Of Dolores he had heard but once since her marriage. A friend had visited Don Guzman"s estates in Cuba. He was living in great splendor, but bore the character of a hard, cruel, tyrannical master, and an overbearing man. His wife was spoken of as being in very delicate health,--avoiding society and devoting herself to religion.
I would here take occasion to say that it was understood when I went into the family of Don Jose, that I should not in any way interfere with the religious faith of the children, the family being understood to belong to the Roman Catholic Church. There was so little like religion of any kind in the family, that the idea of their belonging to any faith savored something of the ludicrous. In the case of poor Dolores, however, it was different. The earnestness of her nature would always have made any religious form a reality to her. In her case I was glad to remember that the Romish Church, amid many corruptions, preserves all the essential beliefs necessary for our salvation, and that many holy souls have gone to heaven through its doors. I therefore was only careful to direct her princ.i.p.al attention to the more spiritual parts of her own faith, and to dwell on the great themes which all Christian people hold in common.
Many of my persuasion would not have felt free to do this, but my liberty of conscience in this respect was perfect. I have seen that if you break the cup out of which a soul has been used to take the wine of the gospel, you often spill the very wine itself. And after all, these forms are but shadows of which the substance is Christ.
I am free to say, therefore, that the thought that your poor mother was devoting herself earnestly to religion, although after the forms of a church with which I differ, was to me a source of great consolation, because I knew that in that way alone could a soul like hers find peace.
I have never rested from my efforts to obtain more information. A short time before the incident which cast you upon our sh.o.r.e, I conversed with a sea-captain who had returned from Cuba. He stated that there had been an attempt at insurrection among the slaves of Don Guzman, in which a large part of the buildings and out-houses of the estate had been consumed by fire. On subsequent inquiry I learned that Don Guzman had sold his estates and embarked for Boston with his wife and family, and that nothing had subsequently been heard of him.
Thus, my young friend, I have told you all that I know of those singular circ.u.mstances which have cast your lot on our sh.o.r.es. I do not expect at your time of life you will take the same view of this event that I do.
You may possibly--very probably will--consider it a loss not to have been brought up as you might have been in the splendid establishment of Don Guzman, and found yourself heir to wealth and pleasure without labor or exertion. Yet I am quite sure in that case that your value as a human being would have been immeasurably less. I think I have seen in you the elements of pa.s.sions, which luxury and idleness and the too early possession of irresponsible power, might have developed with fatal results. You have simply to reflect whether you would rather be an energetic, intelligent, self-controlled man, capable of guiding the affairs of life and of acquiring its prizes,--or to be the reverse of all this, with its prizes bought for you by the wealth of parents. I hope mature reflection will teach you to regard with grat.i.tude that disposition of the All-Wise, which cast your lot as it has been cast.
Let me ask one thing in closing. I have written for you here many things most painful for me to remember, because I wanted you to love and honor the memory of your mother. I wanted that her memory should have something such a charm for you as it has for me. With me, her image has always stood between me and all other women; but I have never even intimated to a living being that such a pa.s.sage in my history ever occurred,--no, not even to my sister, who is nearer to me than any other earthly creature.
In some respects I am a singular person in my habits, and having once written this, you will pardon me if I observe that it will never be agreeable to me to have the subject named between us. Look upon me always as a friend, who would regard nothing as a hardship by which he might serve the son of one so dear.
I have hesitated whether I ought to add one circ.u.mstance more. I think I will do so, trusting to your good sense not to give it any undue weight.
I have never ceased making inquiries in Cuba, as I found opportunity, in regard to your father"s property, and late investigations have led me to the conclusion that he left a considerable sum of money in the hands of a notary, whose address I have, which, if your ident.i.ty could be proved, would come in course of law to you. I have written an account of all the circ.u.mstances which, in my view, identify you as the son of Don Guzman de Cardona, and had them properly attested in legal form.
This, together with your mother"s picture and the bracelet, I recommend you to take on your next voyage, and to see what may result from the attempt. How considerable the sum may be which will result from this, I cannot say, but as Don Guzman"s fortune was very large, I am in hopes it may prove something worth attention.
At any time you may wish to call, I will have all these things ready for you.
I am, with warm regard, Your sincere friend, THEOPHILUS SEWELL.
When Moses had finished reading this letter, he laid it down on the pebbles beside him, and, leaning back against a rock, looked moodily out to sea. The tide had washed quite up to within a short distance of his feet, completely isolating the little grotto where he sat from all the surrounding scenery, and before him, pa.s.sing and repa.s.sing on the blue bright solitude of the sea, were silent ships, going on their wondrous pathless ways to unknown lands. The letter had stirred all within him that was dreamy and poetic: he felt somehow like a leaf torn from a romance, and blown strangely into the hollow of those rocks. Something too of ambition and pride stirred within him. He had been born an heir of wealth and power, little as they had done for the happiness of his poor mother; and when he thought he might have had these two wild horses which have run away with so many young men, he felt, as young men all do, an impetuous desire for their possession, and he thought as so many do, "Give them to me, and I"ll risk my character,--I"ll risk my happiness."
