His lips grew firmer, but there was a curious look in his eyes as he turned towards her. "I have work to do here," he said crisply.
"I know--but surely"----
"In London," he said--and there was a suggestion of the fanatic"s ecstasy in his voice--"it is impossible to forget life. I don"t want my mind soothed or lulled. You can always hear the challenge of the human destiny in London. It cries out to you everywhere. It"---- He had held his head erect, and had spoken louder than was his custom; but, checking himself, he made a queer, dramatic gesture with his hands.
The fire of his spirit swept over her. Once more she stood close to him, as she had done so many times in her thoughts. She did not know whether she loved or detested him. She was fascinated--trembling--longing for him to force her to surrender in his arms--knowing that she would hate him if he did. She gave a little cry as Selwyn, almost as if he read her conflicting thoughts, took her arms with his hands once more.
"If we had both been English," he said, and his voice was so parched that it seemed to have been scorched by his spirit, "or if we had met in other times than these, things might have been different. I know what you think of me for the work I am doing, but it would be as impossible for me to give it up as for you to think as I do. We come of two different worlds, you and I. . . . I am sorry we have met to-night. For me, at least, it has reopened old wounds. And it is all so useless."
She made no reply; but as his eyes were lowered to her face, and he saw once more the trembling lips, her unsoiled womanliness, her whole vivid, lonely, gripping charm, a look of suffering crossed his face. He realised the hopelessness of it all, but the admission was like tearing out a thread which had been woven into the whole scheme of his being.
"We both have our work to do," he said wearily, letting his arms drop to his side.
"Good-night."
She answered, but did not give him her hand. With a repet.i.tion of the farewell he left her, and she walked musingly into the room again. She felt a flush of anger at his daring to say their friendship was impossible, when she had not even suggested that it could ever be resumed. His vanity knew no bounds. She was furious at having let him hold her as he did--even more furious with the knowledge that she would not have resisted if he had kissed her.
CHAPTER XVII.
MOONLIGHT.
I.
Two summers came and went, and the little park in St. James"s Square rested once more beneath its covering of autumn leaves.
Selwyn, who was still occupying the rooms of the absent New Yorker, was looking over his morning mail. The thinning of his hair at the temples was more p.r.o.nounced, and here and there was the warning of premature gray. He had lost flesh, but his face had steadied into a set grimness, and his mouth had the firmness of one who had fought a long uphill fight.
Looking through a heavy mail, he extracted a letter from his New York agent:
"_Oct. 2nd, 1916_.
"DEAR MR. SELWYN,--You will be interested to know that the extraordinary sensation caused by your writings in America has resulted in the sale of them to Mr. J. V. Schneider for foreign rights. They have been translated, and will shortly appear in the press of Spain, Norway, Holland, and the various states of South America.
"It would be impossible for me to forward more than a small percentage of the comments of our press on your work, but in my whole literary experience I don"t remember any writer who has caused such a storm of comment on every appearance as you. As you can see by the selection I have made, the papers are by no means entirely favourable. I feel that you should know that you are openly accused of pro-Germanism, of being a conscientious objector, &c., &c.--all of which, of course, means excellent advertis.e.m.e.nt.
"I have had many inquiries as to whether you would care to conduct a lecture-tour. There is a Mr. C. B. Benjamin, who is financially interested in Mr. Schneider"s affairs, and who is willing to pay you almost anything within reason, if you care to state your terms.
"Of course, the most discussed article of all is "The Island of Darkness," in which you accuse Britain of contributing so largely towards bringing about the present war. The German-American organisations and the strong Irish section here were especially jubilant, and every one concedes that it has awakened a great deal of resentment against Britain that had been forgotten since the beginning of the war. Even your detractors admit that "The Island of Darkness"
will live as a literary cla.s.sic.
"Your first ten articles have been made into book form under the t.i.tle _America"s War_, and are selling most satisfactorily. The first edition has gone into 40,000 copies. The attached clipping from the _New York Express_ is fairly typical of the reception given the book by the pro-Entente press.
"Your September statement will go forward to-morrow with cheque covering foreign rights, royalties, &c.--I am, Mr. Selwyn, yours very truly,
S. T. LYONS."
With hardly more than a merely casual interest, Selwyn glanced at the clipping attached to the letter. It was from the editorial page of the _Express_.
"THE MENACE OF SELWYN.
"In 1912 Austin Selwyn was known as a younger member of New York"s writing fraternity. He had done one or two good things and several mediocre ones, but promised to reach the doubtful alt.i.tude of best-sellership without difficulty. To-day Selwyn is the mouthpiece of neutrality. He has preached it in a language that will not permit of indifference. He has succeeded in surrounding his doubtful idealism with a vigour that commands attention, even if not respect. Right in the heart of London he is turning out insidious propaganda which is being seized upon by every neutral American who has his own reasons for wanting us to keep out of war. It would be absurd to say that one man"s writing could in itself sway a great nation, but nevertheless it is a vehicle which is being used to the limit by every pro-German agency in this free land.
