"No; I could not know that. How should I, for I did not know you? And I am glad that I didn"t know."
Drake spoke with some earnestness, and Clarice looked at him in surprise.
"It would have made my duty so much harder to do," he explained.
With a little cry of irritation Clarice slipped her foot from the fender and moved from him back to the couch. She had given him the opportunity to escape from his position and he refused to make use of it; he seemed indeed unable to perceive it. However, she clung to it obstinately and repeated it.
"You could not know there was anything between us"; she emphasised the words deliberately. Drake mistook the intention of the emphasis.
"But was there," he exclaimed, "at the time? I didn"t think of that, Miss Le Mesurier--"
"Oh no, no!" she interrupted. "Not at the time." The man was impracticable, and yet his very impracticability aroused in a measure her admiration. "So you would have shot him just the same, had you known?"
"Shot him?" asked Drake almost absently.
"Yes."
"Didn"t I tell you? I beg your pardon. I didn"t shoot him at all. I hanged him."
Clarice was stunned by the words, and the more because of the dull, seemingly callous accent with which they were spoken.
"You hanged him!" she whispered, dropping the words one by one, as though she was striving to weigh them.
"Yes. I have been blamed for it," he replied with no change of voice.
"People said I was damaging the prestige of the white man. The argument bothered me, I confess, but I think they were wrong. I should have damaged that prestige infinitely more if I had punished him secretly or--"
"Oh, don"t!" she cried, with a sharp interruption, and she stared at him with eyes dilating in horror, almost in fear. "You can discuss it like that,--the man I had been engaged to,--you hanged him!"
She ended with a moan of actual pain and covered her face with her hands.
On the instant Drake woke to a full comprehension of all that he had said, and understood something of the humiliation which it meant to her.
Clarice was sitting huddled in her chair, her fingers pressed lightly on her eyes, while now and again a shiver shot through her frame.
"Still I was bound to tell her," Drake thought. He waited for a little, wondering whether she would look up, but she made no movement. An emerald ring upon her finger caught the light and winked at him maliciously, leering at him, he fancied. There was nothing more for him to say, and he quietly went out of the room.
The click of the door-handle roused Clarice. She saw that the room was empty, and, drawing a breath of relief, started out of her chair.
Standing thus she heard Drake"s footsteps descending the stairs, and after a pause the slamming of the hall-door. Then she went to the fireplace and knelt down close to it, warming her hands at the blaze.
"The degradation of it!" she whispered.
CHAPTER VII
Bit by bit she sought to reconstruct the scene, piecing it together out of Drake"s words; but somehow that scene would not be reconstructed. She gradually found herself considering Drake"s words as a light thrown upon the man who spoke them, rather than as the description of an actual incident. The humiliation which she experienced made her shrink with a certain repulsion from her recollections of Gorley and dwell instead upon the contrasting tones in Drake"s voice, the contrasting expressions upon his face when he spoke to her and when he merely narrated his story. In the first instance gentleness had been the dominant characteristic, in the second indifference; and that very indifference, while it repelled her, magnetised her thoughts.
Something indeed of the same process which had caused that appearance of indifference in Drake was now repeating itself in Clarice. Drake was superseding Gorley in her mind. She struggled against the obsession and morbidly strove to picture to herself the actual execution: the black troops ranged in a clearing before the smouldering village, looking up at one figure--Gorley"s--spinning on a rope. But even upon that picture Drake"s face obtruded. She thrust out her hands to keep it off, as though it was living and pressing in upon her; for a moment she tried to conjure up Gorley"s face, but it was blurred--only his form she could see spinning on a rope, and Drake beneath it, his features clear like an intaglio and firm-set with that same sense of duty which had forced him sternly to recount to her the truth that afternoon. She recurred to her recent habit of comparing him with Mallinson. She had a vision of Mallinson, with the same experience to relate,--if that were imaginable--fidgeting through evasions, grasping at any diversion she might throw out for him to play with.
