This explosion was inside his head.
He fell over her.
11.
Sometime Else.
HE AWOKE SLOWLY TO A still and heavy darkness, a darkness that blanketed him, that held him snug within it. He didn"t want to open his eyes, he really didn"t, but finally, slowly, he did, and saw that the darkness was more pervasive than he"d imagined. Nothing but darkness, all around him, and surely that was beyond odd. He felt the weight of it all the way to his soula"solid, heavy. It was hard to breathe. He knew, somehow, that if he didn"t move, he would soon have that darkness inside him. But he didn"t move just yet; he sucked in what air he could.
Something was very strange here.
He rolled over. He"d been lying outside, asleep and alone, and there were no stars overhead, nothing but this thick blackness. He heard a man"s voice, close and coming closer. By all the G.o.ds, an enemy was nearbya"it had to be Mawdoor. Somehow Mawdoor had brought him here and surrounded him with this darkness. But how?
Had he been unconscious, not sleeping? How was that possible? He drew a deep breath. If it was Mawdoor lurking close by, then so be it. Both knew there would someday be a reckoning between them. Would it be now? He called out, his own voice scratchy as a rusted bladea"and that startled hima""Who goes there?"
A man was suddenly standing over him, looking down at him, speaking. He nearly pitched over, he was so startled. By all the ancient G.o.ds, it wasn"t Mawdoor, it was rheumy old Callas in his dirty robe, his scraggly gray beard hanging in tangles to his sunken groin. Wretched-looking old relic.
Not Mawdoor, thank the G.o.ds. He felt appallingly weak, as if his wits were scattered like the stars behind that black, black sky.
Then he remembered, but it was a memory that didn"t make any sense. He remembered that he"d finally found Brecia"s sacred oak forest, had known to his marrow that it was hers. He"d felt it, let the knowledge seep into him, and he"d been more pleased than ever before in his life. He also knew he would search that dark forest until he dropped dead from exhaustion or she somehow managed to smite him down. Aye, he would search until he found her, the d.a.m.ned witch.
And now here was Callas, one of her ancient priests, outside the forest, standing over him. This was interesting indeed.
Why was he lying here on the ground? Had he been somehow caught in a dream, its images woven around him, freezing his brain? It was odd, these residual feelings snaking through him. He felt himself, knew that it was indeed himself, and yeta"and yet, there also seemed to be the shadow of another, close by, nay, even deep inside hima"but no, it was gone. No, no, he was only himself, none other. That sort of thinking was madness. All of it was enough to make a man"s head pound off his neck.
Callas laughed, deep and thick with pleasure, waving his gnarly old stick around.
He c.o.c.ked his eyebrow at the old sot, came up to a sitting position and wrapped his arms around his knees.
"Are you comfortable now, prince? Sitting there on the ground, so alone I can hear your heart beat. So what say you, you d.a.m.nable black wizard who claims to know everything? I saw you lying on your back, helpless as a wingless sparrow. Did some being greater than you dash you down? Was it Mawdoor? You know that Mawdoor lives near. Did he bring you here?"
The prince watched Callas laugh again, louder this time, meanness and triumph heavy and hard in that ancient laugh of his.
Slowly, he unclasped his hands and got to his feet. He shook himself, frowned. No one had bound him, no, nothing like that. He"d simply been lying on the ground on his back. And now he was awake, Callas standing over him. He"d been vulnerable. If Callas weren"t such a gutless coward, he just might have been dead.
Or perhaps he"d fallen asleep and this was a dream spun out of another wizard"s spells and heaped upon his head. Maybe it was one of Mawdoor"s dreams. The prince still felt the echo of another"s presence. But no matter. Mawdoor wasn"t here, old Callas was.
Callas hadn"t carved out his heart, and now the prince wouldn"t allow him to.
"What is this, prince? You won"t claim to strike me down? You"re as silent as that stone beside your left foot."
The prince leaned back against a spear of stone, one of a small circle of stones that soared some eight feet into the air and had probably stood here since just after time started up. He looked insolent and languid, and said, his voice calm and deep as the night darkness surrounding them, "Why would I strike you down, old man? You are nothing to me. You are barely a speck of dirt on the bottom of my foot, a runny blister on the b.u.t.t of an a.s.s."