"Truly we are a strange people. We have a President who deliberately cuts his political throat with a phrase, "too proud to fight;" but because we think Wilson is a greater man than he himself knows, we sew up the cut and send him back for another term. In the same way, although every red-blooded American has in his heart been at war with Germany since the _Lusitania_, we permit this man Selwyn to go on cocaining the conscience of our people until our flag, which we have loved to honour, is beginning to be a thing of shame. He should be brought back from England and interned here with a few "neutral"
German-Americans. He certainly can write, and perhaps from confinement he might give us a second _De Profundis_. His book, _America"s War_, which is now on the market, is a series of arguments showing that America is at war with the causes of the war. It is a nice conceit.
Our advice is to add the book to your library--but don"t read it for ten years. In that time it will be interesting to see the work of a brilliant mind prost.i.tuted (and in this we are placing the most charitable construction on Mr. Selwyn"s motives) by intellectual perversion."
Without the expression of his face undergoing any change, Selwyn carefully placed the letter on his file, and took from the envelope a number of American press clippings. Choosing them at random, he contented himself with reading the headings:
"Author of "The Island of Darkness" again hits out."
""Britain has thrived on European medievalism," says Austin Selwyn."
"More hot air from the super-Selwyn."
"Selwyn is the spokesman for enlightened America."
"Masterful thinker, masterful writer, is the author of "The Island of Darkness.""
"What does Selwyn receive from Germany?"
"The arch-hypocrite of American letters."
With a shrug of his shoulders he threw them to one side. "A pack of hounds," he muttered, "howling at the moon!"
He leaned back in his chair and pondered over the written word that could leap such s.p.a.ces and carry his message into countries which he had never seen. It was with a deeper emotion than just the author"s pleasure at recognition that he visualised his ancestor leaving Holland for the New World, and the strange trend of events which was resulting in the emigrant"s descendant sending back to the Netherlands his call to higher and world citizenship.
Still ruminating over the power that had become his, he noticed a letter, on the envelope of which was written "On Active Service," and breaking the seal, found that it was from Douglas Watson, written at a British hospital in France. As Selwyn read it the impa.s.siveness of his face gave way to a look of trouble. For the first time in many months there was the quick play of expression about his lips and his eyes that had always differentiated him from those about him.
At the conclusion of the letter he put it down, and crossing to the French windows, leaned against them, while his fingers drummed nervously on the gla.s.s. With a gesture of impatience, as though he resented its having been written at all, he picked up the letter once more, and turning the pages, quickly reached the part which had affected him so:
"They tell me I"m going to lose my arm, and that I"m out of it; but they"re wrong. I"m going back to America just as soon as they will let me, and I"m going to tell them at home what this war is about. And, what"s more, I"m going to tell them what war is. It isn"t great armies moving wonderfully forward "as if on parade," as some of these newspaper fellows tell you. It"s a putrid, rotten business. After Loos dead men and horses rotted for days in the sun. War"s not a thing of glory; it"s rats and vermin and filth and murder. Three weeks ago I killed a German. He hadn"t a chance to get his gun up before I stuck him with my bayonet like a pig. As he fell his helmet rolled off; he was about eighteen, with sort of golden hair, and light, light blue eyes. I"ve been through some h.e.l.l, Austin, but when I saw his face I cried like a kid. To you that"s another argument for our remaining neutral. To me that poor little Fritzie is the very reason America should have been in it from the first. Can"t you see that this Prussian outfit is not only murdering Frenchmen and Russians and Britishers, but is murdering her own men as well? If America had been in the war it would have been over now, and every day she holds back means so many more of the best men in the world dead.
"For the love of Mike, Austin, clear your brains. I have seen your stuff in American papers sent over to me, and it"s vile rot. Tomorrow they"re going to take my left arm from me, but"----
Selwyn crumpled the letter in his hand and hurled it into the fireplace. Plunging his hands into his pockets, he paced the room as he had done that night when Watson had called to tell him he was going to enlist. He was seized with an incoherent fury at it all--the inhumanity of it--the degradation of the whole thing. But through the formless cloud of his thoughts there gleamed the one incessant phrase "about eighteen, with sort of golden hair, and light, light blue eyes."
Why should that groove his consciousness so deeply? He had heard, unmoved, of the death of Malcolm Durwent. A month ago he had read how Captain Fensome, of Lady Durwent"s house-party, had been killed trying to rescue his servant in No Man"s Land. The sight of d.i.c.k Durwent and Johnston Smyth marching away had been only a spur to more intensive writing. Then why should that haltingly worded sentence lie like ice against his heart?