Mr. Audley took those words for his text on the Sunday, and, not without breaking down more than once, read as much of the comment as there was time for, as the happy-hearted message of the late pastor, for whom indeed there were many tears shed. It seemed to suit with that solemn peace and n.o.bleness that seemed like the "likeness of the Resurrection face," bringing back all the beauty of his countenance as he lay robed in his surplice, with a th.o.r.n.y but bright-fruited cross of holly on his breast, when his children looked their last, ere parting with what remained of that loved and loving father.
Poor little Geraldine spent that worst hour of her life sitting by her mother"s bed. She had been helped by Felix to that Feast which had been spread for the mourners in the church in early morning; but afterwards she was forced to remain at home, while the white-robed choir, the brother clergy of all the neighbourhood, and the greater part of the parish met their pastor for the last time in the church.
There the first part of the service took place; and then--Cherry could just fancy she could hear the dim echo of the Dies Irae, as it was sung on the way to the cemetery. It was a very aching heart, poor child! full of the dull agony of a longing that she knew could never be satisfied again, the intense craving for her father.
She missed him more really than any of them, she had been so much his companion; and she was the more solitary from the absence of Edgar, who had always been her chief partner in her pursuits. His departure had seemed like a defection; and yet she had reproached herself for so feeling it when he had run upstairs, on arriving with Mr.
Underwood, looking paler, more scared and miserable, than any of them; and he was sobbing so much when he took his place in the procession, that Wilmet had made Felix take Alda, that she might support him. None of his mother"s steady reserve and resolute stillness had descended to him, he was all sensibility and nervousness; and Geraldine, though without saying this to herself, felt as if "poor Edgar" might really have been nearly killed by the last few days of sadness, he could bear depression so little. She could hardly have gone through them but for Sister Constance"s kindness, and that rocking process from Felix, which she and he called "being his great baby." And now, when her mother looked up at her, held out a hand, and called her Papa"s dear little Cherry, drawing her to lay her cheek by hers on the pillow, there was much soothing in it, though therewith the little girl felt a painful doubt and longing to know whether her mother knew what was pa.s.sing; and even while perfectly aware that she must not be talked to nor disturbed, was half grieved, half angry, at her dropping off into a slumber, and awakening only upon little Stella"s behalf. Those few words to Geraldine had been the only sign that day of perception of any existence in the world save that of the twins.
So the time went by, and the little bustle of return was heard; Sister Constance came in, kissed Geraldine, and helped her down that she might be with Edgar, who was to return with the cousin, whispering to her by the way that it had been very beautiful. It was a day of bright sunshine, high wind, and scant sparkling feathery stars of snow, that sat for a moment shining in their pure perfectness of regularity on the black, and then vanished. "So like himself," Sister Constance said.
Geraldine found her four elders and the three little boys all together in the dining-room; and while Wilmet anxiously asked after Mother, the others, in a sort of sad elation, told of the crowds present, the number of clergy--Mr. Ryder, too, came home from his holiday on purpose--the sobbing people, and the wreaths of camellias and of holly, that loving hands had made, and laid upon the coffin.
And then the last hymn had been so sweet and beautiful, they all seemed refreshed and comforted except Edgar, who, coming fresh back to the desolation of the house, was in another paroxysm of grief.
"But, Edgar," said Alda timidly, "you like being there, don"t you?"
"As if one could like anything now!"
"Well! but, Eddy dear, you know what I mean. It is not bad being there."
"Not so bad as being at home. Oh!" and a terrible fit of sobbing came on, which made the other children stand round rather appalled; while Felix, hesitating, said,
"It is no good going on in this way, Edgar. Father would say it was not right; and you are upsetting poor little Cherry."
"It is worse for him, because he has been away, said Cherry fondling him.
"Yes," said Edgar between his sobs "It did not seem _so_ there."
"And are they kind?"
"Oh, yes. Marilda let me sit in the school-room, and I had books, and things to copy; such an angel, Cherry, I"ll bring it to you next time--my copy, I mean."
Here there was a summons from the other room for Felix.
"Yes," said Edgar, a good deal reinvigorated by having something to tell; "I suppose they are going to tell him what is settled. Mr.
Underwood wrote to the man at Vale Leston, and he won"t do anything for us; but they are going to try for the Clergy Orphan for one of you two little boys."
"Oh!" there was a great gasp.
"And about me?" asked Alda.
"You are to come when we all go to London--to meet us at the station.
There"s a new governess coming, and you will start both together with her; and I think you"ll beat Marilda, for she knows nothing, and won"t learn."
"I hope she won"t be jealous."
"I don"t think it is in her! She"s very jolly."
"But I can"t go till Mamma is better."
Wilmet felt they were falling into a gossiping kind of way that jarred on her, and was glad of a summons upstairs.
Mr. Thomas Underwood saw Alda before he returned home, told her she was his other daughter, and should join them on their way to London; and he further made arrangements about the christening, contingent, of course, on the mother"s consent, and on the possibility of taking the very small delicate babies to the church. He made very extensive promises of patronage for the future, with a full and open heart, and looked as if he should like to adopt the whole family on the spot.
For the convenience of our readers we subjoin the first page of the family Bible.
Edward Fulbert Underwood married August 1st, 1837--Mary Wilmet Underwood.
Felix Chester . . . born, July 3d, 1838.
Wilmet Ursula ) Alda Mary ). . . " Aug. llth, 1839.
Thomas Edgar. . . . " Oct. 6th, 1840.
Geraldine. . . . . " Oct. 25th, 1841.
Edward Clement . . . " Nov. 23d, 1842.
Fulbert James . . . " Jan. 9th, 1844.
Lancelot Oswald. . . " May 16th, 1846.
Robina Elizabeth . . " Feb. 20th, 1848.
Angela Margaret. . . " Sept.29th, 1851.
Bernard . . . . . " Dec. 1st, 1852.
Stella Eudora ) Theodore Benjamin). . " Jan. 6th, 1854.
CHAPTER V
WORKING FOR BREAD
"Parson"s la.s.s "ant nowt, an" she weant "a nowt when "e"s dead; Mun be a guvness, lad, or summut, an" addle her bread."
TENNYSON.
"Tell, little one," said Mr. Rugg, the doctor, as he found Geraldine on the landing-place outside her mother"s room, and spoke to her in a voice that to her reluctant ears, as well as to those of Sister Constance, who followed him, sounded all the more vulgar because it was low, wheedling, and confidential; "you are always about the house, you know everything--what accident has your mamma met with?"
Cherry"s face grew set.
"She has, then," said the doctor, looking at Sister Constance. "I thought so. Now, be a good child, and tell us all about it."
"I cannot," she said.
"Come, don"t be silly and sulk. No one will punish you: we know it was an accident; out with it."
"My dear," said Sister Constance, "this is a pity. Much may depend on your speaking."
Cherry began to cry very piteously, though still silently.