there was underbush that the moon was chequering with amber spots. After all, it was a queer sort of a wedding. But what had she expected? Grace Church? St. Thomas"? Invitations a fortnight in advance, aisles banked with flowers, filled with sn.o.bs and the garbage of the Wagner score that Ma Tamby had tossed after her? Not by a long shot!
She turned. Paliser was entering. But the gnawing had nibbled away the enchantment and, as she turned, she looked rather cross.
Paliser, noticing that but mistaking the cause, said very sympathetically: "During the Terror, a princess jogged along, smelling a rose. Marriage is no worse than the guillotine, besides being much less summary. Will you come?"
"Less summary? I should say so!" Ca.s.sy retorted. "It is far too lingering."
But she followed him out into another hall, one that was hung with tapestries. They were dim and embroidered with what seemed to be pearls.
On the floor was a rug, dim also, narrow, very long, that extended to a room, lined with high-placed bookcases and set with low-placed lights.
In the room stood a man. He wore a long black coat and a waistcoat that reached to his collar. In his hand was a book.
"Dr. Grantly," said Paliser, who added, "Miss Cara."
Dr. Grantly bowed but without distinction. Because of the position of the lights, his face was obscured and what Ca.s.sy could discern of it she judged young and uninteresting. When Paliser had first mentioned him--and how long ago it seemed!--she had fancied him old. She had fancied too that he would have little side whiskers. The fact that he was young was not a disappointment. Clergymen, whether old or young, did not interest her. She did not care for them, or for churches, or the services in them. The ceremonial of worship seemed to her empty. Creeds professed but not practised seemed to her vain. But she would carry an injured cat for miles. A lost dog was found the moment she spotted it.
She did what good she could, not because it is a duty, but for a superior reason. She liked to do it. One may be a Christian without caring for churches.
"Dearly beloved----"
In the depths over which she had pa.s.sed, excitement and the novelty of it had, until then, supported her. But at that exordium, instantly, they fell away; instantly fear, like a wave, swept over her. Instantly she felt, and the feeling is by no means agreeable, that she was struggling with the intangible in a void. But she had not intended to drown, or no, that was not it, she had not wanted to marry. Aware of the depths, not until then had she known their peril. Until that moment she had not realised their menace. Then abruptly it caught and submerged her.
"I require and charge you both as ye will answer at the dreadful day of judgment----"
The solemnity of the sonorous exhortation was water in her ears. The sound of it reached her confusedly, in a jumble. She was drowning and it was unconsciously, in this condition, that poked by Paliser, she heard herself uttering the consenting words that are so irrevocable and so fluid.
It was over then--or nearly! The thought of it shook her from the mental swoon. Behind her some one spoke and she wondered who it could be. But a movement distracted her. Dr. Grantly had shifted the book from one hand to the other and as absently she followed the movement, she saw that the hand that now held the book was maimed or else malformed.
But what immediately occupied her were other words which, prompted by him, she was automatically repeating. The words are very beautiful, really exalting, they are words that spread peace as dawn spreads upon the sea. Yet, in their delivery, twice Dr. Grantly tripped and, though on each occasion he pulled himself up and went on again without embarra.s.sment, it seemed to Ca.s.sy that he did so without dignity.
The impression, which was but momentary, drifted; another distraction intervened, her finger was being ringed. I"m done for! she despairingly thought.
"Amen!"
"Ouf!" Ca.s.sy gasped. It was really over, over at last, and still a little bewildered, she turned. The butler and the maid were leaving the room, which they must have entered when the ceremony first over-whelmed her. From the hall a slight cackle floated back.
It amused them, she generously reflected.
Paliser did not notice. He was addressing the clergyman. "Thank you very much, doctor." He turned to his bride. "Cutting your head off may have been worse, don"t you think?"
If I can"t be gay at least I should appear so, she told herself and desperately she laughed.
Meanwhile the man of G.o.d, relapsing into the man of the world, or of its neighbourhood, did not seem to know what to do with himself. He dropped the book, picked it up, put it on the table. Considerately, in his Oxford voice, Paliser instructed him.
"You must be going? Ah, well, I appreciate. Let me thank you again."
Dr. Grantly mumbled something, smiled at the bride, smiled at the happy man or, more exactly, he smiled at an envelope which the happy man was giving him and which, Ca.s.sy divined, contained his fee. How much? she wondered. However much or little, it was excessive.
The hall took him and the groom grappled with the bride, embracing her with that rudimentary paranoia which lawful pa.s.sion comports.
She struggled free and, a bit breathless, but with the same desperate gaiety, exclaimed: "If this is matrimony, give me war!"
"Perhaps you would prefer dinner first," Paliser, with recovered calm, replied.
Wouldn"t she, though! Now that she was definitely dished, hunger again bit at her and she accompanied Paliser through the dim hall, through the music-room, through the long suite, into the dining-room where, as before, three men, with white sensual faces, stood waiting.
Paliser motioned. "Mrs. Paliser will sit there. Move the other chair here." He drew a seat for her and gave additional instructions. "There will be people here to-morrow. If we are motoring, have them wait."
"What people?" asked Ca.s.sy, before whom an uncomfortable vision of her father and Ma Tamby jumped.
Paliser replied in French. "A man and a woman or two from Fifth Avenue."
I wonder where that bundle is, thought Ca.s.sy who said: "A man? What man?"
"Oh, just a clerk. That is almond soup. Do you care for it?" He looked down at his plate which appeared to engross him.
Ca.s.sy raised her spoon. "A penny for your thoughts."
He looked up. "They are worth far more. I was thinking of the night I first met you."
Ca.s.sy laughed. "And Ma Tamby"s ham and eggs?"
Paliser, raising his own spoon, added: "It was Lennox who introduced us.
You knew he was engaged to Miss Austen? Well, she has broken it."
Ca.s.sy must have swallowed the soup the wrong way. She coughed, lifted her napkin and saw a road, long, dark, infinitely fatiguing on which she was lost. But the soup adjusted itself, the road turned to the right.
Lennox had never so much as said boo! In anger at herself she rubbed her mouth hard and put the napkin down.
Paliser, who had been tasting and sniffing at a gla.s.s, looked at the butler. "What is this? Take it away. It is not fit for a convict." He looked over at Ca.s.sy. "I am sorry."
"One gets so bored with good wine," said Ca.s.sy, who recently had been reading Disraeli. Yet she said it absently, the unscrambled eggs about her.
But the saying was new to Paliser, to whom few things were. He relished it accordingly and the more particularly because of its fine flavour of high-bred insolence.
From where he sat, he eyed her. Although she was eating, which is never a very engaging occupation, her face had an air that was n.o.ble and reserved. At the moment, a scruple in which there was a doubt, presented itself. In view of the coming draft act, it occurred to him that he might have gone the wrong way about it. But the scruple concerned merely the expediency of the adventure. It was not related to his conscience.
He had none.
Now, though, a new decanter was before him; he tried it, drank of it, judged it decent and drank again. Being decent, it was not heady. It did not affect him. Ca.s.sy had done that. In her was a bouquet which the vineyard of youth and beauty alone produces. He had hankered for it.
Now, like the decanter, it was before him. He could drink his fill. Then like the other wine, he could send it away.
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