I.
In a large room overlooking St. James"s Square a man sat writing. In the shaded light his face showed haggard, and his eyes gleamed with the brilliancy of one whose blood is lit with a fever.
The clocks had just struck nine when he paused in his work, and crossing to the French windows, which opened on a little terrace, looked out at the darkened square. The restless music of London"s life played on his tired pulses. He heard the purring of limousines gliding into Pall Mall, and the vibrato of taxi-cabs whipped into action by the piercing blast of club-porters" whistles. The noise of horses" hoofs on the pavement echoed among the roof-tops of the houses, and beneath those outstanding sounds was the quiet staccato of endless pa.s.sing feet, losing itself in the murmur of the November wind as it searched among the dead leaves lying in the little park.
He had remained there only a few minutes, when, as though he had lost too much time already, the writer returned to the table and resumed his pen.
There was a knock at the door, and he looked up with a start. "Come in," he said; and a man-servant entered.
"Will you be wanting anything, Mr. Selwyn?"
"No, Smith."
"You haven"t been out to dinner, sir."
"I am not hungry."
"Better let me make you a cup of tea with some toast, and perhaps boil an egg."
"N--no, thanks, Smith. Well, perhaps you might make some coffee, with a little b.u.t.tered toast, and just leave them here."
"Very good, sir."
Although less than a year had elapsed since Austin Selwyn had first dined at Lady Durwent"s home, experience, which is more cruel than time, had marked him as a decade of ordinary life could not have done.
His mind had been subjected to a burning ordeal since summer, and his drawn features and shadowed eyes showed the signs of inward conflict.
As he had said of himself, all his previous experiences and education were but a novitiate in preparation for the great moment when truth challenged his consciousness and illuminated a path for him to follow.
From an intellectual dilettante, a connoisseur of the many fruits which grace life"s highway, he had become a single-purposed man aflame with burning idealism. From the sources of heredity the spirit of the Netherlands fighting against the yoke of Spain, and the instinct of revolt which lies in every Celtic breast, flowed and mingled with his own newly awakened pa.s.sion for world-freedom.
He had left Roselawn with a formal good-bye taken of the whole family together. He had avoided the eyes of Elise, and she had made no attempt to alter the impersonal nature of the parting. Reaching London, he had been offered these rooms in St. James"s Square by an American, resident in London, whose business compelled him to go to New York for an indefinite period. As Selwyn felt the need for absolute aloofness, he had gladly accepted.
Hardly waiting to unpack his "grips," he at once began his battle of the written word, his crusade against the origin and the fruits of Ignorance as shown by the war.
Always a writer of sure technique and facile vocabulary, he let the intensity of his spirit focus on the subject. He knew that to make his voice heard above the clamour of war his language must have the transcendent quality of inspiration. No composer searching for the _motif_ of a great moving theme ever approached his instrument with deeper emotional artistry than Selwyn brought to bear on the language which was to ring out his message.
He felt that words were potential jewels which, when once the rays of his mind had played upon them, would be lit with the fire of magic.
Words of destiny like blood-hued rubies; words fraught with ominous opal warning; words that glittered with the biting brilliance of diamonds--they were his to link together with thought: he was their master. The necromancy of language was his to conjure with.
Day after day, and into the long hours of the night, he wrote, destroying pages as he read them, refining, changing, rewriting, always striving for results which would show no signs of construction, but only breathe with life. When fatigue sounded its warnings he disregarded them, and spurred himself on with the thought of the thousands dying daily at the front. He saw no one. His former London acquaintances were engrossed in affairs of war, and made no attempt to seek him out. It was his custom to have breakfast and luncheon in his rooms; at dinner-time he would traverse the streets until he found some little-used restaurant, and then, selecting a deserted corner, would eat his meal alone. The walk there and back to his rooms was the only exercise he permitted himself, except occasionally, when, late at night, cramped fingers and bloodshot eyes would no longer obey the lashing of the will, and he would venture out for an hour"s stroll through night-shrouded London.