Callas drew himself up as straight as he could. "I do not like the sound of either of those things. Listen, prince. I am Brecia"s first counsel. You knew of me through your mother"s heart before you were born, you knew me since the moment that small boy wove his first spell. But look at you now. Standing against one of the Divas so you won"t fall overa"ah, you cannot harm me, aye, one of the ghosts just felt it to me. Aye, you"re helpless, just leaning against that d.a.m.ned heathen stone, all alone, your power sucked dead as a hollow reed."
"Have you been drinking too much earth wine, you old buzzard? You think I"m helpless? I could turn you into a red-tongued toadstool like thisa"" The prince snapped his fingers, and Callas jumped a foot off the ground and yelled.
"Be quiet, Callas."
The old man was panting. The prince started to tell him that he preferred him the way he wasa"old and gnarlya"when suddenly he felt something strange hovering just at the edge of his vision. If he turned his head quickly, he knew he would see something, someone. He turned. There was nothing, of course. He nodded. He understood now. That strange something was a leftover dream from the last full moon, when he"d meted out punishment to the wretched mortal cowards who"d sought to kill a witch they"d found, unconscious from her own potion. The prince shook his head, let it go.
He had a witch of his own to find. She"d escaped him, but he"d hunted her down, exactly how he wasn"t certain at this moment, but it didn"t matter. He would worry about all of it later. He knew in his wizard"s bones that Brecia was somewhere in that sacred oak forest, knew she had to bea"it was, after all, her forest.
He continued to ignore Callas. The ancient collection of beard and bones wasn"t panting anymore, nor did he seem at all anxious to open his black-lined mouth.
It occurred to him suddenly that of course Callas was afraid of him. He had every reason to be. The prince was one of the greatest wizards of all time. The old man was an idiot, but he wasn"t stupid.
The prince walked to Callas, towered over him, then stepped closer, nearly to his nose so he could intimidate him even more. Aye, let the old man"s teeth chatter, although he had so few left there wouldn"t be much sound to it.
The prince lightly touched his fingers to Callas"s mouth, skimming the flesh, the beard tickling his fingers. "Did you bring other priests with you, Callas? Are they awaiting your signal to attack me? It doesn"t matter if there are ten, nay, even a hundred ancient graybeards, even a hundred of your ghosts. I will cut off their heads, weave their dirty beards into leads for my dogs. Or I will turn them into black rocks to be pounded by the waves for all time. What do you think, Callas?"
"I think that something is wrong, prince. Just look at you. You pretend to arrogance, yet there is something strange going on here, something I don"t understand. Do you?
"No, prince, don"t threaten me. I mean you no harm. Aye, just look at youa"you look more dangerous than your father looked when he blew the tide into that pitiful town called Londinium that lies toward the east."
"My father is rarely capricious. A mob was stoning an old man, someone accused of witchcraft. He stopped it."
"Why didn"t your father simply smite them all?"
The prince shrugged. "He was trying to keep his temper, and he began blowing out to calm himself. Instead, his breath became a mighty gale, washing the water over all the land."
"Aye, and that old man he saved drowned like the rest of the mob. Like your father, you would rather slice a man into two parts with your sword than simply lock your fingers together and turn him into acrid blue smoke or a tarantula."
The prince stroked his chin. "Hmmm, I haven"t thought of spiders in a long time. Now, you are here alone, are you not, Callas?"
"As you see, prince, as you see."
"Why?"
Callas c.o.c.ked his old head at that question, he frowned, he pulled on his beard, but in the end he just shook his head. "I don"t remember. This is all very strange. Don"t you believe it"s stranger than a ghost who wishes to copulate with a mortal?"
"Aye, everything is pa.s.sing strange." So neither of them knew how he"d gotten here.
The prince said, "I will not kill you. That is not why I am here. This is Brecia"s oak forest, isn"t it?"
"No, it is not. You must leave, prince."
The prince raised a dark eyebrow at him. "Leave? I don"t think so. I will tell you the truth, Callas. I have looked and looked but could never see where Brecia was. She is good at concealment, I admit it. But now I am here, how I don"t exactly know, but this is the very edge of her oak forest. I feel it to the very core of my being. Now I finally realize why you are here, Callas. You are here to guide me into her fortress. The G.o.ds sent you here, just as they sent me. It is time, and Brecia knows it."