The letter opened a future before him which was something to speculate upon, even though his reason told him it was uncertain, and he lay there dreamily piling one air-castle on another,--unsubstantial as the great islands of white cloud that sailed through the sky and dropped their shadows in the blue sea.
It was late in the afternoon when he bethought him he must return home, and so climbing from rock to rock he swung himself upward on to the island, and sought the brown cottage. As he pa.s.sed by the open window he caught a glimpse of Mara sewing. He walked softly up to look in without her seeing him. She was sitting with the various articles of his wardrobe around her, quietly and deftly mending his linen, singing soft s.n.a.t.c.hes of an old psalm-tune.
She seemed to have resumed quite naturally that quiet care of him and his, which she had in all the earlier years of their life. He noticed again her little hands,--they seemed a sort of wonder to him. Why had he never seen, when a boy, how pretty they were? And she had such dainty little ways of taking up and putting down things as she measured and clipped; it seemed so pleasant to have her handling his things; it was as if a good fairy were touching them, whose touch brought back peace.
But then, he thought, by and by she will do all this for some one else.
The thought made him angry. He really felt abused in antic.i.p.ation. She was doing all this for him just in sisterly kindness, and likely as not thinking of somebody else whom she loved better all the time. It is astonishing how cool and dignified this consideration made our hero as he faced up to the window. He was, after all, in hopes she might blush, and look agitated at seeing him suddenly; but she did not. The foolish boy did not know the quick wits of a girl, and that all the while that he had supposed himself so sly, and been holding his breath to observe, Mara had been perfectly cognizant of his presence, and had been schooling herself to look as unconscious and natural as possible. So she did,--only saying,--
"Oh, Moses, is that you? Where have you been all day?"
"Oh, I went over to see Parson Sewell, and get my pastoral lecture, you know."
"And did you stay to dinner?"
"No; I came home and went rambling round the rocks, and got into our old cave, and never knew how the time pa.s.sed."
"Why, then you"ve had no dinner, poor boy," said Mara, rising suddenly.
"Come in quick, you must be fed, or you"ll get dangerous and eat somebody."
"No, no, don"t get anything," said Moses, "it"s almost supper-time, and I"m not hungry."
And Moses threw himself into a chair, and began abstractedly snipping a piece of tape with Mara"s very best scissors.
"If you please, sir, don"t demolish that; I was going to stay one of your collars with it," said Mara.
"Oh, hang it, I"m always in mischief among girls" things," said Moses, putting down the scissors and picking up a bit of white wax, which with equal unconsciousness, he began kneading in his hands, while he was dreaming over the strange contents of the morning"s letter.
"I hope Mr. Sewell didn"t say anything to make you look so very gloomy,"
said Mara.
"Mr. Sewell?" said Moses, starting; "no, he didn"t; in fact, I had a pleasant call there; and there was that confounded old sphinx of a Miss Roxy there. Why don"t she die? She must be somewhere near a hundred years old by this time."
"Never thought to ask her why she didn"t die," said Mara; "but I presume she has the best of reasons for living."
"Yes, that"s so," said Moses; "every old toadstool, and burdock, and mullein lives and thrives and lasts; no danger of their dying."
"You seem to be in a charitable frame of mind," said Mara.
"Confound it all! I hate this world. If I could have my own way now,--if I could have just what I wanted, and do just as I please exactly, I might make a pretty good thing of it."
"And pray what would you have?" said Mara.
"Well, in the first place, riches."
"In the first place?"
"Yes, in the first place, I say; for money buys everything else."
"Well, supposing so," said Mara, "for argument"s sake, what would you buy with it?"
"Position in society, respect, consideration,--and I"d have a splendid place, with everything elegant. I have ideas enough, only give me the means. And then I"d have a wife, of course."
"And how much would you pay for her?" said Mara, looking quite cool.
"I"d buy her with all the rest,--a girl that wouldn"t look at _me_ as I am,--would take me for all the rest, you know,--that"s the way of the world."
"It is, is it?" said Mara. "I don"t understand such matters much."
"Yes; it"s the way with all you girls," said Moses; "it"s the way you"ll marry when you do."
"Don"t be so fierce about it. I haven"t done it yet," said Mara; "but now, really, I must go and set the supper-table when I have put these things away,"--and Mara gathered an armful of things together, and tripped singing upstairs, and arranged them in the drawer of Moses"s room. "Will his wife like to do all these little things for him as I do?" she thought. "It"s natural I should. I grew up with him, and love him, just as if he were my own brother,--he is all the brother I ever had. I love him more than anything else in the world, and this wife he talks about could do no more."
"She don"t care a pin about me," thought Moses; "it"s only a habit she has got, and her strict notions of duty, that"s all. She is housewifely in her instincts, and seizes all neglected linen and garments as her lawful prey,--she would do it just the same for her grandfather;" and Moses drummed moodily on the window-pane.
CHAPTER XXVIII
A COQUETTE