Prowling about from square to square, through deserted alleys, and by slumbering parks, he would feel the c.u.mulative destinies of the millions of sleeping souls bearing on his consciousness. Solitude in a metropolis, unlike that of the country, which merely lulls or tends to the purifying of thought, intensifies the moods of a man like strong liquor. He who lives alone among millions courts all the mad fancies that his brain is heir to. Insanity, perversion, incoherent idealism, fanaticism--these are the offspring of unnatural detachment from one"s fellows, and in turn give birth to the black moods of revolt against each and every thing that is.
Living as he did in a sort of ecstasy by reason of his suddenly realised world-citizenship, Selwyn"s incipient feeling of G.o.dlikeness developed still further under the spell of isolation. The fact that he trod the realm of thought, while all around him men and women grappled with the problems of war, only accentuated this condition of mind.
He suffered--that was true. He missed the companionship of kindred spirits, and sometimes his memory would play truant, recalling the pleasant glitter of sterling silver and conversational electroplate which accompanied his former London dinner-parties. He did not dare to think of Elise at all. She was the intoxicating climax of his past life. She was the blending of his life"s melodies into a brief, tender nocturne of love that his heart would never hear again.
In place of all that, he had the spiritual vanity of martyrdom. Few voyagers but have felt the exultation of mid-ocean: that desire of the soul to leap the distance to the skies and claim its kinship to the stars. It comes to men on the Canadian prairies; it throbs in one"s blood when the summit of a mountain is reached; it is borne on the wings of the twilight harmonies in a lonely forest.
Unknown to himself, perhaps, that was Selwyn"s compensation. From his hermit"s seclusion in the great metropolis he felt the thrill of one who challenges the G.o.ds.
II.
His man-servant had hardly left the room when the bell in the front hall rang, and Smith reappeared to announce a visitor.
"Who is it?" asked Selwyn.
"A Mr. Watson, sir."
"I wonder if it can be Doug Watson of Cambridge. Bring him right up."
A moment later a young man entered the cosily shaded room, and they met with the hearty hand-clasp and the sincere good-feeling which come when a man who is abroad meets a friend who is a fellow-countryman. The new-comer was younger than Selwyn, and though of lighter complexion and hair, was unmistakably American in appearance. Like the author, he was clean-shaven, but there was more repose in the features. His face was broad, and in the poise of his head and thick neck there was the clear impression of great physical and mental driving-power. Although still a student, the mark of the engineer was strongly stamped on him. He was of the type that spans a great river with a bridge; that glories in the overcoming of obstacles by sheer domination of will.
"Well, Doug," said Selwyn as they drew their chairs up to the fire, "when did you leave Cambridge?"
"Last week," said the other. "I couldn"t stand it any longer with every one gone. I don"t think that one of the bunch I played around with is there now."
"That was a bully week-end I had with you at the university."
"We sure had a good time, didn"t we?"
"But how did you know I was here?"
"Jarvis sent me a note that he and his wife were running hack to New York, and that you were taking his rooms. d.a.m.n fine place, isn"t it?
There"s a woman"s touch all over here. But you"re looking precious seedy."
"I feel all right."
"You don"t look it."
"I have been very busy, Doug."
"Glad to hear it. Putting over a killing in the literature game?"
"The biggest thing yet," said Selwyn, opening a drawer and searching for the cigars. "I am making a sincere attempt to write something which will sway people. Have one of these?"
"Thanks. I guess I"d better smoke one while I have the chance. It might get the sergeant-major"s goat if he found a buck private smoking half-crown cigars."
"You haven"t joined the army?"
"Not yet; but I shall to-morrow. You can do it by graft, old boy. For three weeks I"ve courted a colonel"s daughter so as to get next to the old man, and to-morrow I receive my reward. I am to become a full-fledged Tommy Atkins."
"And the daughter?"
The younger man grinned and cut off the end of his cigar with a pocket-knife. "Can you see the colonel"s daughter "walking out" with a Tommy? My dear Austin, patriotism excuses much, but the social code must be maintained. I"d render that in Latin if I wasn"t so rusty on languages. What are the chances of your coming along with me tomorrow?"
Selwyn reached for an ash-tray and matches.
"America is neutral," he said quietly.