His heart began to pound. Soon he would see Brecia. It had been too long since that first time they"d stood beneath a sa.r.s.en stone lintel at the vast sacred stone circle.
"You weave a silly tale. Why would Brecia want to see you, prince? You"re a black wizard. You want to own her, control her."
"Only that?"
"Listen to me, you black prince of Balanth. Brecia is the soul of the body. If she is taken, coerced, controlled, then she will die, then we all die."
"You think that is true, Callas? That this is what I want?"
The old priest snarled like a cornered wolf. "That"s what she thinks. She came to realize that you lied to her, that you were not to be trusted. She found out that after you saw her at the sacred stone circle, after you told her you wanted her above all others, you disappeared and you took that witch from across the sea as your wife."
The prince shrugged. "I did not lie, not really. The fact is, I had no choice but to wed Lillian. I did not even know of it until my parents and the council told me. It was my duty." He paused a moment, felt a quivering of regret in the silent air. "Lillian died birthing my child."
"How is such a thing possible?"
"She was flying at the time. I told her not to, that it was too close to her time, but she must always do the opposite of what I counseled her to do. At least the representatives of the Spanish Karelia agreed to keep to our treaty, since her death was a natural thing and not my fault."
"Did you tell them what you told me? That she disobeyed you?"
"No, I did not."
Callas shook his head. "They would have kept the treaty anyway. They knew what your family could doa"you would commit random acts of wizardry that would explode their innards."
The prince smiled. "Mayhap. But the Spanish Karelia are a powerful lot, not easy to discount. The treaty serves all, keeps all pa.s.sions at a simmer. Now, enough talk, old man. I wish to see Brecia. I will walk with you or I will kill you and go by myself. You may decide."
Suddenly the prince had that sensation againa"someone, something, just to his side, perhaps a bit behind him, just beyond what he could touch and hear and see. He turned quickly, but there was nothing, no one there. Had something happened whilst he was asleep? He controlled the strange feelings, furious with himself for allowing them to overwhelm him for even a moment.
"I will take you, prince, but I don"t wish to. We will see what Brecia decides to do with you."
The prince"s eyebrow shot up. "What she will do with me? Come now, Callas. You"re here to take me to her. Or did you intend to try to kill me whilst I slept?"
The old man shook his head back and forth. No, Callas was more likely to wave his priest"s stick at some poor a.s.s and turn him into a roach or a dung beetle. He looked like all his brethren, thin, hollow-chested, wrapped in a dirty white wool robe tied with a frayed rope that was as old as he was. His sandals were held to his bony feet with thin strips of leather. For as long as the prince could remember, Callas had worn these same clothes, or ones just as dirty. He wondered if when a priest departed the mortal plane, he left his robe for a younger priest. Mayhap this robe was as old as the forest itself.
He said, "You look like those d.a.m.ned hermits who spin out their lives in caves beneath desert cliffs in the Bulgar."
"What is this Bulgar?" Callas said, staring at him. "I know of no place called Bulgar."
"You are so provincial, Callas. The Bulgar is a hard, brutal land from whence come many of the greatest wizards of the world."
"There are hermits in this place? In caves? Why have I never heard of this?"
The prince laughed. "You cannot travel like I can. Forget the Bulgar. Enough. I wish to go now into the forest. I wish to see Brecia."
"She will kill you, prince."
"Let the witch try," the prince said, rubbing his hands together. He felt a burst of pleasure at the thought of actually seeing her face when she beheld him, seeing her seething rage that would surely bubble and boil. He said, "Just smell you, Callas. You are filthier than usual." The prince stepped forward.
Callas raised his hand. In it he held his priest stick, his kesha, at least two feet long, its length signifying to all who knew of such things that he was one of the most learned of the priest seers, having spent more than seventy years of his life in study. It was carved deeply with the symbols of life. Its tip glowed black.
The prince waved at the kesha. "Where did you get that thing?"