But what if Drake"s frankness, outspoken to the point of cruelty, sprang from an indifference to her? Clarice had seen a good deal of Drake lately. She caught herself almost smiling at the idea, softening at its palpable falsity. In a last effort at resistance she fixed her thoughts on the cruelty, the callousness, in his method of narration, and began to feel herself on solid ground. She was consequently inspired to run over all that he had said, in order to make her footing yet firmer, and at the outset she was brought to a check. Why had she never questioned him upon the matter before? he had asked. Clarice stopped and asked the question of herself. At the beginning of their acquaintance certainly there had always been others by, but afterwards there had been opportunities enough. But by that time, what with her father"s and Mrs. Willoughby"s hostility, she had begun to suspect that Drake was in some way implicated in the mystery. Was it because she was afraid to know it for certain that she had refrained? She recalled her letter to him written last Monday, and how she had crossed out "importance" and subst.i.tuted "interest." Was this knowledge important to her, really important, bearing issues in the future? It could only be important, she realised, if she set great store upon her acquaintanceship with Drake. Drake, in fact, had achieved something of a triumph, though quite unknown to himself, for he had compelled Clarice Le Mesurier to abandon the consideration of his att.i.tude towards her in favour of a search after the state of her feelings towards him.
She was still engaged in the search when the clock struck six, and, rousing herself brusquely, she rang the bell for the lamps to be brought.
At that moment Mrs. Willoughby had just finished telling to Fielding the story which Drake had told to Clarice.
"So that"s what Drake was referring to on Sunday," said Fielding.
"Yes," said Mrs. Willoughby.
"What in the world made you attack him in that way, if you didn"t want Clarice to suspect?"
"The fact was, I was a fool, I suppose. I just put my head down and charged. But what I want your advice upon is this, ought Clarice to be told now--before things go further?"
"No, no!" said Fielding. He saw the curtain descending precipitately upon his comedy before the climax was reached, and he added quite sincerely, "I like Drake. I don"t see why he shouldn"t have a run for her money."
Mrs. Willoughby looked doubtful for a moment, and then she said, "Very well." She hesitated for a second: "I think I like him too."
CHAPTER VIII
This was by no means the last occasion upon which Mrs. Willoughby thought it prudent to take counsel with Fielding concerning the affairs of her friend. Nor was Fielding in any degree backward to respond with his advice. He developed, in fact, an interest in their progress quite disproportionate to his professed att.i.tude of the spectator in the stalls. Mrs. Willoughby lived at Knightsbridge, in a little house, of which the drawing-room overlooked the Park close to the barracks, and he found it very pleasant to sit there of an afternoon and discuss in a cosy duet the future of Clarice.
The subject, besides, had the advantage of inexhaustibility. On the one side Fielding ranged the suitors, or those whom he considered such; on the other the vagaries of the girl. Playing these forces off not merely against each other, but against themselves as well--for, as he pointed out, there was no harmony in the separate camps--he evolved an infinite number of endless complications. There was consequently no end to the discussion, not even when Clarice was argued through the marriage ceremony. For that point Fielding took to represent the one o"clock in the morning of a carnival ball; then the fun really begins, though decent people have to go away.
Mrs. Willoughby was, as ever, staunch in her defence, though a recollection of Clarice"s tearful visit with Conway"s arrival for a climax prompted her now and again to laugh in the midst of it.
"You mistake thoughtlessness for tricks," she said. "Clarice is only a child as yet."
"She has a child"s capacity for emotion, I admit," corrected Fielding, "but a woman"s knowledge of its use. The combination is deplorable."
Fielding inquired about Drake, and was told that he had not been seen lately. "It looks as if he was declining in favour," Mrs.
Willoughby added.
"Not necessarily. The man"s busy--there"s a company coming out."
"A solid one?"
"Likely to be, since Drake handles it. I am thinking of taking shares."
Mrs. Willoughby was surprised. Fielding seemed to her the last man calculated by nature for dabbling in stocks.
"You!" she exclaimed. Fielding nodded a.s.sent.
"Then don"t do it," Mrs. Willoughby flashed out vigorously. "Don"t think of it. Oh, I know those men in the City! Their friends get ruined, and they--well, I mustn"t say anything against them, because my husband was one of them, poor dear,--but they move into larger offices. Mr. Drake has been asking you to join him?"