"My dead mentor," Callas said. "An ancient priest who became a ghost four or five years ago. It"s mine now, and it will remain mine until I give it to a student upon my own pa.s.sing, and only the G.o.ds know when that will be."
"In fifty years? A hundred?"
Callas just smiled. "You know the worth, the power of the kesha."
The prince nodded. The black tip of the kesha had always seemed to the prince to be like a small candle that simply never went out. It illuminated the darkest night, lighted the deepest pa.s.sages through the oak forest. He"d heard stories of the kesha all his life, knew it had come down from the ancient beings who had built the vast stone circle at the very dawn of time. Now, in the present, wizards used these mighty stonesa"fifty-six of them standing in a rough circle like huge, silent sentinelsa"to go beyond to another place where sights and sounds intermingled and light became lighter still, and all was whole and safe, and there were answers there, perhaps answers to questions no one yet knew to ask. If the prince closed his eyes, he could see the circle of stones, hear the wind blowing through them, hear the low, rhythmic chants of the priests, placating ancient beings they didn"t really understand but knew to be potent.
"What is this game you play with me, prince? You know the power of the kesha, you know that if it touches you, your heart will shrivel in your chest and you will gasp for breath and then you will fall bloodless to the ground."
The prince threw back his head and laughed. "You touch me with that and I will send you to live on an ice floe in the northern seas." The prince crossed his arms over his chest and looked intimidating. He remembered that he had a knife fastened to his wrist, hidden by his long woolen sleeve. The wool was soft against his skin.
Callas didn"t move either himself or his kesha. He said, "You are wearing new woolens. They are far too white. You stand out like a streak of lightning in a black sky."
The prince shrugged. "The wool is soft and clean, something you should consider."
"You don"t look quite right," Callas said. "There is something that is different about you, princea""
In a flash, the prince pulled the knife out of his sleeve, a move so practiced it was merely a blur.
Callas jerked back. He swallowed hard, his eyes on the slender knife.
The prince said, "You"ve always been afraid of me, and that is very wise of you. I can see you more clearly now. The night darkness has thinned a bit." He paused, then shook his head. "It is a strange time we live in." The thick blackness was receding. Now directly overhead was a sickle of moon. The inverted black cup of the G.o.ds was full of stars, shining so fiercely that the prince could see the small scar from a long ago cut on his right ankle.
Callas said, "Aye, you"re right about that."
"At least the darkness isn"t what it was. Now, Callasa""
"I am now the highest priest, prince."
The prince snorted through his laugh. "I hope this means you know the right direction. Let us go, Callas. Take me to Brecia." Just saying her name made him hard. It was an excellent feeling, this instant, overwhelming l.u.s.t he felt just saying her name. Soon he would have her. At last.
Callas stroked his long, dirty beard, plaiting it in his fingers, then smoothing out the plaits. A long-standing habit, the prince knew. "Brecia won"t have you, even though she wants you. She said if you come near here again she would kill you."
The prince gave him an evil grin, filled with white teeth and infinite malice. "I tremble with fear at that threat. Now, let us go, or I will slit your ancient throat. Then I just might turn you into blue smoke and send you back to puff out of one of Brecia"s witch"s pots."
Callas extended his kesha closer, but the prince just laughed and shoved it away with his hand. "Old man, don"t even try any of your dismal magic with me." He smiled, sheathed the knife, and pulled out his narrow, beautifully worked wand, not much longer than his forearm. "Or," he said, grinning now as his fingers caressed the length of the wand, "I will make you itch."
The prince flicked his wand, nothing more, just flicked it in Callas"s direction. The old man leapt back, then yelled. "No, don"t, prince, no! d.a.m.n you, prince, no!"
The prince watched for a moment while Callas tried to scratch all the places on his body that were itching so badly he was nearly dancing with it.
"Make it stop. Please, make it stop!"
"Will you take me to Brecia?"
Callas yelled, "Aye, I will take you to her. Let her destroy you with her magic. She is strong now anda"yaagh, make it stop!"
The prince flicked his wand once again, still smiling. Callas shook himself down, scratched violently at his left knee, then paused, blinked, and looked immensely relieved. "I wish I could do that. Will you teach me? It really is a stupid curse, but it is very effective."
"I will consider teaching you if you take me to Brecia."